I've finally accepted that college isn't the right choice for me (I've been a liberal arts, fine arts, and graphic design major), and really the only job I really enjoyed that I could see myself having a career in was when I was a pharmacy tech about 5 years ago. I never got certified, my job was supposed to pay for it but I got moved to another department (it's a long story. Basically, I worked at a grocery store and while I was one of the best techs another department wanted me as well so the managers of both scheduled me at the same time and the other department won because favoritism). I've worked multiple other jobs since then, and right now I work two jobs as a delivery driver and as a cashier at a different grocery store. Now, the grocery store I work at has a pharmacy, but seldom has any openings to transfer. My main goal is to get a job at one of the local hospitals (we have a really well-known medical school that owns many hospitals and specialty clinics all over the city), but I feel like I'm unable to do so with my current resume of "I work multiple part time jobs in my early 20's and never graduated, but I counted pills when I was 18!", and while I'm studying to take the PTCB, I need to either have a job or take certification classes to keep it active every two years. I've just been feeling like a failure, and I'm really stressed because I could make a leap and try to apply as a pharmacy cashier at a drug store, but right now with two jobs I'm making a lot of cash and pharmacy cashiers only make minimum wage.
I know it's just a lot of waiting at this point, and I can at least study math formulas and memorize the top 200 drugs in the mean time, but it's really frustrating. At least by the time I finally start my adult job I'll be done with cosplaying, most likely.