/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>8033137
>in need of money, don't have a lot on account
> kinda sad about it
>girl writes to me today, asks for price on wig commission
> we talk about doing a glued hairline or me making a lacefront from scratch
>"This might be a bit expensive though, since it will be a lot of work"
> She's super kind and is willing to pay a decent price to have her wig styled properly
> was afraid she would bail when I mentioned price but she didn't cause she liked my work
> Actually got an agreement with her, everything went smoothly

I feel like I can actually start to get more into this wig commission bis'. having nice costumers like her encourage me even more to keep doing this stuff.

>planning coord for big lolita event in feb
>handmade loads of detailed accessories
>everything ready
>looks amazing laid out
>go to try on coord
>dress won't do up
>confused, assume zipper is broken
>realise it's not an issue with the dress, zip does up fine when I'm not wearing it
>weigh myself
>I've gained 10 pounds
>try on other dresses in wardrobe
>80% of them won't zip up

The saddest part of this for me is not the weight gain (I can drop this weight comfortably in three weeks). I'm sad because the reason I didn't notice the weight gain is that I have been too ill for the last three months to wear lolita. I was finally recovering, and not being able to fit into the clothes I love has set me back loads.

>>8033282
...M ?

>>8033286
M? My name doesn't have an M in it, if that's what you mean.

>>8033291
Sorry, I have a lolita aquaintance whose been ill and took on weight too, and she is planning something for the next big event in february. Tell yourself you're not aone at least.

>>8033310
Thanks, anon. I hope your friend continues to get better too and manages to achieve their goals with weight loss.

/cgl/ is my favourite board by far, I feel really at home here. I love you guys.

>>8033388
Sometimes I visit other boards like /a/ or /vp/, but they all suck to me, especially /a/

>put loads of effort into cosplay
>huge armor set, spent months of planning and weeks of back aches and hunched over painting, sculpting and gluing tiny details
>put a crapton of effort into appearance/makeup and wig
>exercise regularly/eat healthy to make sure body is in shape stomach doesn't look too squishy and gross
>find out people have been assuming someone made the costume for me or that I got help/had my parents pay for it and just won't admit to it since I'm still in highschool

I'm just really depressed about putting in so much effort into it and being discredited like this. My family is really strict and against me cosplaying, so I have a job and pay for all my shit myself. Just general irritation.

>>8033401
the only time /a/ was enjoyable to me was when joining the bitchfest threads about Sailor Moon Crystal

good times

>body has acclimated to EC stack
>down seven pounds on day 12

Yee

>>8033479
enjoy losing water weight anon

>>8033488
Nigga you think I ain't know what water weight is? I'm on that caloric deficit too cuh. But seriously, yes, I'm aware that I'm losing water atm. If I kept losing five pounds a week I'd lose a third of my mass by the con, kek

>literally can't stop hating myself and it's crippling me
>was dumped about a yr and a half ago and haven't been able to convince myself that it wasn't because i'm a horrible ugly annoying terrible person/S.O. (even though my SO was the one who likely cheated on me)
>terrified of even going on dates because I don't want to ruin someone else's life
>getting better at cosplay in terms of craftsmanship but can only see how ugly and disgusting I am and can't stop picking apart every small mistake

I probably need to go back to therapy (I've done it in the past, it's very helpful) but I'm having trouble convincing myself that i'm worth it.

pic related, how I'd like to feel about myself

> tfw you realize you've been struggling with your weight for more then half your life

I feel like every attempt I make is worthless at this point, and that I should just give up.
Being fat made me miss out on so many things, just thinking about it makes me feel sick.
Forcing myself not to buy any nice clothes except for when I really need something new, or even dare to think about getting into a relationship with someone until I've lost all that weight. Yet at the same time I fear that even when I will be down to a normal weight at least, I'll still be ugly, and that my skin will be flabby and gross.
It feels like there's no winning in this situation anymore.

>>8033576
Don't give up. I've been there, and only recently have I been able to get myself down to a more "normal" size. Don't focus on losing weight. Focus on being healthy. No fast foods, alcohol, or sodas. Those are the three killers. I tried cutting out everything but one or two of those, never worked. When I finally cut out all three everything was so much easier.

And as for the "flabby" skin/stretch marks once you've lost it. Your skin will be fine, moisturize, use coconut oil, treat yourself. It'll slowly get back into shape. Stretch marks will fade once the weight is gone and the little ghosts that remain won't make you feel bad. They'll feel like trophies. When I see what's left of my stretchmarks I feel proud, like damn, I worked so hard and got so far and look at me now. It shows that you fought to be where you are, and its your proof. Above all else, do it for you. I believe in you anon and my heart is with you too.

>>8033610
thanks anon, your reply made me get teary eyes aha.
I guess I just really needed to hear that

>>8033472
So.... tell your friends you made it yourself or post the progress shots? This is a shitty rumor but I don't really understand the problem here.

>last night made curry for me and the bf
>ate around midnight after I picked him up from work
>started to feel sick around 2am
>crushing intestinal pain and cramping
>liquid shit every 10 minutes with nausea
>fight through it thinking that once I shit everything out it will be over
>couldn't go to sleep because of the pain and shitting
>8am order bf to go get pepto bismol and some ginger ale
>it's now 3pm and I feel slightly better but liquid shit is still there for whatever inexplicable reason
>tfw this is not how I wanted to spend my day off
The good news is this has completely put me off from food in awhile. I just hope I'm over this for work tomorrow, we're doing inventory so I can't call off.

>>8033629
I don't think the problem is proving it.
Must hurt if you spend so much time on effort on something and the first reaction of everyone you know is "you didn't make that yourself, liar"

This sounds pathetic but I'm struggling to tidy my room.
I've been away for a while, and left it in complete chaos. I don't even know where to begin, I can't focus on it because I'm so overwhelmed and there's no clear surface anywhere on the floor or bed or otherwise.
I just keep eating or browsing the internet instead. My will power is so pathetic, it's been six hours of not doing it whilst surrounded by it and now I'm posting about it.
>Tl;dr explosion of craft supplies, lolita and misc shit is killing me

>>8033811
Try the "unfuck my habitat" website...

>>8033811
>get up
>go to one corner
>don't pay attention to anywhere else
>organize!
put it in your mind that all you have to do is clean up the one area and then you'll be done. or that all you need to do is clear out the trash or fold clothes. then you will do it and everything will be good.

>>8033834
>>8033832
Thank you guys! I'll make a start on the window area.

Good luck to anyone else that needs to do a simple thing but is being a little bitch about it.

>>8033472
Fuck them anon. We know what you did and we proud of ya.

>>8033401
>>8033476

I went to /a/ and they were circlejerking Aldnoah, loli girls, best girl, and Monogatari threads so I left.

Reminded me of Gamefaqs.

> Saw two lolitas at work at the mall a couple Saturdays ago.
> One was wearing AP and the other a Alice and the Pirates bustle skirt, I think.
> Too awkward to talk to them without spilling the spaghetti.

I wish I could have at least told them how cute they looked. I guess I'll forever be a lonelita, haha.

>>8033811
I know that feeling anon. Clean one area at a time and remember that when you'll be done you'll be sooo proud of yourself.

>>8033811
Hello friend, recovering hoarder here with some top tips on how to declutter your shit:

>trash and treasure

This is something my mum used to get me to do, and it's usually best to do with one other person helping you. You'll need boxes for your "treasure", trash bags for your "trash". Go through your room, starting in opposite corners, and pick out "trash" (stuff you want to throw out) and "treasure" (stuff you want to keep). You can do your own corner silently in your head, the other person should hold up items and you just shout "trash" or "treasure" and they sort accordingly. By the end, your floor should be clear, and you'll be left with a neat box of stuff to organise.

>storage

Storage is super duper important if you want your declutter to be a permanent thing. Make it easily accessible and attractive: if it's pretty and easy to use, you'll be more likely to use it.

>"one in, one out"

Every time you get up to leave a room, or enter a room, pick up one thing that needs to either be put away or thrown out. This is much less stressful than doing a big clean, and you will be surprised what a difference it makes.

>general upkeep

At the end of every day, set a timer on your phone for ten minutes, and do a "sweep" of your room. When the ten minutes is done, you can stop. Usually you'll run out of stuff to pick up/ sort out before the ten minutes is up.

I hope these help you, anon.

> Moved to a new big city
> Too shy for make friends
> Faw away for my family and childhoof friends
> expecting the worst christmas ever
Suddenly
>My parents buy me just I want for xmas
>My grandma and uncle sent me a lots of money for xmas too
>All people who debt me money return it to me
> I can afford a travel to my little city
> Spent all christmas with my family and friends
> Enough money for buy my dream dress and a lot of stuff
Sometimes life is good

guys, guys, GUYS!

I finally have an actual cosplay boyfriend! Like ... actually willing to shave his beard and wear a wig and already has stuff lined up! He is so fucking hot and out of my league but he actually likes me and goes out of his way to talk to me all the time. I just ... AH!

>girlonsunday leaving lolita
>???
>what
>all those dresses
>all that money

>>8033401
Same, only with /v/ which is a lot worse. The Chris Chan threads are just too good.

>>8033881

Wait what? When did she say this? I'm not a huge fan of her videos so I always cut off before the 5 minute mark, but dayum her wardrobe is impressive.

>>8033878
>Out of my league

Don't think that! You're a great girl with a great bf anon.

>>8033881
link to sales post?

>have fever that just won't break, vertigo, aura, weak muscles and joints to the point of I can't walk, and a horrible cough/sickness for a week
>go to doc's; get told by nurse it's probably just the flu but they'll check me out anyway (aka patronize me)
>doc comes in - double ear infection, possible strep throat, kidney infection, plus that crazy ass flu that's been going around
>fuckyoubitchnurse.gif
>great ok. At least I'm gonna get better, right?
>"Sure! The pressure in both your ears from the internal ear infection is causing the vertigo. You'll be fine."

>that was last week

>vertigo, aura, insomnia, nausea, and vision loss get WORSE
>now having auditory and visual hallucinations like mad
>head feels like it weighs a million pounds
>can't even piss without having the world spin
>I sometimes get absent migraines which this is what it is
> most last 2-72 hours - this has been 2+ weeks

This whole time I've been sick, I wanted to wear lolita to try and cheer me up, but damn, hard to coord when you have "fuzzies" blocking your vision. I'm about to head to the ER now to see if they can't knock this shit out of my system like they did last time. But then again, kinda hard to drive when more than half your vision is blocked by aura.

>High sex drive even while taking birth control pills. Nothing honestly works to slow it down or kill it.
>Had this problem for years but kept it under control
>Sometimes think about sex every other day
>Hasn't had sex in five years though
>The reason why is because I hate having sex due to ex bf and because it never felt good honestly
>I have a really low cervix so sex is painful with any guy with a slightly larger than average dick because it hits against it
>Takes forever to get wet so I always bleed/it hurt with my ex bf which made me hate sex more
>He said it was my problem for having a broken pussy even though he was my first bf
> Same Ex bf who I used to cosplay with thought I was a slut
>But wanted to fuck at anime conventions and a lot
>And apparently fucked anime convention girls
>Ex bf was a nympho because he wanted to fuck me even though he had a gf because easy sex since I had a high sex drive and she wasn't giving him enough
>But I'm the slut because I turned him down/wouldn't go down to his level/I'm not stupid
>Doesn't want to really have sex ever with a man because of the above
>Not really sure about a woman either
>Can't get another bf who doesn't think I'm a slut because of my high sex drive since women don't think about sex
>Especially not in the stuff I'm interested in like anime or manga
>Because I had one bf I'm considered unpure and a slut apparently by people I got out with
>mfw

>>8033907
You really shouldn't drive in those conditions, is there anyone that can take you?

>>8033915
I don't know where you live, but unless you're underage, most people that you would try and date in your age group should expect you to have had sex before. You need to find somebody mature with realistic expectations of people, both in and out of bed.

>>8033928
Why are people on /cgl/ so fucking crazy?
She literally slut shames herself daily

>>8033920
Not really. I'll probably go in the morning when it's light out and less chance of me hitting someone. That and I hate doctors because they never listen to me. "Hey doc, I have this going on. I'm 90% positive it's this thing; just wanting to grab a second opinion and to get the meds I need to knock it out."
"Uh no. Wrong. You have this and here's some meds to help."
*hours of research later, plus a few home remedies, plus a second opinion from nurses who would listen to me* "Hey, remember when I said I had this? Turns out I actually DO. So, this shitty med you have me treated nothing. Thanks a lot, fuck face." It's been pretty much like that all my life.

>>8033915
Your problem is how you think others perceive you and also the shitty people you're surrounding yourself with.
None of the guys I've been with cared about who I'd been with before, and they definitely didn't care about my libido being high. Some are sluts themselves, some were virgins, but they're all decent open minded people, which you seem to lack in your life

>>8033980
You know most healthcare plans allow you to change doctors during the open enrollment/ plan change periods right?

If your healthcare physician is so busy that he/she literally disregards your complaints about your condition and/or the medications prescribed to you

You need to change your primary care physician....like now. Or at least get a second opinion

>>8033915

Do you live in the Bible Belt? I don't see how one boyfriend makes you a slut.

I've had three. I've also had a two-some. I've had sex with 4 people... and I don't have a very high sex drive.

Sounds like you need to find someone with the same drive as you. It could just be the guys you have gone after didn't have a drive that matched yours.

The ex-boyfriends calls you a slut, not because you had sex, but because you had sex with him while he was in a relationship with someone else.

He therefore assumes that you would do the same, cheat on your partner, and are therefore a slut.

'Sex' has nothing to do with that. Just stay away from people in relationships.

>Essay due in 3 days, haven't written anything for it yet
>Haven't bought any of my books for the new term
>Haven't done any work for my dissertation
>Spend hours browsing and buying clothes instead
I am literally four essays away from finishing my degree and I just don't want to do it. I don't want to do any of it any more. What the fuck am I going to do in five months time when I'm supposed to hand my dissertation in and finish my degree and get a job.

>>8033991
isn't a twosome just... you and one other person

>>8033994

Er... threesome. You caught me. I was thinking, sex with '2' other people.

>>8033993
Come on anon! I believe in you damnit! After the essays, think of how much more things you can do! I'll give you virtual motivation.

But if you don't want to do it, well fine. I can't tell you hat to do, y'know, but you've come so close, based on what you said.

>>8033993

Come on anon! I believe in you damnit! After the essays, think of how much more things you can do! I'll give you virtual motivation.

But if you don't want to do it, well fine. I can't tell you hat to do, y'know, but you've c

>>8033993
I feel you, anon. It's the last day of my vacation and I had planned on working on my bigass essay throughout the holidays. I haven't looked at it once and have about 5% done. It's due the end of the month. Also haven't read any of the 3 books I still need to finish also for the end of the month.

Somehow it gives me hope to hear that others are in the same situation. We're gonna make it, anon, just don't lose hope. You just need to sit down and work on it and then it's over. You can't relax and have fun with this on your mind anyway.

>Been working on my weight for months, just pretty quiet about it unless anon
>suddenly new years
>suddenly people giving me shit for eating healthy/working out
>"What is that your resolution, anon? You will never keep it"
>Seriously fuck off like the fucking 20 lbs I lost already
I hate working with cancer, at least soon I will look better in my dresses.

>>8033928
>>8033989
I'm 28 and for some reason people around my area (in the anime and manga community) consider me a Christmas cake and I should be married already since I already had sex. Usually when I date guys (I'm bisexual though) when they find out I have a high sex drive they either think I'm a slut or promiscuous and break up with me or think that since I have a high sex drive that I'm quick to fuck/have sex and when I tell them no they don't understand since I have a high sex drive.

I'm not saying all guys are like this but for some reason in my community they feel this way who have similar interests as me.

>Makes me want to be asian instead of black lol just kidding.

>>8033991
>but because you had sex with him while he was in a relationship with someone else.

I wanted to clear up that I never had sex with him while he was in a relationship or cheated on him ever. What happened was my ex broke up with me on my birthday. I told him it was over because a few weeks later he wanted to be 'friends with benefits.' I don't do things like so he 'moved on' and started having sex with con girls again .

We used to have sex but it was at the point that I didn't enjoy sex and would only have sex so he would be happy/shut up. The reason why we broke up was half due to that and half from finding out he was cheating behind my back with anime convention gfs and wanted to call it off for some fling.) The latest con gf ended up being his real long term gf but she didn't want to have sex with him a lot/what he wanted so he turned to me, thinking that since I'm single I can just give him sex because I have a high sex drive and I'm "hornly."

I told him no, he called me a slut and then tried to attack me so I kicked him out of my apartment.

>To sum it up I don't like fucking, I avoid fucking unless I'm going to marry/commit to someone but I think about fucking.

>>8034024
>Cancer

You serious? What people are giving you shit for eating healthly/working out? You should break those ties anon.

>>8034018
>>8033993
Seriously, if you want to even pretend you give a fuck about your degree, go download Stay Focusd right now.

It's free and you have no excuse.
I got a C on my dissertation after four years of As because of this sort of shit. I'm going to regret it for the rest of my life.

>>8034030
They are my coworkers so unless I find a new job soon I am kind of stuck.
They are as big as houses and most probably jealous, they always bitch at me for being skinny despite that I was a bit over weight/am on the high side of average?

>>8033629
Pretty much this >>8033651
I post wips and stuff but at a convention I'm not gonna take out my phone and show every single person progress photos. it just seems like the general assumption is that I didn't make it all myself, especially when it comes to stuff like armor.

>>8033850
Thanks anon, it really means a lot to me.

>>8034040
They're not jealous, they're just butthurt because you remind them of their shortcomings and misfortune.
The whole bucket of crabs (crustacean ones, not the venereal disease) analogy from the Boondocks.

>>8034027
You seem immature.

>cosplaying Pokemon gijinka
>based off of magical girls, super poofy and cutesy
>don't expect to be recognized or photographed
>all day people compliment me and take my picture
>don't recognize me, just think I look really cute

Feels good man.

>>8034127
Aaand forgot to take my name off from another thread, oops.

>>8034027
Agreeing a bit with anon, you sound pretty young. 19?
These things will come easier if you don't live with your family and you're out of school/college.

Until then or if I'm wrong, if you're desperate to get laid, maybe try talking to people in your area on tinder/soc (just don't show y our face, most people that do hook ups will also share nude pics too) and be honest about your problems with sex (cervix etc) and concerns. Find someone you share interests with that wants to have sex and sooner or later you'll find someone that will give you the start-up and work out you need.
Never do it unless you want to though, there is never anything that binds you to have sex. Also never go meet anyone in a private place, make sure you get to know them properly in public first and always use protection.

Also, get a vibrator.

>>8033811
Post pics.

>stuck in my shitty hometown for winter break
>both side girls drifted away, main is madly in love with me but 500 miles away
>half my high school class are junkies or dead from being junkies, no one to hang out with
>sleeping all day, only wake up at dusk to work out and then waste all my money at the shitty town bar
>come home drunk, watch anime and play vidya, pass out at dawn
>repeat
>feel like I'm slowly losing a grip on myself and all the progress I've made this year as a person is slowly slipping away

>>8034027
>>8033915
The fact that you knew they were bad news from the get go and decided to still give them a chance shows just how much of a dumb motherfucker you are.
Like, do you even understand why it's a bad idea to hang around toxic people?
The fact that you aren't with him now shows that you weren't trapped and, you know forced to be with him.

>>8034184
>BUT IT'S NOT ~MY~ FAULT I'M ATTRACTED TO ASSHOLES

>>8034176
>2 side girls

Kill yourself.

>>8034187
We goin there?

>>8034217
All aboard the Shitpost Express.

>>8034221
TOOT TOOT

>>8034205
Women have every right and good reason to deny sex to their beta orbiters who want to fuck

I deny commitment to the sex orbiters who want a relationship.

My girlfriend knows about the side and is okay with it, it's not a secret.

>>8034232
keep telling yourself that.

>>8033874
> Sometimes life is good
You sound like a full retard

>>8033915
The fuck? Dude doesn't know to go half stroke when she's got a shallow pussy? I'm ashamed of all the retarded bitch boys who call themselves men but can't even fuck.

But,
>sometimes think about sex every other day
That's not a high sex drive at all. And you're using the "they think I'm a slut" as an excuse. Very few dudes actually think like that.

>>8034135
>>8034184
>high sex drive=/= I want to fuck
>19
>Still living with my family

I'm not sure if you misquoted or not but I'm 28 and out of school. I work.

I don't like sex because its painful anons. Even with toys I never cheated on my ex bf so I don't know why >>8033989 thought so.

Since you guys are hella confused most likely due to my English being shite:

>Me and ex bf together
>He didn't cheat on me and we had a fine relationship at first
>We used to go to anime conventions in the past
>He had a high sex drive and I had a high sex drive but he was always in a rush to have sex and stick in it
>Sex was painful
>But wanted him to be happy so I would at least give him a blowjob but got tired of that too because he never went down on me ever
>Started to hate sex because I would always bleed/be the one doing all of the work so I told him about it in a talk
>He tells me that it's my fault because I had a broken pussy "Anon all girls get wet so there's something wrong with you!" like in
post >>8033915
>Days later (we are not having sex) I go to the doctor because I was sick and found out I had a STD. Than god it wasn't a permanent one. >Found out that he cheated on me not once but several times with anime convention girls
>He breaks up with me the same day (birthday) and I told him it's his fault in the first place because he couldn't keep his dick in his pants
>He comes backs later on to be friends with benefits
>I tell him no and he moves on and I move on.
>He finds a gf (at another anime con) but she doesn't have a high sex drive so he ask me again to be 'friends with benefits' because he loves her
>I only invited him over because he stole my damn game console and thought he was giving it back
>I tell him hell no and get out
>He starts to call me a slut, a bitch, etc.
>He attacks me so I kick him out of the apartment

My issue now is that for some reason every time I start a relationship and it goes sexual I get the reaction I mentioned in >>8034027

>>8033993
Don't be a dumb bitch, do your fucking essays and be a smart bitch who has great fucking clothes, bith

>>8034262
Sorry meant anon >>8033991 not the other anon.

>>8033915
Seriously just fuck girls, I've found they're much cooler about shit like that and they actually care about getting you off, unlike dudes.

>>8034271
I'm seriously thinking about having a gf instead of a bf because I get so much shite from guys but nothing from the girls. The few girls I dated were nice.

>>8034271
The shitposting begins.

>>8034262
This guy sounds like an obvious douchewad. If you've had issues with others guys and had similar results, would it be a bad thought to maybe consider where you meet these men?

It's just a thought to maybe switch up where you're meeting them. I know Anime Cons can be good to find people who have similar interests, but maybe the area you're in doesn't yield great guys who go to cons, you know?

I wish you the best. Remember that you are not broken, some girls just need more foreplay and your SO should respect this. If they don't, they may not be worth your time.

>>8034277
Bi anon here, jelly that that's been you experience. Women have been more of a hassle to be with than men ever were.

Hey everyone

Your sex doesn't determine whether or not you're going to be a douchebag.

You're either a douchebag or you're not.

Lest we forget that one bitch who abused, verbally, physically, and sexually a chronically ill lolita to the point where she needed to be hospitalized. Then after she got all better still tried to ruin her life and was even plotting to trip her at an ice skating meet.

>>8034299
how so

>>8034302
deets

>>8034299
Yeah but were you dating crazy bi chicks? I swear about 3/5 of bi girls are psycho. You gotta be picky, anon.

>>8034262
I understand, but you really should have dumped him on the spot for saying it's your fault he doesn't give a shit about your sexual satisfaction.
Or the fact that he refused to not go as deep, I mean for fucks sake it's either control yourself or get you surgery for a fucking birth defect.

As for the actual issue at hand, are you sure you have the right terminology here?
Because while not being "quick to fuck" isn't exactly what having a high sex drive is, it certainly doesn't imply differently.
I think I get what you're saying though Anon, kind of. I'm asexual, yeah I know "special snowflake" and shit, not because of some trendy bullshit,
but because that's the term I found after some research that best describes what I am.

I feel urges if I go too long without relieving myself, but even when I'm at the height of urges I have no compulsion to form relationships or actually have sex.
I've been horny as hell, invited to fuck, and still declined. Because it isn't something that compels me, it's just something I've got to do, like shitting.

And what you're probably getting at is that while you feel a lot of urges and stuff, it doesn't impact you romantically.
Like, you can be in a cafe and horny as hell, but you aren't about to go fuck the cashier in the bathroom.
Am I in the ballpark?

>>8034262
I agree with >>8034281
You're dating unenlightened douchewads.
I wouldn't consider myself a model of female chastity at all - I'm probably what people call a 'serial monogamist', but not once have I dated - or slept with - someone who reacted to me like those guys did to you, libido or no. I've been at both extremes (i.e. horny all the damn time vs. nearly no libido when I was on depo-provera) and in every case my partner has been respectful of that. I'm not shy to say when something is sore/not happening for me and I definitely will tell them if they need to take it out/stop due to pain and know they'll respect that. I also prefer guys with very average sized penises because cervix pain + vaginal entrance tear with larger ones previously (plus like you I don't always get wet that fast), but they've always been good about using lots of lube if needed. Plus I have no idea why your partner wouldn't be concerned if you were bleeding+sore all the damn time, does he not feel that reflects poorly on his ability as a lover...?

>drama outside of cgl involving me
>huehuehuehuehuehe
god i love it

>>8034281
Well the only issue I had so far was that guys either were off put because of my high sex drive or thought that I wanted sex/was a freak due to my high sex drive. I just have bad luck anon. I'm bisexual so I thought about trying out girls but still keeping my options open with guys.

I usually talk to people at Anime Con meets or places like language courses/school (before I finished.)

I assumed I was ACE or something was wrong with me because I didn't get wet but I found out through experimentation that if I work myself up 30 minutes or longer I'm pretty slick down there. But outside of that my Cervix hangs pretty low so anytime I have sex or use a toy it hits directly on it.

>>8034350
I know it was stupid but I thought that maybe he would change. I threw that idea out though after I found out he cheated on me while we were dating and gave me a STD.

>Right terminology.

I'm not honestly sure. I like looking at yaoi, I like reading about sex, but I don't really like doing sex and I honestly haven't had sex (outside of masturbation,) in around five years. Even when I masturbate it feels kind of shallow. I'm assuming that if I find the right gf/bf I could most likely have sex with them as often or as little as they wanted. I mean I haven't had sex for five years with a partner so that shows something right?

I came here to vent because apparently me and my ex ran into each other at a con recently and he asked me how I was doing, etc. and I told him that I haven't found a bf/gf yet and trying to be friendly. He joked about my sex drive being too 'intimidating' or whatever and it makes sense that I wouldn't find a bf/gf to handle that.

>I'm trying hard to just letitgo but it's frustrating when people throw things in your face and remind you about stuff you don't want to think about/forget.

Stuff has been going pretty ok.
>14 hours of overtime for xmass
>Got that pay out, save most but get to spend some
>Spend it on a new BTSSB coat that was 50% off
>It fits ok, a bit snug
>Also snag some other small lolita stuff(Sooocks for the sock god)
>Buy a bunch of new skincare stuff/re-bought stuff that I ran out of but was to poor to buy
>Been eating right and working out since the crazy hours stopped, getting a good amount of sleep since I no longer have to get to work at 6am
>skin is clearing up and no longer freaking out since I have my cleanser again
>put that xmass money right into savings except the fucking gift cards

I fucking hate the holidays they are such shit I am so glad they are over.

> been bulking or a year and a half
> gotta start cutting down to get abs for costume
> Holy fuck I'm so hungry.

The fact that my main motivation for bodybuilding is cosplay makes me laugh sometimes.

>cgl related
Excited about getting my first Lucky Pack from AP (Mary Romance Doll), cant wait to see how it'll look on me.

>not cgl related
The condom broke during intercourse and though we got Plan B immediately, I'm still shaken and cant get the nagging out of my head that something may go wrong.

>>8034404
A good friend who has a Doola for an aunt gave me really great advice on this kind of stuff, if you think you are, you are more than likely not.

She explained that your body would really tell you something was wrong (your hormones doing things like making you feel ill, etc.), but if nothing is up and you're worrying about it. You're not.

If it'd really make yourself feel better, try to figure out your cycle and check your cervix. Your cervix is typically hard (but slimy) most of the time but if it's soft and super slimy, you are ovulating.

>>8033643
Get Imodium, pepto is shit for the shits.

Also drink yourself some water, if you get too dehydrated the lava shits won't end because our bodies hate us or something.

>>8033899
>girlonsunday
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NR6Dj87tNS0

>>8033907
Anon you should look into gettin an MRI if you haven't.

Like you might have a brain tumor or something. That sounds really bad.

>>8034404
Try not to worry too much anon. I've had the same thing happen to me, I was so worried that after a week I even went to see a doctor to make sure nothing was wrong - she was very kind and understanding about the paranoia, but if you're a within a healthy weight range and you weren't ovulating, it's pretty much 99% effective. It's even pretty effective with ovulation. Just chill out, stress could push your period back and freak you out even more.
>tfw I am paranoid about getting pregnant even though I'm on steady birth control
>tfw boyfriend is so scared of being a dad he panics when I don't get a period when i'm on bc (it skips pretty regularly)
>tfw I've never actually had a legitimate scare just needlessly freaked out

>post on COF
>Tons of likes
> also in tumbrl
> Posted too on ita treat?
> never again on COF

>>8033137
>have a /fit bf lately he's been taking these protein shakes.
>package came in mail for me it's vamp prelude in ivory. Fuck yeah dream dress.jpg
> try it on all day then get curious about bfs protein shakes.
>says scoop in 6 big scoops...? Feel weird but do it anyways mix it then have a hard time chugging it down.
> Feel rumbles in my tummy think nothing of it and go sit down...uh oh.
>the biggest fart I ever felt tears through my bloomers.
>fart again this time its wet though...
>oh fuck what the hell run to bathroom scoop petti and pull bloomers down as the biggest anal exorcism of my life begins.
>notice diarrhoea all in my bloomers must have been from the fart earlier. check dress and its ruined more like painting the roses brown heh.
>after that never touch bfs powders again
>fit and lolita dont go well.

>>8034414
>>8034454
I'm currently trying to get on birth control to be much less paranoid (patch), though Planned Parenthood didnt take my insurance so it'd be $80 a month.
Thanks for the advice though!

>tfw my closest friend and only lolita friend has been growing increasingly distant from me
I don't know what to do, I don't want to lose her but she doesn't seem interested in me any more

>this bra is too small now
>did I put on weight over xmas
>try on bra of same size and style (different color though)
>fits fine
>o-okay

>>8034434
Shockingly, these are all lovely symptoms of a migraine. So even though they sound bad, it's relatively normal, however, it's been over 2 weeks since I've had these symptoms showed up and this means my body isn''t able to fight off the migraine by itself.
The first time it happened this severe (I actually blacked out while driving), I didn't think brain tumor, but I had a doctor give me an MRI anyway. All clear. I've had migraines and absent migraines all my life; BC and another drug fixed it. Being sick sent my shit out of whack and now I gotta, well, jump start it back into normal (basically what happened last time), which is why I'm trying to get the the ER.

ACTUALLY GETTING PUMPED TO COSPLAY... just as my winter break is waning away.

Fuck this shit, I'm going to get as much done as possible until the semester starts. I'm going to be productive. I am not going to sleep until 6pm each day. Believe in me, seagulls.

>>8034466
eating 150 grams of protein in one sitting. You are serious about your gains.

I decided I didn't want to cosplay anymore because I'm a butterface and the amount of enjoyment I get from the whole thing doesn't add up to the cost in terms of time, money, stress, etc. A friend who really wants to do group cosplays is always saying "you'd be so cute as x character!!" She thinks I'm cute because I'm relatively short and have large eyes. Tfw makeup can make your small eyes look bigger, but it can't make my man-jaw and jew nose smaller. I also have a really narrow face, so most wigs look stupid on me (the hairs don't lay against my cheeks - because I have none - but just kind of stick out awkwardly). I want to be done with this hobby but she keeps getting me excited about things.

>>8033915
Women absolutely think about sex. Sometimes even more then guys. It's a human thing.

>>8033505
That sucks man, the best thing in times like that is somebody going through the same thing to talk feels with and generally engage with. You can skype me with your problems as a free therapist if you want. Nothing to lose

This year(The past five days) I just lost all motivation for everything, seriously ever since new years day it's really weird. I had been working hard on my portfolio and applying for new jobs in other countries and had planned to use some of my time off to do more work on it. I sat down to do it and I felt nothing. I thought I was just kinda tired/hungover so I didn't think much of it at first, but it's been five days and I haven't been able to feel motivated for anything else either. I exercise every night but the past few days I've just been like, What's the point?(the point is actually very obvious) I think about cosplay plans I had been excited about the previous week and just thought "meh". I spent a lot more time just laying in bed, not wanting to get up. I'm usually a really self-motivated person but everything just... stopped.

I've honestly never felt this way before and I'm not sure why I feel this way or where it's coming from.

>about be finally be out of the military after waiting a year for paperwork
>freaking the fuck out about it because of possible neetdom and a usefulness complexity.
>been useless at work for over a year due to medical issues but at least I was emolyoyed.
I just want to be done but I'm so afraid to.

>mom made sausage bread

>>8034466
I'm sorry I laughed Anon! But you brought a smile to my face tonight with that post, take that as some consolation I guess.

>never went out with anyone before or had any kind of relationship
>not ugly or anything, pretty average looking and cute with makeup
>know there are people interested in me but basically just too antisocial to get a boyfriend
>didn't really care before
>see all cosplayer friends have cute couple-y shoots
>hits me that I'm just going to get older
>I DON'T WANT TO GET OLD BEFORE I CAN HAVE CUTE COUPLE COSPLAYS GDI
>still too antisocial to get a boyfriend

>>8034472
Obama made it mandatory for insurance to cover at least one type of each form of birth control for 100% free no copay so maybe try calling them up, seeing what they cover, and then go to an actual OBGYN that they'll pay for.

>be introverted late 20s
>after being a people pleaser during HS and college, spent about 10 years learning myself and what I enjoy
>necessitated cutting out a lot of shitty people in my life
>now, want more friends, but have a really hard time being places I don't want to and doing things I don't like
>anxiety about going out
>anxiety about becoming a people pleaser again just to have friends
>anxiety about seeming like too much of a stuck up bitch in order to avoid being a pleaser

ugh these feels are destroying me

>>8034622
Heh thats okay, is it salvagable in any way? He wants me to show him what it looks like on and I haven't told him I snuck a shake yet. Hopefully I can get the stain out tomorrow while he's at work! Too shy to go to the dry cleaners.

>>8034466
>put dress immediately into bathtub
>run water all through that bitch

Potential for running print is better than shit stained dress, right?

>>8034244
You sound like an asshole. Stop shitting on her for being happy

>>8034637
tell the dry cleaner your little sister got in your clothes and ruined your dress

>>8034636
I'm stupid, it's been 10 years since hs, not 10 years since college

either way, feels

>>8034637
Jeez, I couldn't say for sure but maybe those tide or oxyclean pens for removing stains. Do you know what material the dress is make out of?

>>8033488
My obese dad used to say that to me when I told him about how quickly I was losing weight. He's still obese. I'm a healthy weight.

>bf might be moving to Boston for next summer
>possible permanent residency
>(someone he knows pretty much guaranteed him a highly-paid internship)
>cue anxiety about being six hours apart
>he tells me I can come with him and look for a job there
>could live together in a huge house in an awesome city
>my feels

>>8034691
Good for you Anon, I hope things work out well for you.

>>8034636

Try to find a club?
Local University should have some sort of anime/manga type club, and the ones I've been to usually don't give a shit about people who don't go to that school.

>>8034627

Kind of know this feel. Decent looking, but never really tried hard enough. Never even asked anyone out really. And according to some friends, kind of oblivious.


My feel
>Finally made own costume from scratch
>Know how to sew, and all that
>Moved for school, and don't have room for own machine. Also moms I was using was a damn expensive one
>Character I want to do will be cheaper to buy pre made anyway

Well on the bright side, I got a membership thing to Fabricland.......

>>8034691
Boston is pretty good. We have lots of jobs recently. Also, it probably wouldn't be a huge house in the city, try quincy though.

>>8034651
I'm not sure but it feels like crepe paper? I'm dunking it in the bath to see how it goes.

>Dream dress was bought from under me
>It wouldn't hurt as much if I didn't know that it's a girl in my comm who's a brat still in highschool and has way too much money
>Can't help but feel resentful when parents pay for other people's lolita
Work for you own damn brand!

>>8034727
I read that as "drunk in the bath right now" at firstit should say what it's made from.
top kek

Please do me a favor and just look up the dress on the site you ordered it from

>tfw main piece arrives
>tfw enjoy it for a few days
>tfw now i want it in a different cut/colorway
Every fucking time.

>>8034637
Use some of that stuff that says it gets out tough stains, Oxi Clean, and scrub scrub scrub.
Might even try risking it in the washing machine after socking it in stain remover stuff on cold with a handful of color catcher sheets thrown in so if the color runs it won't get on the dress.

>>8034694
Thank you so much!

>>8034700
That's really good to hear! Yeah, I heard it's really expensive to live there. If we go, we're going to live in bf's uncle's summer house an hour away from the city, so essentially no rent to pay. I can't believe how lucky that is!

>Share a work station with lazy entitled co-worker, she works the shift before me.
>Brags about the expensive designer clothes, manicures, hair extensions etc her rich boyfriend buys for her.
>She constantly leaves the files a mess or locks the computer out. Texts or plays on her phone in front of clients.
>Sometimes doesn't turn up for shifts and I have to cover her.
>Supervisors and managers can't fire her due to the company's hiring and firing policy. (someone needs to be given a verbal warning, a written warning, a final warning and then an employee hearing before they're dismissed, also if they go more than 6 months between warnings then the process has to start from scratch all over again.)
>She was bragging about an evening gown she just bought, she spent £130 on it.
>She shows me the dress.
>Recognise it as a £20 aliexpress/taobao dress.
>Still a shitty employee and person but it feels like a small amount of karma that she's paying a £130 markup on all her dresses.

>Share a work station with lazy entitled co-worker, she works the shift before me.
>Brags about the expensive designer clothes, manicures, hair extensions etc her rich boyfriend buys for her.
>She constantly leaves the files a mess or locks the computer out. Texts or plays on her phone in front of clients.
>Sometimes doesn't turn up for shifts and I have to cover her.
>Unrelated to her work ethic but she bought a pug puppy because she thought it was cute, without researching the breed and it got a skin infection because she didn't realise pugs get skin problems and needed to be cleaned regularly.
>Supervisors and managers can't fire her due to the company's hiring and firing policy. (someone needs to be given a verbal warning, a written warning, a final warning and then an employee hearing before they're dismissed, also if they go more than 6 months between warnings then the process has to start from scratch all over again.)
>She was bragging about an evening gown she just bought, she spent £130 on it.
>She shows me the dress.
>Recognise it as a £20 aliexpress/taobao dress.
>Still a shitty employee and person but it feels like a small amount of karma that she's paying a £130 markup on all her dresses.

>>8034808
>bragging about a £130 evening gown. That's funny, she must have grown up really poor or not know what decent stuff costs. Even in my rural poverty stricken hometown people don't brag about that because a lot of Mexican girls get dresses for roughly $500 for their 15th birthday party all the time. If it was designer then maybe she'd have something to brag about

>>8034822
I don't know much about her family, I think they have decent professional jobs. I know her bf has a well paying job but we both work a part time admin role (16-20 hours a week usually), most of my money goes on bills and uni supplies but I think she lives at home so I doubt she has many expenses.

>>8034808
*£110 mark up, sorry my mistake.

>>8034842
Not trying to devalue you at all, a lot of young professionals are broke thanks to the world economy, I'm just making fun of her for bragging about her shit taobao dress. She could also be lying about the costs of things, I pretty much know how to do a lot of what she's bragging about on the cheap because I grew up poor. I've seen that happen from vapid people with superiority issues a lot. One girl in high school always bragged about her $50 manicure, eventualky we called her out on it because her mom does them professionally and only charges $25 for a full set anyway.

convention coming up, havent talked to one friend im rooming with for ages and i get so sad thinking about how she hasn't even tried to contact me and how close we used to be & how much emotional support i gave her

>>8034872

also my $300 tablet just broke

>>8034334

Holy shit, yes. About seven months after I moved out of my hometown, I found out the other two gay chicks that I went to school with straight-up murdered someone.

Dodged a fucking bullet there, lemme tell you what.

>>8034864
Oh I didn't think you were, I was just explaining she isn't dirt poor as far as I'm aware. The website she showed me was charging £100 and up for taobao dresses.

>>8033479
I need to get back on my EC stack, I used it mainly for staying awake in class though, plus the added bonus of a little extra calorie burn. But we're probably different circumstances so idek if you care.

>Needed energy because too big of calorie deficit
>Parents know my issues
>Can't EC stack while I'm home for winter break
>Parents basically shoving food down my throat
>Weight slowly creeping back on since low energy also makes me want to eat (when parents aren't stuffing me, ofc)
>Not too much, I'll be able to lose it in a week when I get back to uni but still
>I want to look good in cosplay/lolita
>Canceled an outing with my friend because of it.
>Fuck

The break is probably good, though. I started feeling the energy effects less and less after ~2 months. Hopefully when I go back on it'll be more effective. When I first started I could fast for days and not feel tired or have a single hunger pang.
(ps not advocating this. Other anons who read this do not fucking mess with your body. I have issues and they suck, I don't want y'all thinking it's okay to imitate this behavior. It's a feels thread so I'm releasing my feels.)

> tfw want to become more social/make friends for once
> tfw no uni clubs exist

I have no idea where to start...

>>8033881
She "leaves lolita" all the time, it's just a ploy to get people to send her ridiculously high offers on her clothes, but she'll still refuse to sell

>Home for winter break
>Parents somehow managed to break the bathroom I use while I was gone
>Have to use their bathroom for showing since the guest bathroom has been made into a special area for the cats' litter box
>Bring tweezers in to tame my eyebrows
>I had bought a white pair to make sure they don't get mixed up
>Accidentally leave them in parents' bathroom
>Next time I do my eyebrows I'm looking for mine
>See same white pair in mom's cup of bathroom shit, know she has like 4 pairs of silver ones so it must be mine

>2 weeks later
>6am mom comes stomping down the stairs
>"Anon! Where the FUCK did you put them!?"
>I pause because, what?
>"MY FUCKING TWEEZERS, ANON."
>Oh shit. "Mom are yours white, too? I might have took them by accident, I'll go get them."
>"NO. I know that look! You paused! You know exactly what I'm talking about, you needed to take a moment to spin one of your little clever lies you always use!"
>"Mom look, I'm sorry, we both have white tweezers. It was a mix up I'll run them back to your bathroom."
>She won't let me leave.
>She's sitting down on a couch crying at this point
>"I hate you... I HATE YOU SO MUCH WHY DO YOU TOUCH MY SHIT!?"
>I'm holding back tears which means I'm pretty stoic faced at this point so I'm just trying to diffuse the situation.
>"I ALWAYS PUT MY THINGS IN THE SAME PLACE, DON'T DENY THAT YOU TOOK THEM. JACK (stepdad) DIDN'T TAKE THEM."
>"Mom, I'm not denying that I took them. I did, and I didn't realize they were yours."
>"It has always upset me, Anon... I always knew you didn't care for anyone but yourself, you lie, your room is untidy, and ever since you were a child I knew you didn't have it in you to love someone."
>I'm having an internal meltdown. I just want to cry, but I can't.
>When I start to cry she gets physical because she says it's a sign of weakness.
>I stay silent because I can't argue, she'll just get more upset.

>(part 1/2)

>>8035223
(2/2)

>"If you were capable of love I wouldn't have to come home and find even a single dish in the sink."
>I'm still speechless, I always freeze up when she gets like this because I get so scared/upset
>"MY MOTHER WAS ABUSIVE, ANON! I always did what she told me to do, though!"
>She gives me this look like I'm just a shit stain on her existence
>"I thought by treating you and your sister right it would be better. But it's just WORSE for you. Your sister never did any of the shit you do!"
>Actually I got blamed for all the shit my sister did but my sister is now an alcoholic at 20 so we all know how things are going for her.
>She goes on telling me how she has nothing (she doesn't pay bills. My stepdad pays all the bills under the agreement that she just has to buy all her own shit. He gives her money for gas, groceries, etc. So basically all her money goes towards shit she wants.)
>"How DARE you take away what little I have left!"
>"Anon, it breaks my heart to know you'll never go a day in your life knowing what it's like to love someone who have someone love you."
>She likes telling the story how she only had me because she got sick after my sister and either had to get her tubes tied or get pregnant again.
>Doctor told her she didn't have to keep me, but she did because she didn't want to upset God
>Tells me how she's had to force herself to show me fake love my entire life
>She wishes she went through the abortion or just killed herself
>But she wouldn't kill herself because she needs to live for my sister.
>Tells me my anxiety and depression are fake and stupid and it's simply me being lazy that makes it hard for me to make friends
>It keeps going on and on and on
>Finally she leaves in a huff to go to work
>I go up to my room and cry for a while

>All over a pair of tweezers

>>8035235
>love someone or have someone love you
typo, sorry

>>8035235
Wow. So your mother is just perpetuating the cycle of abuse....that sucks hard. Hope you get out of there soon/are out now.

>>8035223
what the shit, how soon can you be free?

>>8035223
>>8035235
Oh my goodness. With a mother that dysfunctional why would you even opt to go home to see her? It seems like she'll complain either way, so it would be much easier to only have to listen it through a phone or email where you can ignore it as necessary.
She sounds like a true piece of work and you shouldn't have to put up with that. Bitches be fucking crazy

>>8035243
This happened this morning... Thank you for the support though.

>>8035243
>>8035244
2-3 years. My stepdad is the only semi-sane one, he's helping pay for uni but he said he'll only do it if I keep my mother happy. Once I get out of uni though, I'm never going back. I've been dealing with this for 18 years. It's always been like this.

>>8035246
I couldn't afford to stay home for break, you have to pay the uni extra money. Plus she bought a plane ticket without telling me, just forwarded the information to me on an email.

>>8035223
>>8035235

should have left her shit alone

>>8035248
Aha... Sorry I always slip with that. I called uni "home" but it's just my dorm room.

>>8035249
I know, I realize I fucked up and apologized, but I really thought it was mine. I bought a white one just to make sure it wouldn't get mixed up and my bathroom has no running water so I ended up bringing it into my parents' bathroom and leaving it there. I don't know where my tweezers ended up, but I truly thought they were mine.

>>8035253
>I know, I realize I fucked up
Jeez. You know he's a troll, right? Please get some therapy to fix the mindset of blame once you're out of her grasp.

>>8035253
s'all good as long as you admit you're at fault and apologize to your mom

we all make mistakes

why not fix the water issues in that bathroom though?

whats wrong with it? just a small leak?

>>8035258
Oh, I wasn't sure, aha. I don't keep up with trips and which ones troll, etc. Thank you for letting me know, and I'll see to it. The therapy, I mean. I've always wanted to go just in general for anxiety/depression (got diagnosed once and my mother went apeshit and pulled me), but I'll try once she's out of my life.

>>8035259
Uh, I won't reply to the first bit since I've been informed you're a troll. But I guess I can humor you with the bathroom.
There's no actual knob or ring-thing for the shower, so there's no possible way to get the water running it it. No idea why the sink, though... My best guess is my stepdad tried to fix the shower by taking apart the sink? On the plus side, the toilet still flushes.

>>8035223
>>8035235
I'm so sorry anon. This sounds like my mum, she's batshit crazy, selfish and petty as fuck. She actually got angry at me recently because i wouldn't bring her a can of soup for dinner in the pouring rain when she came to stay in town and bitched me out to my nan. I find it's best to have as little contact as possible. I can only handle her in small doses and i would never stay with her. It's probably best for your overall health to keep a distance, and don't listen to a word she says, it's all bullshit.

>>8035253
Seems like they were yours and she's just making the assumption that if it's in the bathroom is must belong to her now. (I know telling people to go to reddit is usually an insult but check out r/raisedbynarcissists if you haven't, your situation seems to fall into that pattern)

>>8035258
not a troll

>>8035262
not a troll, don't see how anything I stated was troll like in any shape or form

the only person who calls me a troll anon is AI_honey, but that's only because I called her out for ripping off charities on here/twitter/tumblr/twitch

the "knob ring thing" in showers is really easy to replace,

basically. there should be a water supply shut-off which your step dad currently has off for the sink + shower./ second bathroom

all you need to do from what it sounds like is to purchase a $6 valve, place it into the shower, purchase a knob assembly to slip over it (vanity)

and turn the supply back on

-------------
if it's an internal leak in the wall you can just cut where the pinhole leak is and sweat a coupling into it

or just use a "sharkbite" solderless pressfit repair piece in it

>>8035265
Thank you for understanding. I'm going to try and stay far far away once uni is over. Probably the only thing that's kept me from offing myself.

>>8035268
Hate to say it, but that and writing prompts are the the sole reason I go on reddit. I get too nervous to post on r/raisedbynarcissists, but I comment a bit. Especially if I see someone leaning towards ED tendencies because of their parent(s). My mother basically hounded me and "trained" me with what to do since I was 11. Rebelled, gained a lot of weight, figured she was right, and now my mind and body are fucked up (beyond bruises, I mean.) Just... I see it a lot on that subreddit (or at least more than I'd like) and I just want to give them the support they need before falling into that.

>>8035272
I have no idea what any of that means. I'm sorry.

>be me
>get pregnancy scare
>haven't had my period in half a month
>it doesn't make sense
>we used a condom
>get test to be sure
>going to take test in the morning because I'm too tired to pee on the stick
>wake up
>period is here
>mfw I wasted $8 on something I'll never use

>>8035243
>So your mother is just perpetuating the cycle of abuse

This can't be stated often or loud enough. If you're not in therapy, anon, at least do a fuckton of research on abuse, trauma, attachment styles, and complex PTSD (which is basically traumatic attachment). If she's pumping this much toxicity your way, and you intend on living there for the financial support, at least support yourself mentally however you can. Just knowing how to pinpoint toxic, abusive behavior might shield you a bit from her monster behavior.

But only a bit. You need to get out. Go into debt if you have to; this kind of abuse will haunt you for a long time, and the physical effects of trauma/stress will end up costing you financially. Either way you're accruing shit you'll have to pay off with interest.

I'm sorry and hope you can get out soon.

>>8035272
>not a troll, don't see how anything I stated was troll like in any shape or form
You told her it was her fault she was being abused and to apologize to her mother. Kill yourself.

>>8035294
Yeah I live here on breaks, but I managed to snag an intern position that allows me to stay on campus free over the summer.
Thank you for the advice, too. I've done a little poking around, but I'll look into some of the things you mentioned. I've gotten help for physical abuse from my biological dad it stopped after a while when anxiety/depression became apparent and my mom pulled me, but I always get nervous when looking up stuff about what my mom does, so I tend to only scratch the surface. You gave me a good starting point for deeper research, though. Thank you.

When I'm back on campus I've been thinking about getting a job and maybe starting therapy, but I'm not even sure where to start in regards for looking for a therapist. I guess it's just one more thing I'll have to look into during my researching, aha. But I do have one question, do you know if even though I'm over 18, that if I mention the past abuse, will my parents still get in trouble? I really don't want my mother to find out if I end up seeing one.

>>8035291
give it to ur mam, say it's from me ;^)

>>8033137
>Need chairs for down stairs living area.

>Herman miller just reintroduced the fiberglass eames dsr

>However I have been collecting vintage mid century for the last 5 years and don't know if the new stuff is some vitra or modernica looking shit which will not match my real/vintage early 50's furniture.

>or should I just hunt down a nelson bench so my dogs can sleep on it.

I have shit taste so I know home is going to look like shit anyways :(

>>8035304
Good luck to you, anon. You sound like you know what you're about, and that's the most important step in working out where to go.

I believe therapists are bound by the same rules as doctors regarding patient confidentiality - unless you decide to press charges, there should be no reason for your parents to be contacted by anyone.

>>8035349
Okay, thank you again!
And that's good to hear... The most frightening thing I could think of is my mom find out, aha. She's always paranoid someone's going to, "Accuse her of child abuse" so I can imagine the freakout.

>>8035304
Glad to help. I sympathize with feeling nervous about looking stuff up. When I lived at home I let people know I was writing fiction about a family of adopted kids, so I'd have a "cover story" for my research about abuse, neglect, etc.

As for getting your parents in trouble, it's not likely. Even people who go to the police over past abuse, or who hire lawyers to sue their abusers, can have a hard time getting their abusers "in trouble." Stuff spoken in confidence with a therapist, when there's no one currently in physical danger, is not supposed to leave the therapy session.

Campuses usually have counselors for free so they could be a good place to start. If you need to be in the closet about healing yourself, and your parents somehow find out (I doubt they would), say it's about your study habits/grades and that's what college counselors are for.

As for research, two writers who helped me have been Alice Miller (books: Drama of the Gifted Child, Thou Shalt Not Be Aware) and Pete Walker (who writes about complex PTSD and has a useful website of tips at triple-W dot pete-walker dot com). But honestly, if you're still living there on breaks and are planning continued contact with them, you're going to need help with continuing to face off against abusers who are willing to use weapons of emotional mass destruction against a powerless enemy. I'm not sure if reading about "recovery" will help when you're still in a war zone. But it's good stuff and Walker mentions "bibliotherapy" (reading/research) as being a good stepping-stone toward talk therapy.

>>8035357
>She's always paranoid someone's going to, "Accuse her of child abuse" so I can imagine the freakout

Guilty conscience much, lol. Why do abusive parents always half-acknowledge the shit they pull by acting scared of "false" accusations?

>>8035291
For future reference, those Dollar Tree tests work absolutely amazingly. I have never had a false negative or positive with those. I've had plenty of false positives with EPT.

>>8033137
Noob here, backstory on that pic?

>>8034400
>feeling hungry when cutting
enjoy losing more muscle than you should

>Want to get into cosplay
>no skills and not much free time so would have to buy (which i dont mind)
>5 -10 kg overweight but no muscle
>dont want to cosplay because want to do it properly and look good
>no self esteem or will power so not dropping weight
>beginning to notice loss of stamina as i slowly recede into fatassness


First world problems right guys?

cgl related

>spent £80 on wigs
>hurts so good

not cgl related

>came out as tran on twitter to someone i was previously stealth to
>theyre probably thinking of my genitals
>theyre probably gonna tumblr me and drag me into their "demigirl [character]" conversations
>constantly talking about transwomen and nonbinary characters in a way that puts them on a pedastal
>nothing about transmen
>i regret everything
>im probably just gonna delete that tweet

i hate tumblr ~~~~~trans********************~~~~~~ kids

>Me and loli-bff are not getting along like we used to
>she's my only real friend in lolita I mean we have our comm and shit but she's the only person I relate to and whom I cal talk to
>I miss our conversations as shit
>she's been acting real weird. I'm starting to suspect it's because I'm having lots of success at work and starting to purchase a lot of crap and she can't really afford half of it
>I never brag about my purchases with her but it makes me happy to tell her when I just puchased anew AP release or whatever. She just seems so bitter about it these days
>Or maybe it's something else and I'm paranoid. But i miss her anyways orz

tfw i need lolifrends but i'm so picky about my friends and half of the girls here are dorks and itas and weeaboos and argh somebody pls give me frilly love

>>8035223
>>8035235
Borderline personality disorder, Google it. Behavior like that, especially if it's the only thing consistent about her is really indicative of it. With my mom, who also has BPD, I have to end the conversation and acknowledge the behavior as the reason the conversation is over. Such as "mom, I really love you but I'm starting to feel (anxious, angry, sad, hurt. Any real feeling that isn't accusatory) and I'm going to have to end the conversation here because I don't feel like I can make this productive. Would you like to do X later instead?" Make sure that X is something that you both enjoy and the last part is really important because people with BPD have this whole "I hate you don't leave me" thing going on and making plans before leaving indicates that you aren't abandoning her. The feelings thing is also important because that means she isn't necessarily the bad guy in the conversation because you own the feelings.

It's shitty I know, and she'll freak the fuck out a few times but as long as you're consistent and firm she'll be forced to accept your boundaries.

I go for a lot of walks when I visit her.

>>8035916
Please don't armchair diagnose people over the internet, especially people you have a very one-sided view of. It's fucking annoying and a google search is not a doctor's diagnosis.
Furthermore, fuck off back2tumblr.

>>8035916
Not BPD also BPD is pretty much fake and a pretty novice diagnosis of what usually ends up being Bipolar or something along those lines.

>>8035359
This so much. My mom, the borderline parent above, is actually a caseworker for abused children who have been taken by the state. After one child abandoned her, and another (me) got treated for PTSD, she's been good to my sister who learned quickly how to manipulate her to get what she wants. (Which is much better than neglecting her like she did when she was younger.)

Get treated please. I ended up spending four months in PTSD rehab.

>>8035920
this

>>8035634
Misako at a tea party or con or whatever, being very touched. I don't exactly remember the details, but those were happy tears.

>>8035931
iirc some russian lolitas made her a big scrapbook and she burst into tears
or something along those lines

My Innocent World order arrived with 2 boleros and 4 pairs of socks, but it's too hot to wear them ;-; Oh well I need to get a bunch more accessories (particularly hair ones) and a brown pair of shoes before the coords I have planned for the stuff I bought will be anything special anyway.

>>8035920
Whoa there. The other anon obviously was only trying to help. Cues by the sounds of it the anons mom does sound like she has BPD. And that isn't something to be a shamed of its just she needs help if she has outbursts like that. It's not normal for someone to be like that. Unless they are just a shitty person then anon should. Move out and never talk to her again

>>8035923
fuck you.

>>8035920
yes because only ppl on tumblr like to diagnose over the internet, OH WAIT. how long have you been on cgl or even just the fucking internet in general

>>8035920
Hence me asking her to research it.
>>8035923
There's been a lot of literature about it possibly being bipolar, but there's still a lot of major differences or it wouldn't be a separate diagnosis in the DSM. I spend a lot if time in therapy due to my diagnosed mother and while it's often misdiagnosed due to it being slapped onto nearly anyone female with self harm issues, a majority of psychologists see it as a valid disorder. "Loud in the House of Myself" is not a valid source material. It has an unreliable narrator among other huge issues.

>>8035945
>>8035949
>>8035950
still doesn't mean you should comment such things on someone's mother just because she "sounds" like she has some disorder of the month.
OP will go to therapy and ask. You have no grounds to make such comments.

>>8035964
that anon said that the mothers behavior was indicative of Borderline personality disorder. They were clearly just trying to help, I don't see how suggesting they google a diagnosis requires medical credentials. Your comments are indicative of a reading disorder but im not a doctor or anything

>>8035923
Shut up. Stop shitposting.

>>8035223
>>8035235
Ow, your mom sounds like me...
...When I was a teenager.

>>8035223
>>8035235
Your mom has issues Anon.

>>8035902
tumblr ~~~~~trans********************~~~~~~ kids are a bunch of faggots and I don't necessarily mean that in a derogatory way towards homosexuals.

>>8035902
Your problem is using twitter in the first place. If you're going to come out as trans don't do it on social media unless you want attention.

>>8035915
I know that feel, anon.
My loli bff is still sweet and fun to hang out with, but she's so flaky I almost never see her. Not to mention she owed me a bunch of money for a long time and that really put a chip on my shoulder against her even though I still wanted to be friends.
I just want a consistent friend to be frilly with so I don't end up all dressed up but canceled on at the last minute for the x10000th time.

>>8036043
Don't worry, when you call the tumblr kids faggots, you're actually insulting the faggots there.

>>8036003
My sister ran away from home as a teenager, I told my parents I hated them so many times and said so many hurtful things but this woman is an adult with children. People shouldn't have children until they're certain that they can take care of them properly.

>>8036052
...why the fuck do you think he did it if not for attention?
Just ignore the attentionwhoring trans snowflakes on here

>>8035223
>>8035235
Your mom is a fucking abusive psycho and needs professional help. I have a crazy mom too, but her crazy was in line while I was growing up and now she's self-medicating with pot so her behavior has never been anywhere near that bad.

>>8036064
Good point.

>>8036071
A real, adult trans friend of mine came out to the people she didn't feel confident enough to in person on Facebook. I already knew and so did other people she felt safe with, so I wasn't surprised. It's hard to come out and sometimes you want to stop feeling like you're lying to everybody around you and to yourself and just say it where they can all hear.

> buying shoes online for spring wardrobe
> trying to work out what's meant to be mint green and what's blue with dodgy lighting
> struggle to tell difference in real life, and online shopping is such a crapshoot that I'm probably not going to get what I think I'm going to anyway
> don't have the dress I'm trying to match on me anyway, so at least I have to wait a few days and not panic-buy
> sigh

>>8035235
I'm a pretty shitty kid, but I'd push her to get physical. My mom pulled similar shit until I physically stood up for myself (I didn't hit her or do anything stupid like that, she went to hit me and I grabbed her arm and pushed back, she kept trying to hit me so I dug my nails into her arm until she bled) and she hasn't tried to touch me since. They very quickly stop when they realize you're afraid of them. That probably doesn't help if your mother is actually insane though. What about your dad? Doesn't he try to do anything about it?

>>8036071
read >>8036100

That's the reason why most people come out on social media but again it's a bad idea because it's social media too. Unless you're autistic or a special snowflake be prepared for the backlash and stupidity because anyone can see your business.

I think my bf emotionally/hormonally wants kids and is in denial. He keeps making the most retarded excuses for having them and can't come up with one single good reason why he even wants them. I fucking hate children and I'm worried he's going to leave me when I'm too To find a decent man. But he's perfect in every other way and fun in the meantime so I can't justify leaving him preemptively. Just, fuck kids and fuck biology

>>8036276
Retarded excuses like what? Maybe he just wants kids which isn't a weird thing?

>>8035235
Jesus christ. Do whatever you can to cut off contact.

>>8036276
So are you telling him that you don't like kids?
That should solve the problem, should it not

>>8035235
>>8035223
>my mother was abusive
there you go, that's what she's doing
She's trying to make you talk back so she can get away with more stuff

>>8036290
I think that's probably the point. He probably isn't saying "I want kids", just shit like "lol IF WE HAD KIDS I bet taxes wouldn't be so bad" or "man we made so much food, may as well have some KIDS eat it, right? It's so WASTEFUL, you know"

>>8036290
He doesn't though. He doesn't like hanging out with kids or children for more than an hour or two. His excuse is we can just get a nanny to do all the hard work and only spend time with them when we feel like it or they're being interesting. Imo I don't care if its a biological imperitive, bringing life into the world and commiting yourself to 18+ years and hundreds of thousands of dollars because you "feel like it" is the dumbest fucking thing I've ever heard.

>>8036313
Yeah it's shit like this. He knows I hate kids. I've thought about getting my tunes tied just to get the message across, I have no other reason to want the procedure but maybe it'd get it through his head.

>>8035964
I wasn't even commenting on that in particular, just getting fucking sick of this new trend of idiots commenting 'go back 2 tumblr' on anything and everything.

>falling in love with kitsuke again
>still love lolita but tempted to sell some dresses to fund kitsuke
>can't decide what to sell
>end up keeping everything

>Just got home from work
>My phone rings
>Oh what the fuck now
>Pick it up, coworker is sobbing
>Someone just offed themselves by jumping from the 7th floor to the center off the mall, coworker saw her fall because she was idling in our doorway
>I-I have no idea what the fuck to do, so grateful that I left exactly when I did, I am a 5 min walk from the mall I just missed that trauma.
>I am the worst fucking manager ever
>Can't do anything but make sure she called 911 and e-mail my district manager
>This is not cgl related at fucking all sorry

>>8035235
its me stan i took the tweezers

I kind of get feels that i'll never be pretty enough to post any of my coords. I put a load of effort in them but i'm afraid of being posted in the ita thread or have my body and face ridiculed more than my coord. I've never been so self conscious before.

My great-grandma died yesterday. She was old, but I didn't think she was that old :(

She used to look after me a lot when I was a kid. I don't understand how she went from being my cool great grandma who taught me how to knit and sew and bake cookies to being a helpless old lady in what seems like no time at all.

I can't voice this to the rest of my family. They see her more often, and I don't think her dying came as a surprise to any of them. It's not really /cgl/ related, but it's all I can think about. I'm sorry.

>>8036535
Unless you're a landwhale/a man/horribly disfigured, people probably aren't going to say much as long as what your'e wearing is relatively flattering for your body type and you can always cover up your face. If you get posted in the ita thread, take the opportunity to find out what you fucked up with the coord and learn from your mistakes.

>>8035923
Please read a book fag

>>8036535
Same here, I would probably be called out for having man-face or something. I would like to share my coords but I'm too scared. You can have a good coord but people love ripping girls apart if they aren't pretty and thin.

>TFW had migraine for 6 days straight now
>go to bed with migraine, wake up with migraine
>Excedrin lessens the pain a little but nothing helps with aura
>might have to go to the hospital for IV to break it

Also
>supposed to meet up with seagull tomorrow
>thought I emailed her back to confirm time and location, deleted email from her
>no response, not sire if it ever even sent.

PA anon if you're reading this I'm sorry, pls shoot me another email.

Bit positive feels :
>Katsucon in a month and a half
>wasn't sire I'd have the money
>I will have plenty
>baby's first Brando should arrive just in time as well

>>8036538
Hang in there, anon. Sometimes we all just need a place to vent.

>>8036580
Other Headache-Anon here. We'll go together and talk about lolita in the dark while we recover.

>>8034627
That was me as well, anon! I'm still antisocial and not interact with many people and luck wanted i got a bf even if far away from my place, but i don't really go out at evenings or social places to meet guys so other than online it's impossible to meet people, even just friends. At times i feel weird i'm still a virgin in my 20s that never had a long term relationship, i look average, dressing in lolita/other jfashions and not fat. So i understand you even if i found someone and hoping for the best.

>>8033811
I have issues figuring out where to start sometimes. So I'll just focus on one area at a time. For example I'll spend a day just cleaning and organizing my desk. The next day I'll start working on another area. In a few days, my entire room will be tidy.

Don't be afraid to get rid of things. Donate them if you have to. There are a lot of donation services that will pick up from your door. For example, every time I switch my clothes from summer/winter, as I'm packing and unpacking clothes, I take things out to donate.

>free hotel this year
>guess we're going to the local con!
>a month passes
>suggest some cosplay ideas to bf
>fuck ideas for mature men are hard
>gather them anyway
>get 'are you out of your mind' responses
>tells me that he's too old for most of the ideas
>r u serial motherfucker, I said gijinkas
>bf is skeptical
>I say how about let's not cosplay since he can't get into it
>tells me that he's rather cosplay because cons are boring
>cons are too young/dumb because AoT and tumblr faggots
>I agree but I don't let that ruin it for me
>bf is Sir. Crabbyford of Crabston
>tfw enthusiasm gone
>tfw I would rather just book hotel and hang out in the lobby/city now instead

>>8036825
how old are you and your boyfriend...?

>Wear prescription lens to see, have lazy eye without them
>All the characters I cosplay/want to cosplay have brown, or unnatural colored eyes
>Can either have a disgusting lazy eye, or correct color

Just bought babby's first brand dress on Lacemarket and Lacemarket is on and off loading all day. I just want to make sure the e-mail with all the shipping info and stuff got sent. It's my first time using Lacemarket as well. I'm just a little nervous.

>Bought a 22-piece rainbow hairbow set as a post-Christmas gift to myself
>Got them in today
>So many colors
>So pretty
>Want to wear all of them all at once
>Wish I could thank the organization anon that originally posted pics of her pretty bow display and linked to the listings

>>8036836
22. He actually looks it and not even slightly younger.

Got my first burando today in the mail. It's beautiful and everything I was expecting and I almost cried when I tried it on and looked at myself in the mirror. It's such a good feeling.

>>8036854
Unless you're taking close up pictures of your face, people don't really care that much. Stick with your prescription. Lazy eye aint kawaii.
You are aware you can get prescription coloured lenses though, right? I'm assuming they wouldn't work for your condition because you didn't mention it.

>>8033980

I am an electrician and I ignore what people tell me is wrong with stuff almost 100% of the time. Because they are usually wrong. Sometimes they aren't.

Same with the doctor, he is trained in this kinda thing. Most people that tell them what they have are wrong.

>>8036854
Unless the character's eye color was absolutely important to the character, you shouldn't have to worry about getting it if it'll just be ruined by the lazy eye, and most people won't care you don't have the same eye color

>Decide to go to a big convention this year
>It's 5 months away so no rush
>decide to check hotel reservations on their website
>Every hotel listed except for 2 are completely booked
>the last 2 are about a 20 minute walk away from convention and only have a few rooms left

Feeling pretty disappointed right now, tbh.
Got a dress from Atelier Pierrot and it's covered in small damages, from damaged hemming to pen marks.
Wrote them about it, not sure if they'll do an exchange though...

>>8037038
Med student here and you are 100% right. It's true that you know your body, but you only have 1 body. We see many many bodies (even during my core clerkships, I was seeing 7-9 different patients per day of my outpatient internal medicine rotation) and can look at overarching trends and patterns in terms of symptoms and disease, and that doesn't even begin to cover the sheer amount of shit you learn over 4 yrs of school + 2-10 years of residency/fellowship.

It is really unhelpful and often wrong when someone comes in with a self diagnosis and won't budge -- we could get in serious fucking trouble if you take you at your word and you're wrong so we're just gonna have to take your history all over again anyway. It's much more helpful and efficient for everyone if you come in with a clear, well-defined list of symptoms and the timeline that goes with them. We are trained to analyze the information you give us + the information the physical exam gives us + whatever tests we order, synthesize it, come up with a diagnosis (if possible), and devise an appropriate treatment plan. Over and over and over. And yes, that does include things like "I've had these sx before and doctor X diagnosed a migraine," and guess what, we probably trust doctor X unless we know he sucks, but that is MILES different from "I have a migraine, gimme meds."

>>8037166
>a 20 minute walk
And that's much to you? That's walking distance at least.

>>8037277
20 minutes walking is practically cardio.

And cardio kills gains. You'd have to eat like... 6 billion calories to make up for 20 minutes of cardio.

>get dress in the mail
>unlisted damage
>can't contact seller because Lacemarket is down

I just want a $10 refund so I can buy a tide pen why is nothing working for me.

>>8034784
Actually heard that Oxi Clean is a bit risky for lolita fabrics, as it can fade the dyes or make them bleed. I've used Zout safely, and it is awesome at getting tough stains out. And no I didn't spell Shout wrong, it's a different product. I recommend using some sort of brush to scrub. I use an old toothbrush that I saved for laundry instead of throwing away.

>>8037282
Damn, I totally forgot about that. Thanks anon. Make sure to bring your gains vehicle.

>>8037277
If you're in an elaborate costume, it can be a pretty long walk.

>>8036486
She should see a counselor.

>>8037202
I try to understand you guys, I really do. I go along with so much stuff professionals tell me because ~they know best~. But sometimes.. you guys are wrong, believe it or not. This arrogant attitude really bothers me, I don't want a professional of any kind who won't even take what I have to say into consideration 99% of the time. And a lot of times I go to other professionals for a second opinion (be it home repairs, dentistry, medical, or vet) and they say something completely different. Why are you shaming people for getting a second opinion? Why shouldn't that be the norm, why should I trust any one person for a major decision? You guys are WHY people want second opinions for this shit. And guess what, most of the second opinions I've had over my life have been completely valid and time tested, like a dentist telling me I needed TEN cavities filled AND a root canal. 2nd opinion showed a root cancel and ONE cavity. Either years later and magically those nine other cavities haven't surfaced. You guys really grind my fucking gears. I loathe alternative medicine but it wouldn't even be an industry if you guys did your fucking jobs. I can't even begin to count the amount of surgeries prescribed to relatives that they still don't need after decades (even though they were "urgent" at the time) and unnecessary prescriptions.
Sorry for taking my anger out on you, but at least fucking consider the fact that maybe you don't have all the answers. I believe in science but I'm highly skeptical of anything any medical professional tells me, because, in my experience, 9/10, it's not only not done nothing but it's actively hurt and they only got better once they stopped doing it. Conflicting prescriptions, unnecessary surgeries, it's a massive mess.

>>8035235
I have nothing to add but fuck your enabling son of a bitch father. I stopped loving my father when I realized he was directly enabling my abuse. But I still take their handouts, it's not as bad as you though. Just be aware that they might extend it. When I "acted up" they suddenly "couldn't afford" the student loans they forced me to go to college for. Be wise to what's coming from your accounts, ideally don't let them have access to any account you have. I think it's OK to take money in the meantime to save but don't rely on it because it will "disappear" if you do the wrong thing.

>>8036314
That is a terrible attitude to take towards child-rearing, geez,

>>8037327
I said nothing about seeking second opinions and I challenge you to find where I did. What I did say was that you are actively hurting yourself by walking into a physician's office and demanding medication for a self-diagnosis, and I gave you a specific legal reason why we can't just take your Google and WebMD searches as a substitute for a physical exam and diagnostic work on our part. I'm sorry that you've had bad experience with physicians in the past, I truly am. And you're right! We don't have all the answers. But neither do you. No one does. We are doing our best with the training we have and the current state of scientific knowledge, and we rely on our patients to give us honest and accurate data on their part and to work with us toward their own care. It's a two-way street. If you walk into your doctor's office looking for a fight and convinced nothing they say will help you, your care will likely suffer. Not because we don't want to help you -- though sure, there are some arrogant pricks of doctors who will take that as a personal hit on their ego and they suck for it -- but because combative patients make it difficult for us to get the information we need to help you.

>>8037342
I think he would take a more active role if he actually had kids, but yeah, it's disturbing. He has the same faux-disgusted feeling toward children that I see in a lot of my friends who swear up and down they don't like children, yet somehow end up excitedly pregnant 1-2 years late before plopping a kid out and then sighing they won't have another. I know I sound mean, I don't care what other people do with their lives but it's not what I wanted in a mate and I really resent that a lot of men and women say they don't want children but really do. I wonder if tubal litigation will actually ward off this bullshit. I did some research and there's not much reason to get it over an IUD, it's actually less effective, but people think its more permanent, I wonder if that helps.

>>8037166
Take a taxi.

>>8036860
I can't even get it to load at the moment, Why is Lacemarket being so bad?
>have a bid on a dress I have wanted for collection
>timer runs out today or tomorrow
>Don't want to be out bid last minute

Damn it...

>>8036864
that's not old at all, from your post I thought he was like 32 or something

>>8036864
My boyfriend is 23 and I am 22 and we cosplay. He isn't old.he need to get his head out of his ass and say either yea I wanna cosplay or nah it's just not my thing. His age has nothing to do with it.

>>8037430
This. 50% of the time I try to load this damn site it won't show up.
Makes me kinda angry. If I had an auction going I'd be pretty mad if this caused me to lose my bidders.

>>8035931
>>8035938
Thanks!

>going to con with my sisters this year
>can't decide on what to cosplay
>we basically have no skills and don't share many genres
>decide on Pokegirls, because we love Pokemon
>boyfriend likes anime/manga but isn't too much into cons
>suddenly lil sis convinces him to come along
>he's alright with cosplaying a Pokeboy
>mfw I can do a couple cosplay of my all time favourite OTP
>all these OTP feels omg

this gonna be good

>try to get my dad to change his passwords for the new year
>he's had the same ones for over 5 years
>all the same 3 with no variations for EVERYTHING including his goddamn BANK ACCOUNT
>torrents really unsafely and constantly gets viruses
>"anon my bank account has TWO passwords its super safe"
>"anon if it was going to get stolen it'd have happened by now"
>"go away and stop pestering me"

it's like ramming my head into a fucking brick wall over and over again.

>>8037788
that picture sucks im sorry

Work schedule is hectic as fuck, not enough space in dorm for sewing machine.
>Forced to buy cosplays
Want to work on it myself so badly but dont have the time or skill built up. My weekends are spent on recovery.
Wish I had someone again that shared my hobbies, I could fund both our cosplays like before and go on supply runs. Not many people in tx like jap cartoons like me, the struggle is peel on eel and real.

>>8037788
Maybe he has a point. Most banks these days are super protective about identity theft and unauthorized spending. Over the holiday my bf's bank account was frozen by his bank because he bought a bunch of stuff online from amazon. He had to go in person to get it unfrozen and confirm he had made purchases.

A year or so ago my bank froze my account because I had made my first order from AP's Japanese website and they didn't recognize it, I had to confirm and do the same thing.

>>8037796
but like i said, he downloads unsafe shit without checking (we're talking shit like moonshiners) and has had the same passwords since we first got the internet ll those years agi. we've also had issues with theft and fraud before so sue me if im a little paranoid.

>>8037809
my keyboard is dying forgive the typos.

>>8037809
>issues with theft and fraud before
Like what? And honestly yeah you do sound a bit paranoid considering it's your father's bank account and not yours, unless you're dependent on his financial wellness I'm not quite sure how it's your business. My parents would get snippy with me too if I tried to school them about the security of their assets.

>>8034787
>"I live in the city"
>Home an hour's drive away, probably in Framingham or across state lines in New Hampshire.

Yep you sound like a Bostonian already. Congrats on your move.

>>8037788
>>8037809
I don't know about your dad's bank but if someone has my password my online banking account doesn't allow you to do much more than look at how I spend my money. You need a second password send by sms to send any money.

>>8037166
Colossalcon?

>>8035249
I cannot wait to kick your autistic ass at ALA, you worthless stain. Too bad your parents can't retroactively abort you. I'm sure they've thought about it.

>>8037327
Wow you sound a little butthurt there.
>My doctor misdiagnosed me this one time
>ALL doctors are ALWAYS wrong never listen to doctors they're QUACKS ALL QUACKS

Shut up and stop giving bad advice. Use your fucking brain and get second opinions.

>>8035262
Seig is absolutely a troll and every single thing he posts is garbage. Every. single. thing.

>>8037824
Did you even read my post? I've been mis diagnosed a shit ton of times in pretty much ever field. Hell I've even had an eye doctor give me the wrong contacts because he wouldn't believe me when I told him what prescription I wear

>user I was friends with in high school because I was desperate and didn't have many friends is kissing up to me again
>she never invites me to go shopping, go to the movies, or anything else like she does with her "bestie" (whom she also uses for rides and money)
>the only time she remembers me is for con season (for rides, money, general knowledge, and hotels if course)
>makes a fb post to my page literally stating how she's looking for someone to "bandwagon" on so her, her welfare brat, and fiancée can go
>I make it clear that myself and the bf already made our plans and we're not going to change them
This is why I stopped being friends with her for over a year. She's such a fucking user, but of course I can never call her out on it because she pretends to be "nice" when she takes advantage of others. And well, maybe she is safe for the fact, because had I not enabled her I wouldn't have gotten taken advantage of. Fuck I dislike her though. I should've listened to my family when they said she was a jealous bitch who would just use me. Not to mention she's an absolute killjoy to take to conventions because she gets pissed that her ass isn't the center of attention just for pretending to be "nice" to people; she actually has to be in competition with things like craft, talent, knowledge, beauty, money, and personality-all of which she horribly lacks. I hope she goes just so I can see her sour puss and using her kid to get attention because she's too ugly and boring to get any.

>missed all the luckypacks I wanted to order

>>8037360
OP here.
If you would read what I wrote, I'm not going in there, looking for a fight or being stubborn, I'm going in there for them to confirm I have what I think I have, and then get the proper meds to "fix me". The thing is, it seems I have horrible luck with doctors, Becuase I go Into their office with a set list of symptoms and they fucking IGNORE me. I had arthritis for 10 years before I was formally diagnosed becuase no one would listen to me.
I suspect I have a hormone imbalance, and I still have OBGYN's refusing to run tests or even entertain the idea, so I had to do trial and error and "self medicate" with BC to fix it.
My old therapist automatically diagnosed me with PTSD and completely dismissed the idea of me having ADHD, becuase "we don't like labels". I have complex PTSD PLUS ADHD, which makes a fucking crazy ass combo, but she wouldn't listen to me when I suggested I have both, because in her mind, ADHD is an invalid diagnosis/doesn't exist.
I'm very prone to UTI's and kidney infections; hell, I drink too many sodas and they flare up (no reason has been found out why I'm prone to them). Being on BC helps with the frequency and the pelvic inflammation that comes with it, thank god, but since I don't have a burning sensation when I pee (that's only happened once and that was 12 years ago) or extreme back pain, doctors don't listen to me when I say I have an UTI. Or I have really cloudy pee and a numb bladder, classic signs of an UTI for me, I go in to get tested, and since I don't have any typical symptoms, obviously I don't have an UTI and I'm just there to get the high street value antibiotics.

>>8037858
The same thing happens to me and my mom a lot anon. My mom had gotten the wrong diagnoses for years, no one would listen to her and when they finally did, surprise, she actually starts getting better

I'll also point out some doctors probably don't even realize how wrong they get it. It's not like I've ever gone back to one and been like "hey, you fucked up here" you just don't go see them anymore.

>>8037858
So yeah. I'm not dismissing that there are some stubborn people out there who are convinced they know EVERYTHING from WebMD or who are convinced they have XYZ because of certain symptoms and you can't convince them otherwise, or who are paranoid hypochondriacs because they stayed up late googling diseases. But, for the majority of us who aren't hypochondriacs or stubborn fucks, we know our nuances and quirks of our own bodies and can offer more insight on what we think is going on than someone who sees us for 10 min and who have a high and mighty attitude because they think they know better because, PhD.

Anyway, I went in to the Express Care and the doc said my head is full of fluid and it's not draining on it's own, which is causing my absent migraines to flare up, which in turn, is making the vertigo and aura and everything else worse than normal. The doc was suprised I didn't have a horrible head pounding migraine that left me bed ridden for how badly my head looked.
Right there is a good case of me going in saying "Hey, I have this crazy shit going on, I know what it is, I'm not 100% sure what's causing it, help me out" and then someone actually listening to me. I didn't go in there stubborn; I went in informed.

Fuck doctors. It's so hit or miss. My pediatrician was convinced I was anorexic for four years. She did the whole tell my parents, refer me to a specialist, nutritionist, etc. It took the specialist about 10 minutes to figure out that it wasn't true, but the doctor just wouldn't take no for an answer. I still get up on the fucking scale backwards every time I go to a doctor.

>>8033137

> have small sized breasts (30D)
> have massive tittyfucking fetish
> every guy (i'm dating) i mention this to is just like "uhhh"
> probably cause i'm small-titted?
> cause there are no sex drive/attraction problems otherwise
> either just pretend the conversation never happens
> or we break up right after i say that

what does a small-breasted girl have to do to get some god damn titty-fucking?

>>8033137
>>8033137
jesus christ this board is tumblr 2.0
>wah wah wah emotionally abusive
>wah wah wah ptsd
>wah wah wah disorder of the month
>skipping a meal means I have an eating disorder!
>being a lazy fatty means I have an eating disorder!
>mental illness this, mental illness that
>this girl/guy cheated on that other girl/guy who is MARRIED
>everyone's a camgirl or hooker
>everyone's a special snowflake
jesus christ what cancer
I mean I know y'all are 15 at most but go outside, jeez
>inb4 le troll/bait/sieg

>>8037835
I have horrible astigmatism and no one caught it until I was 22. I had an eye doc prescribe bifocals becuase he was a fucking moron. And yes, I was told by every eye doc since then that I didn't need bifocals at 8.

You know, I'm starting to think docs around here hate their patients. Or maybe they get so many idiots that when someone with a grasp on their own body comes in, they're just so used to morons, they don't know how to react. Lol

>>8037887
Uuhm, what?
Are you sure that's why they're breaking up with you? That's really weird.
I'm a 26D and I've tried to titty fuck my boyfriend, and while it doesn't really work it's fun. he says it's soft. lube helps.

Original 'messy room' anon here, I just wanted to share that my room looks a lot better and so does my kitchen and I'm feeling so much less stress because of it.
As well as just starting in one spot, I've also been taking progress photos of tidying after someone shared the 'unfuck your habitat' tumblr and adopted the rule of one in one out and it's really helping. Thank you to everyone else that gave advice, let's all be not disgusting together!

I've got a long way to go before it's all done, and after that I want to reorganise stuff so it doesn't happen so badly so often, but at least it now looks like a cluttered room rather than some mice infested hovel from Hoarders.
>tl;dr tidying and feel better for it

>>8037906
Good for you! The "one in, one out" rule helps so so much! It's one of the reasons I haven't bought much in past months; I haven't gotten rid of much. And if you have a hard time throwing something broken or incomplete away because "someone" could use it (which was my problem), craigslist it or donate it anyway. If you donate it, it's out of sight, out of mind, and you can fantasize someone bought it and put it to good use, instead of imagining it in the trash. And pics help see how far you've come in your cleaning and organizing. Unfuck your life is an awesome site to get motivated.

>>8037922
I would really love to use that method, but I've not managed that level of self control yet. What I meant was this anon's definition >>8033872 it's kind of fun, every time I stand up even to go to the bathroom I scour the room for something that needs to be taken back to the kitchen or something, it's like a game.
But thank you! I'll try to do that too, you seem so thoughtful and giving.

>>8037887
If it makes you feel better I'm a 32G and my breasts are still not big enough to titty fuck a guy average+

>Still waiting for invoice to be paid on LM, already suspicious the paypal account is 'their dad's'

Non cgl related
>Bought new clothes with payday money from ASOS, package should have been delivered already but tracking has mysteriously stopped before it's even reached the stage before the one where they attempt to deliver it. Hermes suck ass

>>8033643
>made curry
>got the shits

Learn to cook. What the hell did you do to that curry?

>>8033915
>Because I had one bf I'm considered unpure and a slut apparently by people I got out with

It is not any man's business how many guys you've fucked before him. I had a guy ask me that once and I dumped him on the spot, even though my number was only one at the time and I was 22. Don't tolerate men who disrespect you.

Thinking about it every other day isn't a "high" sex drive. That's probably normal. I think about sex maybe four or five times a day.

Anyway, any man who thinks about "purity" of women is either a permavirgin internet troll or a loser. Don't date them.

>>8034176

Why didn't you just stay on campus? My campus is so empty and quiet. It's pretty nice. And the few people around are more friendly than normal. I'm drinking tea and going comfy mode.

My cat hates me.
He is ruining so many of my things. I realized today that he ate the chain from my Jotaro figure, which was already fucked up from the torso not fitting properly. So now the chain is also missing. Makes me sad. Besides biting figures, he also likes to open my wardrobe and take out stuff, with his claws obviously.

Pic related, my cat and poor figure still in good condition.

>>8038042
>It is not any man's business how many guys you've fucked before him.

Okay, no, that's not right either.

If you've slept with, say, 30 other men, he has a right to know, because you should probably get tested for STDs. It's both partners' right to know how many people the other has slept with because it's protecting their own health at that point.

Now, if you tell him how many and he calls you a slut or whatever, then get upset. You acted like a bitch though. He had a right to know if he was sticking his dick where 35 other dicks had been before. That's a thing that partners are supposed to talk about before they have sex.

>>8038047
I think your cat is just a cat and is probably bored.

Put your figures on a shelf where he can't get them, make sure your wardrobe is closed properly, and buy the damn cat some toys.

They have those little feather things you can put right on the wall so you don't even have to put any effort into playing with him. Buy him a scratching post and a cat tree.

Fuck, cats are easy to care for, but they aren't just dolls that sit around. You need to entertain them or they'll entertain themselves.

>>8038047
>Ate the chain

Anon, if you're serious about this you need to take your cat to the vet immediately. Cats are idiots who like to eat string and get intestinal blockage as a result; a chain is even thicker and might cause more problems.

>>8038047

Just want to say that your cat is cute af and I'll just take him if he hates you. he can live with me and my little princess of a cat and I'll spoil him.

>lying in bed this morning
>6 AM, dark out
>on period, using pad
>fart
>feel stuff squirt out like pissing myself
>roll out of bed, go to bathroom, pull down pants
>blood everywhere
>just pools of blood all over the place
>strip
>it's in my socks
>it's on my pants
>it's on the floor
>room looks like a slaughterhouse
>crawl into bathtub
>clean up, spend morning scrubbing the floor
>wait for sun to rise

>>8034262
>I would always bleed

What? Anon that is not normal. I'm crossing my legs right now just imagining that.

My ex liked to ram it in, too, so I dumped him. Sex should feel good. If it hurts, you're doing it wrong. Sit the man down and make him be a good boy.

>>8034472

Ugh, I need to start birth control. I used to take it but I haven't for a few years. Now I've got a steady boyfriend and condoms are getting lame. I don't know if my insurance will cover it, and my doctor's office is a cheap ghetto shithole (only one insurance wants me to use) that is a hassle to make an appointment at. I've been putting it off, but I guess it's time. I should go this week... It takes a month to become effective and you can't even start it until a certain time in your cycle. So it could take up to two months to get it working. That's almost as long as I've been going out with this guy. What if after all that, we break up before no-condom sex can happen? Ugh!

>>8038061
That's why I'm happy I switched to tampons. Felt weird at first, but oh the freedom!

>>8035223
>>8035235

She sounds like my father, who I just had a nightmare about last night. Woke myself up screaming obscenities telling him to fuck off. He would blow up at me like that over absolutely anything, from a crumb left on the counter to some imagined slight.

It gets better. Move out as soon as possible. I'm not proud to admit it, but I used my first boyfriend to provide me residence so I could get away from my asshole father. Do whatever it takes anon. I still had anxiety years after the fact. Any time I heard someone on the stairs, for years, I had that gut clenching moment that, "Oh shit, dad is pissed, he's coming up to yell at me." It's humiliating that someone can hurt you so badly that you carry such deep rooted scars for years.

But it's better now. I have my own place (sort of. Housemates.) and don't have to take shit from anyone.

Just pity them and understand that they have issues they can't get out from under, but you don't have to live under their weight, and you don't have to carry those scars. You can eventually put it behind you.

>>8038053
He already has a big scratch tree and tons of toys too, but he does not give much fucks about them. Just likes to play with other objects, destroying stuff like a dog.

>>8038054
Well, it is a small plastic "chain". He seems fine now, but if he gets bad I will take him to vet.

>>8038089
This is his scratching tree. Still he goes to scratch my clothes.

>>8035324

>no furniture downstairs because we can't afford it
>empty rooms
>only just got a trashcan after living here for four months

Furniture not matching must be hard, anon.

>>8034262
There's a little invention in the 21st century called lube...
wtf is wrong with that guy.

>>8036276

Ah, christ, I know this feel.

>don't want kids
>don't want to get attached to anyone I date because they probably want kids and then we'll have to break up
>always keep myself distant because I probably can't stay with a guy anyway

I don't like this feel. And it's not like you can just ask someone if they want to have kids if you ever get married, that's creepy too early on.

>>8036314

He isn't thinking through the consequences and the actualities of having children. Make him start babysitting on weekends, and if he hates it or likes it that will show him his own preferences.

>>8038061
>It takes a month to become effective and you can't even start it until a certain time in your cycle.
No it doesn't.
What kind of birth control are you reading about.
The pills that I took before took a week to become effective.
And the nuvaring is the same
And I could start both of those any time in my cycle?

Look up nuvaring, it's really great imo, and there's discounts available if you search.

>>8038052

Asking if they're clean is one thing, and anyway wrap it with new partners. He was really aggressive in asking my fuck number, even when I said it was an inappropriate question given I wasn't planning on fucking him anytime soon.

>>8038101
your cat is so cute. give him to me and it'll solve your problem

>>8037033
>>8037047
Yeah, I've cosplayed characters all with brown eyes so far, and it's not like my eyes are insanely bright blue but I feel bad knowing I wouldn't be accurate for other characters with red, pink, white, etc eyes.
Also should have clarified that I have a +3.00 prescription, and am a poor student that can't pay $80+ for a pair of contacts I'll only wear once or twice. Thanks for the reassurances though!!

>>8038076

I hate tampons. They're uncomfortable and expensive. Usually a pad is alright but if it gets skewed while you're sleeping, you're fucked.

>>8038113
>What kind of birth control are you reading about.

I was on...orthotrycyclin lo a few years ago? And that was how it was done. Maybe there are different processes for different ones. I dunno, I also want one that will help with acne (that other one I took, I later read, did nothing for acne.) My doctor is so dismissive and always in a hurry. I don't think she's gonna care what I want. But it's the only doctor with my insurance in the area.

>nuvaring

I'm not putting a plastic ring in my vagina.

Alright, so maybe it won't take two months. That is good.

Ugh I'm so lost on what to do right now

> get out of hospital last Christmas after a lot of shit hit the fan
> Very depressed, can barely function
> Almost lose job
> Work my ass off to get through the Dark Days
> Finally pull through, start going out again
> Meet cute guy through mutual friends, hit it off right away
> He lives four hours away, start facebooking all the time
> We're into each other
> Decide to go on a date the next time he's in town
> Have a bad track record with relationships and am reasonably scared of getting close to someone because of past abusive relationships that landed me in the hospital
> Make myself go, everything goes wonderful
> Become a couple that weekend
> Things are great first couple of months, work hard to see each other whenever we can, he's caring and attentive
> Honeymoon period is the usual bliss
> Fast forward a few months
> Not seeing each other as much due to conflicting work schedules
> Communication has fallen off on his end
> He's supposed to be saving money for a new car so we can start working on moving in together next summer
> Drops ~$600 on black friday for new gaming stuff and tv etc
> Argue over this because what are priorities
> Get past it, but more arguments follow
> Communication drops more
> End up having a melt down one day because we never have real conversations and I feel like I've already lost him
> ask him for a bit of reassurance that we'll work through this
> don't hear back from him for hours
> "sorry I was eating dinner"
> doesn't even try to comfort me during an anxiety attack (diagnosed chronic anxiety), too busy playing a card game with his friends
> finally see him over new years, plan to do christmas presents then
> dropped ~$200 on him for christmas despite being a poorfag
> don't even get a card from him
> try not to let it get to me
> it's just christmas right?
> said he has no money
> "but bf you just spent 600 on new gaming stuff"
- cont-

>>8038153
> don't say anything about it though
> don't want to start a fight
> it's just christmas which is just a stupid over marketed holiday anyway right?
> still hurt over it
> meanwhile best guy friend and I are getting closer
> im super loyal in my relationship
> guy friend is very supportive of my relationship and always tries to help me and give me advice
> but he likes me and the more things go south with bf the closer I get to guy friend
> he talks to me more than bf
> can spend hours on the phone together
> feel like I'm cheating emotionally already
> feel super guilty
> constantly plagued with what ifs.
> Should I try to keep working things out with BF?
> should I give up and go with guy friend?
> feel terrible for even thinking about it
> but can not help it
> do not want to hurt bf
> everyone loves bf and thinks we're going to get married one day
> supposed to start looking at places soon
> Not even sure if I want to move in with him anymore
> bunches of other underlying issues
> just want to disappear for a while and take a break from both of them and clear my head

What should I do guys?

>buy a pair of shoes off of LM
>Queen Bee shoes
>they arrive
>no logo on soles
>get suspicious
>ask around on the Lolita General thread
>anon agrees with me that they probably aren't Queen Bee shoes
>messages seller, explains situation and asks for partial refund
>couple hours later
>still no response
>looking at shoes again
>...
>suddenly realize that if I look hard enough I can very very very very very faintly make out the logo on the heel, it just was worn off over time
>extremely small specks of silver here and there that match up with the logo that were easy to miss
>didn't notice this at all last night
>fuck
>goddamn I'm a moron
>message seller back
>thank god she hadn't replied or read my other message yet
>profusely apologize, leave good feedback
>tfw I'm a fucking complete retard and I'm sure the seller thinks so too
>mfw

In my defense, I've been burned by sellers a couple times before, so I'm overly cautious now. Still, I feel really bad about the whole thing.

>>8038129
Yeah, you did the right thing. I've actually been dating a guy five years now and wet don't know each others numbers. Neither of us care. They're pretty clearly not that high anyway

>>8035324
Get both, they will find a place. Love that stuff.

>>8038163
at least youre not being a slut about it, unlike most basic bitches out there now.
talk to him and ask bluntly if they want to continue the relationship, if so then things need to change since he is not up to speed.
If not, let beta-max win the anon bowl with a rebound
>swish bitches, Im outie

>>8038209
I've tried. I told him that I need there to be more "us" time, that I need us to have real conversations and that I'd appreciate it if he took a bit more time out of his day for me on the weekends when he doesn't have work and he's just out with his friends
"But anon if I'm playing card games I'm focused on those so I block everything else out"
"But anon I just get distracted"
"I don't feel my phone go off"
"I get caught up in my games"

I keep trying to drive home that I get it, but if we could set aside some time for us I'd like that, and he just keeps not getting it

>>8038226
I'll be honest, Im that guy.
It takes an ultimatum to make guys like (me)that realize they cant live the single life and be in a relationship at the same time.
You done your part, but if he thinks he's already done enough to last a couple years he's wrong.
Shouldnt have to come to this but sometimes its for the best.

>>8038241
It sucks a lot. It makes my chest hurt in all sorts of nasty ways. I want us to work but right now the only effort he's putting in is the occasional drive up here to see me, and that's only if I can't get the time off work.
I know no one stays in the honeymoon stage forever but I keep wondering where the guy who did little things like send me apartment complex links or buy me a new teapot went

>>8038163

Sounds like your bf is a flake. Why did you do a long distance in the first place?

> doesn't even try to comfort me during an anxiety attack (diagnosed chronic anxiety), too busy playing a card game with his friends

He sounds like my ex, who was an unappreciative ass. He pulled the same crap--ignoring me in order to play vidya with his online "friends." Well, now he's right sorry that he prioritized the vidya over his long term gf.

I'd say go with your guy friend and forget about that loser. You don't just start talking about moving in with someone and then never take any steps towards it. He sounds like a flaky ass who doesn't want to give you the time of day.

Go with the guy friend. Hell, I'm a slutty whore maybe, but I'd say just date guy friend on the sly for a few dates to see if you like him better. Then make your final decision. But you don't sound like the type.

>spent 600 on gaming shit

DUMP HIM. He has no sense of responsibility and he's gonna be a huge liability and source of strife for you. You're gonna be worried about paying rent, he's gonna be going to midnight releases of new vidya. Just dump him.

>>8038182

Right. You can pretty much tell if someone is a scuzzball or a decent, clean person after spending time with them for a while. Your guy sounds awesome.

>>8038141
Different anon, but no birth control I've ever heard of takes a month to be effective, even orthotrycylcin. Your dr was probably just misinformed. Certain birth control types are immediately effective if you start them on your period.

Planned parenthood should be able to work with your financial needs, my sister gets hers at less than it would be at planned parenthood. Hormonal types of birth control should help with acne, but the reaction varies person to person.

I'm on Implanon, a progesterone only implant they insert in your arm effective for three years. The reactions to it are mixed, I bled for a long time on it but now I don't bleed at all, some people bleed forever until they get it out. I wouldn't recommend it for most people. There are a lot of different types of birth control, pills, patches, implants, nuvaring, the shot, IUDs, etc. Do some research or talk to a planned parenthood rep.

>>8038141
Also, there are options other than tampons, menstrual cups, sea sponges, etc

>>8038052
In a row?