/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>8224270
This exact story has happened to me before, so I know that feel, anon.
Let it out.
> tfw when you wanted to go to meetup in another city and make a weekend trip out of it
> tfw unexpected expenses come up
> tfw trying to sell some stuff to make it work, but nobody bites.
I've been looking forward to this shit since January. Guess I'll have to stay home and mope.

>>8224270
Are you me?
This recently happened to me (twice in a row). My usual shopping service was away, by the time I found someone, the item was long gone. I was actually disgusted with myself that I was so upset about missing out on a dress but I think I got so excited at the thought of it, missing out seemed like a catastrophe.

>tfw you know you are projecting all problems onto finding these dresses so you can dismiss your feels as petty

>found one of my wishlist dresses
>turns out to be a scammer
>'oh well I'm supposed to be saving money'
>actually so upset that I went and bought a whole bunch of other shit instead
scammers y u exist

>>8224272
But I feel so silly and ashamed, usually I am not that materialistic. I guess there is always a first time.

I know the feel when unexpected expenses come up and you already had some plans. I am sorry for you.

>>8224273
Seems a common problem but I never thought it could happen to me. It feels to me like the world is ending. I need a therapist now.

>>8224274
I'm also in the "you should save your money" boat but the recover my feelings I bought stuff from Y!. Well better than eating chocolate I guess.

You do realize that feels threads aren't allowed on /cgl/ anymore, right? Lately the mods have been deleting them.

>>8224346
>tfw not allowed to feel

>>8224384
>>8224346
Seriously? Are emotions banned now?

>>8224391
They aren't pure and Christian enough

>>8224346
That makes me feel sad

>>8224277
>you should save your money

IKTF so hard

>going to the beach in 3 weeks
>shouldn't be spending anything I don't need to
>buy new salo, get a sweet deal on it, can't pass it up
>don't have anything to match it
>I guess now I need to buy socks, shoes, accessories, etc.
>put in bodyline order
>looking through ebay for cute taobao accessories since it wouldn't be enough to really warrant an order
>$30 more spent already on top of the salo

>>8224346
The only solution is to just keep making them then.

Every single board I've ever been on has feels thread, fuck the mods if they want to get rid of them. It's part of board culture to have feels threads, if the mods are deleting them then we have some pretty shitty mods who don't understand how this works.

>>8224346
No. The only reason they were deleted was because they went to shit with arguments and the last one because it went way off topic discussing why the last thread was deleted.

Always put 'try to keep it /cgl/-related' in the OP, and then stop derailing these threads.

>Girl I know that is always mean to everyone is making her first cosplay
>"Lolita cosplay"
>Progress pictures show shiny black dress with pink ribbon everywhere
>Her last question was "should I get a pink or a purple wig?"
>Can't wait until it's done to post it here

I'm so excited about her failure, part of me wants to tell her she is doing it wrong and direct her to some information, but for the most part I want her to dress like shit and make fun of her.

I just found out that the fabric bunching at the back of my dresses isn't because I'm a shit seamstress (although I am), but because I've got "sway back," and there are adjustments you can make to fix it.

Feels good.

Whatever the mods are doing. It is working. It feels like they are trying to erase the lolita side of cgl. Been so quiet here because of it.

Does /cgl/ have girl mods?

>No cosplay GF
>No Fallout or Halo cosplayers on /cgl/ to give me pointers
>Money to go to some cons but not all the ones I want to
>My hookup for booze got shit from his new gf for selling it to me so he won't sell to me no more
>have to go back to buying from this sketchy alcoholic bum outside the liquor store or a maximum fedora autist who hangs out in the student lounge in my classes
>my motorcycle is gonna need more time in the shop
>mfw

I know I could have it way worse, but it's still bad enough to make me feel kinda shitty

More 4chan related than cgl related

>Yesterday night
>In Kichijōji, Tokyo with host family mum and two other international students
>Queuing for yakitori restaurant
>See Moot walk by randomly
>'...Nah must be a lookalike'
>Look around again later on to see how big queue is behind us, he's in the queue and it definitely looks like it was him

Yea I'm socially awkward so probably for the best I didn't try to say 'hi', what would have I said? He disappeared after that so probably was for the best.

>>8224384
>>8224391
>>8224403
>>8224408
>>8224412
Yeah, let's try to keep all feels 100% /cgl/-related from now on and maybe the mods will change their minds.

I have one:
>be complete noob, but I've been wanting to cosplay for years so I decide I better start now
>decide to cosplay Betty DeVille because I think it's a simple enough cosplay for someone just starting out
>make sweatshirt, it turns out wonderfully, looks like it was factory-made
>completely fuck up the entire thing when I try painting the symbol, even after spending a lot of time making a perfect stencil out of freezer paper

I hate myself right now.

>on waiting list for IP treatment for personality disorders
>kind of want to own the fucking ward and work harder to recover than anyone
>also kind of want to be the sickest person in there
>can't decide

/cgl/ related:
>mfw finally having found my ultimate dream style that's beautiful ánd twenty times as cheap as lolita

>>8224587
Kek, Gull interrupted

>>8224578
This is my fear in both art and cosplay. I drew some line work that I really liked the other day, and then I painted it and everything kept on getting screwed up.

>bf's ex got dumped
>now we have to hang out with her at the next con because she has no other friends to hang out with
>he's trying to set her up with another friend of his
>so it'll be a whole weekend of him talking about how great she is
I know the point is to make his friend want her, but I really don't want to hear it. I might ditch to hang out with some other friends, but then I'll feel worse because I won't know what's happening.

On a brighter note:
>splurge on a few metres of the nice $20/m cotton sateen
>so smooth and warm and cooperative and doesn't fray
God I've been sewing satin. chiffon and tulle all week (different cosplay, sparkly OTT idol dress), this sateen is so, so easy to work with. Worth every penny. I just want to keep touching it. It's a dream after trying to keep the fucking tulle and chiffon from slipping everywhere and clipping the fraying satin.

>come down with a mysterious illness that has me itching and tearing up my skin 24/7
>not able to sleep because feels like poison ivy on a sunburn
>went on for a month because I was a fucking moron and kept thinking it would go away
>didn't want to go to the doc and have them think I was a hypochondriac
>scabbed up and fucked up my skin
>right after I bought a bunch of skirts for my wardrobe
>can't sew because my hands started oozing and bleeding, so I can't complete my commission stuff and had to take multiple days off, so I'm behind on that
>car breaks down
>now looking for a new car because old car is royally fucked
>can't go to the meetups I wanted to attend out of town
>husband loses job
>now no health insurance

When it rains it pours.

Luckily, I went to a clinic the day before he got fired and got a boatload of meds that will have me better in about 2 weeks [hopefully].
So yay for that.

Gotta work through the pain. I'm super behind on commissions right now because of this.

>tfw get FB friended out of the blue by the director of something you cosplayed recently who is coincidentally the director of your favorite nostalgia anime of all time, or a very dedicated troll account of the same director

>Big spring lolita meet in April is posted on facebook community page in February
>See a beautiful dress from Dear Celine I want to wear for it.
>Buy dress in early March.
> April now and dress still hasn't arrive to SS.
>*cries*

I really wanted to wear that dress to this meet.

>win 80€ giftcard for a big retail store a few months back
>buy for about 50€ of Christmas gifts, then kinda forget about it
>one day, remember I have, buy a book
>"let's not spend too much, I don't have a lot of money left on it"
>pay for my book
>cashier : "okay, you have 153€ left on your card"
>wait what
>ask cashier to swipe the card once more, she confirms amount. Still no idea what happened
>mfw I remember you can buy passes for my country's biggest con at that store
>mfw I got a 4 days pass and still have plenty left

>canceled trip to shitty con this year
>is okay bc we didn't want to go since we don't really like them
>we already decided no more cons again
>wtf do I do with this tracksuit nonon cosplay

>>8224655
Jesus, anon. Hope everything gets better.. Also that sounded like hives, worst month I ever had. Get some antihistamines next time you ever have it surface again.

>want to go to Anime Matsuri
>see all my lolita friends are going
>see that Misako Aoki is coming
>never met Misako before
>Meta being one of my favorite brands is making their premiere in the United States
>mfw our family is Jewish
>mfw it's Passover
>we celebrate Jewish holidays
>I never tell any of my lolita friends that I'm Jewish

While my lolita friends eat sweets, I have to eat matzo. :(

>Meet bf at a con a few years ago, he went with his family
>Go back to con with him every year since, get him into cosplay
>Whenever someone slightly brings up us going to the con, he feels the need to go into detail what we're cosplaying even though his normalfag family doesn't know any characters/doesn't care
>I always make our cosplays, ask him to start helping with what he can this year (thrifting things I can use that fit him, helping with decision making/how to make stuff)
>He relies on his dad for everything, his dad hates me
> Have to suffer through his dad's dirty looks for turning his son into a bigger nerd and having him help with our bullshit like taking his son in to try out contacts

His dad's a nerd too, and it's not like I've given him any reason to actually hate me, so I don't know why he does but it makes me uncomfortable as fuck. It's ridiculously embarrassing when he'll go on tangents about who we're doing and what they look like to normalfags.

>>8224846

Ugh. I hate it when someone I know gushes about cosplay to normalfags. They don't care.

>>8224846
>>8224862
>/cgl/
>complaining about normies

>>8224846
His dad will come around soon enough, my dad used to be against cons because he's a normalfag and only goes on what he sees on TV. But one con he saw photos of me with my qt (now ex) gf tagged on Facebook, then later that night we were drunk in my hotel room and he tried calling me and, she answered, when he handed the phone to me he told me he misjudged "those geeky Japanese comic fests"

>tfw you need something commissioned
>tfw when you email person about it
>tfw they email you back and say yes
>tfw you say how happy you are and explain more about commission
>tfw 4 days pass and no email
>tfw when may not get a cosplay because of it
>tfw not good enough to sew
>tfw no one else has open commissions

>>8224862
I know, I just want it to stop but I don't want him to get mad at me for telling him no one cares.
>>8224874
I really don't mind normies, I just wish he'd understand no one fucking cares and he's wasting his breath.
>>8224914
His dad doesn't specifically hate me because of nerdy stuff (his dad was the one who originally brought him, and he likes Doctor Who and Star Trek kinda stuff) he just hates me and turning his son into a cosplayer is giving him more reason to dislike me.

>>8224597
... that's totally what I should tag any future blog posts on the subject with.

>>8224921
Be persistent nigga, worst thing they can say is no

>>8224946
Ive never commissioned before. Dont want them to hate me. D:

>>8224739
I actually went because I had tried antihistamines. creams, aloe, and basically everything else with no relief. I wanted to die.
I also initially thought it was a reaction to a new med I just started taking after breaking out of an anti-med environment, so it scared me even further.

Luckily it seems we have a diagnosis, and everything should be fine!
Also, not scabies, so that's always great.

I'm really really in such a crazy spot right now, but I'm doing my best, and now that my health is getting better.
Still a lot to get through, but I'm trying to stay positive.

Thanks for your kind words, anon.They actually do mean a lot to me.

>new to cosplay
>find a character you'd LOVE to cosplay
>skills nowhere near enough to even attempt it
>forever a pipedream

>>8224956
Come on anon, don't talk like that! Have a little bravery and self respect man, for christs sake you're fucking paying them! That makes you (vis a vis) their boss!

Dream dress get!
>be me, brolita with a seamstress for a mother.
>mom is constantly offering sister handmade dresses while growing up, tomboy sister constantly refuses
>I love women's fashion, but too scared to ask for anything.
>get through college, get into lolita fashion
>come out as a crossdresser
>family tolerates, but disapprove
> later, 1 month to con, order won't be in on time
>"mom.... Please?"
>Terrific bonding experience, she accepts everything as she understands more, we work together when we can
>Dream dress get plus matching purse, parasol, earrings, choker, wrist cuffs, bloomers, and petticoat.
>reconnect with mother after years of mostly ignoring each other.
So many feels. So much win!

>>8224972
I...I guess Ill contact her again. I havent paid anyone yet, so technically Im not a client. A prospective client,yes, but not a legit client yet.

>>8224518
I was about to ask wtf would you not just buy your own alcohol. Then I remember you're probably American and can't until 21 and now I'm sad for you

>tfw not everyone can enjoy getting wankered out clubbing at 18

>be poorfag with bad job
>currently made a big expense so very little money in bank
>decide to sell a dress to make a little more $$
>use paypal mobile for the first time
>accidentally send money instead of an invoice
>send more money than I have in checking + saving combined

I'm freaking the hell out. I get paid tonight at least so I think I can break even, and I have a case open with Paypal that they said over the phone they could have handled asap with the buyer's communication. But it'll still go through Paypal first, which is a 2-3 day transfer wait time...

I'm also really upset that I'm inconveniencing the seller this way.

>be almost 26
>want to wear cute clothes
>some lolita
>some cute jfash
>looks 20
>still feels too old

>>8224962
What is it?

>not scabies
lel, I have a friend who had that

>>8224874
Shh, just let them pretend.

>>8225025
I know man, I've been to a few other countries, and each time I've gone to bars and had a good time, actually me and some of the euros would pick out the American kids because they'd be hopelessly trashed, forbidden fruit complex and such


Sorry for off topic mods

>>8225095
As sure as I am that every one of your internet stories about Americans being stupid (and probably fat and illiterate too) is completely true, hardly fucking anybody actually waits till they're 21 to drink. Most people will try it as teens in highschool, and even if they don't virtually everybodies parents will let them try it at home atleast by 18.

anyone else salty that kotakoti got to do a CM with Kyary?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3GZMCdo8uA

>>8224578
>Betty DeVille
why would anyone cosplay this lol i don't get it
i'd really like to know if people even recognized you

>Going up steps to get more fabric
>Fall
>Catch myself with my right hand
>Got surgery on it three years ago to remove huge cyst
>Cyst constantly growing back small and needs to be drained
>Cyst bursts when I fall and big lump drifts into my hand. Looks like a scarab
>Slowly dissipates during the day and my hand looks like applesauce

Well at least I don't have to pay to get a doctor's appointment to get it drained this year...

>>8225116
She's been on the cover of IW's mook and various lolita/jfash publications as well. Does anyone even care about her career anymore outside of PULL?

>>8225116
no, let her be and stop being jelly
she's cute

>>8225081
Yo, anon... I'm 27 and even though I knew lolita for such a long time it has been only one year since I started wearing it.
Sometime I feel like an old dart, but meh.
>Misako is over 30

>>8225081
>>8225189

I got into lolita right before I turned 26. I just turned 28. I am so glad I got into lolita later in life. I have the money to buy what I want without having to rely on my parents or not being able to afford dresses I want.

>>8225159
>tfw cgl outs itself as a group of blighted individuals covered in cysts.

and you wonder why they want to wear all those clothes...

>>8225159
>Looks like a scarab

Time for The Mummy cosplay.

>>8225159
Poke a tiny hole in the skin over it and cosplay spiderman.

>>8225172
Jelly? shes a nasty bitch. one of the queens of /cgl/

>>8225203
it shall be done

>>8225208
Still successful though.

> looking for fabric at only fabric store in my area
> fabric has to be shiny, end up with satin
> know about its reputation, decide it can't look that bad
> I mean the costume is supposed to look shiny right?
> take a few pics of finished costume
> notice it looks too shiny when I use flash
> oh well, what are the odds that literally every photographer at the con will use flash?
> odds happen
> tfw costume looks awesome irl and looks like shit in con pics

Without flash photography it looks exactly like it's supposed to. It has just the right amount of shininess that way, which makes this all the more frustrating.
My fault for even trying I suppose.

>>8225337
I wanna see

>>8225344
I'd rather not selfpost

>>8224862
Ugh when I was in high school there was this kid in my drama class one year who used to do everything he can to point out that he cosplays. I had mentioned i cosplay around him once and he one day came up to me and said "ill bet were the only cosplayers in this class!!!" Really loudly like it was something special even though his only "cosplay" was a shitty thrifted Dr who. Also another time my teacher was asking everyone what their "dreams" were or whatever for a MLK day thing and he said his dream was to own a cosplay shop. He was awful.

>tfw bought dress from overseas
>the seller didn't pay extra for tracking
>I have no idea where my shit is, only that it's been shipped out, supposedly

>>8224733
Sell it to me.

>>8225484
There was a kid who would always dress is cosplay to my high school. Everyone would make fun of him for it. Also the president of the Anime Club.

He would always defend his outfits with bullshit like 'cosplay is an age old tradition in Japan that stems from kabuki. you guys should try it and respect it.'

>mfw this kid would always only wear a Miroku from Inuyasha cosplay for everything

>>8225572
Anon, are you me? I knew a guy who did almost the exact same shit. Was president of anime club, too.

>>8225572
I had friends still doing that in highschool. Then the jocks would pick on me for being associated. Embarrassing times.

>>8225573
Our president was actually the most normal member out of all of us and the only one that wasn't a socially-impaired fujoshit.

I remember there was this nikkei girl who came in later on that was legit full-blown weaboo. Chii ears, ass-length greasy hair tied in pigtails, year-round pleated miniskirt with striped OTKs, and she carried a digimon plush everywhere she went and legit freaked if you tried to touch it.

>four day weekend
>finally time to get on with my cosplays

>>8225610
Wait what, that wasn't my image...

>>8225573
He wore a miroku outfit?

>>8224822
Same, cept my family's really Catholic, so we're celebrating Easter

I was born with glass bones and paper skin. Every morning I break my legs, and every afternoon I break my arms. At night, I lie awake in agony until my heart attacks put me to sleep.

>tfw no qt lolita gf

>meticulously cuts out $17/yd diagonally-patterned fabric for a bodice
>pins all the pieces together
>wow, all the edges and seam allowances line up gorgeously!!
>I'm pretty bad about following my patterns so neatness is something I've been working on
>closer look at the pinned bodice
>the diagonals line up everywhere except on the front piece
>on the front piece they're going the opposite (but correct) direction
>mfw

I have enough fabric that I can re-cut all the pieces except the front, but. But.

>>8225994
>mfw he probably thinks he can fuck her in it

>>8224979
Awww that is so sweet anon!

>>8225547
Did you ask for tracking?

>>8226047
Yeah that sounds a pain, but I'm sure you can do it! I just finished making a practice dress out of some old curtains my mum left me in her fabric stash when she moved out of state. I'm still altering the pattern so I wanted to see if I could properly match a print with it, and make pleats for the skirt and have it work out ok. The curtains have a floral print with huge flowers and bright colours, really tacky,but I was successful and the pleats looked the way I wanted and the print matched up really well. Now I'm scared I won't be able to do it with the real material I have in mind for the pattern. My mum came round today to visit because it's Easter so I showed her the dress and she laughed as she recognised the material made some Sound of Music jokes and said it looked good. Then she wanted to see all my lolita clothes and tried on all my wigs and got her husband to take photos of her wearing my wigs. It was funny, but now I have to brush them all out. Thankfully she didn't ask to try any of my clothes on.

>>8226067
Fuck no. That would ruin the dress.

>>8226223
I was sent the package number, and told that it was my tracking number, I don't think they knew that it was any different.

>>8226067
>mfw
>no face

>>8225105
I know they drink underage, it's just that they don't get to go to bars that often and drink and club they ways they see in movies unless they either have a fake id or look older than they are

>>8225484
I remember having friends like that in middle school. We were all out of our horrible weeb stages by high school though, and had our power levels well under control.

>Normally go to Hobby Lobby for craft/sketching shit
>decide to go into the sewing department because I want to start making my own cosplays
>There ain't shit.
>Bite the bullet and go to Joann's for the first time.
>It's fuckin paradise
>It's clean and organized
>It has everything that I would ever want, including this fabric that's perfect for a cosplay.
>all of those fucking coupons
>I'm getting butterflies thinking about it

>>8225869

>redoing Tharja now lost weight
>find bra
>adds fabric over it
>looking great
>tries on
>the whole top of the cups are puckered

Least I have six days to fix it but this frustrates me to no end.

>>8226416
Cover it in masking tape, make patterns out of that by making it our of 3 pieces, topstich it into place around the underwire.

>had been using one pair of brand fabric scissors (Fiskars?) from JoAnn for for several years
>stupidly cut floral wire with them once, dented the blade, but kept using the scissors because too cheap to get another pair (like $10 a pair??)
>scissors cut with the effectiveness of a saggy ballsack
>loses scissors
>needs new scissors because cutting with paper scissors is not ....cutting... it
>in a Daiso on a whim
>$2 fabric scissors
>hell, why not
>Daiso fabric scissors cut like a dream
>next time I go back I'm going to buy a spare pair

>>8226461
>tfw no daiso anywhere even remotely near me

>>8225149
>not wanting to cosplay Betty DeVille
Shit, I would too if I there weren't so many other characters I wanted to cosplay first. She's hilarious.

Anyone who grew up during the 90's and watched Rugrats should recognize her. People who cosplay Rugrats are automatically awesome people in my book.

>Go in today to get my partner added to my mobile plan
>"anon, you can upgrade your phone today if you want, I'll give you both a deal"
>jump on it, desperately needed to get rid of my iPhone 4s but didn't want to have to pay full price for an upgrade, my upgrade date isn't til the end of 2015
>$220 for a 64gb 6, plus $6 per month for 12 months
>Get home, immediately download Japanese Love Live
>stare at pic related online
I need this phone more than I need that dress but I still really want it... but the money I was budgeting for the dress just went towards the phone... c'est la vie I guess. I'll see if I can save up before reservations close

>be me
>life looking up because con season and good luck the past week
>be told my aunt just died
>not april fools
>day before easter
>this family is cursed
>cry
>gotta be at work in an hour
>don't want to go
>after to wear makeup to cover sadness

>>8227056
>not calling off because of a death in the family

>>8227080
Thats for tomorrow. We are gathering tomorrow.

Also, not going to be that asshole who calls out an hour before work and then they have to scramble to find somebody to take my place.

>be really mediocre at makeup
>try to improve my skills and work on a new look for upcoming event
>look to qt azn models for inspiration (I'm mixed, finding Western tutorials that work for my eyelids is very difficult so I turn to Japanese ones)
>okay yeah that's super cute gonna try that
>look in mirror
>holy shit I'm ugly that look would never work on me
>try to look for cute makeup examples on girls who aren't models
>only find awkward-looking weebs like pic related
>tfw I'll always look like them
>tfw I'll never be cute

>>8227135
I'm half native and I have this problem with my bottom eyelids for some reason.shit sucks,keep trying though I'm sure it will turn out really beautiful :)

>>8227135
Bruh she's cute, 7/10 would allow to be my cosplay gf

I had a dream the girl stalking me from lolcow was only tsun tsun because she was secretly trying to get me to notice her by being an utter cunt.

Before I went to bed I was thinking about it and since dramu has cooled down I'd narrowed it down to one and at most 3 people samefagging the threads, but lately I've been getting more and more proof that its just one person with mad vendetta over some ancient shit. Makes me wonder if the same person was trying so hard to defame me in the first place, I wasn't even popular. Its been enough time that I'm not even mad about being followed online anymore, but just feel kind of bad that people can still harbor so much hate after years.

>"oh anon... I've been only been following you harrassing you everywhere you go because.. I love you"
>"oh salty-chan, I couldn't be with you, that is not how you get someone you love's attention!"
>"I-I'm sorry anon, I'll make it up to you by being a good citizen"

10/10 woke up laughing about it.


/cgl/ related dreams are weird as fuck

>>8227056
sorry, friend.
i was at work the other week when my mom casually texted me to tell me my aunt died. my head was reeling for the last part of my shift.

>finally get down to goal weight
>still feel ridiculously fat
>really want to start work on new cosplay but don't feel confident about body at all

I think all the dieting and exercising has gone to my head in a very negative way. I'm afraid I may have a body image issue at this point, oh well!

>>8226825
>I'll give you both a deal

Hook, line, and sinker.

>>8227215
both you and me anon

>>8226461
>Buy lovely, high end chiffon for a jsk.
>Start cutting - immediately get a huge, horrible run directly through the centre of all 6 mt. Whole cut ruined.
>Mum had borrowed my fabrkc scissors to cut through metal twist-ties.
>Not just fucking untwisting them.

T-THANKS, OKKASAN.

>>8227642
Jesus, this is why I hide my fabric scissors when not using them. I live with my bf right now and he doesn't really get why he's forbidden from using any of them.

My family was good about not touching them. Both my grandmothers were seamstresses and my paternal grandmother gave my grandfather hell when he used her best scissors to cut their very large dog's very coarse hair.

>>8227135
Truth hurts, not everyone can be cute/beautiful/sexy.

>>8227642
Ugh. I used to have to hide mine from my brother because he'd allow his friends to cut plastic. They felt so bad they all bought me a pair each because it was $20 a pop (no sale time is when they'd use them). Now at least they ask which ones are my dress scissors before just grabbing and using.

>>8227214
I could barely pay attention at work. I got sent home early to be with my family because my supervisor could tell I wasn't exactly all there.

>check out /an/ for the first time
>see lots of posts about what to do with euthanizing pets
>start crying
>crawl into bed and cry
>put hand on cats ashes in box
>vow never to go back to that board
>stay on /cgl/ where everyone is mean and no sadness

> dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety from school and work
> too tired/unmotivated to wear lolita to school now these days
> love my job, hate my pay rate
> barely making enough for necessities from paycheck to paycheck
> trying to get more hours, even trying to get a promotion, all while balancing school at the same time
> stays at home after school and work most of the time
> quickly gaining weight
> no money for gym pass
> hoping everything turns around for me when I eventually quit my job, move to uni, and get a higher-paying job
> ...in August
> tfw

>>8227885
Oh, anon..

First let's have my /cgl/ feels
>tfw I want to cosplay and act like certain characters
>tfw too ugly to be like those characters and would just come off as someone who's autistic
>tfw just stay inside and keep to myself like I should

Now for my personal life bitching

>Been teaching myself how to play the piano for a year now
>I can play some things alright and can play one of my favorite songs
>The song that I just recently learned is beautiful in every way to me, the instruments, the singer, the lyrics
>Suddenly, after listening to the song again, I feel disgusted with myself, I feel like what I play isn't good enough.
>People tell me it's a beautiful song
>I feel like anyone who hears me play this song is cheated out of what is really in the song
>I feel sad and ashamed that I can't give people the same feeling that I have for the original through my rendition.

I don't know, I think I might just have something wrong with me, Depression, Bipolar, etc.. I don't talk to anyone how I feel about this, I don't know what's wrong with me, I feel like I'm just crazy, like I'm some dumb fucking perfectionist that will never be satisfied with themselves. I'm also a bit drunk while I'm writing this, so that may be contributing to this. For anyone interested in the song, it's "Tsubasa Wo Kudasai" from Evangelion 2.22. I'm gonna go to sleep and clear my head.

>>8224722
I know the feel.

>Order skirt back in February.
>Two weeks later, no tracking number yet. Website shows stock gone of my size.
>Contact seller, ask status of my order.
>Get an email, my order wasn't filled. They refunded and offered me a discount on My next order.
>Order SK1 version of skirt, get 30% off discount.
>Another two weeks pass, no tracking number again.

I'm going to email them once I hit the third week. I'm just hoping it's just slow on the distributor/manufacture end.

I just wanted a new skirt as a birthday present to myself.

First let's have my /cgl/ feels
>tfw I want to cosplay and act like certain characters
>tfw too ugly to be like those characters and would just come off as some weirdo-creep
>tfw just stay inside and keep to myself like I should

Now for my personal life bitching

>Been teaching myself how to play the piano for a year now
>I can play some things alright and can play one of my favorite songs
>The song that I just recently learned is beautiful in every way to me, the instruments, the singer, the lyrics
>Suddenly, after listening to the song again, I feel disgusted with myself, I feel like what I play isn't good enough.
>People tell me it's a beautiful song
>I feel like anyone who hears me play this song is cheated out of what is really in the song
>I feel sad and ashamed that I can't give people the same feeling that I have for the original through my rendition.

I don't know, I think I might just have something wrong with me, Depression, Bipolar, etc.. I don't talk to anyone how I feel about this, I don't know what's wrong with me, I feel like I'm just crazy, like I'm some dumb fucking perfectionist that will never be satisfied with themselves. I'm also a bit drunk while I'm writing this, so that may be contributing to this. For anyone interested in the song, it's "Tsubasa Wo Kudasai" from Evangelion 2.22. I'm gonna go to sleep and clear my head.

>>8227215
Did you ever take before pictures of yourself? Putting before/after pictures next to each other is one of the best ways to feel good about invisible progress! Even if you didn't take before pics, you've probably got some old Facebook pictures that you can compare to your current healthier self. Congratulations on getting down to your goal weight; I hope your self-image catches up soon. :)

>Wearing brand out in public
>first time by myself
>someone in their car takes a creepshot of me
>People keep laughing and pointing at me
>People keep honking at me
>feel like crying and I'm exhausted

I love wearing lolita, but whenever i get treated like this I feel so discourage and just want to sell all my brand.

>>8227918
I would proudly walk with you and tell those people to fuck off. I dont wear lolita, but tried it once, and this shit happened to me. Thank gawd my voice can go low enough that they shut up as soon as I sounded like a dude.

Then I got called gay though.

Wound up selling my first lolita coord.

>>8227918
I was on the Powder-puff Cheerleading team and we had about 2 hours before the game to kill, so we walked around downtown. 3 guys dressed in short skirts and tank tops, wearing make-up walking around and acting like they were cheerleaders. We didn't give a fuck, sure some asshole from a bar called us fags, fuck him, he's an asshole.

I had 2 other people with me, but we were all in the same boat, we all looked weird, you just need another person who dresses in lolita with you. Don't stop, keep going.

>>8227911
It's just a bland soppy anime ost. No one is going to get any strong feelings from your elevator music unless they watched the show and somehow got invested in it.

>Con season right ahead
>Have to work on my cosplay and lolita coord! No time!
>Being in hospital
>Can't even work out my fabricorder due to painkillers

I just want to spend my holidays with something I love. When I'm back home I have to stay restfull and then my free time is over.

>trying to lose weight for cosplay
>actually losing weight, everywhere but my chest, where I'm actually self conscious about
>want to wear a tight costume, but too conscious of my man-tits

>>8228055
You need to do a lot more pushups and chest things. Do girl pushups if you have too. Swimming also helps. Especially doing actual swimming like breaststroke.

>>8228066
Building muscle in the chest area won't remove his extra fat there.

>>8228067
Itll compensate for what he can't lose.

>>8224962
Is it pompholyx or a subdermal fungal infection? I somehow managed to get the latter last year that just put a stop to all my lolita plans; hard to dress up when your hands are weeping everywhere. Took 6 months because my derm and I thought it was pompholyx and aggravated the damn thing with steroid creams.
Either way, I hope whatever treatment you're getting stops it soon.
>tfw I can finally enjoy lolita without worrying about the medication


My cgl feels:
>lost a lot of weight
>happy as fuck since I feel so much better and healthier
>but also sad that some of my dresses don't fit anymore
>tfw I don't want to sell planetary dreamer, but probably have to.
>should have gotten a large, or a medium at this rate, if I knew I would lose that many inches that quickly

Maybe I can keep it and just get a seamstress to take it in.

>>8228224
I'm sure a seamstress could at least look for you so you don't have to part with it anon. Good job with the weightloss too! Must be in the air right now. Everyone seems to be in a fitness mood.

My con story
>be me 24
>have only one friend irl
>bring him with me to con
>all day he keep whining about how tired he is
>mfw he had 10 hour of sleep and I have only 5
>complains about me driving, keep telling me I am Asian and I suck at driving, films me while I'm driving then makes fun of me
>complains how I go to the bathroom to often
Went only twice a day
>complains that I eat to much
Even tho I haven't eaten breakfast.
>complains about finding stuff to do but puts no afford into looking for stuff or panels
>tfw I feel like a am dragging a dead negative body around me
>mfw I am to shy and don't have any other friends to go to cons with
>mfw only 4 people in the entire con knew what I was cosplaying


Is there a way to make new friends to go to cons? Maybe I should just quit and become a lonely robot.

>>8228247
Dude sounds like a dick, con people are always super friendly, remember most of them are like you, quiet, awkward and just looking for some new friends. I am 100% positive that if you don't act like some creepy Neckbeard, you WILL make friends. Even if somebody tells you to fuck off, someone else will be kind, just keep trying, even a broken clock is right twice a day

>>8228253
Idk everywhere I look it seems like everyone has they own group of friends. It's akward if I try to approach them.

>>8228266
No it's not, even if someone is in a group of friends it doesn't mean that group isn't dead-ass set on that number of people being allowed in the group, most groups are always looking for one more amigo, and trust me, it's not as awkward as you play it out in your head

I used to have mad social anxiety, but then I just decided "fuck it" and began talking to people with the expectation that I'd be told to fuck off, once I got over the fear of that and accepted it, every person that did let me hang out with them was checked up as a win in my book.

>>8224533
I was impressed but now I'm just disappointed you didn't talk to him.

>>8228247
Anon, your 'friend' sounds like a dead weight who is taking advantage of his lone friend status by treating you badly. It can be awkward going up to groups but for every unfriendly group, there will be 3 more that will be chatty and open, especially if you're alone/in a small group yourself. My group of friends has 'picked up' people who we've seen alone at cons, inviting them to eat or walk around with us, especially if they made the initial effort to talk to us and we've made some great friends out of it/.

>Ex-gf was a real piece of work, abusive, manipulative, lying, telling me I was trash and lucky a girl like me could ever get a partner, let alone someone as ~*~AmAzInG~*~ as her
>Always making me feel like shit about myself, a real emotional manipulator
>Always made me make her costumes for her for conventions because she couldn't sew, but was convinced she was hot shit, and because she flirted her ho ass for weeaboos and betas, her ego was through the roof
>Nothingspecialtho.jpg
>See pic of her today in the cringe thread of a costume she made recently after our breakup years ago, because she's gotten back into cosplaying
>No makeup, eyebags, pizza face, dollar-store yellow contacts, party store wig, flabby bits hanging out the wazoo, skinnyfat
>Still posing like she's God's gift to the world
>Looks like babby's first cosplay
>Smug.jpg

>>8228294
I'm gonna go with the Yoko? I actually went and looked to see if I could pick them out.

>>8225484
Does his name begin with A? Its unlikely but I know someone who sounds suspiciously similar, right down to the thrifted DW cosplay.

>>8228294
Which one was it? Any of the Batman ones? Attack on Frozen?

>>8228247
He sounds like a total asshole. Don't tolerate whiny racist assholes just because you feel you won't be able to make other friends. Go out there and meet new people.

he was my dream guy, anons.
He was literally perfect in every way. He was hilarious and made me smile even when I was sad. I loved it when he talked and ranted and sang stupid songs.

I thought because I wanted it so bad and that I put in so much effort, it would work.

But he lead me on and let me visit him.. he let me fall for him.. let me believe that we had a chance.

And we don't because he lied and he doesn't care about me at all.

>>8228227
Yeah, I just need to find a seamstress that's actually good and I can trust or I can stop being lazy and do it myself.
Thank you! I still have a long way to go, but progress is progress.

>>8228333
Sounds like me with a girl I once knew....

>>8228247
Meet photographers. Straight. Try a female one first. They usually have cosplay buddies and other photographer friends who will surely be your friend. Not just because cosplay, but because a lot of them are just as awkward and it makes everyone easier to be awkward with each other.

I had one photographer friend who I met at a meet and I added him on Facebook because I said I would love to shoot with him again. Got invited over to play videos during a video game hosting thing he was having at his house. A few other cosplayers came and another photographer. Made friends with all of them via Cards Against Humanity. Other photographer friend lives close apparently. Invite him to carpool to JSummit with me.

Meet MORE people and have THEM all on Facebook.

:3 Now I has lots of friends.

>>8228333
This sounds like this girl that was my friend's gf.

She made a tumblr and 90% of it was her bitching about him about how he doesn't spend any time with her, and when he does it's not 'good enough', she's done with him, etc, etc. She basically called him insults that ranted on for paragraphs. This went on for a year.

Then he finally left (the final one, he always left and then came back because she guilts him into it) and she just posts stuff like this like she's the victim:
>But he lead me on and let me visit him.. he let me fall for him.. let me believe that we had a chance.
>And we don't because he lied and he doesn't care about me at all.

MRW we might meet IRL.

>>8226798
Rugrats 4 life<3

>>8226798
That is nowhere near 80s workout outfit enough to be Betty DeVille.

I'm rooming with rando cosplayers next week.

pls don't get hot glue or whatever on my burando ;_;

cgl and personal feels??

>be at a con this weekend to meet up with a girl I've bee talking to and really like
>have some alone time and tell them how I feel
>the feels are mutual, we're dating as of yesterday
>their friends like me and we all got along really well

dreams do come true, cgl..

>Finally invest in some expensive bras last year as I figure I'm done growing at 18
>Don't even get around to wearing some of them
>Suddenly, bras are tight and spilling over despite losing weight
>w-what is this
>Measure self
>Band size is smaller, cup size is bigger
>mfw

>done a huge clearout of my room and got rid of loads of crap
>happened at the same time as general spring-cleaning in the house so it was a good incentive to get rid of a lot of clothes I don't really wear
>now I have the room in my wardrobe to put my lolita stuff back in there (it's in the spare room right now)
>not sure if I want to bring it back if it means my wardrobe will be full to bursting again when I do

>>8224270
>see dream item in rare on CC blog
>contact SS to order it, she can go in 2 days
>takoyakico gets it and doubles the price
It was sitting for weeks on LM, I was waiting for them to lower the price because fuck them.
fuck my life

>>8229086
>figure I'm done growing at 18
Anon what old granny told you that you stop growing at 18? Most people continue to grow into their 20's, and your boobs are liable to change size with any hormonal changes and even with eight loss/gain.

>>8225149
>why would anyone want to cosplay this
get. out.
this isn't even fuckin nostalgia goggles speaking, rugrats is a "meh" show. just get out.

>>8229173
I hadn't really grown since I was 13, have been told I'm done growing.
I just want my smaller than average boobs back.

>friends bail on wondercon last minute
>2 beds just remind me that they flaked
>end up talking to a girl for a good while on night 2
>be stupid and not ask her number
>Don't find her day 3
>Home now full of regret
>Conversation still made my con experience memorable

If you read this just wanted to thank you for being an amazing person. Wish I could have seen your cosplay but I'm sure it'll turn up eventually and the surprise will be that much nicer

>internship out of town this summer
>find some cons in the area that look promising
>all of my con friends will be back home over the summer
>want to ask in the intern facebook group but paranoid they'll all think I'm the weird chinese cartoon girl
>instead decide to meticulously stalk the other interns on facebook to see if there is anyone who might be interested
>realize how fucking creepy this is
>what have I become

I swear there was a time in my life where I wasn't this creepy, but who knows. I just want to have people to go to cons with.

>have giant tub full of all my fabric sitting against the wall, lid off
>it's all jumbled up/not folded because I was frantically looking for something earlier
>see big, nasty black centipede on the ceiling
>ohfuck.jpg
>stand on table and try to swat it with a boot
>it falls into fabric bin, and burrows deep inside

I have the biggest phobia of centipedes like HOLY SHIT WHAT DO I DO?

> wanted a fursuit for a while
> finally sent quote request for one
> both excited and scared for my first convention

I'll show myself the door, /cgl/

>>8229338
Jesus Christ, just ask. Cons aren't as weird or obscure as you think. I never had any problems with explaining what they were because 70-80% of the time, the people in my age group were already familiar with it.

>>8229345
Burn it.

>be me at con 2 days ago
>ask cute lolita girl with purple hair to take pic with me
>the feels when her arms around me, she is super close and comfortable
>mfw to shy to make a conversation
>keep thinking something could have happen like cool new friend or ask her to a date
>fml

>>8229345
You made my day

>>8229345
go to a spacey area with lots of floor space, like your living room and dump your whole bin on the floor
pick stuff up piece by piece and put back into your bin neatly (or how it was before)

you should find the sucker and it will hopefully be dead

>>8229345
Just

Put the lid on it and let it go for a while anon

I hope you didn't need anything out of it.

Or take it outside, dump it in some clean area of grass, carefully pic up each piece and shake it out, fold it and put it in the bin. That way it won't be in your house at all anymore if you find it.

>>8229217
That's what I thought too and then my boobs decided to pop in at 21. Sporting freaking DDs now. I miss my Bs, it was easier to crossplay back then.

I'm too old for lolita.

I've been doing this for ten years now, and these last two years have just been me actually becoming an adult.

I finished grad school last year and now I am settling into my job, I proposed to my girlfriend over the summer, moved into a new house, bought a new car, and lost all of my friends to the monster of life.

My comm is filled to the brim with kids who are so much younger than me too. Last meet I went to I couldn't relate to any of them and I had no idea what the fuck they were talking about.

I'm 27 but I might as well be 80 years old when I'm with them. I guess I can't indulge myself in this fantasy where I'm still a young adult anymore.

>want to cosplay pic related
>physically suited for yachiru
:(

>applying for internships
>one place is interested
>do phone interview, want to go to next step
>yay!.jpg
>get touch base email for next step, asking did I schedule what I need to schedule
>said it is scheduled for Tuesday and an assignment for them will be done by Tuesday
>realize the original email said no more 5 business days
>just went to 6 because Mondays are hellish and this weekend was a lot of school related work

oh fuck. I really hope I didn't just fuck up all my chances because I really like this company fuck fuck.

>>8229439
>tfw 22 and still a flattie
I'm not out of the woods yet, but let's hope it stays this way. It's a million times easier and I wouldn't be able to deal with the leers that come with bigger boobs.
>>8229514
iktf anon, I'm quite young but surrounded by people who are teenagers in my comm and I feel like an old woman. I've just lost the energy to deal with the petty drama, the muh tumblr problems, the whinging, the extreme opinions and views that come with being a teenager.

Related to that, my own feel:
I've deleted every social networking profile I've had except for a very anonymous tumblr where I post art. I just want to disappear and start all over and social networks have lost their charm imo. I have phone apps and so on where I usually join discussions and groups because they're quite low-maintenance, but aside from that I've resigned from my perch in the comm and every public presence I've had.

It feels quite liberating, albeit lonely. I used to thirst for social interaction but lately I've just come to accept it, 4chan every now and then seems enough and I end up making a fool out of myself otherwise anyway. The only trouble is finding a way to keep up with my uni extracurriculars and get the materials now that I don't have a FB group but aside from that nobody knows where I am and what I'm doing nor how I look. It feels amazing.
Only thing I miss are deep conversations with people because lbr, tumblr and 4chan are notoriously bad at debating and my boyfriend only ever talks about video games.
Sorry for the rambling.

>befriend cosplayer on tumblr
>don't realize they are that popular
>develop feels
>cosplayer too beautiful, talented, and cool
>also 4 years younger
>decide to talk less bec feeling creepy
>months later
>cosplayer confesses they had a crush on me
>fuck.jpg
>find out they are now somehow cosplay buddies with ex
>pics of them partying and cosplaying together
>cry and delete all social media

We used to joke about getting married... ah, I miss it. But this person is unapproachable now. They said they looked for me at the last con we both went to, but honestly I ran away when I saw them. We've never spoken in real life... but they have so many cute and talented girls in their life so I dont want to reconnect

>>8229711
everything you have done in this situation is pathetic and illogical as fck.

>>8229714
I didn't actually cry, but I felt like it. We haven't spoken in a year now and havent been "close" for a year and a half. I am pathetic, but they are honestly so out of my league. They also said at the time that they have never liked a girl before, so I don't think they would actually date me.

I am pathetic.

>literally no one wants to hire me
>parents constantly belittling me and calling me worthless
>starting to relapse into my old habits of vomiting whenever I'm upset
>sewing keeps me sane
>it's literally all I care about and can focus on
>I hardly eat, sleep or talk to anyone.
>I just want to make costumes because it's the one thing that isn't going wrong in my life
>parents shaming me for sewing so much

I don't know what to do. I can't think about anything else right now. I don't have enough money to keep up this habit but making something with my own two hands makes me feel less worthless.

>>8229624
Hey bb you can talk to me about anything ;) lol jk

>>8229740
Man your parents sounds like ass holes

>>8229740
Have you considered trying to become a tailor?

>>8229767
They probably are. But because of my aforementioned issues, I'm sick all of the time. Severe acid reflux, ulcers, IBS, the works. So they have good reason for thinking I can't function in society. I probably can't. I can hardly eat without experiencing severe pain. They do love me and worry about me. But they constantly remind me that I can never move out or live on my own because I would die without them taking care of me.

I'm 24 years old. I don't want to be coddled or caged anymore. But I have no options.

>>8229780
You know, for some reason, I haven't. I really want to go into a field related to my studies (I'm a technical writer). But honestly, I might start looking into it. Thank you for the suggestion.

>>8224587
Which style is that?

>>8225081
Lots of Lolitas planning to get old in the frills. There are people who begin when older than you are. There has never been a better time to be an older lolita and it's just going to get better. Jump in if its something you really want to do.

>>8229785
Hey, I am also 24 I have no choice but to live with my mom she doesn't speak English she can't write or read in any languages she can't even write numbers... if I move out on my own my mom would die, and be homeless. I don't want to be caged in either I wanna live on my own, but I cant. Also probably no girl would date me knowing that I will always have my mom around...

>>8229815
Why doesn't your Mum learn English in her spare time, why doesn't she move back to the country she's from otherwise?
I don't get people who sit in a foreign country not attempting to learn the local language. I'm an expat in a non-English speaking country, one with one of the hardest languages in the world as a matter of fact, and most foreigners here still make an attempt to learn it, some even do it along with learning English.
Sign her up for some lessons or online classes if she's busy.
>inb4 too old
there's a 60yo woman in my group and several middle-aged Russian ladies with 4 kids who are doing just fine.

>>8229828
Because she can't even write in her own language. She doesnt even know how to spell or write her name. My mom fucking hunts animals like a warrior to survive from age 1 - 30. Also my mom has been living in 3 different country we have been here in the us only for 10 years. Bear grills ain't shit next to her. My mom woild be more qualified to survive in the wild then a navy seal. I tried it's like teaching science to tarzan.

>>8229847
Jesus Christ what arsehole of the world do you hail from, genuinely curious

>>8229867
Meh learned to accept it, that's just how my life is can't change it, just go with it.

>>8228688
Yoooo. Totally different from that chick. I don't air my dirty laundry like that, first off.

Also, I just spent $500 to go visit my dream guy only to find out after I leave that he's not interested in a relationship with me (after telling me he was)

So basically he just wanted to get laid and was like 'fuck it this chick really likes me I guess I'll put it in'

>>8227642
Ex bf ruined my $60 tailor scissors cutting up weed, I was furious
>B-but anon you keep hiding all your scissors from me so I HAD to use your good ones

>>8229888
What a dick i would never do that to a girl. It's also funny because no girl would be ever interested in me.

>>8229890
Fucking hate pot heads shit
>be me waiting for my friend to drive me to con
>mfw he says he just smoke to high to drive
They are unreliable useless waste

>>8229890
I would be so pissed. Fuck it makes me mad just thinking about it

>>8229891
It was pretty shitty. I'm out a ton of money and now I don't have anyone to go to japan with. Idk. Maybe things will work out or I'm overreacting or something.

>>8229897
You have been to japan?
>mfw have never been to Japan
Well look at the bright side, you got laid.
Some of us have never even kiss a girl/guy.

>>8228024
Tsubasa wo kudasai wasn't invented for EVA, though.

>>8229891
>>8229902
> I'm forever alone, anons! At least you got laid!
Please.

>>8230074
Hater gonna hate, ainers gonna anus

>>8228688
I found my ex used to say her life was a soap opera on tumblr when I wouldn't let her get her way. Like I would let her know her shitty actions would hurt me and all of a sudden she acted like she had been pushed down the rabbit hole.

Girls go for broke on tumblr.

>>8224270
What can you do if someone starts spreading shit about you online?
Normally I'd ignore it but the people in question are going too far and I'm starting to fear for my job.
>inb4 what did you do
Nothing that warrants that, rest assured. Said some nasty shite to a girl after she hit me and she got offended and started a smear campaign.

>>8230122
You can report the pages and such. You can also go to a lawyer and they can send paperwork to make her basically pay up and shut up or go to court over it for slander.

Though it may be difficult since you hit her and can easily counter with assault.

>>8230134
*didnt read correctly. You can go her assault too. Which can make it a long process.

>bitch for months that I don't have the motivation to cosplay
>don't do any work on my cosplay
>con in 4 days
>still not motivated to even fix old costumes

Is this the end for me?

>>8224518
>>No Fallout or Halo cosplayers on /cgl/ to give me pointers
I've done Fallout cosplay, what is it you need to know?

>>8230206
It might be, it might not. I was the same way all this year until a con two weeks ago. I forced myself to make a costume in three days, it turned out great, had a blast, and now I'm excited about cosplaying again. Try to make yourself something simple and fun, and if you can't even enjoy that, it might be time to leave the hobby.

>>8230208
I need help with my NCR ranger helmet, specifically finding a helmet, the mask part is fine, I just need to find a helmet to use, I've looked at several surplus m1's and this French police helmet, but nothing seems to fit the exact shape

Also I need help making a con friendly ranger sequoia

>>8229761
don't worry I wasn't gonna, I've better things to do

>>8229624
My comm's actually really quite old, all the regulars are 24-28. But they're not as settled as someone who was married with a house would be - they're living the 20-something single life with shit jobs and few responsibilites. It's more mature than being around teenagers, but not really adult.

>>8229785
Wow, that really sucks. I have bad acid reflux and some intolerances that mean I throw up 3-4 times a week if I'm not careful, and that's hard enough to manage. A condition like yours sounds nearly impossible.

>in grad school
>constantly swamped mentally and emotionally with work
>only work a dinky, minimum wage job that brings in a whopping $60-80 a week
>corporate retailer
>I'm treated like a juvenile, and they have juvenile tardy/sick day policies
>feel like I'm constantly threatened to pick between this shitty job and school (school wins obv)
>sucks getting bossed by people more idiotic than me who can't even write error-free meeting notes

>need the money though
>need money for lolita, having fun, and living
>parents know I struggle and goad me to ask them to send money
>though I know when I ask they accuse me of spending all of it on lolita so I don't
>I wind up putting a lot of expenses on my credit card
>namely food
>something like $700 on it right now
>thinking of selling a dress for $300 but even that will only put it back to $400 which is still a lot
>plus $200 on paypal credit (not as urgent because no interest or payment due for 6 months)

>noticed there's a position open at county courthouse for substance abuse counselor
>can pay $18-24 an hour
>I almost have my MA so I feel that I can do it
>problem is my major wasn't in social work, psychology, or counseling

Do you guys think I have a shot at the interview? As an undergrad I took a sociology and biology course, and I'm doing trauma studies as a grad student. I've been researching information about what substance abuse counsellors do and I feel like it's pretty straightforward. All I have to do to apply is pay a $15 fee and take a written test about my "methods." Am I underestimating the rigor of this job? Do I have a chance at being hired if I'm not a social worker?
I just want so much to do something worthwhile and be treated like a professional and make a decent living..
>mfw

>>8230385
You do. Your major matters less than you think nowadays, a lot of people get jobs based on experience alone despite having unfitting diplomas.

>>8229815
>>8229847
Your mom sounds hardcore but it's a pain that you can't ever move out. Would it be possible for you to, say, live in apartments next to each other if you really wanted some degree of your own space but could still support her?

Also IKTF about illiterate relatives.
>tfw professor thinks you have an advantage over the other students because your grandma speaks the language we're studying
>she speaks it like a fucking 10-year old with a heavy regional accent and is no help at all
>can just about write but can't spell for shit because she only had elementary education, struggles with basic grammar
>it's kinda sad because her English isn't very good either, but her grasp of her native language is actually worse
>I love her and she always compliments how good I am at the language now but she doesn't know or understand half the vocab words I use
>professor still jokes about how it's unfair that anon has such great opportunities to practice at home

>>8230385
You probably won't get it but it definitely can't hurt to apply.

Although if you're having to put food on your credit card, you should cut back on the lolita purchases. And accept the money from your parents, show them the receipts proving it's going on food if you have to.

>>8230400
Sorry, I should have clarified.
I haven't bought lolita in months.
The last stupid thing I did with my credit card was buy a scalped dress and heabow for $500 in February. I can only "afford" to buy anything lolita related maybe four times a year otherwise no lolita for me typically.

The problem is my interest rate on my credit kills me. I wind up paying more back because the APR is high and I can usually pay back $50-80 max per bill. It's a vicious cycle, but one that could be solved if I were out of school and working full time even if I were only making minimum wage.

I've gotten better about accepting money from my parents but I'm cautious about debting myself to them. Sometimes I think they secretly like feeling that they have financial pull over me.

>>8229099
Spring cleaning fever is obviously in the air! I just got rid of a ton of stuff too, and my room feels so much bigger. I took two full binbags to one of those cash for clothes places that pays by the kilo, ended up only getting like $15 for it but it gives me a little lolita money and saves me the effort of having it cluttering up the house while I try to sell it on eBay. I'm getting the itch to get rid of even more but I'm holding back because I'd have to buy more to replace it. Like for example, I wanna get rid of some jeans because they don't fit perfectly, but they're my last two pairs of blue jeans so if I got rid of them I'd have to spend $30-40 on a new pair, and that's money I'd rather spend on lolita.

It feels like I'm trying to compensate for my expanding lolita wardrobe by minimising my normalfag wardrobe. I only have seven pairs of trousers now, and when I move to a different job with a different uniform I'll have even less (and two skirts I never wear but keep around for occasions where skirts are required).

>>8230406
Yeah...it's tricky when you're financially dependent on parents, because sometimes they still guilt you about it or act like you owe them years later. I was in a difficult position early in college because my abusive dad was using the fact he was giving me money to guilt and control me, but I couldn't afford to live without it as my parents household income was high so I wasn't entitled to any grants. Thankfully the next year him and my mom divorced, with him declared as abusive on the divorce papers, so I started getting grant money and could cut him out of my life.

>>8230353
This, right? Have you thought about making the helmet from scratch? You can make a pretty basic helmet from just foam, worbla and patience.
Gun should be easy enough if you know how to craft, but...
http://cosplaytutorial.com/list.php
Check this out for tutorials on crafting. Some of these are pretty good.

>>8230406
Oh, I remember you from a previous thread, did you post in the shopping addiction thread?

Anyway, I'm in a really similar situation, I have almost 700€ on my credit card and I might have to put more on it, with the interest being really high. It sucks to accept money from your parents, but you gotta do what you gotta do.

>first day of University office work
>coworkers are weird but nice
>boss and I bond over similar likes/philosophies
>best job environment

I don't know how I'll bring myself to say to her that I'm dropping out in a month. Another girl here had already graduated for six months, so I hope she can keep me..

And /cgl/-related:
>warming up to lolita wedding dresses
>probably will buy one and modify to be more bridal/normal

>>8230457
Yeah that was probably me. I was really upset with myself at the time because I had just paid $1500 off my credit and still had something like $400 left to go. Now it's back to $700 again and it's been a doozy trying to pay it off. Ugh.

But I do have stuff to sell. I suppose if I was really in a desperate place I could sell off a good hunk of my popular prints and pocket close to $1.5k in a pinch.

>>8230459
Oh, did you post about getting a job at your university in another thread? I think I saw it.

>>8224270
Lolita snobs who act superior for wearing the fashion make me cringe with secondhand embarrassment. It's seriously deterring me away from the fashion... Like, do you need to post every purchase your mommy's money bought you on your Facebook with captions like "I'm a princess!!!1 I'm a queen!11" ? And is it just me, or are a lot of lolitas extremely unrealistic and oversensitive about every minor social issue imaginable?
The immaturity of so many lolitas is seriously deterring me from this fashion.

>>8229785
Anon, I'm sick all the time too but I've managed to do okay. I'm currently at college with pretty minimal accommodations. I have IBS, random dizziness and near constant lightheadedness, extremely rapid heart rate along with feeling like I'm going to pass out or faint almost every day. I recently got sick from the water while traveling, and didn't notice for two days. I know exactly what it's like to not be able to eat without pain. For a while I couldn't even drink water without having to run to the bathroom after.

You've really just got to push for solutions until something works. I found a pharmaceutical that I can take when my IBS gets really bad and then cycled through herbal remedies until I found something that basically restored me to 75% normal function. That along with herbal tea and watching what I eat allows me to go to class and work on campus.

You may have tried this already, but keep an extensive food diary and identify safe foods. Invest in a hot water bottle for the pain. Something else that really helps is finding people you can talk about this sort of stuff with, whether it's online or in person. I can share the supplements that worked for me if you like.

Other than that, don't give up.

>>8225149
Are you underage? Because you sound underage.

>>8230490
It's okay, we won't miss you.

> tfw no job
> tfw can't afford books for this term

This isn't going to end well I'm afraid.

>>8230559
How is this cgl related?

>>8229439
Anon you replied to, I was a B and now I'm a C I guess.
>I just bought a binder that I was on the verge of not fitting into
>Pray it still fits by con I need it for

>>8230479
I don't know if it was the same post, but I did post something! I hope this job works out but I'll still apply for other jobs I suppose.

>tfw no female cosplay friends
I just want someone to do cute shoujo and lesbian cosplays with /cgl/.

>>8230490
It's not snobby to post your purchases, Anon. We get excited when we get a nice dress, track down a much wanted accessory, finally win that auction.
We add things to our wardrobe albums so we can coord with friends for meets and events.
I'm happy to see my lolita friends get new dresses.

Sounds like you are just on the outside looking in with a bad attitude and a jar of jelly.
Need a spoon?

>>8229891
>>8229902
>I would NEVER treat a girl poorly I'm so above literally everyone else on the planet tips fedora
>too bad I'm forever alone lel snort snort pity me ladies
which is why you're forever alone. Stop saying that and you'll probably get somewhere goddamn I hate when people do that.

>>8230716
>Sounds like you are just on the outside looking in with a bad attitude and a jar of jelly.
>Need a spoon?


>>8230490 's STATUS
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>>8224270
Some girl from /cgl/ came to the Hotline Miami General on /vg/ and flirted with me so I feel like an Alpha mail!!!!!!!

Are you here my future wife?

>>8226299
So? I'd fuck that bitch anyway. A woman's no means "yes I want more" to me.

who wants to be the petite zebra girl to my masculine tiger boy?

>>8230897
Fuck off misogynist.

>>8230880
>>8230890
>>8230897
Man these posts all have a 3-4 minute interval between them. I wonder who's trying to shit up this thread?

>>8230907
IDK, some random troll. Just ignore them.

>>8230903
i-is that a no

>>8230915
>>8230907
>>>/vg/99549819

>>8230733
I don't care, I stay true to myself. Who the fuck would say. I love beating woman's. Nigga you are a retard.

Damn, y'all a bunch of no fun bitches.

Bet you fat as fuck and blog about SocJus on Tumblr too.

>>8230710
Same here. I have, like, one attractive female cosplay friend, and she's only interested in doing bullshit steampunk versions and the like. Ughhh.

>>8230920
Gross, go home /vg/

I'm just gonna leave this thread until the neckbeard troupe filters out.

>>8231100
I'm not a neckbeard though, I posted my pic here >>8230955

>>8231117
> wigs look awful on me
Top kek. Don't dare cosplay my husbando with that attitude.

>>8229345

>>8227918
>tfwiktf
The weird thing is that I while I have terrible days like that, I also have awesome days where I only get compliments and other positive reactions, all in the same outfit. As far as I know I'm not doing anything different, sometimes the world just decides to be nice and other times it decides to be an asshole. I wish I could predict this sort of thing like the weather so I can decide when to wear lolita and when to go undercover as a normalfag.

>Tfw I met one of my biggest fashion insp this weekend and she was super sweet to me.

T-thank you, senpai.

>>8231230
Tosh is that you

>>8231131
>implying you have a husbando

>>8231334
>doesn't know what a husbando is

>>8231346
3DPD whores don't have husbandos

you're just trying to appropriate NEET virgin culture

>>8231349
Aww are you triggered?

>too busy to do the things i enjoy
>see friends making costumes for cons
>see girls from comm posting pics from meets
>mfw

So some time ago my parents found out that my brother has some problems - appareantly with self harm, depression, and maybe some other stuff. No one really knows what's wrong and what he does, but he did seek a therapist on his own and is currently waiting to get an appointment (which might take months).

"Officially" I don't know this as he only told my parents, and I have NO idea how to approach him pretending I don't already know what's wrong. Just a simple "Hey, is everything alright"? I have been avoiding this question for weeks as I feel like he wouldn't talk to me anyway; I feel like I failed as a sister but I really don't know what to do or what to say. I don't even really know what's wrong. All I know is that I feel extremly helpless and like a failure because my brother probably won't tell me anything which makes me feel like I'm not a "safe space" (yeah sorry for tumblr speek) for him.

Sorry for not being cgl related but I simply don't know where else to go. I don't want to talk to my friends about this and family isn't helpful either.

>>8231380
Ask him why he doesn't have a gf

>have BMI of literally 14
>eat two hotdogs because holy shit I'm starving/haven't eaten all day
>mom walks by "wow you ate both of those hotdogs that fast? pig"
>mom what the fuck

Sage for not really being /cgl/ related.

>>8231380
Did you or your friends ever go through something similar? If so, let him know. He may be uncomfortable and embarrassed going to your parents about this stuff, so let him know that you're there for him. Keep it casual, and don't be awkward. Just let him know that you're there for him if he ever wants to talk, needs anything etc. I know my depressed teenage self would have loved to get out of the house more even to just sit in a field or look at the ocean or something.

>>8231433
Tell your mom to fuck off and enjoy your hot dogs.

>>8229890
Wash them with isopropyl alcohol. If they are super sticky you can evaporate off the alcohol in a dish then you get free hash for cleaning

>>8231380
See >>8231412. Anon nailed it. Your brother is probably a NEET permavirgin who is depressed that girls like >>8231365 are appropriating his culture and because of the huge drop in oil prices in the second half of 2014 that undermined the economical strength of Putin's regime in Russia supported by the Melonheads and Khazars of Obonogo, servants of the Ashkenazi's Chosen Tribe of ITZrael who have become the unified rules of Zion; what the heroic Putin fights against, basically him against the world, but then again maybe your brother is just going through his teenage emo phase, Heil Hitler.

I'm so excited. Like over the moon you guys. I've never had the confidence to do anything more then dream about lolita. But recently I joined my local community and seeing everyone has really inspired me. They're all so pretty and they all seem so sweet. I'm really hoping to make friends. Seeing them put together such beautiful coords makes me feel inspired,I don't want to be on the sidelines anymore. I've decided to start saving up for my first coord wish me luck gulls!

>>8231433
The fuck.

>>8231508
This seemed sweet until I realised that the new member we've just had in our comm types like a twelve year old despite being nearly 18 (we've had other members who introduced themselves even more cringing, but they were younger, not grown adults). If that was you, stop it (probably not you since you're typing normally here, but just in case). Either way, I hope you enjoy your lolita life and wish you luck with your coordinate.

>get new liz lisa bag
>find out my entire laptop can fit in it
>god is real

>>8231609
Nope, not me thank goodness.

>>8231600
My mom is black.

>>8231380
Hey anon

One of the biggest things that my sister did to help me get through my depression was telling me that no one was disappointed in me. I hid my depression for about 5 years, because of that fear I was failing my parents etc.

I think sitting down with your bro and perhaps apologizing that you didn't notice the signs etc, and that you'd like to help him on his recovery (coming with him to his appointments etc, discussing his medication), ask him if he wants to go out with lunch, etc. Going out with family is a great way of supporting him :) GL anon

>>8231600
>>8231439

>>8231658
Not me (??? My mom is black though), and she does this literally any time I eat or drink something.

>sees me going through the fridge for fruit
>"I'm about to cook."
>"I haven't eaten all day."
>"your fat ass better eat when I cook"

>getting water
>"what're you doing, fatty?"
>drinking some goddamn water, fuck off

She does this literally every time she sees me eating something, and then she gets pissy when I lose my appetite because I'm tired of her bullshit.

>Get engaged at a convention Saturday
>enjoy a wonderful weekend of perfect lolita coordinates and happy friends.
>It is Monday, just got back
>apparently my sister has 'already bought things for the wedding, because she can!' according to my mom
>JUST LITTLE THINGS THO
>mom, no. NO. Me and my sister have opposite taste please tell her no this is for my future husband and I, stop.
>I like simple elegance and she thinks leopard print is a good thing.
>I have a very small amount of friends on my facebook, close friends, lolita friends and 4 select family members, make a small announcement for my facebook in a funny way.
>Don't really mesh well with most of the extended family or family friends
>sister announces it on her facebook
>all my family and everyone I have ever met now know because she adds everyone
>They are all trying to friend me now
>even people I fucking hate and have not interacted with in 10+ years are trying to friend me, also calling my dad to congratulate him and asking for my contact info and shit
>some of them aggressively, 3 requests on Facebook and messages a day

GO FUCKING AWAY

I understand that everyone wants a party and free booze but this is going to be a small, intimate, booze free gathering, probably a year or two from now, to celebrate the love my future husband and I share.

Kindly stop fishing for invites and suddenly /friendship/ it is not happening

Seriously it has been 3 days, I'm putting my foot down and hopefully this madness will stop.

>>8231658
She's disappointed it wasn't KFC

>>8231875
That is just dreadful. I hope that things calm down soon.

>>8231875
You sound like a tight ass

>>8231900
I am quite the tight ass, and very much an introvert. I leave them alone, why can't they just leave me alone? This is something just for my future husband and I, why the hell are people ALREADY sticking hands in the pot? Planning things before I am even back from my trip? I mean why?

Someone who I have not contacted since middle school just tried to add me and message me. I told my mother about it and this chick just had a huge, disgustingly public, mental break down because "that shy bitch with no friends is getting MARRIED and I DON'T EVEN HAVE A BOYFRIEND"
and now she is trying to be my friend

>>8231891
thank you, give me strength anon.

>>8231926
You don't sound like a tight ass. You have every right to want your special day to be a certain way and for it to be devoid of people who don't actually give a shit about you. Hopefully this all blows over and you can have the small, intimate wedding you want.

>>8231617
underrated post

>>8224432
Can we see a pic of the dress?

>>8231926
I'll send good vibes your way!

>>8231926
Girl, just say screw them all and send out invitations to people you want to come. No invite, no entry, no exceptions. By the time the wedding comes all those extra people who only want a party/free food won't care anymore.

It's your life and your wedding.

>>8231875

Say booze and suddenly everyone is you best friend I feel you anon

I recently got into contact with some people from my dad's side of the family. I haven't heard from them since I was a little girl. Grew up with my mother telling me they were all crooked and stole thousands of dollars over the years after my dad died. My mom emotionally abused me and my sister for years I cut her out of my life years ago. Agree to meet up with uncle out of curiosity.

> meet my uncle like once in a fast food place
> it goes ok but I make it clear I'm not looking for family connection
> constantly get facebook message ever since
> anon you need to call us more
> anon call your aunt
> anon God wants us to be a family
> we love you we miss your father
> your father wants us to be a family anon

I tell this man he's being aggressive and I'm not stable right now. I know it sounds like he's being nice but it's a constant guilt trip. He just pushes and pushes. if this keeps up I'm blocking him.

Our situation is different but I understand what it's like to feel unwanted people pushing themselves on you. Just tell them no its your day if you want to have it butt naked in the forest with a mariachi band that's up to you girl. If you don't want drunk cousin Larry vomiting all over your day then he shouldn't be there just cuz someone else thinks he should.

>>8231875
The feels man. I'm going through something similar. Always remember that your wedding is a day for you and your husband. Do what you want and don't let butthurt fucks stop you. Don't let anyone guilt your or bring your fantastic day down. Good luck and congrats anon.

>>8232068
Are you the one who has a wedding in Japan that's been in planning for like 2 years and now your sister and mother are getting all butthurt about not having parts in it?

>>8232094
Yup

>tfw holding in farts during photoshoots

>>8231926
Fuck that anon, you're not a tight ass for not wanting random people who haven't bothered speaking to you for years trying to crash your wedding.

>>8231658
I was gonna argue that my Mom (who is black) doesn't do this, but I moved out 4 years ago, and looking back, she did this all the time.

>getting some fruit
>"Anon, you're eating AGAIN?"
>Literally haven't eaten anything since breakfast, put fruit back, feel like crap

>>8232099
Just let is out. Everyone farts.

: | Maybe Im just too lazy to care. Ive always been pretty lax with that. Happens when you have only brothers and you're the middle child and a girl.

>>8232456
>tfw 4 brothers and single father, and I'm the youngest
no wonder everyone thinks I'm a lesbian now
>captcha: gaspp

>>8232460
My mom was pretty much stuck with all of us, so she was used to it too. Dad was so into wrestling and sports, so he just farted whenever too.

>tfw only had manners when I went over to grandparent's house
>tfw only had friends who were nerdy boys
>tfw best friend was super tomboy like me
>tfw I was her maid of honor at wedding and I introduced her to her nerd husband
>tfw manners and being a girl really mean jack shit to me because all #worth

>sold some shoes that I don't wear anymore to fund taobao order
>got a message from buyer saying 'omg the shoes are fakes I know because I used to own them refund me'
>messages me again a little while later telling me to reply and let her know I'll refund her
>bitch wtf I was at work calm your tits
>they're also not fakes just because you owned them doesn't mean you're an expert on every version of the shoe made, where even is your evidence they are fakes?
>pissed off now because PayPal will hold my money even longer because of this
>no lolita accessories for upcoming con
ughhhhh

>Never been to Colossalcon. Looks like tons of fun.
>Make plans with friends to go.
>Friends say they'll book the room, get estimate amount for my share, everything seem locked in.
>Time passes, I go away on my honeymoon, holidays occur, not thinking much about the con.
>Message my friends asking what my share of the room was again.
>"Oh sorry anon, we weren't able to book a room. Guess we forgot to tell you."
>I'm furious. The room was supposed to have been booked months ago, I spoken to you many times since then and you couldn't have brought it up then?
>Try asking other friends if I can stay with them that weekend, no one has space.
>All the hotels in the area are booked solid.
>I just wanted to go to colossalcon and have fun hot tubbing with friends. Was that too much to ask?

>Dad abusive alcoholic, randomly upped and left
>Mom pathetic "nurse", got her RN license and has worked at two hospitals insisting the work is "too hard" and people are "too mean".
>Waaaah anon, I'm not that old, I should be able to date guys and go out but I don't because of your "future"
>Now she just lays in bed watching south park all day
>If I ever have anything I want to do/ any emotional issue she tells me to shut up.
>walk in on violin + piano recital at a college the other day.
>It's beautiful. I want to play music, too.
>parents were too busy being irresponsible and beating eachother, meals consisted of potato chips and junk when I was younger, complete neglect.
>no talent in anything to show for, not even good in academics
>tfw I just want to play music
>I just want to be good at something

>>8232692
Anon it's never too late to learn an instrument. I'm sure your college has music students that offer lessons for pretty cheap. I think I used to go to my local college fr lessons like $30/month, two lessons a week.

>>8232667
She sounds like a pain in the ass.

>tfw I only have two days to finish my boot covers, gauntlets, laurels, as well as finish painting and sanding all of my props and to attach my wings onto a harness
>tfw I also have classes
Kill me.

>make cosplay fb page to keep personal account from being tagged publicly and to not annoy normalfag friends with cosplay junk
>barely update it
>suddenly lots of strangers liking it
>mostly older men, some clearly with mental handicaps or who post personal statuses that are hateful rants
>liking everything i post, messaging me
>might just delete the page

How are they even finding it? I never promote anything or use hashtags and am a total nobody. Ugh. I actually liked fb's interface, but I am uncomfortable with random older men following my updates amd giving weird compliments.

>>8231658
>mfw I literally posted this as a joke and it turned out to be not only true but DOUBLE TRUE
>>8231791
>>8232453


KEK

>>8231491

>friend is having hard time with schoolwork
>she's president of the student org we're both in
>other board members MIA
>"anon can you please help me"
>sure okay
>make website
>make flyers for both upcoming events
>"can you make it more colorful"
>we just need to get the point across, but okay
>she's unavailable to help me post them
>next day, she doesn't respond when I ask again
>post them myself
>our advisor says she'll send it out on listserv
>pres then texts me with a poster she just created
>horizontal orientation, cheesy "you're invited" line
>the event is supposed to be taken seriously
>"anon we should use this"

>>8231875
This is my nightmare. My family and old acquaintances from high school are really similar to what you're describing and I'm also an introvert who wants like 10 people at the wedding AT MOST. My boyfriend, who has a tiny close-knit family, wants a big wedding with everyone there but my family is huuuuge and dysfunctional and I hate pretty much everyone but my parents. Just the thought of all the bullshit surrounding weddings makes me want to elope and get it over with.

>>8232053
On the other hand...
>have it butt naked in the forest with a mariachi band

>>8233520
Such is life, anon.

i hate /fa/ so much........ it's like if there was a board dedicated to gourmet food but all people posted was their instant noodle meals...

>Going to a con in June
>Already reg and ready to go
>Only problem is hotel unfortunately
>Usually room with a group of friends
>But there was some drama between me and other two friends over half a year ago
>Haven't seen them since
>Already got over it
>Wondering how hotels are gonna work this year with group
>There is a chat for everyone in the room and I'm not there
>Talk with friend who is in chat and going
>"Don't worry Anon you're invited either way!"
>mfw

>I feel like I'm a decent looking person, but I'm just so unphotogenic and I don't know what to do about it.
>Just got a pics from a photoshoot back and my face looks weird and unflattering in all but two of them.
>The only angle/expression that works for me is looking straight at the camera with a slight bitchface.
>Whenever I try any sort of variety my face just looks terrible.
>No idea if this is all in my head or if I really just look that goofy.
I feel so silly ranting about it on here, but if I did this anywhere else I'd just feel like I was fishing for compliments and I needed to get this off my chest. Anyone have any ideas on how to actually start liking the way I look in photos?

>>8232692
Hey, I'm the drunk guy from above, I learned how to play piano by myself, you can do it.

>>8233341

>kek'd

>>8234117
So /ck/ for fashion like

>>8230923
>I don't care, I stay true to myself.
Anon, there is no true self. Infact, there isn't a self at all.

>>8231100

This post summarizes my "feels." Every time I visit /cgl/ it's a reminder that the cosplay community is 1. overwhelmingly female and 2. pretty hostile towards males.

Back when you were all 9 years old and dressing up as pretty princesses, there were plenty of 9 year old boys dressing up as cowboys - some of us even had real, genuine leather chaps and boots and proper felt cowboy hats, because we begged for them at Christmas time. And we'd still like to play dress-up, but...

> friend circle within cosplay has changed almost entirely in past 3 years
> got involved with seemingly cool people who ended up being greedy, fame hungry, bitchy etc
> eventually they notice I don't have my own FB page or sell prints or otherwise push myself out there
> see them start pulling shady bullshit like replacing me in cosplans, not invite me to bigger cons or even personal shit like birthdays, vaguetweet complaining about me, the fucking works
> try to vent to mutual friends results in them making excuses for it and accuse me of being sandy/overreacting
> get on the nope train out of these friendships
> over 9000 trust issues with newer friends causes me to lash out and start believing I can't be good enough for them
> all this over dressing up like cartoon characters

>>8235199
I think my face is the same way, but if I think about it I look pretty good lol. Just become a narcissistic and you do fine.

>>8235199
>The only angle/expression that works for me is looking straight at the camera with a slight bitchface.
Anon, I feel this. I feel this so hard. People tell me that I'm pretty, and I feel my face looks fine in the mirror, but I just look atrocious in photos. Just stick to the angle that works for you when you can and put a sticker over your face in full body pics.