/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>tfw just now beginning to cosplay after years of attending cons and browsing /cgl/
>tfw shit tier sewing skills
>tfw time is ticking and I'm getting older
>tfw probably won't be able to cosplay favorite characters with difficult designs because I'll be too old by the time I gain the skills

> trying to lose weight
> gaining weight instead
> why live
I've been doing more exercise, but now I'm heavier than I've ever been before. I'm hoping it's just the little hill before weightloss (I mean, last time I tried to lose weight, the same thing happened) but it's so demoralizing...

>has crisis abt aging and how i'm going to look in the future and whether it would be worth it to continue doing lolita
>tells friend
>"why are you worrying? you're only 19!"
>mfw

>>8108138
What do you normally eat on a daily basis? And are you weight lifting or just doing cardio?

If you're gaining fat it's obvious you're doing something wrong. But if you're lifting weights and it's just numbers going up on the scale, it's likely that some of it (or all of it) is muscle. A better way to tell if you've been losing weight is to measure your body fat percentage.

>>8108155
I don't eat too much. I'm a 5'1 grill after all. I'm trying for less than 1500cal/day with less carbs. I'm just doing cardio at the moment, but planning on adding weights to my program because my arms are flabby af.

> you're doing something wrong
This is what I'm worried about. I have an ED too so that doesn't help me decide what is 'normal' and what's not.

>>8108144
Just take super good care of your skin and you should be fine for many years to come. If you haven't already check out the skin care thread >>8097745 because those anons have a lot of good tips on how to combat aging.

>>8108144
I'm 30 and I just got into lolita. There are plenty of women in their late 20s doing it too.

>>8108165
>I have an ED too
...how much do you weigh? Just curious

>>8108168
thanks for reminding me of the thread i haven't checked it out in a while. my skin usually isn't very bad but i'm always up for new tips to help keep it maintained well

>>8108172
Around 124lbs r/n? Then I started exercising and it shot to 130. I started having ED when I was around 118 though?

I'm trying my best to become more feminine/be comfortable being ladylike. Normally I just throw on a t shirt a bagillion sizes to big for me and an old pair of jeans and go. But I dream of being beautiful and feeling like a princess. Not a snooty princess mind you, but something floaty and ethereal like Serenity from sailor moon. But every time I try I look at my body and realize it's impossible. I have ugly scars all over from surgeries I had to have as a child andy proportions are all off. I should just keep covering up and forget about it

>>8108181
Look into mori kei, anon. It's feminine and flowing but you're quite covered up.

>>8108181
There are a lot of ways to be feminine, and feel like a princess. You can cover up your whole body and still feel very pretty. Do your hair and make up, and then pick what you think suits you. No matter what you wear, if you feel beautiful, you'll feel like a princess. Just be the best you that you can be!

>2014
>make a new friend and ask her if she likes lolita
>she publicly says no, because it's too expensive
>begin to feel really bad because this was the last straw after having so many friends who know about me liking lolita but refuse to wear it, and wearing it alone in public and with friends would make me a walking target in my town.
>crestfallen by new friend saying she's out, combo'd with someone I look up to being post-lolita, decide to write off the possibility, twinning being a pipe dream and get stomped on by the trend of treating the fashion as passe

>2015
>that new friend buys a entire closet of lolita dresses, won't stop talking about lolita and wears it at her current college every week in full blown weeb
>are we even friends with that lack of consideration

>>8108177
The way to lose weight is to burn more calories than you take in. The calories you burn daily also counts your BMR, so calculate that if you haven't already. If you have a smartphone I recommend downloading the MyPlate app, as it's an easy way to track your daily calories and what you burn, and let's you manually enter calories so you can include your BMR. It shows you what your net calories are too, which should always be a negative number. (Pic related was what I tracked yesterday, got kinda lazy today.)

And try not to have an ED mindset. Though it's understandable that you want to be slimmer, you aren't even close to being fat. Talk to a therapist or a nutritionist if it gets out of hand, I used to be anorexic myself with a really distorted view of my body and was miserable 24/7, even when I was underweight.

>>8108181
Practicing fine etiquette (not just your common sense etiquette, actually looking up higher class etiquette) and good posture is a quick way to feel like a real princess.

Being ladylike is more about actions than looks, to be honest. Visuals help, but it's all in your actions as they tend to stand out much more.

>>8108202
>much less than calorie goal
>almost twice as much fat as protein
>142 pounds (kek)
You really ain't fit to be giving weight loss advice

>>8108232
True, yesterday wasn't really a great day for me.

Pic related is an average day for me. I'm also 5'7" so 142 isn't fat on me, still trying to lose more weight though. And I've lost 30 pounds so far using my own advice so try again.

>>8108181
>sailor moon
>ethereal
>ok.jpg

she's the definition of fake it till u make it, so maybe she's the perfect role model in your case

Posted in last thread, but didn't see new thread so:

>Doing Kanji Tatsumi cosplay
>Con is 2 and a half months away
>have some of the pieces
>Figured I could either bleach my hair blonde or go light blonde
>Don't think I could pull off blonde normally so would have to dye my hair back after con
>Get told that's a bad idea and could make my hair fall out even more
>wait, even more?
>told that I have a bald spot on my head
>Take picture of my head
>my reaction

I'm only 20 and I'm already balding. Guess I'm going to have to use a wig for Kanji, but can't find any wigs with a good widows peak and I don't want to modify wigs in the fear that I'll fuck it up.

>decide to try on a dress I bought a year ago to see if I can plan a new coord
...It feels awfully tight
>Look in mirror, thought I had actually maintained by weight
>Look at thighs
I feel like I've ballooned at my hips and thighs, didn't notice it, and now it's catching up to my waist and stomach. Life is cruel.

>>8108239
What the fuck are you doing to burn 2k calories?

>>8108382
Hehe, it includes my BMR.

>7/10 Seamstress
>havent sewn in months due to job/holidays/school
>everythings quieting down finally decide to start sewing again
>plan new cosplay, something simple to dip my feet back in water
>finish sewing bodysuit feel good about it, try it on
>3/10 looks terrible
>put away sewing machine

Im beat up about it because it was a simple thing to sew and I know I can do better ;_;
Gonna try it on again tomorrow maybe fix it up, also feel my confidence in my cosplays went waaay down since its been a couple months from the last time I made a cosplay and feel rusty

What do you guys do when you feel depressed/frustrated about your cosplay not comming out right?

To keep working, I usually tell myself it looks off since it's not finished, and it'll look better when it's all completed

>friends are waning off cosplay
>basically only one friend left to cosplay with, all my upcoming cosplays are planned with her
>she's making more cos friends through photography
>name drops local big names, brags about how they hung out once
>doesn't offer to introduce me to them in the future if anything comes up despite me being her now closest cos friend

I have a sinking feeling that she's going to drop me if any big name ever offers to do anything with her.

>Depression getting worse
>Isolating self
>Can't sleep
>Want to sell all my lolita because what's the point?
>Hesitant to sell because what if it's just the depression speaking and once I start going to see someone I get better and want to keep it?
>But I could sell my whole wardrobe for almost $10,000
>But I used to really like lolita and still like it I just...
>Wearing it just makes my anxiety worse, then it gets better but all I can think about is how deflated I feel (which is constant no matter what I wear) and how the moment is just going to pass anyways so why even bother going through all the effort of getting ready and the stress being so bad I can't eat for days before meets because eating anything makes my stomach revolt.
>On the same note why even go to university?
>I'm never going to be good at anything
>I get good grades but only so my parents don't disown me
>I wish I could just exist without doing anything, since I'm too much of a pussy/afraid of hell to end it myself
>I don't care about my friends anymore
>There's only one friend who I am vaguely interested in keeping and that's because we're besties. Or at least were. Talking to anyone at all is a huge effort.
>My (I don't want to call it an ED but vaguely resembles one?) eating issues are getting worse. It's not eating for three days, then a day or two of vomiting everything I do eat because my stomach doesn't feel right when I eat.
>My mother's coming to visit me at Uni in a few days
>I can't wait for all the comments (sarcasm)
>I have to stay about a month with my sister in May.
>My sister thinks anxiety/panic attacks are funny to watch so she likes to set them off
>Literally the only thing I'm looking forward to is staying with my one friend for a few days at her house and going to a con together with matching cosplays.
>I'm scared that if therapy/counseling doesn't work I'll be worse after leaving her, though.

>>8108202
>>8108239
what app is this?

>friends with girl who's tried to be the unofficial "leader" of my friend/cosplay group for the past 8 years
>she's constantly trying to show everyone up in how she's prettier/smarter/etc. (she's not) and trying to fuck everyone in my friend circle, me included (we would never)
>don't have ride to con last year bc I trashed my car
>she volunteers
>I'm dressed in my pearl cosplay I've worked months on, she throws on a horrible yellow wig and some sunglasses and calls it a dave strider cosplay
>meet old friend from internet
>she thirsts over him for the entire 5 hours we're there
>I care for great grandmother til december when grandma dies
>meet up with old friend again last month at my house bc he wanted to help me out emotionally
>she decides to come over at my house too
>we figure it's too late for him to go home and i'm tired as hell so i just go to sleep
>apparently they made out on my couch
>I'm not ok with that bc my house isn't a brothel so I bring it up with her, she acts like she's totally cool and understands
>was going to meet up with my other friends but had to go to ggma's funeral and feel sad again
>bitch apparently tells friends I was lying about the funeral so I could ditch them
>everyone realizes she was lying, drop her like a hot coal
>now my internet friend is trying to ask for my help because she keeps trying to trap him by saying if he doesn't start dating her she'll kill herself
>she's done this to like 6 different dudes over the past 4 years
>mfw she keeps trying to text me like nothing happened
>mfw she keeps posting about how emotional abuse is the worst thing you can do

>>8108711
She said it in one of the posts you quoted... Try one more time.

>went to v-day meet up today
>nice lady comes up to me and ask if im with the group of girls
>say yes
>lady asks what we are wearing
>i respond with "its japanese fashion. basically look cute and wear dresses"
>lady says we look darling
>thank her

lady made my day

>only 'real' friend at school not here
>politely joke with her group of friends during break
>sitting alone in all today's classes
>crush won't sit next to me even though we're apparently friends
>suddendly realise I have no friends
>lonely
>sad looser w/ too much makeup
>not even good at humaning
>want to curl in ball and cry

>>8108941
Try being homeschooled and being a complete awkward loser for most of his life up until he turned 16 and got a job. Now I have a goal of being as social as possible. I'll be your friend if you need me, anon.

>>8108944
I don't even have the excuse of being homeschooled, I've juste never been able to construct friendship. I bet I would be awful with you, not sure you want to be my friend. Good luck though, I'm 100% with you.

>left Homestuck fandom 2 years ago
>sold all the costumes i had except for 3am Jade shoes since I never finished the costume and wanted to keep them around for if another costume with similar shoes came up
>friend left fandom recently and is selling all her HS costumes
>3am dress
>my exact size
>$10
>say fuck it and buy it anyway

Confused feel I guess?? It's mostly just to do with me hating most of the fans, especially the ones in my area, though I can put up with them. And its not like I suddenly stopped reading the comic either - I failed so many exams reading it in my intense HS phase I don't wanna waste all the time I spent on it.

>>8108357
>>Doing Kanji Tatsumi cosplay
>>Con is 2 and a half months away
W-where are you anon I'm doing either Rise or Naoto for a con 2 and a half months away for a small P4 group

>>8108949
Do you have any hobbies? Find people with similar interests or experiences to yours an try to start a conversation, even if its a few seconds of awkward talking its still better than being nonexistant. Your on /cgl/ right now so it seems that we share that in common, have you cosplayed before? I am thinking about trying it.

>>8108957
I'm not a cosplayer, I'm here for fashion. Sadly I'm not that much into japanese pop-culture anymore, so recent cosplay, anime and manga are foreign to me. I have plenty of other hobbies like photography. I love to wander around and take pictures. I also like game design, even though I don't play to much video games. What do you plan on cosplaying, anon ?

>>8108960
Joseph Joestar from Jojos bizarre adventure, I've spent a while on /fit/ so hopefully I can pull it off by the time Megacon kicks around. I've spent some time on game development myself, of course I am still a very much a novice. Hows photography, is there anything you really enjoy taking photos of in particular?

>>8108965
Jojos Bizarre adventure is a bit overdone in the US, but if you're EU and fit enough you'll certainly be well recieved.
I like taking pictures of industrial buildings, old and cute streets and flowery places. I love abandonned places, so pretty.

>>8108972
You seem like an intelligent person, anon. You can make many friends, you made one just now, and If feels are getting you down again sometime in the future just remember you can and will make long time friendships as long as you express yourself some way or another.

>few months ago
>at small con with cosplay friend
>mention that I'd love to have someone to do cute couple cosplays with
>she offers we could cosplay pairings together that both of us ship
>now we're both almost done with the first one (fem!Destiel, kinda cringey, I know)
>watch a lot of fan videos and stuff to get in character
>actually get butterflies when I think about posing for photos with her/acting in character
>think I might've had a crush on her for a few months, but really unsure

I have no idea if I actually have feelings for this girl or if I'm just projecting really hard. I don't even know if she's into girls

>>8109007
FOLLOW YOUR HEART ANON

>mfw possibly subluxed or dislocated middle finger yesterday
>put it back into place
>today the tip is tingling/pins and needles
>started after a doctors appointment an hour ago
>mfw

>>8109013
I'm scared though because I've been in a similar situation before. I told the girl but ended up getting my heart broken after two months because she realized she only saw me as a friend. And it ultimately ruined our friendship.
I don't want that to happen again

>>8109023
You can learn from your past mistakes anon. You have to be 100% sure that this is what you want before you finally speak your feelings. Not 95% or even 99% sure, make it 100% 'this is what you want' kind of sure. Try to find a way to see if she feels the same way.

>>8108708
Sounds like you need to see a psychiatrist. If your depression is really that bad, therapy alone won't do jack shit. You need medication.

>>8109031
Well, I'm not 100% sure what the school offers at default, but I know they can prescribe medication or at least get a psychiatrist on premises to write the script if they feel I need it. Thank you, though.

>Seeing moitie has uploaded new stuff for reserve
>One JSK has a 0 missing off the price

Moitie you noobs, why didn't you check for typos beforehand

>>8109034
Welcome. I know your pain because I have depression myself, but my parents went through a denial phase for a couple years and had me see a social worker instead of putting me on meds. It can be pretty dangerous not to medicate yourself in case you become suicidal, it wasn't until I overdosed and got put in a mental hospital that my parents finally realized that.

Good luck, I know everything might seem shitty right now but it'll get better.

>>8109044
My parents are in denial about everything, too. It's my first year at uni, so I'm finally able to reach out for help. It took me a semester to work up the nerve though, but I seriously contemplated suicide which kind of scared me into action. The only thing that stopped me was the uncertainty of hell.
My parents (mom and stepdad) are convinced any sort of mental disorder isn't real, and it's just a bunch of people collectively making a fuss over nothing. I can tell my mom's starting to get a bit worried, since she thought the psychiatrist I went to see when I was younger was exaggerating and refused to medicate me, but I haven't grown out of this "phase" in 12 years. It's just getting worse.

And I don't talk about my sister. She thinks it's a game and likes to yell at me about personal beliefs until I go into a full blow panic and/or anxiety attack and doesn't get bored until she makes it last for sometimes up to an hour... She's two years older than me, but she acts like a complete child.

Thank you so much, though. I really do hope things start looking up, right now everything just sort of... Happening, you feel? But once again, thank you.

>>8108772
I... I think we have the same friend.

>>8108983
Thank you anon, really.

>been admiring lolita for a couple of years now
>finally buy my first couple of dresses
>reasonably thin but with a big ribcage/scoliosis/long torso
>both dresses are beautiful laid out
>one is extremely unflattering because the high waist makes me look like a box
>i've liked the dress for years and am going to have to immediately resell it

Bad feels, gulls.

>browsing for clothes
>already blew a bunch of cash the past couple of months
>"lol why do I just have this money hanging about, might as well spend it"
>building up a cart when
>email from uni finance office
>forgot to pay for accommodation this term
>WELP

Jesus, I'm an idiot. Paid it off now so that's okay. No frills or eating out for while I guess but it's my own stupid fault for not realising sooner. (An email the week before the payment was due might have been more useful, though. Is that such a hard thing for an automated system to do?)

>>8109077

Feeling you, I still have that dream dress in my closet. There's even photos of me looking wide in it because a senior comm member noticed I had the same dress and she basically dictated my whole outfit so that we could twin (I was too wimpy to back out and tell her no). I'm half her size but the high waist plus poofy blouse she picked out made me look the same size as her, except my head is less wide.

On the upside, I recently told a friend about this dress and she said if I loved it enough to hang on to it for three years, then I should look into altering it permanently by adding a solid-colour waistband to lengthen the torso. Soon as I find a decent tailor I'm going to give that a go.

>>8108122
You can commission someone, Anon

>>8109175
I probably will if I'm closing in on 30 and haven't made any progress.

Though I've kind of always had this fantasy of starting a cosplay blog with WIPs and tutorials, and being praised for good craftsmanship. I also get a thrill out of constructing things. If I were to buy all my cosplays it wouldn't be the same, you know? I'd only commission somebody if it were the absolute last resort.

>>8108953
In Missouri and con is Anime St Louis

>>8108772
tell him to call the police on her if she won't leave him alone. that's stalking and force.

>have piles
>bleeding everywhere and it hurts to shit
>doesnt matter what the shit is like - its gonna hurt and bleed
>feel too un-cute to wear frills
>tfw bloated too

feels bad gulls

>>8108458
the fuck

>>8109333

Why would it not? It would be incredibly incomplete without your BMR, it's the majority of your caloric expenditure.

>>8109333
bmr = basal metabolic rate

it's the amount of calories your body burns naturally without exercise.

>make new fiends at con 2 weeks ago
>end up hooking up with someone that night
>find out theyre married the next day
>wants to meet up again in cosplay, this time bringing their group including their spouse.
>awkward feels all around
is this normal in the con scene now?

>>8109382
slut

>>8109382
Go and do the right thing by telling the wife/husband.

>>8108202
wow the Android app is fucking hideous

>>8109426
Anon, that's clearly an iPhone.

>>8109431
I'm aware, and I was saying that the Android app looks shit compared to this one, after I looked it up.
Reading comprehension, people.

>>8109447
>Reading comprehension, people.
There's literally nothing in your post that indicated you were comparing the two.

>>8109458
Ok, I'm sorry.

>mfw i really want to lose 5kg (min) to 10kg(max) super fast
>mfw big respiratory problems so i can't exercice properly except those things you do at home without weights like squatting,stretching,planking,...
>eats between 800 and 1200 cals per day
>walk as much as i can
>I don't to lose anything
>I am so mad right now
On top of that I binge ate on chocolate and biscuits and now i feel even fatter and will be even less cute and dainty fuck it

>>8109426
You can also access MyPlate online if the app is that terrible. It's just more convenient when it's on your phone.

>see dream skirt on LM for BIN, immediately buy it
>message seller with my info so they can invoice me
>that was 4 days ago
>message still not seen
>seller has no prior feedback
>no other way to contact them
>anxiety mounting every day I log on and get no response

I know I'm probably just overreacting because I'm excited, but... how long is reasonable before I have license to really freak out?

>>8109466
people actually saying sorry on cgl? rare!

>>8108138
Diet is more important than exercise, that's not to say stop exercising. Fat is an energy, 3500 Calories per lb to be exact. You can lose 1 lb a week by having a deficit of 500 Calories in your daily Diet and Exercise routine.

Now what seems easier?

Doing extra exercises to be utilizing 500 Calories more than you consume.

Or

Consuming 500 Calories less than you exert in exercise.

Your diet is very important in determining the amount of exercise you need. At the minimum, our body's need ~1200 Calories per day to function. Figure out your diet and shape your routine around it.

>>8108138
>>8109503
Also, muscle weighs more than fat, so just because you weigh more doesn't mean you are unhealthy. This is one of the problems that the BMI scale poses in categorizing people who are "overweight", when they really just have more muscle.

Being unphotogenic is seriously bumming me out. I'm just getting into lolita and back into cosplay after not being too active in recent years, and even if I feel good in lolita or in costume, I forgot how much it sucks to hate 99.9% of photos of myself.

>>8109503
tbh I'd rather go on the treadmill than cut anything out of my diet.

>>8109515
Enjoy running for 5 hours

>>8109515
what is portion control

>>8109515
Why would you choose the harder and more time involved route over something that could be planned in under that time and then you have those hours to do something else. Are you stupid?

>>8108202
Thanks for the tip, anon!

>>8109426
>tfw I have an Android phone

>>8109503
>>8109508
I only eat about 1200 per day? My way of keeping track isn't very technical though, so maybe I'm counting my cals wrong. Nonetheless, thank you for your advice!

/cgl/ how do i lose 10lbs or so quickly (i'm about 5"3 and 125lbs)??
i can't treadmill/jog because asthma

>>8109559
Go back and read the thread because people have already given advice on how to lose weight.

Or go to >>>/fit/ because that's where these questions belong in the first place.

>>8109546
If you are guesstimating your calorie intake instead of weighing and measuring fairly accurately, you are probably consuming more than you think. Serving sizes are smaller than most people think most of the time. Giant fruits count 2-3x more than small ones...small, denser pastas (and rice) measure more than larger shapes unless you are weighing the portion, etc.
it's better to weigh and measure at first.
If you don't want to exercise, and don't really count things accurately and are re-losing weight you gained back though, it does sounds like you are only half-heartedly doing this.

>>8109559
Everyone will no doubt tell you to read the fit sticky and fuss at you but if it's just 10 pounds and a short term thing, I'd actually try one of the more severe cleanses or strict liquid/smoothie diets that have decent nutrition. No lemonade fasts or weird shit but something pretty strict and hardcore. Read reviews.

>goal is to lose about 20lbs this year
>have lost weight before by eating properly and exercising
>was not careful enough on what i was eating
>Tempomandibular joint disease pain flares up horribly many times
>cannot eat anything crunchy or chewy
>allergic to all fruits except peaches or pears
>cannot do allergy testing then shots because insurance won't cover

My allergies for fruits are so bad that touching them sometimes causing me to itch my hands until they're raw or bleeding. It also causes sinus issues because of sneezing/itchy nose. I'm on allergy meds currently (allegra) and i take it daily. Since i've stopped eating/touching fruits even with the medication, i've been fine. I also backed away from anything crunchy. I need some suggestions for soft but healthy foods please.

>at a cosplay ice skating event
>in big frilly meido outfit, with hair up in 2 little ponytails
>with friends, having good time
>suddenly little girl (maybe 4?) hugs me out of nowhere
>shes cute and is looking up at me with big eyes
>mother runs over
>"ahh! im sorry! she likes your oufit"
>me: "no, no! its ok i swear! shes cute"
>mom picks her up and brings her back
>girl is still staring at me
>wave at her
>she waves back
>feels good man
she was so cute, it was so cute gulls. really made my night!

>>8109629
>soft but healthy foods
I'm currently eating a lentil dish I just prepared and it is yummy.

>>8109636
Question. How do people ice skate in cosplay/lolita? Wouldn't you be afraid your outfit would get wet/dirty?

>>8109629
Try poaching the peaches and pears? Also look for soup and stew recipes.

>>8108144
I have the same fear anon since 15, now i'm 24. But it's more about my life that is a bit not really social, so i feel at times to lost so many occasions rather than getting old physically.

>>8109572
I've been exercising, just not counting my cals by the book (I just set a goal of how many cals per day, and try to stick to that- when in doubt, I round up..).

I managed to lose 20lbs last year, but I kind of platooned around 120 and now I'm going back up again. I want to lose another 15lbs, but what seemed to work last time isn't working this time.

I guess I'll make an Excel file or use an app to track my diet then, and see if there are any changes. I'm just slightly worried that keeping track of my cals will trigger a bad splurt of ED, but hopefully not?

>>8109645
Seconding soup, especially if it's broth-based and without noodles or potatoes.

>>8109643
A little wet, but not really dirty? I don't know, ice rinks tend to be 'clean'.

> more scared of someone skating over a costume piece tbh

>>8109055
Which one of my friends bc I'm pretty sure none of her friends frequent 4chan, which is the only reason I decided to vent. If I complained about the whole deal/called her out anywhere else she'd pitch a fit. My internet amigo is pretty chill though, kind soul, means well, etc.

>>8109643
Wear something casual, old or wash and wear in a plain dark color. Scotchguard it.
I have a couple of cheap black dresses I wear if the meet will be something like this. I can just toss them in the wash. I'm usually more worried about my wig shifting when I wipe out.

>really skinny
>everything looks baggy on me
>trying to GAIN weight
pls no hate. Wanna cosplay jojos at some point ;_;

>>8108144
Sunscreen and resting bitch face. Healthy diet and exercise. People are staying younger-looking much longer these days and things will likely be even better when you are 30+. Older Lolitas are sticking with the fashion too, and many are looking pretty darn good!

>>8108199
So maybe her financial situation's changed since 2014? Geez, I don't get why you think changing her opinion on the fashion is somehow being inconsiderate.

>>8108708
If your eating patterns are that fucked up your stomach will have shrunk, which is why after not eating for a while having a meal makes you throw up.

Also, what the fuck is wrong with your sister? >My sister thinks anxiety/panic attacks are funny to watch so she likes to set them off

>>8109643
well, i didnt skate, i WAS afriad to get my outfit wet and dirty. i was just hanging around the event to see cosplayers and meet up with friends.
how some of them gathered enough courage to skate amazes me. however the rink was pretty clean, and i didnt see any super duper elaborate cosplayers skating. so i guess most of the people there had the same mindset as me. the skaters all had black and more simple cosplays on, lots of hamsteaks skating too.

>>8109044
>It can be pretty dangerous not to medicate yourself in case you become suicidal
Heavily depends on the meds. For example, if you're under 18 UK doctors can't give you any medication but fluoxitane (Prozac) and if you're 18-21 they're very reluctant to give you anything else, but they won't give you Prozac unless you're severely depressed (read: already suicidal) because it has increased suicidal thought as a side effect and can make mild to moderate depression actively worse.

>>8109681
>if you're under 18 UK doctors can't give you any medication but fluoxitane (Prozac)
Why can't they give you anything else? I was put on Wellbutrin at 16 and it has done wonders for me.

> tfw all the suggestions threads are a mess
> tfw I have no face

>>8109643
I'm good at skating so I'm not gonna fall over unless I try to show off and do jumps. Like, I'm sure it's a problem for people that have no idea how to skate, but if you have past experience of skating there's no way you're gonna fall over unless you're racing or attempting tricks.

>comm might do an ice skating meet next winter
>excited to be wearing a fancy coord (sans excess accessories and with everything clipped tight) when everyone else is in cautious Bodyline

>>8109702
Them's the breaks. Because the NHS think it's the most reliable med, IDK. It's a bit odd because Prozac has known bad side-effects that only effect under 18s (severely) and under 24s (mildly), which the other meds don't have. It might be because it's easier to quickly stop without ill effects than other meds?

(sauce: relative attempted suicide at 15, her mum got told that was the only med they could give her and she'd only get that through CAMHS, the Child and Adolescent Mental Health Service, because a GP couldn't give it to her like they could to an adult. I also went for antidepressants at 18 and got told that since I'd only just turned 18 they'd only reallllly want to give me fluoxitane, for reasons the doctor didn't fully explain, but that since trials showed that it might increase my risk of suicide and I'd said I wasn't suicidal, they wouldn't give it to me)

>mfw I buy a super strong hair dye remover to get reddish/ginger hair that everybody seems to be getting
>mfw it leaves patches of blonde, red and dirty brown.
>mfw I've used it the max amount of times trying to fix it
>mfw work will be on my ass to get me to change it and I know my salty co-workers will love this mess

i-it's not like I wanted to be a cute red head or anything

>>8108199
Your friend did nothing wrong? She couldn't afford it, then started wearing it as soon as she could.

How about instead of feeling victimised for no reason, you ask if she'd like to hang out in Lolita some time? It's not like she was rejecting YOU when she said she couldn't afford burando.

>>8108367
What's the source on this image?

>>8109732
As someone who has suffered from mental health issues and been in and out of treatment since I was 11 years old, this sounds pretty fucking retarded to me. IIRC my doctor refused to put me on Prozac because it's considered dangerous for minors here. Who in their right mind would give a child something that could potentially make their depression worse when there are several other safe medications that can help them?

Plus, there is no one medication that will cure everyone's depression, a variety of medications exist because everyone's body is different. What might work well for one person could do the complete opposite for somebody else. Plus bodies change, meds that worked on a young person could stop working as their body grows, that's why they should be given the option to change medications as they need it.

I can confirm my jimmies have been rustled. I feel sorry for all those children not having access to the right meds, God help them.

>friend wants to do a Me!Me!Me! Cosplay with me
> super thin
>have tiny breasts though
>don't want to fuck it up and end up on here
>also don't want to let my friend down

>>8108653
I know this feel anon. I quit cosplay for years, came back to it around november.

I keep making really simple mistakes, like sewing things on the wrong side of the fabric and shit like that.

As far as getting good at sewing again goes, I've just been practising as much as I can. No costumes yet, just really easy things like skirts.

I'm lucky in that I have some friends who say they'll help me out with cosplay. It was a little embarrassing admitting that I've completely lost my touch, but hopefully I'll get it back soon and be able to help them instead!

>>8108656
I'm sorry anon :(

Now might be a good time to start branching out and making some cosplay friends of your own. If you already have costumes planned, make sure that you go to the meetups for that series at the next con you go to and pass your facebook/tumblr around so that the people you meet can get in touch.

I don't think it's that weird to do this - a girl at a homestuck meetup gave me a little origami scotty dog with her tumblr written on it. It was a cute gesture, so I added her. You could try something like that!

I know it feels pretty bad breaking up with a 'good' friend like this, but take solace in the fact that to most of those 'big names' she's just a brown-noser who they'll never actually get along well with. Nobody likes a social climber.

>>8109771
Be the guy in it, That way it's still Me!Me!Me!

>>8108708
Yeah, I'd see a doctor. If not about your depression and anxiety, then at least about your stomach pains. All these things in combination could well be symptomatic of something else, so it's better to be certain.

Also, remember that you don't HAVE to take medication if you don't want to. Your doctor will recommend it, and personally speaking it's worked for everyone I know, but if you're uncomfortable a good doctor will refer you to a therapist without pressuring you to take meds.

>>8108653
Not a cosplayer, but I had a similar thing happen to me over the week end.
>Haven't sewn since September
>Friend kindly drives me to the fabric store and I have a coupon
>feelsgoodman.jpg
>get some super cute fabric that was heavily discounted
>decide to do a simple project with it (matching PJ pants for my mom and me)
>get super excited and dive right in
>they come out wearable, but flawed
>beat myself up about it all night, because I wasted my time and the cute fabric

At least my mom likes hers and think they're great, but I know that feel. It was so simple, and I usually do harder projects.
Don't really have any advice to how to get over it...I'm looking at the pants now and trying not to start the self-hate cycle in my head. Hopefully if I just leave them for a while I'll be able to think of a way to tweak them or something...

>>8109771
You can try something like >>8108224 if it's possible to tailor your outfit around it, there are other ways to make fake realistic tits as well.

>>8109038
So... does that mean you can buy it for the price advertised?

I'm not sure if that's just a UK trading standards law or if it applies all over the world.

>>8109788
That's true, I could do that. I kinda waved to try to match her though, but that's an option.
>>8109800
I could definitely do something like that!

>>8109801
Most likely they would cancel the invoice or force you to pay the real price or else you'll get blacklisted (I imagine that's what BTSSB does). The listing has disappeared from their site though, so it's either sold out or they've taken it down.

>>8109185
I think you should go for it, anon. Maybe not with the tutorials just yet, but people will like seeing your WIPs and seeing you progress. Keep it humble, accept advice and criticism, and I think you'll do wonderfully.

>younger friends are getting more into tumblr bullshit
>aka "respect otherkin identities!" and "sex repulsion is totally normal! you're ace!"
>older friends are plowing forward with personal projects
>tfw I just want to sit around in lolita and watch anime/play vidya and ignore them both

I do have personal projects, I just feel hugely stressed out by other shit and don't want to touch them most of the time. Oh well.

>>8109896
What's sex repulsion, does that mean people who hate sex?

> be me
> join a new community
> really happy when instantly invited to a facebook group chat
> all of these people are awful except one
> endure for months
> one is a dramatic attention whoring replica chan who changed being upset at a morally wrong situation when it gave her more exposure
> other is creepy brolita who asks weird questions and looks weirder
> finally confess to cool lolita that I can't stand the others
> neither can she!!!
> break off into own group and becoming closer

Finally a lolita friend! I'm so excited!

>Sprain my ankle
>First that say oh it is so bad because you have both a high and mid ankle sprain
>Now they are saying I have fucking nerve damage.
FUCK EVERYTHING. I was too scared to have the "Can I wear heels any time soon?" talk with my doctor because it is still a fucking "So when can I walk again?" question and fuck it I just want to wear pretty dresses and shoes and I hate to say it but I fucking miss work.
I wanted to buy a shit tun of new lolita shoes, I even tossed/sold a bunch in anticipation of buying new ones and all that is so silly now that I will probably be wearing an ankle brace for a year+
FUCK.

>>8109922
It's when you recoil at the very idea of having sex. Being sex-averse is just "I don't want to" whereas being sex repulsed is "that is disgusting and people who do it are disgusting" - it's actually usually a sign of mental illness/depression or even a sign that the repulsed person is dealing with abusive behavior from their partner. Of course tumblr ignores that and just tells everyone they're ace.

>>8110015
In a way I'm glad they're doing it because it's almost a Darwinism in that these dumbfucks are acknowledging they're inferior by staying out of the gene pool, but that's just the ex-/pol/ in me talking.

Then again, pretty sure most of tumblr's userbase is made up of confused teenagers so hopefully some of them will get better as they mature.

>when the new fabric you got is so ridiculously soft and luxurious that you just spread it on the floor and lay on it for a while

>>8110037
>when you get fabric in a yard sale and you only realize how long it is when you're hanging it up after washing
Looks like I don't have to cut down the list I wanted to do with the fabric after all

>tfw new spouse openly laughs at you and then tells you she will never be caught dead at a con, let alone dressed up.
will never know the feel of rolling into a con with my qt and our cosplay on point.
It stung more then i thought it would, all those ideas crushed.

>tfw old school hime dress I've wanted for a while finally comes up on auction but it's being scalped for $300

>>8110061
>Not finding that out BEFORE you got married.

U dun goofed anon.

>>8110061
Not trying to share shit or anything, just honestly curious, but why the fuck would you marry anyone who puts you down like that?

>>8110096
Not married, Just been together that long that we mind as well be. And if this was the only thing she had a problem with then i can deal with it. There were far worse things she could not like. Haha

>trying to become more active in local comm
>comm is known for its drama
>try to be polite and friendly without doing anything to call too much attention to myself
>dreading the day I end up on btb just because someone feels like stirring shit

I know it wouldn't be the end of the world, but I'd genuinely like to make some local friends in the hobby. Ugh.

>>8110083
Price check for its value + shipping in ¥ when it was released, that might be why. Search for other sales since then and see what it's going for. Some dresses are just sold above retail and it's market value, not scalping. If you can find one that sold fairly recently for less or several cases where it did, then I'd call scalping. I've paid over retail for an old-ass dress but it was in damn near perfect condition too! I don't mind.

>finally find a dream dress in the exact cut/colorway i've wanted for a great price
>pic related to current feels
>might regret this later ($200+ down the drain that i could have used for other hobbies) but for now i don't even care

>gain 30 pounds in a year
>try and lose it by going to the gym 5 times a week and cutting calories
>tired and hungry all the time
>takes 6 weeks to lose 3 pounds
>boyfriend/gym-buddy losing 4x as much
>lose hope
>never look good in j fashion or cosplay
>cry

>tfw friend wants to cosplay a pairing with me
Wh-What does this mean, /cgl/?

>>8110455
What's the pairing?

>>8110463
I'm almost embarrassed to say, but it's a pretty rape-y pairing

>>8110467
almost too embarrassed to say*
fix'd

>>8110083
Maybe the price is higher because they know it's harder to find? With those situations, you are taking the chance it will come up cheaper (or even at all) later and meanwhile, no dress for you. Sometimes it's OK to pay a little more if it's so hard to find.

>Ate a whole freaking pizza
Dammit

>>8110601
how

>>8110604
I always marvel at that as well, I can only ever eat 2 slices, no matter the type.

>>8109511
I know that feel. I've been trying those tips for more flattering poses but I never look right. I think its probably because of the way my cosplays are constructed. I'll have to fix that. Maybe it won't be so bad when I start drafting patterns properly (altering sloper blocks and all that)

>just landed my dream job doing cakes for a bakery i've admired for 5 years
>everything going great until they need me to be on super early bread shift for a month or so
>have to switch sleep schedule from waking up at 10 am to being up for 3am shift
>ideally want to sleep from 1pm to 7-8pm
>been going to bed at 2 or 3am
>decide to say fuck it and pull an all-nighter the first night to get into the swing of things since it will be light anyways
>we're closed due to snowstorm
>have to try to stay up, alone for 8 hours
>tired as fuck already
>not sure how to stay awake
>want to make cosplay stuff
>can't make too much noise because roommate is sleeping
>have to sit around on computer till 8am
I guess I'll try to just game or something, I don't know. Not really sure how I'm going to do this.

Help.

>be cosplayer
>also be costumer
>be more interested in cosplaying obscure fancy shit than anything vaguely recognizable
>unhappy with all recognizable cosplays done
>considering giving up cosplaying entirely to just stick with original costuming
>would probably be happier
>is there even a community for that?

>>8110467
could be innocent, could be coming on to you. how close is the friend?

>>8110715
see the larp community ?

>>8110740
i'm in the U.S., so our larpers aren't costume hardcore, unfortunately.

>>8110757
So maybe historical reenactment ? Or fantasy style ? Apparently renfair is a thing in the US.

>>8110757
SCA depending on where you live.

>>8108165
>5'1
Height buds.
Are you sure you're counting your calories correctly? A lot of people don't really understand that serving sizes are really fucking small. I like to eat like a grizzly bear preparing for hibernation, but I have to eat the saddest, tiniest portions just to maintain my weight. Sucks being fucking short, since means less food. I only go to the gym so I can eat more, tbh.

>going to do couple cosplay with friend next month
>not heard anything from a friend for two months
>i'm nervous because my own cosplay is almost ready
>not sure if friend has even done her costume or remembers the couple cosplay
>can you please even take this seariously?
>you are the one who asked for this

Am I the only one who hates when doing couple cosplay the other person doesn't seem to take it seariously?

>>8110789
There is no "a" in "seriously", anon.

>>8109658
eat to a specific schedule (maybe the bmr of the size you want to be), even if youre not hungry, track the calories and aim for nutritious but calorie dense food.

>feeling bloated and like I've gained heaps of weight recently
>someone even asked if I was pregnant
>measurements actually haven't changed at all since I last measured myself (which was probably more than a year ago?)
>still feel like a fat fuck
I'm a US2 so it's not a 'real' problem, but it's slowly killing my self esteem.

>>8110037
>>8110051
>tfw get fantastic fabric in a charity shop for £3.50 and it turns out to be 5 meters plus in length when you get home
i cant wait to finish my matching ouji/loli outfits

>>8110158
>>8110516
You both have a really good point, thank you! I might just go ahead and go for it, even though I have seen it cheaper in past sales on egl, just because it's so hard to find.

>>8109765
/a/, probably.

>>8109767
Well, the other medications aren't entirely safe either (although I was hyped when I found out that the one you said you'd been on didn't have sexual side effects and I might try to switch to it). Sage for long boring crap, but this is pretty much how the conversation at 18 went:

>I've been depressed, I can tell it's getting worse because I've had these sorts of symptoms before, I spent two years suicidal when I was younger and I'm scared if I don't intervene now it'll get worse
>[relative] attempted suicide, things at home are really tough right now and I have exams soon, is there anything you could give me?
>or anxiety meds, other mental health professionals who saw me at CAMHS before I turned 18 have suggested I take anti-anxiety medication, what about that?
>"so anon, you're not suicidal right now?"
>n-no but I can sense my depression getting rapidly worse and meds take 4-6 weeks to start doing anything so I don't wanna wait until I actually want to kill myself to get help [bear in mind that when I finally got help when I was younger every mental health professional I interacted with gave me the "why didn't you go to the doctor's earlier?! spiel]
>"and you only just turned 18?"
>three months ago, yes
>"sorry anon it's legal to give you other things but I'd only want to give fluoxitane to people your age and we can't give it to you because it might make you suicidal"

>>8111691
>what about anxiety meds? the NHS mental health service told me to self-refer to the GP and request anxiety meds!
>"I have the record of your referral here but no other evidence that you actually have anxiety problems and aren't just making this up, besides, aside from a few older drugs, it's normal to give SSRIs for anxiety problems now and SSRIs might make your depression worse"
>b-but [other female relative] and [family friend] had taken anti-anxiety meds in the past and they worked really well apparently! like, beta blockers? is that a thing? [didn't know at the time about anti-adrenaline meds, which were apparently what the relative had taken that worked so well]
>"are you having panic attacks anon?"
>no, just [other severe anxiety symptoms, shakes etc]
>"sorry beta blockers are just for panic attacks because they only treat physical symptoms, what about other therapies? haven't you been referred to that? I think that's a more appropriate treatment"
>there's a waiting list nearly a year long for that sort of treatment
>"oh well I'll ring them and see if I can get you prioritized because of the trouble in your family"

>>8111692
...
>"good news, anon! you can have an appointment to assess your suitability for cognitive behavioural therapy in three months!"
>but three months is ages away can't I have some other intervention before then
>"I'll think about it but I don't want to give you anything because meds are serious business and I don't have evidence of your problems on file and CAMHS aren't replying to my emails requesting information, come back in two weeks"
...
>"well it's almost not worth it giving you them now because by the time the medication builds up to a sufficient level in your body to have an effect you'll have a therapy appointment"

>>8110061
Openly laughing is cruel, never being caught dead at a con is entirely reasonable.

>>8110153
NW friend?

>>8110706
At least it's only a month, right?

>>8110715
Go for it, anon.

>>8109896
Ehh, I'm sure that there are genuine asexuals out there who are more indifferent than repulsed by sex but exaggerate because they're immature, or because they're so sick of people refusing to believe they're asexual unless they ramp up the hyperbole. I mean personally I'm gay and I actually find heterosexual sex pretty repulsive, which I think is entirely within the spectrum of normal, but I'm not gonna go on about it at length or act like all heterosexuals are disgusting because of it because I'm not fucking 15. (Admittedly, I did do this a little at 15, but I grew out of it. Thankfully tumblr didn't exist back then.)

> shitty day
> fucked up my lab
> fucked up my test
> got ditched my classmate
> also BTSSB package arrived but I wasn't home so I'll have to wait another day to recieve it
Or so I thought. I just checked the tracking number and it says that it's already at the post office and I still have a chance to get it today?

> pls don't disappoint me silver lining

>Festivities are coming in my country, mom and dad are gonna dress up in matching costumes, mom asks me if I wanna go with them.
>I'm OK with it but not ery excited, we go out hunting for costumes.
>Dad goes WHY DON'T YOU WEAR YOUR LOLITA.
>At every costume I point I could wear dad goes again BUT WHY DON'T YOU WEAR YOUR LOLITA.
>Mom thinks all the costumes I like are terribly expensive,and I'm not willing to wear a badly crafted costume, so I tell her it's probably better if I wear a cosplay I already own.
>BUT WHY WON'T YOU WEAR YOUR LOLITA
>Mad as fuck at this point, I turn to dad and yell "Well, and why don't you shove a stick up your ass and go as a popsicle?"
>GOD SHIT ANON NO NEED TO BE DISRESPECTFUL IF YOU ARE GOING TO BE SO RUDE YOU BETTER NOT COME.
Dad, you are a retarded asshat, and I'm not gonna to wear a 500$ beautifully crafted dress to an occassion where a drunk person could spill shit on it. Also lolita is not a costume.

>>8111731
Well, you were a little (very) rude. Can't imagine saying that to my parents ever. I admit they were being annoying, but you could have explained it to them a little better than 'YOU HAVE A STICK UP YOUR ARSE', y'know?

>>8111731
>she thinks lolita isn't a costume
>this is what lolitas actually believe

>>8111725
Tell us how it goes, anon.

>>8111735
I have been into lolita for 10 years so my father knows it's not a costume and I would never wear it as a costume, much less to an ocassion where something could happen to it andthen endure the "WELL Y'KNOW YOU SHOULD HAE BEEN INTELLIGENT ENOUGH NOT TO WEAR SUCH AN EXPENSIVE DRESS TO THIS KIND OF SETTING" my father would pull. Also, they offered to go in matching costumes so it was rude and a very poor attempt to piss me off. Then, my father is into outrageous fashion as well (in fact, he's a biker and a rockabilly) and if I said to him to just wear his everyday clothes out and call it a costume he probably would have beat the fuck out of me. I think it was probably a bit of an exaggerate reaction but not rude at all, since he was rude first.

>>8111751
You probably don't wear lolita every day anyways, I doubt you own more than 1 dress since you sound 13.

>>8111751
Nah, it was still rude, unless your English is meaning some nuance is lost in translation. It would have been better to just point out that he'd be offended if you asked him to go in a biker costume.

>>8111751
Different cultures, I guess. What ethnicity are you?

>>8111738
>>8111755
1/10 you got me to respond. Also samefag.
>>8111756
Probably rude wasn't the word I was looking for, I apologize for my english; but I meant that he would literally have beaten me, his "biker lifestyle" it's even more important to him than lolita is to me, he takes that extremely seriously and if someone tries to explain to him that there is not a biker lifestyle but people who hang out and ride together he gets enraged and is willing to get involved in physical fights. Also I just answered that in the spur of the moment, he shouldn't have been so disrespectful, knowing lolita is important to me and having explained to him for so many years that it isn't a costume.

>>8111758
Spanish.

>>8111731
It must be nice having white parents

>>8111696
>>8111692
>>8111691
I don't think every medication is 100% safe as all of them have risks, but there *are* safer alternatives to Prozac.

Wellbutrin seems to work for a lot of people, I know many who have taken it as teenagers. It's got some irritating side effects that some people get but it's better than feeling suicidal all the time.

>>8111739
Well, the post office closed right before I got there. Guess today's just not my day.

>>8110198
Congrats, anon! Which dress?

>Brother is going to jail
>He has two kids and a partner who is in the middle of going back to school
>Ruling was originally much lighter but state agenda shit picked a bunch of cases to make an example of
>Family is at a loss
>Worst case scenario has me becoming a full time nanny for them until all this is done
>I have student loans and was planning on moving out in a few months to start career
>Will probably get a part time job to help funds.

I'm just so mad at how selfish people can be, to screw over multiple families just to further their own agenda. I don't even know what to do, I can't in good mind just leave my family to deal with this when, as a recent graduate, i'm in the best position to help with the kids since I'm unemployed.

>>8111949
wat he do?

>create a local comm
>only a handful of lolitas here
>2 are very manly girls that won't ever wear makeup, one of them is overweight, other is over 6'
>one is a qt
>one is a twiggy male
>last is a man with breasts
>I've made an awful mistake

>>8111953
He got his license revoked a few years ago from getting too many DUIs. Thing is it's been years, he turned his life around and got his shit together. It's just hard to have a family and live in the suburbs and not drive. What got him in trouble was someone hit his car on his way to daycare.

>>8109185
Go for it anon!

>Wants to buy a cute suitcase for anime conventions only.
>Same anon with the bedbug issue because of my mother.
>Mfw if I get a fabric suitcase it might attract bugs.

I have to buy a metal one which is more expensive.

>>8111954
its a shame when people who are supposed to meet standards fall short. I sure hope they apologised for making your life a living hell by existing.

>>8111954
>ban everyone except the qt
>hope other qts show up

>going to pool party: the con
>deliberately looking at skimpy/bikini designs for gijinka or chars
>tfw probably to be called an attention whore/fake geek grrl/plethora of other dumb shit

>Started watching Cute High Earth Defense Club LOVE
>Want to cosplay as some of these guys
>can't because I'm a guy with some masculine features

Sometimes I just really want to be cute /cgl/

>>8112185
>want to cosplay Pyramid Head
>can't because I'm a dainty female with delicate features

Sometimes I just really want to be tough.

>>8109765
Don't know how to use Google, anon? Just reverse image search it and you'll get your answer.

>>8109923
Glad to hear that it all worked out!

>>8108086
>sugardaddy dropped me for a prettier girl
>said I was asking for too much and that she was getting paid half
>convinced myself he was lying until I saw them walking around town acting cozy

>>8108944
how do you just go out and "be social?" i'm in college and i sit in my room a lot of the time outside of going to club activities/parties.

>lately noticing the rise of an upcoming trend
>slight feeling of dread

Has anyone else noticed the ever increasing popularity of those round Harry Potter type glasses?

>in LDR with normal guy
>start up conversation with an ex(?) who loves japan, is overall weeb who hides his power level and frequents a few boards, remember all the good feels and bond again
>ex is in ex standing only because of distance
>not worth doing anything about because theyre equally on the other side of the continent
>feel feels for both but 4chaner understands the chan-er way of life
>ex also had really great sex but theres that 10% of me who cant trust him because he talks like he gets girls
>i just want to be on that side of the world and have both of them for different reasons. We could do cute cosplays and hed be small enough to do ouji in brand if i wanted to do lolita.

>>8112356
>mfw will never get a sugardaddy

>>8112440
Yep I bought a pair already a couple months ago.

>>8112459
tbh it's really not that hard, I just posted contact information on cgl one day asking for one and sifted through the guys

most of them were crap but that's how it always is you know

>>8110706
>not sure how to stay awake
I'm jealous.

>people always telling me i'm pretty and talented and unique and they're jealous of my things
>am child in adult's body
>have nearly $30,000 in student loans and credit card debt
>don't have a job because social anxiety and trying to be "artist"
>not confident enough to market myself
>a lifetime of depression and anxiety
>no energy to do anything except sit on computer most of the time
>only feel like doing anything at night, stay up until 5 or 6 am, sleep until 2pm, repeat every day
>am only happy when i'm with my boyfriend sometimes, but such a waste of time and i get even less done
>he's relatively successful and it just makes me feel more useless especially since he's always urging me to get my license and that i better be able to afford to move etc.
>if i don't he'll either leave me or i'll have to live with the shame of being dependent on someone who guilt trips me
>i have to pay $500 a month bills but i've been out of a place to do art for a few months so i don't have commissions or any money
>i'm still shopping online and have a lolita wardrobe and a figure collection
>i could sell it all but then i think it would make me feel even shittier
>why even live

>>8112580
Get your shit together Anon.

>>8112580
...can I be your e-friend?

>>8112580
>>why even live
just get a sugardaddy it makes life a lot easier

>>8112580
Are you me? The debt I've amassed from student loans is a little less, but still, we share the same concerns. The trick is not to think about it too much, honestly. Just take things at your own pace. If you start dwelling on the negative aspects you'll only become apathetic and making yourself motivated will only become more difficult. Do things in moderation and eventually you'll find some kind of balance.

>tfw self conscious about skin color

I know I shouldn't let others get to me, and no matter your skin color you should still cosplay whatever (but just do your best anyway), but damn, sometimes it feels weird not having fair skin. Not sure how to feel being judged about something I can't exactly change about myself.

>>8112440
>hipster.jpg
I bought a couple pairs two years ago. They look horrible with my face shape, I can't imagine them looking good on the majority of people.

>2 days before Christmas eve mom calls
>Step-dad has cancer. It has spread so they can't operate.
>Have to pretend everything is fine during holidays because step-dad's 10 year old son doesn't know and they want to give him a happy Christmas
>Spend holidays comforting crying mom and listening how I am lazy and it's my fault if I can't get sleep due to insomnia or get up early because of depression
>She also mentions every day how it would be best if I left my boyfriend and moved back home because he doesn't love me (wtf mom)
>Also tries to guilt trip me into moving back because "she might need comforting soon"
>Get txt message from bf to call him as soon as I can
>My cat is sick and he took him to a vet
>Everything is looking better and he says he will be ok
>Week later get new message. They had to go to the vet again and he isn't looking too good
>Tell mom I need to get back home asap. Explain my situation when she asks
>Doesn't care. Can't blame her. Her husband is dying
>Go home. Love cat for a week as much as I can
>He gets worse again
>Rush him to a vet on a sunday night
>Nothing he can do. Gives me the option of either amputating his penis or putting him down and tells amputating wont help for long
>Have to put him down
>Sob on vet's floor with unconscious cat in arms

I'm sorry, not /cgl/ related. I guess I just had to rant somewhere. At least I lost some weight because I couldn't eat much for 2 weeks so I might get back to cosplaying.

>>8112737
Shit Anon this is a crap year for you. I'm so sorry.

>have qt3.14 trans girl gf
>she's 6'4 and due to family constraints can't transition yet
>she gets to let her girl side out at cons though and I'm happy for her
but
>her height and build make me afraid people will always just see her as a crossdressing dude instead of...well, a girl
>feels sad man

I want to help her so badly, but there's not really much either of us can do until she's out living on her own, which is impossible at the moment.

>>8112774
>family constraints

I meant like...bigoted parents. Fuck it's too late and I'm having a lot of emotions.

>>8112774
>she
>girl
>her
>6"4 man
lol ok

>having the shittiest week
>was shark week, so feeling anything but cute and couldn't/didn't feel like going out in lolita
>hermit so don't usually go out anyway
>figure out ex still has feelings but dunno if I wanna open that can of worms
>cherry on top when I find out my local lolita comm is the personification of tumblr
>literally everything included but that otherkin shit
>mfw my comm admin says "we're the best comm"
>same girl that went baww about her feelings on rufflechat a few weeks ago and made an embarrassment of herself in a thread that had nothing to do with her bawws
>comm posts recently are of the "wear what you want!!!" variety
>suddenly understand why comm is so mediocre in fashion and style

I'd like this week to wrap up now and I'm tempted to be a lone lolita.

>>8112737
I'm so sorry anon, losing your cat companion is such a horrible thing, especially with all of the other stuff. I hope you feel better, it's hard losing a precious family member :(

>tfw all my packages slipped under customs' radar
THANK YOU FREE AIR SHIPPING

>>8112752
>>8112814
Thank you. I took it very hard. I loved that cat to bits. We were so close and he was my best friend.
Now I wish step-dad has the strenght to fight and will get better. I can't even imagine how my little brother feels if he loses his dad.

I just bought my first dream dress for a steal on yja.
I honestly feel like crying now. It was the dress that made me fall in love with lolita all those years ago and goes for twice the price on the Western market.

I thought all those feels about people crying after they got their dream dress were exaggerated but now I know. I know it very well.

>cut own hair
>accidentally shave hair 1/4" too short
>look like a retard
at least my hair grows sort of fast

>>8108086
>buy celestial in fave cut fave color
>antique key fave cut fave color
>glitter party shoes
>milky cross jsk in fave color
>SS doesn't ship for months
>shipped yesterday
>tracking left japan today
~\(≧▽≦)/~ tears of infinite joy!!!!! To give you an idea of how long it took, my celestial was bought online during the initial release.
>wtf

>>8112819
>tfw I just received a ton of basic wardrobe staples
>tfw the number of unique coords I can get out of my wardrobe practically doubled
Today is a good day.

>parents bugging me about my health, send me some multivitamins
>try one
>tastes good
>eat more since I'm hungry
>if one is healthy then a bunch is super healthy, right
>check packet
>"One a day, do not exceed the stated dose"
>"excessive consumption may cause a laxative effect"
>A few hours later the prophecy is fulfilled

RIP Anon, who shat herself to death after ODing on multivitamins

>>8113038
Hey, at least you've got a squeaky clean pooper

>>8113038
Are you stupid?

>>8113038
youre a goddamn idiot who's lucky they didnt poison themselves.

>>8113038
How did you not know that you could OD on those? They're VITAMINS after all, not candy.

>>8113038
>parents bugging me about my health, send me some multivitamins
> OD on multivitamins

yeah I can see why they'd bug you about your health

>>8112737
I'm so sorry for you anon!
I would legitimately cry more over my cats' death than over the death of a close relative.

>taking history class
>already missed two classes this semester due to having the flu
>maximum classes we're allowed to miss is is two without getting a lower grade
>class starts in 20 minutes
>getting ready to leave, but suddenly start to feel really sick
>trash can in my lap in case I puke
>not sure if I can make it to class today

There goes my chances at getting a decent grade in this class, because I'm shit at history to begin with.

>>8112455
Uhm... Better you stick with your bf rather than your ex, dont fuck up your current relationship for a past lover if he isnt really faithful bf material especially.

>>8113040
YES, AND MY ASS KNOWS IT
>>8113043
I'LL NEVER MAKE THIS MISTAKE AGAIN, I SWEAR
>>8113052
THEY TASTED GOOD AND IT'S NOT LIKE THEY'RE REAL MEDICINE IS THE THING THAT I THOUGHT
>>8113039
Maybe I'll lose some weight too? Silver linings.

>>8113094
>IT'S NOT LIKE THEY'RE REAL MEDICINE IS THE THING THAT I THOUGHT
Confirmed idiot.

>>8109870
Oh, thanks. :^) It feels great hearing that from other seagulls.

>>8113094
Everything in moderation. Just because something is good for you, doesn't mean it will still be good for you when you overconsume it.

>>8113038
>OD on vitamins
Er, the only real things you have to worry about are the selenium and iron. There isn't a big enough concentration in most medium-sized multi-vitamin containers to make you dangerously sick in the short term. Especially since Vitamin C gives people the shits and that stuff would probably empty from your system very quickly.
Just drink lots of water today and you should be okay by tomorrow.

>>8113038
Listen to some life advice:
"The more the better" is a lie. The healthy middle is the best, this applies to everything in life.

>>8113161
>Iron and Selenium
You also have to worry about Vitamin A, mainly the non-water soluble vitamins are the ones which can be stored in your fat for a long time.
Although it's nearly impossible to overdose from recieving Vitamin A through things like vegetables, beta-carotene, the one often in vitamin gummies, is what you gotta watch out for.

>>8112580
..h-holy shit are you me, except minus the boyfriend and credit card debt? I actually had a break down a few months ago stressing over my art that i just stopped drawing and everything all together for a few months. I have a good friend though who's been cheering me on as i slowly gather my witts again. It's very stressful and scary when I see how efamous and successful my friends are, and I can't even get into a single Light Gray Art Lab show. It's my own fault though

>>8113184
That debt is from Student Loans, not credit cards, also >>8112580 isn't it possible for you to take a class at a community college and still qualify as a student, thus delaying your payment date.

>>8113163
That's why the new saying is, "Always in moderation.."

>wants to transfer to state university
>went to look at the town and see what it has to offer
>town is half an hour from interstate
>literally nothing
>walmart is the highlight of the town
>biggest town about an hour away
>not planning on taking my car
>don't wanna go to that university now because there is nothing in the town
>that university is the best for my major in the entire state
>cries

>>8113176
Hypervitaminosis can be fatal but you need to chug a tonne of vitamin A D and E to get there, you're correct about all that.

>>8112440
My sister got a pair and they looked surprisingly cute on her (think moe nerd), but when I tried them on they looked awful. It's face shapes, I guess.

>>8112802
Ehh, you can be in the comm Facebook group without attending meets more than once a year or so. I'm in mine and I basically only bother turning up for ILD, when we get a bigger and better turnout than the ita regulars. I live in hope that some of the biggest drama-llamas and itas will move away or quit the fashion and we can start to build a better comm.

>mfw I turn up to meets so rarely and my comm has such a high turnover of regulars that on ILD people keep assuming I'm new
>if I get "that's a really amazing coord for a newbie!" one more fucking time I will stab someone

>>8113026
>tfw need more wardrobe staples
>apart from a couple more blouses, most of the things I need more of (hats, bags, shoes, parasols) are bulky so shipping is expensive even though the items themselves are cheap
>perenially tempted by the fact I can get 3-4 new dresses for the same price inc. shipping as buying accessory items to improve existing coords
>some dresses I really like are about to sell out
>if I buy them without buying the staples I won't be able to make coords with them anytime soon (was gothic, moving into sweet-classic)
>if I don't buy them I'll probably never see them again
>what do

If I buy the new dresses, I'm going to have to repeat old outfits to meets as I won't be able to coord them. If I don't buy the dresses, I'l be repeating outfits anyway only with better accessory game (and some sweet-classic accessories I can't use until I buy sweet-classic dresses).

>>8113057
If it isn't far from your dorm to your lecture, turn up and wait til they send you home. You'll get marked as attended, probably.

>$1,700 tax return
>Right as I'm about to hit my first con of the year

>>8109786
Thanks for replying anon. I've been meaning to start a facebook strictly for cosplay related purposes - not like a page for myself for "fans" but like a profile with an alias to befriend local cosplayers so I don't have to be linked to my real name.

I'll try to make sure we go to a meetup although in the past we skip photoshoots because it's super awkward for me but hopefully I'll break out of my shell a little. I'm also only going to the con with her (since our other cosfriends have decided to give up on con-going) so we'll probably be doing everything together.

I actually think she'd be able to become "friends" with them because she'd probably offer to do free shoots and edits for them. They'd benefit with free photos and she'd benefit by having them get her name out there. I do have to admit that she's quite artistic and photoshops well, problem is she knows it too so she can be quite full of herself. She's also a frail looking girl which already gets extra points for not looking like the local creepy photogs. I know you're trying to make me feel better though! Thanks.

>I just got a boyfriend
>I met him on /cgl/
T-thank you seagulls. I'm crying.

>>8113288
Are you from

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>wrote last exam of 4 today, no exams until end of march
>started diet as new years resolution, but exams took all the energy I had
>had to concentrate on studying and not falling into depression
>No fun allowed; eat, sleep, work, study, repeat
>gained weight instead
>don't fit into lolita anymore
>chances of getting this 94cm bust and 78cm waist into my beloved Honey Cake are exactly 0%

Ok, so how would a stress-eater with a tight time-schedule lose her fat?
I'm really sad, I'm starting to get from the chubby area to the plus-size and I don't want that.
O-or, should I just give up and get my brand altered..? I just want to be kawaii again..

>>8113294
The first thing you need to do is find ways to stop the stress-eating. Other things to do when you're stressed, or things to snack on that aren't gonna make you gain a ton of weight. If you don't live really close to takeaways and convenience stores, not having junk food in the house will probably really help. Like personally, if I had biscuits in my kitchen I'd be eating several a day, just because they're tasty and easy to snack on. But I don't buy convenience junk food like that, which forces me to either make a proper meal when I feel hungry or snack on something relatively healthy.

>>8113294
Also a tight time schedule probably doesn't mean you have time for dedicated exercise, but deskercise and doing shit like taking the stairs if you don't already can't hurt.

>>8113038
Hahahaha I did that before too. I didn't take enough to hit danger mode (I'm below average on vitamin levels that cause bad OD anyways), but I have had the shits before. Fucking Gummi vitamins.

>>8113288
Best wishes, m8

Congrats

>>8113294
1/2
I used to do the same thing during big exam time, don't worry it won't last. You know it is a problem and want to fix it, don't get your brand altered. Set aside 10 minutes before bed and in the morning for a quick "workout". Jumping jacks, running in place, pushups, crunches, squats, etc. And when you're studying or writing, every hour or two (depending on your routine), get up and so a 10 minute break of brief exercise. It is a good brain-break for studying habits, and is also good for depression. Find healthier snacks you like if you're going to stress eat (that takes time to stop doing, might as well cut calories while you work on stopping it). Carrots, hummus, grapes, apples, you can probably Google better foods than I can give you as I am only half awake right now. The best thing if you stress eat is to ONLY keep a limited stock in the house, and to not buy crap food. I have depression binging issues, so I buy only healthy foods I need for a short time, or things that I can't easily grab and eat it all off it like veggie soup. It isn't the most cost effective sometimes to go to the grocery store more frequently, but I sacrificed that for helping my issues. It just depends if you can make it work for you. My motto is to assume that if it is in the house, I'll probably gorge on it sometime, so I don't buy a lot of crap food even if it is cheaper in bulk (like ice cream, as I know if I get stressed I'll eat the whole pint/box of bars). Also, drink a lot of water! Find a way to make water drinking easy. I realized that I hate refilling glasses, but I'll chug bottled water like a bitch. So I buy a few bottled waters and keep refilling them from the tap and putting them back in the fridge. Coffee helps too for caffeine worky-time as long as you don't load it up on cream and sugar, and it also helps your system "move" as a mild stimulant laxative.

>>8113276
I actually threw up a little so I didn't go. It's really weird how it just hit me all of a sudden like that, I don't even have stomach cramps or anything.

>>8113294
>>8113398
2/2
And if you aren't against artificial sugar, I believe crystal lite or one of those brands makes one with caffeine. I can't drink coffee because it upsets my stomach, so I get those crystals lite 'to go' caffeine drink mix packets. Doesn't hurt that I have a sweet tooth and it helps that. I water them down a bit so I drink extra water, and because I can go through a lot of flavored sweet liquid, it helps me consume less artifical sugars if I water it down. But I'm trying to ween myself off of that and onto just water with lemon juice, which is good for you. Green tea (unsweetened) has been shown to very slightly increase weight loss, and that combined with it being another form of caffeine and water makes it SUPER awesome for busy college students. I brew a large pitcher of iced green tea and keep it in the fridge all the time. I originally hated green tea, so I began by adding honey to it and slowly added less and less until I added none . I sometimes add lemon juice too which is awesome.

Walk whenever you can, take the stairs and not the elevator, and record all your food intake on MyFitnessPal (smartphone or online). Everything you put in your mouth record it! Remember when studying TO GIVE YOUR BRAIN BREAKS. I said it last post and I'll say it again, don't be sitting for more than 2 hours at a time without a break. This is for your long term health and not just weight loss.

I went from 5'5" and 150lbs to 125 in 3 months this way. I sometimes bounce back up a bit when stressed, but only a few pounds and when I focus I get back down pretty quickly. View it as a longterm health choice, and setbacks are just momentary slips off the path. Like if you score a bit low on a test you don't just give up and fail the whole class? No! You study and offset that slightly low grade with higher ones to get an overall good score! Treat your heath like a class that you need to graduate and get a good job with.

>>8113288
that poor guy doesnt know what he got into, have mercy

>>8113464
>Both people are from /cgl/
>Don't know what they're getting into
Are you retarded?

>>8113467
he doesnt have to be a regular to be here.

>>8113472

>>8113444
Water with lemon juice is acidic though, which is bad for your teeth. Try mint tea or something.

>>8112590
I'm not really sure how I would do that anon, I'm too embarrassed to tie this sort of thing to my real identity. I mostly hide it and don't talk about it in real life which is probably a big part of the problem.

>>8112629
>>8113184
my brethren

>>8113219
I don't have one in my city, just a technical institute. I did think about doing that but I was convinced that if I'm not ready now I probably won't ever be and I just need to man up and get my shit together.

I don't really know what to do. I have Borderline Personality Disorder so it's really hard for me to ever know what I want in any situation because my identity is so pathetically fragile. I thought I was recovered so graduating was just kind of a shock to me because I have to be an ~adult~ now but it just kind of put me into relapse. I think I just need to get through the next month and I'll be okay once I have a place to do art and painting commissions and means to actually make payments on my debt.

>>8113227
Move to a different state. If you're moving anyway you probably have the means.

>>8113484
>old version

>tmw something i really wanted showed up on lacemarket
>tmw i was just about to hit 'buy' after debating if i should spend the money on it
>tmw it sold seconds ago

>tfw not-so-open trans
>tfw want to cosplay girl characters but too shy and terrible self esteem
fuck

>>8113965
You can always pass it off as a joke.

>>8113630
post new version pretty please?

>got rejected for a valentine's day date
>found out that my mother gave away my cat while I was at work because the stray cat that she brought home one day fights with it all of the time
>blew my tire and have been on a spare because I was an idiot and didn't save enough 'just in case' money
>OP's picture kinda looks like my ex that I still haven't gotten over

At least it's thursday tomorrow

>>8114021
>found out that my mother gave away my cat

time to cut off all contact with your mom

>>8114021
Agree with >>8114036, I'd slap that bitch.

>>8113617
>I'm not really sure how I would do that anon, I'm too embarrassed to tie this sort of thing to my real identity. I mostly hide it and don't talk about it in real life which is probably a big part of the problem.
You have Steam? We can talk there.

>>8114021
dang, I'm sorry. Is there any way to get your cat back?

>I love my friends to death
>really obnoxious
>itas
>tall or overweight
>only one other cutie, but she'd bring her boyfriend with boobs who talks to much
>want to go to a meet
>afraid to talk about it because they might wanna come

>Have a few dresses that's smaller than me in order to motivate me to lose weight
>still fatty-chan
>Those dresses are so close and yet so far

I am slowly improving my diet and exercise though so hopefully pic will be related

>tfw got in a fight with my boyfriend and said something awful
>he hasn't talked to me all day
>I have no other friends, this is literally hell
I'm supposed to be finishing costumes and essays but I can't do either. I can't concentrate, I can't focus, and I have nobody to talk to because I'm literally batshit crazy and can't maintain friendships other than my relationship.

>>8114357
If you have no social contacts other than your bf, that's pretty unhealthy...

I have no where to safely vent where people I know won't find out so I figured here was best.

I used to have suicidal thoughts every once in a while, and the closer I get to graduation, the more frequent they've become. I'm thinking of it almost daily now and I'm scared. Even if I have a good week, I'll be doing something mundane like pouring cereal into a bowl, all of a sudden the idea pops into my head, and I think it's 100% logical in the moment. A couple hours later I'll wonder how in the hell I thought that. My mental state is so fragile and I know it, but still, I can't control it. It takes one bad thing to make me crumble. I cry almost every other day. Sometimes I'll just be sitting in class and I'll feel like crying. I'll be walking to class and think things like "you're so worthless" "you're a piece of shit" etc.

I think I have depression as my mom has anxiety issues (she hides it, I only know because I overheard a conversation). I'm so ashamed of admitting that I have these feelings in real life. I'm scared of the religious people I know bombarding me with "advice" about church/how it's a sin and just being further ostracized in general.

I'm thinking of actually killing myself after graduation as my student loans/job prospects are a huge stressor in my life.
I know it sounds stupid as hell, but it's literally a fantasy of mine to go to my school's financial office or even DC to give a speech about student debt crisis, and just pull out a gun and shoot myself in the head in some lame show of martyrdom. At least people would pay attention to it for 5 minutes and my life wouldn't be completely useless.

>>8114388
Well I have my best friend, but yeah, those are pretty much my only friends. She and I have a kind of odd relationship, we will see eachother and spill everything at once and then hardly talk at all for another week or 2. Anyways yeah, I know it's unhealthy, but I fucking suck at keeping friends.

>>8108086
I've been a neet for a total of two weeks now and can't stand it, but I'm stuck this way until my classes start in June.

>japanese clothing site is having a big sale
>recently announced they can ship overseas
>drop them an e-mail with my information/stuff I want to buy
>12 hours since I've gotten no response realize that it'd probably be way easier to just use my /ss/ to get the items like I used to

p-pls respond

>been talking to this girl for a while and plan to meet up at next con
>we talk about cosplay and everything between
>she's great and i like her a lot, been flirting through texts and dropping hints
>this convention is gonna be awesome

>job interview today for a place I'd be generally happy to work at forever
>nervous af
>they like me, pass the interview
>they would like me to work as a different position to the one I wanted, say that maybe after a year of working they'll transfer me to the one I want
>pretty sure that if I take that position I'll be stuck there
>conflicted
I want to work for this company, but the position they're offering is entirely different to my field. I'm not sure if I should decline it and apply again later on, or just take it and hope what they say is true and I'll be able to transfer later. I'm meeting with the CEO tomorrow to discuss things further and I'm not really sure what I should say.

>>8114512
Make entirely clear that you have been told that you will be given the opportunity to transfer after a year and that if that expectation is not met, you will be looking elsewhere. At the worst, if you don't absolutely hate the position you're being offered or only have your sights set 100% on the field the original job was for, it's a year of money and experience.

>>8113294
You should recognize that if you're stress eating, you are eating as a coping mechanism, and should work on developing alternative coping mechanisms that don't fuck you over so hard. I have been struggling with the same thing and I realized that the smell of food was comforting to me. I started carrying a little vanilla solid perfume with me, and when I am stressed, I apply a little. I also bought some tasty teas (I like desserty tasting ones like flavored black teas) that I can make for a study snack instead of reaching for junk food. You should find what is comforting to you, and use that when you feel like eating, or to bring down your stress levels in general. Being stressed out a lot can lead to fat especially in the belly area (centripetal fat) that's super unhealthy and ugly. I also realized that if I bought sweets, I would certainly eat them, but that it was easier to resist buying sweets then eating them. So I've put my energy and will power towards not buying sweets, rather than focusing on not eating them. To keep myself from having an excuse to buy sweets, I carry around healthier snacks with me at all times. I like to leave a baggie of dried squid or nuts in my backpack. Exercise when you can, but otherwise, focus on diet. It's a lot more important for weightloss anyways. Good luck!

>>8114357
>>8114413
Are you me, anon? My bf is pretty much my closest friend and I've nearly got no one but him and my family to rely on for emotional support. It really fucking sucks because I feel like I actually just want to be friends with him, even after all these years. But if I'm not with him, I'll have no one. I'm trying to adjust my social situation at this point but it's really hard for me.

>>8108177
I'm an inch shorter and 4lbs heavier than you. When I had an ED I was 102lbs and on the brink of being hospitalized. I'm sure you're fine, but yeah as soon as I started eating at all I put weight on. I too got heavier the more exercise I did (Ballet, gym, aerial hoop, horseriding, aerobics etc several times a week) I've literally just resorted to playing DDR for cardio and let my weight stabilize.

>>8114571
damn, that really sucks. Are you going to school or anything? What have you been doing to adjust your social situation? I don't know about you, but for me it's almost impossible to hold a conversation with someone due to shyness and anxiety and whatnot. Even talking to people online ends up awkward...

>>8109559
You don't need to lose it and will probably struggle to. I'm 130 and 5ft and people are always telling me to eat

>>8114413
>>8114571
Are you both me? I've got the exact same problems, but I'm trying to rectify it by going to dnd sessions with friends of a friend.
Hopefully going back to school for another degree can help, but damn is it hard to make and keep friends.

>>8114406
You can certainly do that Anon.
You're a fucking retard if you think the right idea is to put a bullet in your skull, and I say that coming from failed attempts.
Life goes on until you die, there isn't a story progression because every one is unique. And there aren't things like giant robots that run on will power and pure hearts, because that would mean having character in the face of adversity has real physical power over physical power.
No, the story of life is one of the dead inside, who lost purpose long ago. But despite having nothing left, they keep a small spark inside that refuses to die. A single ember that refuses to extinguish.
One that the hero can snuff out at any time.
If you think life isn't worth living, you're a fool who would be better off dead. Because even the dead inside are still alive.

>>8114456
Did you speak to them in english or Japanese?
I've tried ordering from stores on rakuten that were on the overseas english site in english, and they took 2 months to tell me "no sorry, we dont ship overseas"

my friend, who is fluent in japanese, went to the same online store, and got something within 2 weeks, with a little gift and thank you letter. (she spoke in japanese)

>>8114571
>>8114591
we should all be friends.
too bad internet friends aren't really the same...

>>8114406
Or you could actually try seeking professional help.

>>8114413
>>8114571
>>8114591
Ok, why are there 3 other mes? I am in the exact same situation with the bf/best friend and I also just started going to dnd sessions with friends of my friend. What the heck is going on.....

>>8113622
I've honestly thought about that. Sadly, schooling is even more expensive out of state. And I'd rather stay somewhat close to home. But I could go to the next state up or down and probably be fine

>have adhd
>taking meds for it
>meds stop me from gaining weight
>only 90 lbs
>meds also increasing my heart rate to double and triple what it should be
>doc lowers meds
>went back in for a check up
>tell him I'm more forgetful
>pulse is still high
>cuts my meds again
>now he thinks I have anxiety
>tfw meds increase anxiety levels

>>8108181
>using naoko art as a dream body image

I used to like want to look elegant like manga!SM but it's so unrealistic

>>8114673
what are you taking? if it's adderall you should quit that

>>8114706
I take a generic form of it
I'm thinking about switching meds

Its two thirty in the morning here and I'm wide awake due to anxiety. I wasn't paying attention and walked into my dad, walking into people is the worst thing I can do as far as anxiety goes. I can't talk about it with him because he already treats me like glass since the whole severe mental illness thing happened and I know he'll blame himself for it. I can't take a xanax because I'm trying to ration it off until my VA kicks in and I have insurance. Self harm urges are picking back up and I don't want to have another freakout.

Tl;Dr I'm miserable and needed to vent. Already been seeking treatment for well over a year.

>>8114925
Wait, you walked into your dad masturbating?

>>8114624
I sent them an e-mail in Japanese but put (Eng preferred, JP ok) at the top of it. I think it's nice that they're offering to ship overseas but if they decide to take domestic orders first/ignore my e-mail I don't know if the stuff I want is going to still be available before they message me again.

>mfw I accidentally flushed my eyeliner sharpener and favorite lipstick down the toilet while pooping today

>>8108708
Seek therapy, dude. This might just be seasonal. Do you have a girlfriend to take out on Valentines'?

>>8116574
I accidentally dropped my phone into the toilet when I was taking a piss.

>>8109054
I'm sorry that your family is being shitty to you. Hang in there meds helped me a lot just make sure you are patient in getting the right mix.

>>8108965
I too am socially inept, browse fit and plan to do Joeseph someday

>>8109481
Don't worry, a bit of consistant effort and you'll make it. Just make sure you only cut by 25% of you TDE

>>8108138
weight is 90% diet.
calculate your TDEE eat 500kcal less and you lose weight.

>>8116574
>>8118117
You fished them out, right?