/ck/ - Food & Cooking

>>10275466
I've done this multiple times. Fled rest her than betray. Nomatterhowdrunk I was, couldn't do it. That why I have no sympathy for people who claim drunkenness as an excuse.
Better to keep the life intact, and realize fantasies are fantasies. And can remain.

>>9489107
Watch shit, write shit, read shit,clean shit, get fucked (which is part of why my partner enables me, I think)
>>9488654
Before I was a drinker I was a huge smoker. As I got older weed effected me differently. You will find a lot of older former stoners who tell you weed justmakes them paranoid. I think having certain responsibilities caused me to have anxiety whenismoke mostofthetime. Instead of chilling and being happy stoned, I am focusing on the stuff that freaks me out. Like some peole smoke to manage pain. But when I have pain and I smoke, I just hyper focus on the pain. Weed just is different for different people. I still love Ganga, but only when I am free of responsibilities.

Summer is killing me. My spouse is off for summer, so taking care of the kids isn't so much harder. I didn't fall into the day drinking trap until they went to stay with my parents for a few days. We had guests, and were prepping for a party, then had the party... I spent two whole days kind of steadily drinking even thought I know day drinking makes me feel shitty.
I am working tomorrow night, and the night after, so since I won't get home till 2 or 3am, that should keep me significantly sober until we leave for our camping trip. I have decided I am not taking hard liquor camping. Beer doesn't entice me until after dark, so I will be fine.
I'm fine, right?
I'm scared of the darkness. My dad died in October last year, and he was all darkness. I don't wanting darkness.