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>How do I live my true weeb-life?
By casting aside the concept of "cringe". Easier said than done, I know, I'm guilty of it myself a lot of times but instead of vocalizing or expressing how cringy I find thing X to be, I just try to re-wire my thoughts. Instead of
>oh god oh no this is awful, who in their right mind would genuinely enjoy this??
I think:
>This thing is clearly not for me, that's fine, I'll just scroll down/close the tab/look away, it doesn't concern or affect me anyway
I don't feel this way often actually, I tend to be a lot more forgiving towards other people than myself because, like you said, it stems from a fear of being judged by others; basically instead of waiting for someone to come in and judge you, you judge yourself, and often too harshly than you deserve.
Again like I said it's easier said than done and it does take conscious effort to set it aside, but just remember that you do deserve to enjoy silly "cringy" things purely for the fact that you find them fun. At the end of the day it's not that deep and you don't really have to prove yourself to anyone, just do things that make you happy, you know?
As for your first feel, I relate to that too; to combat it I just throw on simple comfy coords at home on my days off. I'm still too exhausted to leave the house most of the time, but dolling up for no reason other than the fact I can, does make me feel better. Maybe try it yourself once?