It's funny that you mention this, but the thing is that I actually can be very easy to talk to and I have plenty of friends that are women. I just had a miserably bad previous relationship and I'm now more stressed than I probably should be about what women think about me, especially ones that find me attractive.
I'm just so hopelessly intimidated by girls at conventions, and I just don't know if it will ever be something I can get over. I love complimenting girls and talking about how much I like their cosplay, and I can even hold conversations, but it never progresses more than that. Like, I know I'm handsome (I know that sounds really fucked up to say probably, but I was approached by tons of girls in high school that I weren't interested in, so I know I'm cute) but I get so intimidated by girls that I AM interested in that I'll initiate, enjoy the conversation, but then immediately go into full blown panic mode:
>oh man she's cute, but I haven't really gotten her age yet, I need to know this but I don't want to come off as a creep, oh fuck what if she has a boyfriend? I don't know how to fish for that, and I'm having difficulty holding this conversation further, fuck I feel like I'm sweating, I don't want to let out my autism, but she's so cute and I wish I could talk to her about more stuff besides what she's wearing away from every one, oh my fucking god what am I thinking, who am I thinking, I'm not hot shit if I can't even ask her this shit up front fuck fuck fuck
That's sort of what goes through my mind. I know it sounds autistic as fuck, but I'm just so intimidated by women, even though I've been historically complimented as looking good. It's getting better as I lose weight, but I feel like I have too much to worry about now and I feel like I would have had so much more fun at conventions when I was younger.