I ..feel things really deeply for someone.
She and I have hardly talked, though I've tried.
Her determination, her fire, everything about her just..glows with a sort of radiance that burned my everything so hard I just want to think about what it's close to someone, getting the chance to be that warm again. I've never just thought about someone in so long and just let out a deep dreamy longing sigh just knowing they exist.
They're currently taken. And me? I'm currently a little overweight. I have a good career, some cosplay skills. I'm..okay looking. But i'll fix that. I'm going to put myself through hell. Whatever it takes to get my body to a point where it's shown off.
I'm learning a song from a game we both like to sing to her because I think she'll be at a Karaoke i'm going to soon. Just for a little bit, I want her to look at me.
Then, when i'm done with eveyrthing i'm putting myself through to become a better person for her, at the end...I'm just going to thank her.
I don't want to be that guy..but I feel like it's inevitable. I don't want to put you in an uncomfortable situation where you have to turn me down, so I'm not going to push too hard at all. I don't want to come out of nowhere and just say "I love you", because you don't know me, and I doubt you ever will.
So i'm going to change everything about me for a chance to get close to you. And i'll get shot down. Oh, I know I would. We're not that close. You're in a relationship...I don't know what that status is, but that doesn't really mean much to me.
I'll fight for the chance to get a few minutes to show you that just the thought of being close to you is enough to change my entire life.
After that moment, i'm not sure what you'll do. You'll probably ignore me, unfriend me, or just wtf at me. I'm not going to press or beg. I'll lower my head, and walk. I'll break.
Then I'll hope from there that someone can feel the same way about me, that I feel for you.
To K, signed J.