She is nice, I think it was one of the main reasons I fell so fast and hard for her. The last 3-4 people I'd dated or developed any form of interest in, upon closer inspection, happened to be assholes to some degree or another, so meeting someone actually nice and genuine pretty much blew my mind. Maybe it speaks more about my past relationships than about her as a person, but well, it is what it is.
I've been thinking about it like A LOT (with nothing better to do, heh), and, no matter how I look at it, I just don't see any merit in it. I want something I can't have. I already knew she was unavailable while I was in the process of developing these feelings. I tried to fight them and failed. It's not like I expect anything from her - I don't have any right to do that, and confessing would seem like I'm forcing her to share the responsibility for something that is entirely my problem. She didn't ask for this, at any point, she shouldn't be made to deal with it. It's not like she can do anything to help me, the way things are right now.
Man I'm sorry, that sucks. I mean, if you're down for a poly relationship, it doesn't sound like that's completely off the table, does it?
I know that would never work for me, I'm 100% monogamous, but I know not everyone is like that. If you're so invested in her maybe you could at least consider it, huh?