/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>8121575
>Go out today for first time in cutesy outfit (don't dare to post pic) to join some cutesy lolita/fairykei/... friends and one coming from France
>they begged me to try because they told me how cute i was and how adorable i would look in that and i wanted to please them and try it out for once
>try to make myself pretty in the morning and feels ok-ish for once, putted some concealer and blush to look decent.
>time to go at the train station,everyone stares at me,feels pretty nervous and regrets immediatly. Hold on the presents i got for them like some kind of antistress ball
>mfw when they were already gone and far from there when i arrive and i don't know the place well (not their fault it was just badly organized and stuff so it's understandable)
>some guy groped me and i was petrified from fear and tried to stand for myself but then he laughed and tried to assault me so so i immediatly moved my bum
>in a corner having a panic attack shaking while the subway is coming
>goes home safely to be told by my parents that it was my fault and that i was dressed like a slut and deserved it
>ragequit into my room where i cries all my tears until my head hurts
>put outfit back in the closet with other cutesy stuff i bought and never worn and feel like crap
>goes back to my boy skinny jeans and oversized sweater
>feels terrible
I just wanted to try and be cute and feel cute...just once...

part 2/2

Sorry if my story wasn't clear as english is not my first language and i self taught it to myself a few years ago.

>stupid me not wearing safety gloves and sliced finger and nail at work
>have dealt with work related injury before and not very willing to go to hospital
>fucker stings like a bee; gushing like a fountain
(thank God it's not my dominant hand)
>decide to visit ER (local clinic's closed/packed on Sunday)
>thankfully too minor and shallow to require stitches
>unfortunately, can't do shit about the nail but to let it grow out and trim it over time
>dad checks on me (since I didn't have my insurance card) and later makes me feel bad about how expensive hospitals are

I've got to deal with filing a report tomorrow when my GM is in and do the whole waiting game (hopefully they're not going to try to make me pay like the last time I got stitches). I guess it's fortunate that I don't have to work for the next three days (but I hate missing pay). Call me a wannabe yuropoor, but the mindset of being scared to go to the hospital because of costs - even for something like check-ups and minor injuries kind of fucking blows.

>cgl related because
>rent's guilt tripping
>want to buy lolita to make me feel better
>knows better than to make emotional purchases
>nothing good/I want on sales anyway

I'm curious about how you medical personnel seagulls feel about the Murican privatized system, seeing how you work for them.

>>8121614
no

>I just wanted to try and be cute and feel cute...just once...
>mfw I know a girl just like this

Wow, OP. So do it? Don't project your insecurities onto everyone else. People say you're cute in that clothing, but then you think that they must be lying? You get stared at (in weird clothing) and you have a panic attack? You must wonder what a horde of lolitas must look like when they all simultaneously have a panic attack as well.

You're the kind of self-pityful girl who would have an abusive boyfriend and stay until he kills you.

That creep shouldn't have touched you at all, but don't let that just push you over like a fragile leaf. I'm sorry if I seem harsh, but seriously. You need to develop a skin.

>Girl in comm ranting about a bodyline dress that only comes in one size.
>Claims that no "real woman" could fit it and the measurements. are unrealistic.
>Ignores the fact that only a handful of BL dresses are one size only.
>86cm bust, 70cm waist. Guess I don't exist then.

>>8121627
It already happened i had an abusive gf (fujoshi overweight girl that told me i was her uke and was full yandere jealousy mode and forbid me to have certain color of hair or some clothing because she couldn't and felt bad whne i was wearing it and not her) for nearly two fucking years but thankfully one of my friends helped me out of this hell.

It's just i want to do it but i feel terrible if i do it anon...i have no fucking confidence at all I really try to tell myself that the "lol ur ugly and a fatty" is all in my head and i'm trying really hard to fight it but sometimes it's kinda hard i sound so weak sorry it's dumb.
I usually dress pretty toned down and boyish so i don't have people looking at me and having stares makes me feel anxious.
it's ok anon i have a friend just like you it's just that i'm in that fragile period in my therapy atm i act all strong charizard but inside i'm a fragile jigglypuff and i hate that.

>>8121667
>that feel when your measurements are like 12cm lower than that each
i'm an anorexic ghost boo

>>8121667
wow check ur thin privilege anon!!1 #fat acceptance #muh fatshaming #triggered

>>8121682
>>8121686
I came here to feel not to laugh

>>8121682
Some bodyline shit could accommodate pickup trucks, I'm not sure why she's buttravaged over 1 dress.

>>8121698
Because she's an entitled fatty who cares so much about a Bodyline dress because she's too poor and fat for burando. Seriously, crying over Bodyline not fitting you is a new level of sadness.

Reminded me of this post from the Lolita Updates group.
>mfw this dress goes up to 4L

>>8121677
girl the only way to get confidence is to break through that pernicious-ass wall of self-doubt you've got going on. you could start slowly, with cute but not over-the-top cute/girly clothes and then work your way from there, maybe?

i hate to tell you this but there is no easy cure to a lack of self confidence, aside from going out and gathering enough observations to be able to really know that that voice in your head is shitty and wrong. good luck, anon-chan

>>8121614
If it's work related then you should be able to claim workers comp, wtf?

>be a 5'8 guy
>always been intimidated by girls taller than me
>last year at a con
>going back to hotel room
>elevator opens
>standing inside are a cute Scanty and Kneesocks duo
>both girls at least 5'11 naturally + heels making them even taller
>elevator closes; no one else got on
>didn't want to just awkwardly stand there
>"Hey, I really like your Scanty and Kneesocks"
>"Aww, thanks!'
>for whatever reason the next word to come out of my mouth was "thanks", but that didn't make sense so halfway through the word I tried to say "you're welcome"
>"Thanuwolcum" ; voice cracks in the middle of saying that bastard child of a word
>Slowly climb the next 10 floors in utter silence.

>>8121745
That's what it should be. I just hope that it doesn't drag on between the insurance company and I and they're not going to ask me to cover what they "couldn't' cover (like I said, it's happened before). Eh, sorry for the dumb feel. I just hate how complicated the system is (like even if you're in the network, it's likely that the person you came to is an independent contractor).

I guess my real feel is just feeling torn between wanting to buy lolita or save up for a nice well deserved vacation (haven't had a real one since I went to uni). Seeing my tax returns is nice, but it's making me really stingy.

>>8121810
It's ok. Tall girls intimidate me too.

>>8121823
they're going to ask me to pay**

fucking a

polite sage

>>8121709
If she can't fit into bodyline then she needs to loose weight, or get the fuck out of lolita because bodyline is making dresses in 6L.

>6L
Back center of length 95cm
Bust 108-116cm
Waist 98-106cm

If a bodyline 6L can't accommodate her fat ass then there's no hope for her.
>inb4 using bust as an excuse.

>>8121891
Which dresses is Bodyline making in 6L?
I thought 4L was plenty big...Holy Shit.

>>8121901
I don't know all of them since I believe they JUST started doing it, but the one I know of is the Cinderella Bunny JSK, l481.

>>8121891
Any pics of the 6L Bodyline? I imagine it being comically huge XD

>>8121955
I haven't seen any, yet, but I'll be sure to share if I see one.
>I'm considering buy a 6L just so I can comparing it to something and show how big it is.(I'd have to wait a week though)

>>8121891
The waist is bigger around than the DRESS LENGTH.
>my eyes!

>>8121709
Bodyline is so much cheaper than new brand that über-fatties can get 2 dresses to combine into one that fits and still save money.
>Of course it will still be a Bodyline dress.

>>8121575
I'm sick of entitled, loud and disrespectful fat lolitas giving other chubsters a bad time. Its piling so much hate on to us, and all we are trying to do is be happy. I'm too afraid to go make friends at my local comm because of the ridicule I'll receive. I create good co-ords, and I look good, but I'm still too afraid. I understand why there is so much hate thrown at us because of those few that miss represent us. Lolitas say "fatties don't look as good!" like they think we don't know. Of course we know, we don't look good in anything by anyones standards. And for some, we have always been told we look bad all our life.

I know people wont get along, I don't want that. I just wish those few entitled fatties would stop misrepresenting us, and that the ones annoyed with their behavior would stop tarring us all with the same stick.

I love lolita, I am commited to lolita, and have been for a long time. I just wish that for once I could step out my door without feeling like a piece of shit because I'm scared of what people are saying behind my back.

TL:DR Just want to be happy too.

>>8121677
Start small, OP. A little makeup, some subtle and cute hair decs. Move on to cute baggy sweatshirts with pastel prints and fashionable jeans. Don't try to jump in there headfirst. Also when you go out, try to stick with a friend at all times. I'm so sorry that happened to you. I hope things get better. (Also your parents are shitlords.)

>get new job, but only make enough to cover living expenses
>look for a second job to earn money for burando and for spare money general
>score second job today, they say they are happy to give me set shifts to balance two jobs
>go to work later today, original job says starting next week they can give me more shifts I want them
I'm not really sure what I should do, now. If I take the second job, it means more income but less free time. If I stick with just one job, I can't guarantee they'll always give me these extra shifts, plus the working environment is not the best but it'll mean I'll be less tired compared to working two jobs.
Working only the second job isn't an option since it's not somewhere where I'll be able to further my career.

>>8121677
Not kidding, start listening to kanye, it changed my life.

>>8122840
Does your face look good?
I'll take being cute and fat than ugly and skinny any day
>Then again, I hate ugly lolita more than fat ones

>>8122950
I agree with tbh
Something about Kanye just heals a soul

>>8122025
im considering buying one to turn into a waistcoat/shorts/accessory coord. lets be horrified together, anon.

> "People always tell me how young I look"
> "Clothes are always so big on me"

I'm aware that I'm the jelliest block of jelly but goddammit reading that shit just makes me feel jealous even thought I'm perfectly aware of the downsides.
It just doesn't matter, every time I read that stuff in my head I just think "I WISH that was an issue I had"

on that note
> tfw you'll never be cute, young looking, petite and perfect for jfashion

>>8122956
I think more classically pretty than cute. I don't mind ugly if people are just that way. But if its something they can help like hygiene (greasy hair, yellow teeth, gross skin) or they don't put in effort that irks me a bit. But nothing I lose sleep on.

>>8122840
>I'm sick of entitled, loud and disrespectful fat lolitas giving other chubsters a bad time.
Did you ever consider that most rational, mature lolitas know there's a difference between chubby lolitas who look good and hambeast lolitas who don't and smell like toe cheese?
>I'm too afraid to go make friends at my local comm because of the ridicule I'll receive
This is stupid. There's no reason to assume your comm is full of insecure bitches who will make a stink about a well-dressed chubbychan. Just don't be a hambeast, and don't be awkward.
>Lolitas say "fatties don't look as good!" like they think we don't know. Of course we know, we don't look good in anything by anyones standards.
For fuck's sake get ahold of yourself and stop being so self-loathing. Reality =/= cgl. Not everyone is going to think you look like shit just because you're a bit overweight. There's plenty of chubster lolitas who dress better than some skinny lolitas in my comm.

This is really, really pathetic. It makes me cringe whenever I see chubby lolitas who dress nice feel that they have to apologize for their size just because a few vocal asshats on cgl has a negative opinion about their size. Nobody fucking cares.

I just rewatched this

>>8123033
Agreed. Adding to that you also need to stop comparing yourself to an imaginary version of you that is skinny and therefore looks better. Even if clothing less flattering on your frame, you are more than that. You're the sum of all of your parts, your outfit is the sum of all of your stylistic choices.
That being said stopping to be fat can be easier than trying to get over your self-loathing. If you care about clothing start caring about your weight. It makes everything so much better. Like owning an oven if baking is your hobby.

>>8122966
Whenever I'm feeling down or low I just commit myself to listening to Yeezy for an hour or two. It's like meditation, Idk man it helped me so much more than years of therapy ever did.

Thank u yeezy

>>8123035
I'm hyping myself up to rewatch Wolf's Rain, and I know I'm going to bawl like a fucking baby.

>>8122971
I'm thinking of buying one for bedsheets, but idk if thats overshooting the idea a lil too much. Probs better to scout out replica fabric but I know for sure bodyline machine washes well.

>>8123049
here comes that feel(ing) again

>>8123050
>bedsheets
Do you sleep on a cot or something? You'd need at least 3 or 4 dresses, and why go through the trouble just to have tacky bedsheets?

>buy super expensive Baby headbow
>cost over 7000¥
>get it in the mail today
>customs had opened it
>it's totally squashed and I can't get it back into shape
>customs scraped at one of the fake pearl attached to the bow to check if it's real
I'm so sad.

>>8123150
Oh, anon! I'm so sorry that customs was shitty. They could have /felt/ that the pearls are fake. They didn't need to scratch it.

>>8123154
Thanks, anon. I know, it was totally unnecessary, customs can be so retarded.

>>8123150
holy shit i would murder someone

>tfw will never have friends who will go to cons with me

>>8123150
You should complain, just keep complaining that they damaged your product and they'll give you a resolution of some kind

>>8121614
You're extremely lucky, of we get hurt while not wearing safety gloves, we get fired. Filling a report isn't even an option, we go to the hospital and if the GM asks what happened we lie and tell them it happened at home.

I haven't cut myself because I'm ridiculously cautious, but one girl lost part of her finger and got fired on top of it.

Her own fault of course, but same in the wound.

>>8123185
>a resolution of some kind
blacklisted

Although there was a girl who bought a sceptre from Baby which arrived rusted and Baby sent her a replacement.

>>8123167
Rightfully so.
>>8123185
Thanks, but german customs are pretty stubborn and complaining usually gets you nowhere. Chances are they'd just deny it.

>>8123185
>>8123192
Oh fuck sorry, I thought you were talking about complaining to Baby.

>>8122982
>iktf

They need to make body shrinking surgery already...

>>8123196
I wouldn't dare. At least not when the package has been opened by costums.

>>8123185
I checked and customs is not responsible for anything they fuck up. Even if they cut up a pair of boots, totally not their business.

>>8121667
I love when the fatties in my comm do that

>30-22-30
>100lbs
>5'5"
>you're so lucky anon you're small enough for everything
>for everything to either look like a stripper dress or fir like a potato sack
>anon just take everything in!
>just put all of my dresses into the hands of a stranger and kill any chance of ever being able to sell it because monody else is this ridiculously small
>taobao lyfe

>inb4 buttmad fatties

I feel your no-fit feels, don't be a cunt about it.

>have a really short neck
>always look really squat
>have humongous nostrils as well so if i try to angle pictures from below it looks like you're heading towards two black holes in space
>chin is rotund and stubby so profile pictures also look fucked up
>choose to almost always cosplay characters wearing masks for this reason

why even LIVE

>had to remove one of my infant teeth
>I had two that never fell since I don't have theyr adult versions
>dentist said I'll need to use braces

Will if affect my coords and cosplays?... I'm scared. Like, I'm almost 20 and living the drama of a young teenager, wtf?

Sorry for bad english

>>8123221
That really sucks, anon. My sister has similar measurements to yours and had the same problem.

>>8123390
Keep your mouth closed when you smile, anon.

>>8123408
No, I had braces for 6 years and I can tell you, that shit doesn't work.

You just end up looking like a monkey.

I'm sorry, braces-anon, you might be fucked.

You can cosplay characters with braces accurately though? Like Mabel Pines and that one guy from KLK

>>8122950
Fuck that listen to some real hip hop

>>8123390
Anon who had the same problem, two teeth on opposite sides that didn't have adult ones. Why do you need braces for that? Is he planning on taking the baby teeth out and if so why?

>pigeon toed since i started walking
>unstable on feet when walking normally
>all shoes end up scuffed at the front/inside

no burando shoes for me then

>>8123449
She already removed one of them, the braces are supposed to make my other teeth get in place and close the empty space left by them.

>actually my mom is my dentist
>I've got a narrow jaw so my teeth don't have much space

>>8123420
I figured closing my mouth wouldn't work..
Cosplay with braces it is!
Thinking positive, I can match the brace's elastics with my coord or something
I have a meet next week and I'll be missing one teeth

>>8123510
Wow you're being robbed blind and your own mom is in on it.

>tfw you get out of the shower and cuddle with your cat

>>8123513
Well. They're baby teeth. They're going to fall out eventually and if she doesn't have adult teeth to fill them in, she'll still have the gap. Might as well fix it while she's young.

>see friend A looking for other cosplayers to form cosplay group
>friend A cosplaying m.c.
>joins her group as m.c.'s best friend
>posts in cosplay plans and tags friend A
>enter friend B
>hey anon, dont you remember I cosplay m.c.
>uhh haha
>post another status about taking photos in cosplay at a certain location with friend A
>friend B comments "im down"

I... didnt do this cosplay with someone else because I forgot about you、I'm doing it because someone else was looking for that character that ive always wanted to do and she actually pushed me to do it. It's so rude to the other person and you're not the only person who cosplays m.c.,

>>8123221
Same here. I have a BMI of 13 due to my ED and nothing outside of children's sections fits me (especially jeans because size 00 is too baggy but children's jeans in my size are capri-length).

>tfw mom ruins my happiness over a new Liz Lisa sweater by saying it "looks like a garbage bag on me"
>tfw yesterday my skirt literally fucking fell down while I was shopping because it's too big (thankfully I had a dress-length coat and leggings on)

It's a mistake to say that thin people always look good in clothes, honestly. ;_;

>>8123650
I'm in the bottom 1 percentile for weight and I don't even have an ED. Its crazy. I can fit into size 1 jeans thanks to my his, but they always wind up too short on my long-ass legs. Ones that come in long sizes always end up to big in the hips.

I've just been approached by -THAT ONE BUYER- who is every sellers worst nightmare.
>Often sell things on sales group cause I have a massive cosplay and merch collection and I keep finding new things I don't want/can't fit into anymore
>Most of it comes from obscure shows and video games that not a lot of people care about so the interest on most items is usually pretty low
>This buyer has tried to buy stuff from me seven times now, including this time
>The six other times the buyer has either complained about the prices, tried to get me to ship it to them for free, or just stopped answering once I confirmed that it was on hold for them
>I'm not the only victim either, most sellers in the group are annoyed with this person and 9/10 sales never go through with them
>Too nice to block them or tell them "no sale"
>Too tired to deal with any bullshit
>Too desperate to get rid of this cosplay to ignore them, just in case that this one will actually go through for once

Oh the dilemma

>always been pretty shitty at cosplay
>have terrible time at cons because I feel self conscious the entire time I'm there
>give up on cosplay because I just find the hobby too depressing for me
>slowly transition into photography instead
>first year of going to a con without a cosplay
>take some okay photos
>cosplayers seem genuinely thrilled when they find my photos online
>at least three people have used my photos as their facebook page header photo
>suddenly not so depressed about going to conventions anymore

>>8123221
I'm just saying that there are reputable lolita seamstresses who do alterations.
If you only care about resale value then don't complain. Tall, broad, and fat girls face the same issue. It sucks, but it's life.

>>8123510
>braces and teeth removal
I had a slight underbite in middle school (it made my chin and lower jaw stick out), got four adult teeth removed - two on top and two on bottom, and then had braces that pushed the teeth back into alignment. In my experience, the braces were really helpful, and the once-there gap (from the teeth removal) is invisible. Hopefully your braces turn out well anon!

>>8123583
Yeah, Friend B is being really self-centered and selfish about this. Within my cosplay circle, there are a few people who cosplay the same characters, but we're mature enough to know that nobody is the "one true [character]" or has **exclusive** rights to dress up as someone.

In that case, I'd deliberately ignore what Friend B is trying to angle at (ie, getting a shoot with you) and comment something like "I'd be down to get photos with you if you ever wear MC to a con/event!"

>friend of mine always has amazing coords
>many pieces of her coords are handmade too, she's very talented at sewing
>also has super nice hair and can do the nicest hairstyles
>perfect skin
>petite and thin so perfect bodyshape for Lolita
>very sociable, has a boyfriend and many admirers, well liked in our comm too
>she's basically the opposite of me right now
>on top of all the is super nice, caring, always willing to help out or do small handmade commissions for cheap and is a great friend

>mfw all I could feel when she uploaded her lst coord was pure jealouse and self hate
Why cgl. What has become of me. I hate myself for being such an awful person. All I do all day is sit around, stuff my face with food until most of my burando doesn't fit me even at this point and hate myself. How do I get my life together and stop being a fat lazy useless jealous bitch and become a better friend and a better person?

>>8122950
solid advice for sure

run the jewels is good at making you feel better about life too

>>8124187
Turn off the computer for a week and focus on yourself

>>8123770
hey good for you anon

>>8124187
I somewhat know how you feel, I've used videogames all my life to escape from the problems in my life, from abuse at home, to divorce, to general loneliness and self loathing. However, as I am getting older and less and less of my time is available, I have lost my escape, and I can't deal with my problems. I'm fucking up in my English course and hoping that my Professor will understand my problem and help me with getting a W to drop. I know I probably have some sort of mental problem and self esteem issues that I need to figure out with the help of those around me, I know I can't just stop being a terrible person, but I know that I can become less of one. We'll make it one day, anon.

tried to order from wig-supplier BC they advertised a free shipping sale
beg mom to let me use her PayPal, total is ~50
free shipping not actually a thing, no way to get assistance because CNY
so ~$25 shipping. still wanted to order but mom said no and now I'm bummed
gotta find a better wig place..

>>8124661
You must be 18+ to use this website.

>>8123510
Your braces will be fine, at least you're doing something about your teeth instead of walking around with fucked up teeth like its fine.

If it's any consolation, I lost my last baby tooth when I was 24, and wore braces for 2 years. The metal and wires were way better than the open gap in my teeth, in my opinion. Also started lolita during braces treatment, and never got any shit, and unless your doing close ups it's really not going to show up in pictures.

>>8124033
>i know your no-fit feels
>don't be a cunt about it

>>8121891
There's one dress that goes up to 120 cm.

>>8123583
I hate when people decide they own a character.
>friends and I wanna go to a casual event coming up
>too casual for cosplay so we decide on Disneybound
>trying to figure out who should play what
>I say that I have a green skirt and purple top that might work for Ariel
>"aw thanks anon but I think your clothes would be too big on me"
>goddamn bitch I wasn't even offering

>spent a lot of time working on cosplay outfit
>thinking about throwing it all away because I don't think I'll look good in it

I know it's selfish, but I have the mentality that if you're going to cosplay you should look the best/like the character, but the more I work the more I feel like I can't picture myself pulling it off and I'll end up in the horrible cosplay thread

>>8124861
lel

>>8121810
>>8121823
Why do tall women intimidate you?

>>8125312
Personally, its seeing an attractive taller woman then knowing she'd never date you since society pressures for guys to be roughly the same size or taller than their female counterpart. So theres that feeling of "I'm not even on her radar" when talking with them, which is a bummer.

I know I'm not a manlet and I don't have any issues with my height, its just how it is.

I'm having another "Ugh I don't know what to do with myself." rutt.

Right now I'm regularly sewing, illustrating and writing my novel but I can't for the life of me dedicate enough time or effort to any of these things to make a casual profit on them.

There's no reason that I couldn't sell prints or dresses, I just.. Ugh. Everything that I make is fine when it's for myself, but I feel like it turns to shit the moment that I'm making it for someone else.

>tfw you want to make friends but you're scared you're just annoying everyone
>tfw people literally have to come to you and let you know they don't hate you before you feel worthy of attention
>tfw it probably looks like you're an antisocial and/or snobby person but you're actually just afraid and insecure
I don't want to be that one sperg in the group people just tolerate (and talk shit about when they're not around), but it's preventing me from actually getting close to people.

>>8121682
85cm bust 58cm waist reporting. I don't know I manage to still have boobs (I'm EU A though)

TFW you're so pitiful in love that Mr Yan is judging you

>>8125526
The file name is tumblr because I put images on a tumblr to transfer them to my computer, like a photo bucket FYI

>shoot with photographer friend this past katsu
>posts previews
>the guy went to art school and is professional in his technical skill but cannot take a flattering photo to save his goddamn life
>the attractive cosplayers he shot with (not me) even look ugly as sin thanks to bad angles/lighting
>so I look especially horrible

Ugh, I've had this problem before with him. Never giving him money again. It's a shame because his photos are objectively GOOD (like they are and look professional), but he's not good at making people look good, if that makes sense. Loves to brag about how good he is at posing cosplayers, too.

>Get a bunch of new tumblr followers, yay!
>Several of them are sissy or daddy dom blogs.
I don't want to become known as a kink-shamer on tumblr, but any fetish that sexualizes little girls and views femininity as inherently degrading reaaaalllly does not sit well with me. I have a disclaimer on my blog that I'm not into that stuff, but they still follow me. I feel kinda gross when they reblog my pictures, like what am I doing wrong that my outfit snaps ended up on their blog because I sure don't want to be associated with it.

>>8125981
We can't help unless you share your tumblr. Maybe post one of your outfit shots that gets reblogged? You can blur out your face.

>>8125528
no one gives a fuck.

>>8125981
>>daddy doms
>>sexualizing little girls
>>views femininity as degrading

You don't seem to know shit about bdsm and daddy doms. Unless the dd bloggers themselves don't either and just claim to be dd's when they have no idea what it really means.

>>8125998
I will say that it pretty much only happens when I post a sweet coord. If it's classic or gothic those types don't seem interested, which is why I've been tending toward a less cutesy style.

>>8126010
>You don't seem to know shit about bdsm and daddy doms
You seem to know shit about tumblr's "bdsm" scene which is mostly horrible and as much bdsm as 50 Shades of Grey is "bdsm". And I think the "views femininity as degrading" part was aimed at the Sissies.

>>8125981
Why don't you simply block these blogs? They shouldn't be able to reblog from you then.

>>8121891
The bust in the 6l is perfect even though the waist is a bit big. I was very happy to see them introduce that size. But really it's what some AP goes up to so.

>selling stuff that I bought years ago but never wore
>most of it is really unpopular
>stuff I bought for $30-40 I'm only getting $10 for after paypal and shipping
It really fucking sucks...

>>8125449
80cm bust,67cm waist i am a fatty

>>8126079
*86
i'm dumb

>>8126104
We know.

>>8125981
I block them. They can do as they like but not by reblogging or using my photos/posts.

>>8125981
Kill yourself.

>finally outed
>left abusive relationship
>looking for a cute girlfriend
>don't know where to look
>don't like clubbing, I'm too shy as fuck
>scared to go to gay pubs alone
>wish my old weeb times back, back there mating was much easier
>forever alone, masturbating to 'blue is a warm color'

>>8126219
Maybe take a friend with you to the gay pub? Even if they are hetero if it helps your confidence and they don't act obnoxious I don't think anyone would mind. And once you made some friends or even a girlfriend you can go with one of them.
Good luck for you Anon!

sorry to jump on your feels train anon..

>single for two years
>boring vanillia hetero
>looking for a cute boyfriend
>don't know where to look
>don't like clubbing, I'm too shy as fuck
>there's no real youth culture where I live, it's either older people or obnoxious teenager or tourists getting as drunk as possible
>there are almost no boys in my major so no one at Uni to talk to
>also zero club activites so no one to meet
>also way too shy to do stuff like this alone
>forever alone, masturbating to husbando and shitty Boys love fanfiction

I met my last boyfriend at a friend's party, but I rarely go to parties anymore, haven't made any new friends that could introduce me to boys and the pubs and clubs in this city are filled with teens, tourists only there to get drunk af or old creeps so no real chance of meeting someone there.
Finding a boyfriend, how does it work?

>>8126219
>>8126245

Sometimes there are groups with certain interests that organize meetups in various places, and not just clubs or pubs.

I just recently met my new boyfriend at a lunch meetup set up by a local meetup group. It was a chill atmosphere and we hit it off really well over food.

I used meetup.com (it sounds lame, but there's a huge variety of interest groups in my area), and there's groups of all kinds, from LGBT groups to hookup groups to groups with very special interests. Maybe you could try that - it's not for everyone, but I'd recommend it at least once.

>>8126269

Just to add one more thing, I know I only mentioned one site, but I'm sure there are other websites if you google it.

sorry it's long, best I could sum it up
>mail a school to ask if their sewing program is open to people who speak english (foreign country, wanna learn sewing for lolita, cosplay & visa)
>lady replies that I should go to one of their "day in the life of" or something to "discuss my options/experience the program" and register on the site
>which leads me to think that they don't mind english-speakers since she didn't mention language at all
>register on the website
>they send a letter with an appointment date for some sort of interview meeting
>it comes with enrolling documents which I don't look at because it doesn't say I need them for the meeting
>night before the meeting
>"I should fill in those documents just in case"
>below the first page is an assignment sheet for things to do before the meeting
>fuck
>work from midnight to 6am on that stuff (some dumb collage shit, outfit sketches, motivation letter)
>at meeting
>lady doesn't understand why I don't speak her language
>she says it's absolutely impossible to do the sewing program if I'm not good at the language and she doesn't understand how I didn't get told that (rip study visa)
>she says my nationality wasn't even mentioned when I emailed them (it was)
>she gives me her email address and asks me to send her the email which said to come and discuss options so she can investigate
>mfw I get home and see that the two email addresses are the same: she is the same lady who sent me the first email

>>8126245
Same but i am a boy
>don't know where to find grills

>>8126245
try okcupid.
meet my bf there been dating for more than a year

>>8126310
well to be fair you ought to learn the language of the country you are staying in at least a little. it's really rude to expect people to bend to your every whim just because you speak English.

>be lesbian
>meet cute lolita
>friend says cute girl enjoyed talking to me, would like to get to know
>thisismychance.jpg
>too weenie to fb message her
wat do

>>8127196
Hey, it was nice to meet you! Are you going to x meet/would you like to get coffee together next weekend?

>TFW druggie just almost died of OD in our bathroom

It was the heroins. Don't fucking do heroin in a fast food bathroom.

>>8127330
sorry about that

>>8127196
>tfw i'll never have a cute lolita gf to protect me and love me
i wish i was that cute girl
; _ ;

>>8121614
>>8121575
Anon, I used to be a tomboy until I was like 13. My dad was an asshole and my parents house wreaked of cigarettes. I got bullied a shit ton for being the smallest girl in the class, and for being the underdeveloped, flat chested skinny girl. But I remember my older sister forced me into letting her do my makeup and dress me up and curl my hair. I did and when I went to school and got complimented. I realized the people qho bullied me were unhappy with themselves and took it out on me. And it was because I let others opinions into my head. How stupid is that? And how stupid is it for someone to tell themselves they're not good enough?
Ever since then I realized other people who feel the need to shit and bully on other people to make themselves feel better are disgusting on the inside. Even if they seem pretty or cute on the outside.

You need to love yourself before you're ever ready to love anyone else. Because if you don't have self confidence in yourself, people will sense it, stand up for yourself-- and if you have a girly friend that you feel comfortable with to ask questions about how to do makeup or dress or what looks cute then by all means, get out of your shell, wear cute shit and tell yourself in the mirror outloud every morning "Hey good lookin'" Or even sing LMFAO I'm Sexy and I Know it!! Just be comfortable in your own skin, if you think you're fat, work out, dont like your short hair? Grow it out! Not to sound like a /fit/ instructor-- but working out does wonders for your psyche, I'm serious. I'm a Lobstermen and I work from 5am-5pm or in the winter 5am-8pm and I get annoyed if I'm being a couch potato for too long. Working out will make yourself feel better as a person and it help you be comfortable in your own skin because it's clearing your mind and you're just doing something good for you. If dressing cute is what you want to do then do it, the soul always knows how to heal itself, the challenge is to quiet the mind.

>>8127453
Sorry it's a bit misspelled and no paragraphing I'm on my phone, but you get the picture.

>>8127453
>i'm a lobstermen
Please tell me you're a qt butch girl

>have roughly zero impulse control when it comes to buying lolita/making stupid iphone game purchases
>cancelled one credit card so I can focus on paying it back and just keeping the other card
>now just putting all purchases on the active card and not getting any better

I'm getting my tax refund soon, and this is pay week, so I can put that back towards my card bills and stuff, but I really don't want to backslide again. My family thinks I'm doing fine and paying extra on all my student loans, because I don't want to tell them that I've been screwing up so badly.

I just want to get better about all this.

>*friend* still hasnt payed me back
>they dont talk to me that much anymore
>scared of asking & dont know how to go about doing so.

>>8127489
Then that's money well spent. You just paid some money to get rid of a shitty friend. Hopefully it wasn't too expensive of a lesson.

>>8125412
I'm six foot even without heels and my boyfriend is about 5'9". It seriously only gets awkward if we try to hold hands while I'm wearing heels. I did date a guy who was about 5'2" once and that was awkward as fuck though if only because we looked a bit like weird Cassandra/Varric fan art.

>>8125981
This used to happen to me but with furry fetish/cloppers following the plush sales account I had. Granted they also would send requests for fuckable plush so I mean that was lovely.

>be a brolita
>enjoy dressing up in lolita a lot
>make friends with those in my Comm
>they like me a lot and my coords
>everyone is in a happy relationship
>be single
>don't ask lolitas in my Comm or elsewhere out cause it's creepy even though I like one
>instead try to find a woman who might like me
>mfw they're normies and don't like a guy dressing up in frilly outfits with makeup on
>mfw i enjoy wearing a fashion geared towards females and remain single forever

Why? I'm a complex guy. When will I find true love?

>>8121575
>tfw long face
>always get mistaken for a dude/crossdresser
>my mother gets secondhand embarrassment because of this
>even if I wear a top that shows cleavage, I'm mistaken for a dude

I'm considering going under the knife but what do they do to help long faces.
I just want to be cute.. I'm not a guy. I don't like being asked if I am a guy every other time I go out.

and what the fuck is wrong with people that they keep asking if I'm a dude or not?

>>8127726
Have you tried talking to your friends in the comm about it? Maybe they can set you up with ssomeone who would understand.

>have pixie cut
>get mistaken for a boy all the time
>get an undercut/buzz it
>not mistaken for girl anymore
>???

>con hotel and my go-to nearby hotel sold out
>always paranoid that my cosplay friends hate me so I always forget to ask to room with them til last minute

Cons still 4 months away tho. I'm a fucking mess.

>>8127771
I assume you meant not mistaken for a boy anymore.

Anyways, many reasons for this are that pixie cuts look boyish, as in, they're meant to keep hair out of the way, they don't even really try to frame your face or anything and your features get lost. But, when you shave your whole head it's pretty obviously feminine looking, even from far away.

>>8127729
>my mother gets secondhand embarrassment because of this
why? it's basically her fault, you're her child, she's not supposed to be embarrassed by you

>>8124657
What's a w?

I guess this belongs here but anyway
>Otakon 2014
>Staying with Con friend who does more photography than cosplay
>Since good friends with him offer to shoot with him because he loves my one cosplay I brought
>Okay, I don't mind, don't have any shoots booked for that cosplay
>"I'll have the photos in two weeks anon."
>Message him, he tells me life is bad rn
>excuse it, because well, it happens.
>We decide to go to Youmacon, at this point still no photos
>He shoots more people, still hasn't gotten any Otakon photos out yet
>He shoots with cosfamous friend, notices he gets her photos out a week after the con
>Okay.jpg
>Katsucon is fastly approaching
>Still no Otakon photos
>Message him, starting to get bitchy, because not only does he has my otakon photos but he has my youmacon photos
>His excuse, "I'm bad at editing anon, I'll get them to you by katsucon"
>Week of Katsucon, he claims he has the photos done from ota
>Okay, here, email them to me
>Refreshing email every few hours
>Day we're supposed to leave for the con, still no photos
>"It's okay anon, i brought my laptop, i can give you your photos."
>Never does that, even when we have downtime alone together, even after i bring it up.
>He shoots a fucking ton of photos at katsucon
>crying now because i realised that I will probably never get my otakon photos

i'm so upset right now, like it's not even the principle of the fact he's 7 months late to give me back my photos, but the fact that he's lying to me about them being done and then refusing to give me them, but then giving my cosfamous friends their photos a week after the con.

I feel so used.

>>8128140
people pull her aside and ask her if I'm a mtf or crossdresser, and she hears the comments people make.

She told me padding or stuffing my bra would help.
Which is funny because before I started getting these comments, she made it a point to mention she would hate it if I ever wore padded/stuffed bras because only "unsavory girls do it for boys attention"

Now she goes out of her way to get me them so "I'm not mistaken for a boy"

Its weird being handed super ultra padded bras, and chicken cutlets by your mom.

While we're on the topic of teeth
>have terrible bottom teeth
>They ducking zigzag across my mouth
>dentist says braces won't fix it
>says he could put in a piece of wire to stop it getting worse, but that's it
I've only gotten by so far because my top teeth cover the bottom ones when I smile. I guess I'm just lucky I do masked cosplays.

>>8127193
I don't expect them to bend to my every whim, I expect them to tell me by email that they don't accept english-speakers if they don't accept english-speakers before I get my hopes up. My first email to them was titled "question about program" and it was literally just "I speak english. do you accept english-speakers for this program?" They didn't reply with "no", they replied with "go register". I think they're the ones who dun goofed.

>>8121577
You can be cute and the way things turned out are not your fault. As negative as groping, assault and the dumbass statement from your parents are, the guy groped you because he considered you an attractive female. This does not excuse his behavior in any form or way or meant that you asked for it, but at least he acknowledged your hard work (albeit in a twisted and sick way).

Keep on being cute.

>>8128334
^^^^ This.

>>8121575
>>8121577
This is a really sad story. I'm really sorry that your parents were such cunts about your situation. When I told my mom that I was molested by one of her male babysitters when I was 4, she called me a liar, she didn't want to believe people could be that terrible either.
I think it's easier for some parents to believe that their child did something wrong than cope with the fact that we live in a world filled with unjust creeps who take advantage of people in vulnerable situations.

In any event, I think you could try again but this time with an established buddy system. It's kind of shitty that none of your friends tried to make contact with you to see if you were okay.

>>8128120
I disagree completely. Pixies show off your features rather than hiding them. In my case I went from looking like a teenage (male) metalhead to a pretty cute girl.

>tfw my bf lost his job today unexpectedly
>I don't have the money anymore to pay for customs when my expensive fromjapan and taobao orders arrive which had been shipped out last week.

I feel like such a horrbile person being concerned about my luxury expenses in this situation. We can barely live off only one salary and it are going to be harsh times if he doesn't find a new job anytime soon. With only one salary, every penny has to be spend wisely in order to get us both through the month and I feel obligated to support him where I can. On the other hand the amount of lost money would be horrendorous if I would just reject the shipments because of some stupid customs fees. I also planned to go to some local meets in the neer future but I don't think I can enjoy wearing lolita anymore having in mind we are just one step away from being too poor to afford anything.
But m-maybe selling some old dresses will easy my guilt a bit, rite?

>>8129202
Sell some of the older stuff

That's the first thing you should do to support your BF - cover your own expenses, even if it means letting go of something older that's dearly beloved.

Best of luck that he'll get a new job soon.

>>8121575
Source for OP pic?

Just tried reverse search and got "crying anime girl"Z

>>8129320
Looks like Taiga from Tora Dora.

>>8129320
Never mind it's fucking SAO
Dissapointment*F

>>8128654
Yes, and if said features are ugly you end up looking like a malesbian

>>8129328
No it's not. It's Toradora.

>>8129339
It's SAO II

Toreadors had a worser art style.

>>8129344
The fuck are you trying to say, retard?

Its toradora.

>>8129344
It's from toradora

>tfw learn how to knit finally (continental style bitches!)
>tfw learn about intarsia knitting

I'm obsessed. I want to make all the cute lolita type cardigans, but I'm slow. Ugh.

>tfw I have the super strong urge to make something for a cosplay but I don't have any materials

>>8125432
I feel this feel every day too anon.

>>8129344
Were you born retarded?

>>8126000
dat edge

>>8123429
Kanye is rap not hiphop lmao

not /cgl/ related but I've been having a tough time lately and just need to let it out for a minute

>Lose only friends I had, one just stops talking to me, realize the other only keeps me around to feel better about themself
>realize boyfriend doesn't love me, and i don't love him but he doesn't want to break up and i'd be absolutely alone without him
>no friends, shitty relationship, i don't drive and am broke so i have nothing to get my mind off of all of this
>was looking for some photos today and stumbled upon pictures from back when i had lots of friends and did fun things with them
>spend the rest of the night wishing i could be that person again and that i wasn't wasting my youth away

>>8121810
I feel ya man, I get intimidated by taller girls and I'm 5'2"

>>8130514
Tall girls are my dream girls.

Then again, they're all tall except for the Asians, making the tall Asians the ultimate.

>>8129885
As one who was in a loveless relationship and got dumped because he was cheating/found someone else -- break it off now. You will hurt so much more later if you don't. I know it sucks but every day you spend in that relationship is a waste of your time. I wasted at least 2 years. Feels bad man.

>Family is going through a rough path money wise
>can't buy cosplay stuff
>I help pay for bills when I can and groceries
>basically been mostly living off sister's social security barely
>sister gets back together with scumbag BF who is a sociapath, clepto, and reoccurring drug user
>last time I saw her she screamed at me for not buying b her junk food (I posted this in a couple threads ago)
>Found out today that she went to SS offices and the money is now going in her BF bank account along with his address

I have no idea what the fuck we're going to do now. I swear it's all her BF's fault. All he ever talked about was getting SS. She also is only 17 and "Is mature enough to live on her own". My mom is crying and I really want to cry too. We try talking to her multiple times and everytime she says "IT'S MY MONEY I CAN DO WHAT I WANT WITH IT!"

FUCK EVERYTHING!

>>8131318
Oh my God this is terrible. I wish you the best of luck and for everything to be solved soon, anon.

>>8131318
You can blame the bf anon, but it looks to me like your sister has selfishly chosen her boyfriend over her own family's well-being.
To me that's worse than a clepto-socio drughead.
She's seventeen, and while that can be a naive age she should know better than to trust a stranger and leave her own family (the only people who give a shit at the end of the day) high and dry. It's a shame, and I'm sorry you're dealing with two very selfish individuals.

>been in college four years
>two more years to go

It's great that I found a good field, but I feel so incompetent. My bf seems to have opportunities fall into his lap but here I am with a 2.84 GPA and virtually no experience. I've met with a SEI rep yesterday and we connected really well so I thought I had a good chance landing the internship with my SQL interest and my willingness to learn, but then I figured out that their location is three hours away.

>>8131337

Shit, are you me?

I've got a shit GPA, and although I've got some experience, I always feel it's very minimal compared to my peers. On top of that, the dude I'm dating is the same age as me and earns quite a bit of money (enough to live comfortably downtown) while I'm drowning in student loans.

Don't get me wrong, I love my field, but I wish it was slightly less hard sometimes.

Honestly though, my advice would be that it really gets better, especially if you take steps to ensure you don't make the same mistakes again and you make good impressions. I'm in my final year and I managed to get quite a few interviews despite all that. It's not so much about the quantity of experiences as the quality of them - I made a very good impression during one of my internships and they hinted that they might choose me (unfortunately I can't find out for another month because our job seeking process in this country is regulated and weird as fuck). If you make a very good impression with the people you intern with, there's a very good chance that you might be working there later on,

>>8128147
Different anon, but it usually stands for "Withdraw" for dropping college courses. It doesn't affect the gpa and it's better to have a W than a D, but it's also best to not have too many W on your transcript.

>sage for OT

I have a bunch of lolita stuff I really really need to sell but holy shit, I am just full of excuses to not do anything about it.

>I only have my phone to take pictures with
>The light is bad today
>I have an essay to write
>lacemarket is probably down again
>Look at all this anime I haven't watched

I know I'm just being lazy but ugh, it feels like such a hassle. I need the space back though.

>big event
>outfit ready
>spent the week checking at everything I needed and carefully cleaning and steaming the clothes
>kinda daring coord
>Am I gonna be trashed in the mud by /cgl/ or not

I think it's on point but I don't have close lolita friends with whom I'd share pictures and concrits, and it's such a distinctive thing I can't post it anywhere. I also hope it pictures well.

>>8131322
it's really weird that when I read your comment I really felt a lot better. I have no idea why.

>>8131328
She's been on and off with him for about 3 years now. She even takes care of his kid (Not even hers). It really makes me sad because she'll say all these bad things about our mom like "It took her this long to find a job. She obviously is putting her needs over ours" abs shit. Maybe you're right. She seems to be a lost cause

>selling items on LM
>don't have any hurry or need to sell, just culling the closet
>it takes a full two months to sell four items
>another six still listed
>tfw have almost twenty more pieces to put up, but don't want to go through the effort when other things aren't selling

Goddamn, man. I don't know if I should drop my prices (half of it is NWT or NWOT and under $100 already; not crazy desirable pieces, but decently priced and in excellent condition), but. Goddamn. Is the selling market just really saturated right now?

>>8131352
Good luck to you, anon! May you graduate with a cool job offer.

I've never had an internship. Most people are looking for programmers, and I'm a shit one (and always go into the red with programming class..). Honestly, I'm really banking on networking whenever I can and it's going great. But despite that, I feel that my no-experience and GPA puts me in the automatic do-not-hire pile for good internships.

I've been contacting everyone that I possibly could to get a higher chance into getting accepted into this summer research position (USD4,000 stipend, omg). I feel like I have two very strong references but I'm so scared that they'll take one look at my resume and be very disappointed. I could wait until my GPA is better, but I really need something this summer or I'll feel like a failure for the fourth year in a row. Crossing my fingers!

>>8131458
Put stuff up in the BST thread here with slightly discounted prices, maybe some seagulls will snatch them up?

>friend is depressed
>I myslef fought against depression for years, getting a bit better but still with hard moments
>kindly let friend come over everytime she wants
>house her for meetups
>friend don't pay for food
>friend talk me out of wearing certain styles she wears too because they "won't fit me"
>friend take unflattering pictures of me when asked for an outfit shot, while I graciously offers to do hers and do it the most flattering way possible
>friend constantly emphasis on her skinny legs knowing that that's the part of my body I'm the most insecure with
>have a tendencie to stay a little longer than welcomed when I invite her over
I like her, I know she's struggling but I've been patient enough. I'm gonna still support her, but she need to cut that shit.

I came here to laugh at people and bully them, but instead I feel sorry for most of the people in this thread.

>>8129393
>>8129360
>>8129468
I don't even post on this board. I came here by accident and wanted source.

I decided to see if I got replies, and oh my god, you are all retarded.

ITS SAO II. LOOK AT PIC

>>8124187
So pathetic. Focus on bettering yourself. If you're actually her friend, I'm sure that if you asked her for coordinate advice she'd love to help you.

>>8131732
Anon please, someone probably just used the gif in the discussion. Can you stop derailing the thread now?

>>8131517
You don't have to be her savior, anon. If she's hurting your mental wellbeing, send her off to a professional.

Dude here. Not gay I swear.

Androgynous people are some of he most attractive I've seen. There's something about them that makes them very beautiful to a lot of people. If you actually are androgynous like you say and you don't straight look like a man, you're probably just self conscious.

Body image issues are more common than you think. I'm 24 and I still worry about what women think of me every single day. Eventually you get better about it as you grow into your own person. At 18 you have no clue who you really about real and the people you think have it all figured out or whatever really don't.

>>8127193
Tell that to Mexicans in the U.S., get called a racist.

>>8130717
We ended up getting into a fight after I posted this too since he was trying to hide his friendship with some girl.
>Everything about situation implies he's cheating on me and I don't know how to deal with it
>feels so bad man

>>8131517
Depression isn't an excuse to be a fucking leech or a shit person. You need to stop being such a pushover and letting her know that she's being a dick, she needs to pull her head in and stop that shit.

>Been alone for all my life for 23 years
>so alone for so long can't imagine myself being with anyone
>not really big into cosplay, but always thought it would be cool to dress up into something cool one day
>getting more money as time passes and seriously considering it
>unsure of how to get into the cosplay scene

>>8131732
a new breed of retardation.

>>8131732
This should be enough proof for you. Let's just stop. http://youtu.be/NmKmbYS1GNE Toradora AMV showing this exact scene. Should start at 2:19.

>>8131318
>clepto, sociopath
No he's just a scumbag junkie

>>8131318
I swear to god if your mother doesn't curb that bitch when she turns 18, I'll figure out where you live and do it myself.

>>8131517
She isn't depressed, she's just a cunt. That's all cunt behavior. She's using you to make herself seem better by comparison.

Get rid of her, and when she starts up the self pity routine tell her to go fuck herself and stand your ground.

>>8131816
Here's a song that helped me get out there.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-9--zxWPXks

>>8131804
Man, just stay calm and talk to him about it, say what you want to say in a calm manner and don't budge. Now you have even more reason to break up, it'll be okay anon. Do you have any clubs you could join? A lot of ladies have joined a cooking club close to me, for instance.

>>8131470
Don't put your GPA down. Nobody looks at that anyway.

>>8131352
Don't ever put your GPA on a resume and don't mention it as a positive or a negative.

Your resume does all the "on paper" appeal that you need and you shouldn't need to add your GPA to it to impress them. A basically formatted and well crafted resume won't need it.

>>8131884
I didn't. But the fact that they don't look at it is not true, at least for the very good companies. A. They will literally trash your resume if you don't have their requirement and above. Or B. It usually comes down to two candidates and a difference in GPA makes their decision.

I'm not too worried about A since I'm not going to apply to the prestigious companies, but B is definitely a possibility for me.

Not really cgl related but

>26 still single
>Want to find love
>Don't want to go on dates or meet people
>Know the problem is me
>Continue to do nothing, getting older every day
>Worried about the future

>be me
>sitting on lacemarket, browsing as usual
>find one of my dream dresses
>$230 + $20 shipping
>ask if I can do a payment plan
>next paycheck was following morning
>seller says yes
>pays half the next morning with my paycheck
>find out lolita event is in 2 weeks, I thought it was next month
>beg my mom to let me dip into my other account
>mom says yes
>pays other half 2 weeks early
>get really good feedback, my first feedback even, for completing a payment plan early
>got dream dress and awesome feedback

>>8131804
You're wasting your time even being with him. Don't even ask for details, just tell him you guys are breaking up, part ways, learn to live your life alone.

Being alone honestly isn't bad. I'm sure you have interesting hobbies. Engage in them, spend some fucking money and time on yourself.

But for real though, break up asap. Not worth

>>8132025
Is this why people care about their GPAs after college? I figured it was just some hoops they had you jump through to brag about how "prestigious" they are.

>>8132058
Same except I'm 20 ;_;

>>8132058
>>8132172
>Want to find love
>Don't want to go on dates or meet people
You've got to choose one. Either you make the effort or give up on finding love.

>Grandfather died suddenly two weeks ago.
>His funeral is today.
>I haven't cried since he died, no matter how much I've wanted to.
>Have been distracting myself from grief by planning larp shit and co-ords.
>My mum's coming to pick me up in 5 hours, I haven't changed out of my work uniform, bathed or slept.
>None of my friends are online because it's 5 in the morning and I'm slowly getting more anxious.


Fuck, I can't cope.

>>8132281
Normally I'd say the first step is to force yourself to strip down and soak in the bath for a bit, but in this weather nobody want to take off any layers.

>>8131775
I don't think you are gay anon, just bisexual or bi curious?? Because androgynous men that consider themselves male are always men. Also there isn't nothing bad being gay or bi i like also i androgynous men and i'm a girl but i dont say i'm a lesbian. Btw, don't think if you settle with a non gender binary person you would solve your issues, grow some self confidence.
>>8126245
Try online communities about some hobby you like even anime or also facebook groups, usually i don't suggest dating sites too much trolls or people not interested into long term relationships.
Also...
>yeah boring vanilla men are the worst

>Go out bra shopping, need a new nude one for cosplay
>Mom decides to meet me at store
>"Hey anon, I'm coming into your dressing room" while sales woman is measuring me
>MOM GTFO
>First thing she does is look at my chest
>very loudly states "ANON, WHY ARE YOUR BREASTS TWO DIFFERENT SIZES???"
>drop all of my spaghetti
>sales woman kindly asks her to leave the dressing room
>trying not to cry
I hate my breasts so much, and I wish my mom wasn't such an oblivious, incosiderate ass when it comes to being in public. I wish there was a way to just make my one breast grow, it's so nerve wracking.

>>8133795
I'm a guy and even I know that tons of women have different sized breasts.

I've heard enough women complain about their breasts to tell you its not as noticeable as you think it is.

Sounds like your mom is just being your mom. My mom would always make fun of me at the pool or beach because one of my nipples would be hard and other not. she found that hilarious. Moms are weird.

>>8133795
I have that too, many women do. I used to be very self conscious about it. I don't care anymore now but I don't know if that's because they evened out, I got better bras or just got over it.
Sorry for your mom's reaction though. My mum just acknowledged it but not with shock.

>>8133811
>>8133839
Is it normal? I never made it a habit of looking at my friends chests when we were changing. But my one breast is a full cup size smaller than the other, so I have to shop for the bigger breast, and then use padding for the other cup so it fits. I was told my problem was caused from lack of blood flow or something, because I had a heart condition when I was younger...

>>8133845
yea its normal.

one of your friends is probably doing something similar.

>>8133860
Thank you for telling me, it makes me feel a lot better. I'm always so hyper aware of it

>>8133795
Anon we seem to share the same mother
Don't worry, she most likely isn't trying to be mean or embarrass you, she probably just doesn't give a fuck. My Ma doesn't either.
>Shopping with my mother
>in the middle of the store she starts lecturing me about modesty and Jesus when I ask her if we can go see some knickers
>in the middle of the undergarment aisle she asks me, very loudly, to 'turn around so she can see my bum-bum'
>other times she asked me if I'm constipated in the middle of a busy street
>mfw I'm 22 and don't even live with her
It's just how they are, I'm afraid. kind of gas if you ask me, when I was younger it used to drive me mental.

>>8121575
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1gxb2Hr0OkU

>tfw sewing a cosplay
>65ish% done
>it looks horrible and I hate it but I love the character and she means so much to me

Ughhh I'm hoping I'm just in a slump...the con is in 2 months and I need to be done but I just feel awful about it. It feels like a waste of time and money...but I don't want to let my depression get in the way of one of my hobbies. I do enjoy it......

>worst part is that I don't know if it actually looks bad or if it's just depression and body dysmorphia

>tfw so pumped to cosplay
> first time really sewing anything
> spend days on and off sewing this one part that shouldn't be too difficult
> finally done
> it's horrible.
I don't want to even try remaking it, I'd have to start from scratch and honestly I don't think that one would turn out very good either. I was hoping I could make this cosplay all myself but it looks like I'm going to commission this even though it's like the simplest thing.
>tfw all confidence in cosplay gone

>>8126219
>masturbating to 'blue is a warm color'
it's "blue is the warmest color"
you uncultured fucking swine

>>8133845
Yeah, asymmetry IS incredibly common - I have it and a few of my friends have brought it up as well. I just went on Google to check and most sites say that 10% or less of females have perfectly symmetrical breasts, so don't stress over it, anon.

>finally have money to buy a Lockshop wig I've wanted for a while
>it's sold out
>fuck this gay earth

>>8128120
You are correct, my bad about that.

Mine wasn't super short, but when I'm wearing a work uniform that's all dark colors, short nails, and a gender neutral name, I was constantly being mistaken for a male.

I buzzed half of it off, and no one mistakes me anymore?

>Move to new city
>Completely fail to make new friend in 6 months I've been here
>Redevelop social anxiety I worked so hard to handle
>No idea how to talk to new people or where to meet them
>Disgusted at how pathetic I've become.
I feel like I've become the most awkward thing ever. I can't even seem to look at other people without going bright red and shaking like a leaf. I've tried things like meetup.com but anything that I've been interested in has been either super cliquey or turned out to just be people looking for hook ups. I wish I wasn't so easily intimidated

>beeing the whole month exited for my first time meetup with my local comm
>Coord ready since last week
>Today is the day, and the only person I know just told me she's feeling bad and wont come

Help me seagulls I really want to go, but I'm scared, don't want to get there and stay in a corner in frilly clothes for hours.

>massive hypochondriac
>convinced myself I'm diabetic because I spent most of 2014 sitting at my computer being a depressed shit
>all the symptoms are there including tingling, peeing all the damn time, blurry vision etc
>get blood test results
>apparently not diabetic
>believe the doctors sent me away because they think I'm a nutcase or didn't take me seriously because I'm nowhere close to obese

I'm now too afraid to retake the test because not knowing scares me but getting a confirmation absolutely terrifies me to the core. Is it possible for a diabetes blood test to give false-negatives?

>>8134894
Do it for all the shy gulls anon! I'm going to my first meetup with the local comm next week. You can do it! Even if you're shy and spend most of the time observing at least you got out there :)

>>8134921
>spent most of 2014 sitting at my computer
>tingling, peeing all the damn time, blurry vision
There is your answer right there. To much time sitting at a screen can cause blurry vision and tingling along with mindless activities leading to drinking more.
If you don't have any risk factors or family history of diabetes and the test was negative then of course they aren't going to be worried you are diabetic because you aren't.

>>8131352
>tfw I got ill during my major internship, which aggravated my anxiety issues, caused a major burnout and resulted in me making a bad impression
I wish I had a time machine so I could do it over.

>>8135309
I did it! Actually went pretty well, everyone was nice to me and told me they liked my coord. I'm relieved now, I'm sure you'll have a good time too, good luck anon!

>>8133795
Your mom sounds like my mom, except my mom would have followed that up with a story about how her tits are totally two different sizes too + other details literally no one on the planet needs to know. She's obnoxiously oblivious, if that's even a thing. I can't even take her grocery shopping without her doing or saying something embarrassing. I know every teenager thinks their parents are embarrassing but I'm 23 now and it hasn't gotten any better...
But yeah don't worry anon, she was just being a mom. Unless you're an aspiring lingerie model nobody cares that your breasts aren't 100% symmetrical.

>Move to Louisiana
>No nerd friends
>No worthwhile cons nearby
>If I want to go to a con now, I have to drive for hours by myself, go to a con where I know nobody, and cover the costs of the entire trip myself

>>8122950
>>8122966
>>8123047
i don't even do cgl i'm just here for the feels but goddamn if you aren't the realest sometimes

>Live on my own
>Start wearing lolita
>Send mom a picture of a coord I'm really proud of
>"What the fuck?"
>My dad says she thinks I'm on drugs
>mfw

>>8136148
>Lolita
>associating it to drugs

What kind of parents do you have? Jesus Fucking Christ.

>>8132058
That's what the internet is for. Met my boyfriend online 5 years ago (he was a 24 year old virgin), travelled 6 hours to meet at his house 3 years ago. He's sleeping beside me now.

>>8123049
Yes. Yes you will.

Then watch The Plague Dogs

>>8127729
>and what the fuck is wrong with people that they keep asking if I'm a dude or not?
Seriously what the hell is wrong with people? I hate people. next time someone asks you that, you should stab them in the face. You'll be doing the world a big favor.

>>8136163
worthless post.

are you even from america? people associate alt fashion directly with punk and punk with drugs.

>>8127729
>>8136229
Yeah, that's way out of line and can cut pretty deeply to your self esteem.

I remember in elementary school I was sitting around with my circle of friends and this one "friend" said out loud in front of everyone else that I'd look like a man if I shaved all my hair off; they all giggled and agreed. Being the impressionable little kid that I was that shook me to the bone and is the reason I never wear my hair out of my face even in summer.

>>8136230
What worthless? Lolita is fucking pretty, and how can you even associate that with drugs when Lolita is supposed to be based off fashion from the Victorian era.

No offense to Anon's parents, but if they associate that shit with drugs than they must be fucking ignorant.

>>8136274
It's even more worthless now, your lolita thirst is so great.

>>8135537
>>8133895
>>8133795
Can we have an embarrassing mom support group or something

>>8134921
Dude you're not diabetic

>>8136274
No offense, I agree that shit was ignorant. My mom is pretty conservative, she usually finds anything outside of what is her "normal" to be weird but I still didn't think she would have that crazy of a reaction and jump to drugs.

>>8134921
Anxiety gives you all those symptoms too. You're not diabetic, jfc.

>>8136267
School is a cruel place mang.

>This one boy had a pretty big crush on me
>Put all these little cheesy notes on my desk every morning
>I was clearly not interested because ew boys are gross at that age
>Let him down easy one day
>He comes back the following week with an army of his mates
>They all sing/chant about how ugly I am in perfect sync

I know he was probably doing it because he was bitter about the rejection, but why would all the other boys go along with it if they didn't believe I was ugly? I now have pretty big trust issues when it comes to guys.

>>8136513
Let me tell you a story, Anon. Back in middle school there was this girl, Patricia, that the other girls would say smelled like tuna behind her back. They mentioned it to me before and I said I never noticed it. One day Patricia snaps and when everybody is changing in the locker room for gym she's sitting on one of the benches and spreads her legs and screams out "Smell my fish!"
She never smelled like tuna, Anon. People just wanted to give her shit because they thought it was funny, plus herd mentality. You're probably not ugly.

>>8136527
>"Smell my fish!"

Kek

>>8136527
Thanks for the laugh anon~ It made me feel better. He said sorry on the last day of school and awkwardly hugged me so I guess I should just finally bury this little blunder in life now.

>>8136545
Yeah, kids often make fun of you just because. I can understand people who are scarred for life by someone who called them a fatty or disgusting ginge in middle school, but kids will make fun of you for anything.

People made fun of my friend for having hairy arms and legs and she would obsessively shave them.
Me? They made fun of me for having big protruding bug-eyes and called me a pug. The kicker was that my eyes weren't even that bad, but I was even hairier than my friend as a child yet they completely ignored it. It's just an excuse, I bet you're not ugly at all.

>>8121575
>mfw I could have all the cute clothes I could want
>realize I still won't be able to put together a matching outfit.
>doomed to being hit or miss with outfits

I'm on here constantly trying to learn, looking at magazines yet, I just can not get it. At least normies still think it looks cute, but that's because they don't know what type of fashion I'm dressing as and just see pink, flowery, and flowy skirts

>tore some shit in my ankle
>Been in physical therapy for like a month
>bounce between 2 doctors
>One will give me concerned looks, but not really tell me what he is worried about
>The other one tells me everything
>have not seen the talker in like a week
>Anon, I'm really worried about how your ankle is turning in so much
>Anon it is like these muscles are not firing at all
>Wow anon this fatigues you really fast
>Anon that is not how you put your brace on at all how long have you been wearing it wrong it could be making it worse.
I'm not really sure what I like better but fuck now I'm worried about everything and I just want to wear nice shoes for lolita but nope, nooope.

>>8134656
I feel like I would be like you if I moved now. Don't give up though I'm sure you'll make friends somehow if you're nice enough.

I want to make comm friends in my area but I messed up by being a crazy fucker in my younger years

>mfw people who don't know me well either think I'm insane or a bitch
>mfw I really don't blame them

>Bidding on an auction
>Realise it's going to end while I'm out to lunch with my parents
>Will probably be checking my phone every three seconds to find out the result

It's not even a hotly contested item but I really, really want it

>have a small waist to hip ratio, apple shape, larger risk of diabetes and shit (60cm waist, 72cm hip. Not anorexic or anything, just tiny).
>plan to lose weight but
>healthy bmi
>waist-height ratio chart shit says I'm underweight-healthy
>thick thighs and I don't have a flat stomach either but I can see my ribcage when standing up straight
I'm just so confused.

>>8136989
I don't think you need to lose weight, anon. The higher risk of diabetes and other issues is mostly about high abdominal fat content, not hip size. People who are apple shaped tend to accumulate more fat in their abdominal area and that's why the ratio is often brought up, but that refers to people who are already chubby.
If your waist looks like the person on the left in pic related it doesn't really matter how wide your hips are, you're probably fine.

>I'm a med student, started psyquiatry this semester
>Have every symptom of severe borderline disorder
>Dont want to spend the few extra money that I have on a psychiatrist bc I couldn't buy lolita anymore
>Neither have the guts to tell my family and ask for help to pay it

I know it's stupid, but compulsive buying is also a symptom and somehow I want to get therapy but excuse myself all the time. Fuck my mind.

>>8136989
See if you can look into having your bf% measured, that's a lot more important than BMI, which should only really be used as a frame of reference, not an absolute. Though to be honest, I doubt you have much to worry about.

>>8136993
The higher risk of diabetes has everything to do with your diet and very little (if at all) to do with how your fat is placed. People tout that one area of fat is "healthier" but after a certain point (aka obesity), none of it is healthy in the least.

>>8137015

Sup fellow med student.

I think the most important question to ask in any mental disorder is how badly it's affecting your life, and depending how severe you may think it is, you should prioritize it accordingly. Out of curiosity, how far are you in medicine?

If you want to talk, here's my e-mail. I've also had to deal with a few things during med school (namely being terrible with dealing with stress, and almost exactly the same problem with compulsive buying), and med school itself is not exactly the easiest thing to go through. Feel free to message me anytime and I can give you my other contact details then.

>>8137022

Sorry, I think I left my contact details out. Here they are.

>>8127330
>tfw two friends died of heroin OD last month
Friend group literally dying off and I've become too boring of a person to meet new people to replace them.

>me and the bf watched my favorite anime (Madoka) together
>I want to do a cosplay with him from this series
I think he liked the anime, I didn't really ask him if he had a favorite character but when I suggested he cosplay Kyubey so I could go as Mami he vehemently refused.
>"I won't cosplay that little jerk!"
Lol, he really didn't expect what direction the anime was going. He ordered me a Kyubey plushie for Christmas but then said later he wish he hadn't because he didn't know Kyubey would turn into an asshole.
I actually kind of like Kyubey (aheheh) so I'd be willing to cosplay it, but my bf isn't very uh, 'moe' for a guy so I don't know if he could pull off a genderbent version of one of the girls. He has a huge problem with accepting that he needs a wig to cosplay, and he does have dark five o clock shadow so he definitely shouldn't do Madoka. Given his personality and fighting class (he LARPs) I think he could do Sayaka or Kyoko pretty confidently...

I had a meeting today, but I won't be going anymore.
My boyfriend got a throath inffection... and I didn't want to go alone, since he was really exited for the meet too (he likes ouji but hates short pants).
I'm a little bit sad since I worked hard coording out sets to match, but I'm also glad that he found out it was an inffection before it could get worse or get to his lungs.
He keeps blaming himself, but it's not like he could control it. I want him to feel guilty free but it seems impossible..
I told him already that there's no problem and that we'll save our coordinates to the next meet.
Sorry for the bad english

>>8137045

Maybe you could find something else to cosplay. Like from a series with more male characters..

>>8136674

I feel you regarding shitty feet/ankles. I live in a sturdy pair of boots with my orthotics and a pair of oxfords for meets. I have nice lolita shoes but don't ever wear them because even with padding and insoles and wearinga brace at night this is what happens to my shoes after a couple weeks. You can see the wear on the sole and the way my ankles roll in

>>8137045
>telling someone to cosplay Kyubey
You're the worse gf ever.

not very cgl related but I wanted to vent and didn't know where else to do so

> take Ritalin for concentration issues
> it took a while but it finally starts doing it's thing
> .. and also decided to make me feel even more down and shitty then normal

Well shit. First I need to wait several weeks before it finally kicks in and now i'll probably need to find something else.

I didn't even get the side effect where you lose your appetite which would be great for me since I'm fat with no self control

>>8137045

I thought the logical conclusion would be to do the cheesecake witch so that you could be Mami. If you make his head like a sort of helmet or hoodie you don't have to worry about what he looks like/what wig to wear, plus you could take it off him and wear it yourself for headless Mami lolz.

>only like the anime because a*hole Kyubey and magical girls dying
>episode 3 was the most fun episode
>can't explain all this to friends who genuinely like SM-type mahou shoujos

>>8137193
>SM-type
That's some tumblr psychology

>>8136513
God I remember when I was younger I used to get so much hate from everybody about my 'large lips' because they're quite plump and red , they used to call me sausage face all the time.

>mfw everybody who did it that I still know fans over silicone pumped fat lips now

>>8137199

Sailor Moon-type mahou shoujos?

Well, they do get reblogged a lot on tumblr, so fair comment, I guess

>>8137236
OH.

I thought....

.....never mind.

>>8137238

well...... I thought what you thought only after I posted. It's okay, anon. I should have been more clear.

>>8137174
What's wrong with Kyubey?
I think he's a good villain.
>>8137193
Ohh, Charlotte? I could just find a clown hoodie gijinka for him to wear, yeah haha.
I was only going to do school girl Mami so this isn't anything elaborate, and that would work out perfectly.

>>8137250
>good villain
Ugh.
Shit taste confirmed.
I bet you liked the ending of Rebellion, too.

>>8137250

Yes, Charlotte. Goes together with Mami much better than Kyubey imo.

>>8136513
At least that guy was only doing it out of insecurities and because you hurt his pride... I would constantly be asked out in middle school as a joke and the assholes friends would be laughing in the background regardless if I said yes or no. I heard from the grapevine that they even bet money on whoever could get me to comply.

>>8137253
>Did you like the end of Rebellion?
No, because I liked the ending of the anime series better. They fucked it up with Rebellion and made Homura into a selfish idiot.

Kyubey is a good villain because he's manipulative without being overtly so, and his justification as to why he's targeting young girls seems logical at face value.
>>8137262
Thank you for the suggestion, anon.

>>8137311
He's as manipulative as my recruiter.

He didn't manipulate anything he just left shit out.

Also begging Madoka every eight minutes to sign a contract isn't manipulation. If he was a manipulator he would have that shit down and we'd get a four episode series.

>>8137320
>He didn't manipulate anything he just left shit out.
"Leaving shit out" is manipulative behavior...
>what is verbal coercion
>implying he didn't "have shit down" for thousands of centuries before madoka since magical girls existed since the time of Cleopatra according to canon

>>8137342
This. I can think of two times when Kyubey urging Madoka to make a contract actually almost worked if not for Homura's intervention.
>being trapped in a witch's maze after Mami got killed
>Sayaka getting her ass beat by Kyoko

>>8137352
>trapped in maze
Except Sayaka would have taken care of that because if she didn't get a little push a little later that would have done it
>S v K
Fair point.

>>8137342
He didn't have to manipulate anyone. Look at everyone else in the series, they had their wants and desires dangled in front of them and pretty much jumped at the chance without questioning much.

That's not manipulation that's a pay off.

He'd be more manipulative if he was more like a reality show producer and "found" incidents that the girl just "happened to wander into."

I find him to be a weak villain who just worse as the show went on, it was almost like he was a crutch whenever it needed to advance.

Oriko has better villains.

>>8137362
>Look at everyone else in the series, they had their wants and desires dangled in front of them and pretty much jumped at the chance without questioning much.
Some of them became magical girls out of necessity (that scene of Mami severely injured in that car accident before making her wish) and some became magical on a whim (Sayaka wanting to un-paralyze Kyuskiko). Obviously with magical girls like Mami, they didn't have much of a choice since it was a matter of them surviving. But I'm sure if Kyubey detailed what exactly happened to their souls after the contract was made, it would have made many adverse to agreeing (hence why people like Kyoko became so angry after finding out).
Omission of facts is a kind of manipulation.

>>8137368
Oh and I use the term "villain" loosely because Kyubey was convinced that he wasn't really doing a wrong. He was merely preserving the entropy of the universe and was making a "bargain" with the victims that he was using to accomplish that. Kind of like how humans slaughter animals but some ethical ones try to give them a comfortable standard of living in exchange, as opposed to how tumultuous their lives would be in the wild.
However the point the series totes is that it's still inhumane because they're essentially lied to.

>tfw thread derailed

>tfw came into feels thread to feel only to find it derailed
>tfw no longer feel the need to post feels

>>8137386
>six post discussion about Madoka
I've seen worse. At least it isn't over completely unrelated shit like boyfriends.

> tfw not really enjoying what I'm studying for
> tfw no idea what else I could do

to be honest I just want to go NEET until I'm around 25 and just end myself since I don't really see a point in living past that anyway

>>8137235
Oh god. Middle school was hell for me. Being bullied in school and coming home to an abusive dad. It was three years of absolute torment.

Kids are evil little shits that find your one little insecurity and latch onto it, or create it.

I'll try to keep it seagull related but I mostly need to vent haha.

>my roommates are filthy, filthy pigs
>3 spoiled brats from China who never clean and are just generally disrespectful of my space and things
>clean shared bathroom for a change
>end up ruining my own hair product after the cleaning spray seeped into it
>fuck
>end up ruining $300+ of other roommates products and have to pay her back
>FUCK
BONUS:
>roommate's cat has ringworm and pretty sure I have it now too

Good news is I'm moving out soon but I am literally counting down the hours until I get out of here.

cgl related:

Waiting for my third arpakasso to come in and I'm excited!

>>8137522
>end up ruining $300+ of other roommates products and have to pay her back

A. How
B. 300$+?!?! Does she have a trailer full of shit? That's an insane amount of shampoo

>>8137486
+1

>>8137522
How do you clean so that happens? I mean, you move everything away from the surface you're currently cleaning, don't you?

>tfw go to conventions and try to get nerdy gf
>tfw no social skills so fail every time and come off as creepy
>tfw no qt to watch anime with

>>8137376
All well written villains are convinced they're not doing anything wrong. No one is evil for the sake of being evil, everyone acts according to their own moral code. This is why the proper terms are protagonist and antagonist, not hero and villain.

>>8137634
>>8137648

She left all of her containers open and doesn't close anything properly, so my cleaning spray seeped in. I was just cleaning the mirror so I didn't clear away her stuff off of the counter. Granted I probably should have....since it got into mine too.

I was shocked at the price of the products too (only 2 things got ruined) but screenshots from sephora showed that they totaled $300. Fuck me.

Lesson learned I guess.

>>8137730

Did you wash the mirror with a power washer? There is no way a slight mist of windex ruined shit

>>8137726
>no one is evil for the sake of being evil
Sure....

>>8137776
yeah beats the hell out of me, but her products did reek of the cleaner and they were diluted with it so....what are you gonna do.

>>8137901

Not give a bitch 300$, that's what

>planning on going to Sakuracon
>thought it would be in mid-april like last year
>find out it's beginning of April
>aggressively tries to get finances in order
>gonna have to finish cosplays
>no room
>still need to ask for time off
>I've never been so ill-prepared