/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>have shit skin
>take good care of it, wear sunscreen, eat a healthy nutritious diet, drink tons of water, etc etc
>still looks sallow and dead in pictures
>cosplay partner does literally nothing to take care of her skin beyond getting it wet in the shower
>lives off of junk food and soda
>is obese and five years older than me
>looks flawless and rosy cheeked in every picture

why do I even try

I feel great. I've put in two Lolita orders already today, my SS is getting ready to send a bunch of other stuff, I'm cuddled up with my cats eating ice cream, working on 2015 plans and listening to sleet I do NOT have to go out in. Life is good!

Do you ever get that feel that everyone in your group doesn't like you but are just tolerating you?
I mean, I did everything in the book and I just feel it that they hate you or can't stand you.
Geez, now I don't even feel like cosplay or fashion is fun due to em anymore.
It feels gross being me.

>cutting weight
>stimulant I use causes mild jaw clamping, mouth chewing
>your basic amphetamine family sides
>always paranoid about heartbeat
>food crying out to eaten
>by my calculations I SHOULD be at the correct bodyfat level by the con IF I don't fuck up
>this is in the neighborhood of fifteen pounds so I can't really start making a costume
>next uni semester is final semester, gonna be bad
>girlfriend already stresses that I don't spend enough time with her
>first cosplay
>con is right after midterms

I am stressed.

>friend insists that she wants to cosplay for the first time with our group of friends at a con
>say ok, offer to help her with costume
>cancels last minute every single time we set up a time to work on her outfit
>timeskip to now
>little over a week before con
>she messages me asking to help her with it last minute
>not a costume you can do in a week
>have a cosplay im still working on, cannot help her at this point, tell her this
>"oh... ok... i see... well i don't think i'm going since i won't have a costume...have fun..."

Bitch, don't try to guilt trip me. I tried to help you for three months and you were flaky as fuck. And now you're bailing on the room? Great.
Ugh, I'm not tolerating this ever again, I'm taking a deposit up front to secure room spots from now on.

>>8028343
>people who guilt trip
god, I feel so guilty so easily and it pisses me off.
Fuck that, tell her to screw off and try and find a roommate.

>start dating gf year ago last december
>things go fine for six months, great relationship
>suddenly around July we get drunk and she asks to share our embarrassing desires
>she likes fat men
>I'm six feet tall and 140
>despite my reservations I let her fatten me up to fit her ideal man
>gain sixty pounds over the next six months
>yesterday night girlfriend compliments on my gain, says she cant wait for my old friends to see me at the con next month
>suddenly hits me
>rush to my room and dig out my Kaito Kid cosplay I was planning on reusing
>shirt barely fits, belly hangs out
>pants dont even fit past my fat thighs

I have one month to either lose 30 pounds or redo this costume.
Fuck my life.

>>8028367
Yikes. She's letting you completely wreck your health so you fit her fetish? You both sound pathetic.

>>8028367
>I like fat men

That was the exit and you fucking missed it. What the fuck is wrong with you? Drop that bitch like now

>>8028367
>she likes fat men

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>>8028367
this sounds really fucked up until you consider how often people pressure their partner to lose weight. But it still sounds pretty fucked up

>>8028379
I mean, if your partner is really skinny/fat it's okay to be honest ans encourage them to gain/lose some... But asking someone to get fat is kinda sick.

>>8028372

My health is fine, actually. Blood pressure is normal, cardio is normal. Just got a bunch more blubber on me.

>>8028373

Some of my friends like fat girls, why should I judge?

>>8028379

Eh, it makes her happy. She didn't FORCE me to do it, I just obliged since she said she'd like it. No different then if a girl's bf said he liked breast implants and she offered to get them to make him happy.

>>8028367
I'm sorry anon for your troubles but can I just compliment you for having a kaito kid cosplay? I've been trying to con my SO into watching at least some of the conan movies or the new magic kaito series so she could be kaito kid to my shinichi this next convention but I'm severely failing.

Everytime I feel sad, I come to this thread
All of your patethic stories make me feel a lot better
I have a great easy life, full of burando

>>8028392

Try and make her watch the new Kaito Kid anime. It's pretty decent and even my friend who didn't care for DC liked it enough to continue watching it with me.

>Fattychan lolita
>Wont stop gaining weight due to a combination of switching meds/eating takeaways/not leaving house(mental health issues).
>Ended up on new meds so eating less crap, exercising more
>Dropped 2 dress sizes
>Finally starting to look ok in lolita

Feels good to have my waistline back under 100cm. Still got a hella long way to go, but I am planning from tomorrow morning to do a lot more exercise and to leave the house at least once a day.

>>8028403
Trying! I cant seem to convince her of the awesomeness that is Kaito Kid. The bright side though, she convinced a mutual friend to get Conan's watch for me for Christmas so if I feel like slapping shorts on in the dead of winter I've got another cosplay. Plus. It has a laser pointer on it so I can torture my dogs.

>tfw I want to get a group together to cosplay raven's personalities but I don't know enough people that like cosplay

>>8028410

Sounds like she's warming up then, at least.

>tfw I am only 450 episode into the series
>300 left to go

Kill me

>>8028416
Detective Conan is not a show. It is a commitment.

I'm at ep 316. I had to stop watching because of cosplays I need to get done. Its taken me about 12 years to get to this point due to internet streaming not being what it is now.

In other words, I know your pain.

Also just watched the 8th movie.
It was glorious.

My mom lost her walmart debit card (she doesnt trust banks) and her account got locked so she can't touch her paycheck for two weeks. We don't have a lot of food left in the house nor gas in our cars. I've been looking for a job but this just hit us suddenly. We've had worse though.

>>8028422
tfw i'll never have a detective conan group

the only friends i have that like it don't cosplay or are too fucking lazy to make anything.

tfw favorite show, and has influenced your life greatly.

>>8028422
I've been reading it for over a decade and this past year I took a break from it and I think I was around ch 820

>>8028423
I don't get it, why can't she access her money?

>>8028424
I hear you man. I don't have many friends in the area I'm in, let alone any who are willing to take on the behemouth that is that series. I'll be lucky if theres anyone who will recognize me at this next con. Though I did see a Kaito Kid a couple years ago, so maybe there's hope.

>out with father
>dad-daughter bonding during holidays
>I'm dressed in my newly-found style after I left lolita
>kind of an otome/mori-girl look
>strangers keep coming up to us and complimenting my clothes, makeup, etc. even though it's simple, but it's well put together
>my father keeps looking more and more proud
>tells me that he never understood my fashion or fashion in general, but he's really happy I found a style that suits me
>I know he cares about what other people think, and was always being told that I was a "quirkly" "strange" and "weird" child
>now that I had time to explore outlets, I found my fashion niche and my strangeness is being praised

My da is one of those people who are subtle assholes, and he never understood emotions or anything [some of my siblings and I have come to realize that he might actually be autistic on some level], but I was super happy that he finally saw some worth in one of my hobbies.

He also let on that he is super proud that my seamstress business is becoming successful and lucrative.

I'm glad that my da/parents are finally being emotionally supportive now that I've proven I'm not just a dreamer and can put my ideas into action and actually make a career out of it.

>inb4 daddy issues

>>8028422

>mfw the scene when Kaito imitates Shinichi
>mfw Mouri and Nakmori are ever in a scene together

It was fanservice but god damn that movie was the shit.

>>8028434
I want to do characters like Sera or Kazuha because they are my doll babies, but I never see any cosplays outside of Conan or Kaito Kid.

Being a Conan fan in the states hurts.

Honestly, the series isn't too bad to read. After Jodie is introduced, it's hard to put it down.

>>8028422
20th anniversary of the start of the manga's coming up, isn't it? Conan's going to naturally grow up before he finds the fucking antidote at this rate.

>>8028437
I almost started to cry. It was everything I wanted and more. Gotta love them and their insanely random but epic endings.

And that face off on the roof at the beginning...
Unf. So much better than movie 3

Tfw you have so much love for a show it makes you emotional and you have no one to share your feels with.

>>8028444
please let me be your friend, I still cry over the clash of red and black arc on a weekly basis.

>>8028444

You'll always have /cgl/, anon.

>>8028428
For some reason they won't let her transfer the money to her other card and it will take 2 weeks for the new card to get here. And she doesn't get paid again until two weeks from now

>>8028448
I totally will be, anon. I'm not far in the series due to the previously mentioned internet streaming issues but its been my favorite series for so very long. Saddest day when I lost my fansubbed vhs's when I moved.
If it makes you feel better, The Desperate Revival arc fucking broke me. I'm still not over it.

>>8028442
It's funny because as the mangas progressed I've seen technology advance. It started where he had a super advanced phone in a lunch box and then it got to where everyone had cellphones and computers gradually got smaller and you can see the cars getting newer. Yet Nobody ages

>>8028462

>second episode of the series has Conan use a phone booth to solve the case
>in the 400s as mentioned earlier
>part of the plot is that it took the characters 30 minutes to find a phonebooth because they literally do not exist anymore
>less then a year has passed in the series
>hundreds dead

Gotta love A N I M E

>>8028379
>this sounds really fucked up until you consider how often people pressure their partner to lose weight.
>until
What? It's pretty much the exact same thing! The only difference is that gf wasn't pressuring him, she just said she had a preference.

>Socially anxious to hell and back due to traumatic events in the past
>Attempt to make a /cgl/ friend since I have no friends of my own.
>Everything goes maximum awful and she tries to use me.
>Nope out really fast
>Months later
>attempt to make another /cgl/ friend because not many seagulls can be THAT bad
>make a /cgl/ friend who is absolutely great
>spaghetti everywhere
>now trying to pretend I don't care so she wont see I'm a fool that spills marinara everywhere and try to take advantage of it

I'm not good with social situations. At all.
I'll fuck it up somehow

>>8028395
You idiot

>>8028436
That is not how I expected your greentext story to go and I am pleasantly surprised. Glad your parents are being supportive, anon!

>>8028476
Envy so much?

>>8028466
And all the while, Aoyama Gosho's just like "Yeah. I know how it ends. I just don't want to end it lolololol."

All the while, series like Naruto and One Piece are like "We're ending... at this point. We're done."

Pretty sure Detective Conan will just run eternal.

>>8028395
>confirmed for being balled up in a corner crying into an empty tub of icecream 12hours/day

>>8028529

Yeah, he had some interview a few months ago where they asked what his favorite part of making Detective Conan is.

His response was that "it makes me lots of money".

>>8028535
Aw man, that's... kind of disappointing to hear.

Like, I know where he's coming from. but still. damn.

>grandfather got diagnosed with bladder cancer AND dementia
>can't find a job
>ex is telling all my friends that i'm a horrible person and causing me to lose a lot of people i care about
>overdrafted twice on my bank account for a magazine subscription i didnt even want and now i have to get a new debit card

2015 is going great so far

>>8028535
At least he is honest. And why not? He's come up with a formula that works.

Mind you, that does not help me now, after finding a stable site that streams all the episodes, finally. I'm never going to catch up with this thing. Why?

>tfw I'm making good time, I feel like I'm on a role, and then I come across a two hour special that's been thrown in because they remember that either Heiji or Kaito Kid need to be brought back.

I mean, I love them, but god dammit ;_;

>>8028546

Can you really blame him? DC is like the Simpsons. It's not that he hates it or dislikes it, he just knows that people LOVE it and will continue to love it. I mean, what reason does he have to end it?

>>8028554

Let me guess, is it that one in the baseball park?

>>8028392
>con my SO into watching it.

Don't.

>>8028392
>>8028410
>>8028403
>>8028416
>>8028422
>>8028424
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>>8028437

>Used to watch DC
>Used to read DC
>Thought about cosplaying Kaito Kid years ago back when it was on Toonami
>Didn't want to because I'm black with a round face
>Didn't want to because nobody would know who the hell I am
>Didn't want to because nobody I knew watched it but some douchebag.

>>8028557
The last one I've encountered was the one about the giant bomb threat and you learned about Sato's former partner, actually. And as much as I enjoy the specials, it just messes with my groove. I'm being forced into something that's going to be emotionally draining against my will when I've just got into the swing of all the filler episodes.

Or when they decide they're going to split and episode up into THREE parts instead of just two. It's like "OHMYGODIJUSTWANTTOBEDONE!"

Yet... still watch it. Because I'm masochistic and I'm so fucking emotionally invested in the characters and storyline.

Aoyama Gosho, you glorious dick, look what you've done.

>>8028438
>Being a Conan fan in the states hurts.
Cheers to that, anon. I'm in the Midwest. The pain is unbearable.

But please cosplay. ;_; Especially a character like Kazuha. Because I feel like I need this now.

>>8028580

I actually prefer the three/two parters since they tend to have the most depth to the mysteries.
I can't stand one part episodes though, since 90% of the time they are either too convoluted or just stupid.

>>8028579

Do it for yourself! Don't let anyone else influence your opinion on what to cosplay.

>>8028579
Shot this a few weeks ago

>>8028593
I hate the one part episodes, too. I think I've found this happy medium with the two parters. It's just the three part eps (unless their doing some really in depth chapter that actually has something to do with the main storyline) and one-hour/two-hour specials mess with the flow of things in my head and I usually start screaming at my laptop...

This show has made me a mess. Probably a good thing that I'm taking a break from it to get stuff done for Ohayocon.

Guys can you just make a separate thread for this?

>>8028607

Yeah, probably for the best. I tend to take month long breaks every once in a while too.

>>8028615

It IS technically off topic, but I don't see the big deal. It's not like we're interrupting other posters. If people wanted to post feels, they would.

>>8028604
>>8028593

Dammit Anons stop tempting me. Now I have to rewatch Kaito Kid again.

Got put on accutane about a month ago
>tfw not supposed to drink alcohol
>tfw can't be exposed to too much sunlight
>tfw can't do chemical peels
>tfw lips are dry as fuck and keep flaking
>tfw skin on hands and face also quite dry
>tfw have to take blood tests all the time to make sure liver isn't failing
>tfw none of this matters because my acne is gone. my acne scars are disappearing. my skintone is evening out.

I've got a little ways to go still, but I cannot put into words how happy this makes me. I finally have my life back, I can finally look at myself in the mirror without feeling like a hideous monster

However:
>tfw my BDD has previously revolved around my skin issues
>"but they're gone now, so the BDD should magically go away too!"
>"... has my face always been this uneven? WTF is up with my nose? Were my cheeks always that puffy?"
>tfw these things are going to be a lot more difficult/expensive to fix

I just want to feel pretty for once in my life jfc

>didn't have a job for half of this past year
>finally got a low paying(aka min wage) job for last part of the year
>start new semester at the same time
>books, transportation fees, and food expenses soaked up a good portion of my money earned
>scheduling of classes, travel time, work time, took up most sleep and study time
>had to skip out on a con ive been wanting to go to
>grades slip, overstressed
>try to find a closer job
>most don't want my shit hours available because of my classes
>suffers more through current job
>get less hours past two months = less money but i get to study a little more
>finally quit job because was too stressed out
>finish semester
>lackluster grades
>no time nor money to make anything for katsucon
>try to search for used cosplays
>all are homestuck, attack on titan, or shit quality

Fuck
I really want to go to Katsucon because I get to see many friends and it's a mini vacation for me but I don't have cosplays done or incoming money. I have enough saved up(though its pitiful amount) to cover everything though and then a little more.

>Mess up cosplay for group cosplay
>Con is in less than months away, already invested too much into it
>Realize that I won't be able to remake it in that time because of school
>End up getting a cheap Ebay cosplay of it, and just going to mod it from there

I was so excited and so proud of this cosplay and i ruined it. OTL It's beyond fucked because I made a big mistake on my measurements and used all my resources up.

Got a really nice bag from my cousin for christmas but goddamn, it does not match a single thing in my wardrobe. Actually, I've been given a number of really nice bags through the years that just don't match anything I own. I always want to use them but just never find a way to do it.

About my best idea is to buy a spectrum of tights, try and get some small hair accessories and eyeshadows to match and use the bags with otherwise all-black or white outfits.

>>8028658
Anon if you don't mind floor space you could crash with me at katsu. Another seagull is also staying, but there's only 4 of us so far. It'd be a lot cheaper. Two girls and two dudes ATM.

Were at the Gaylord but we're hoping to bring some small cooking supplies, rice cooker, waffle iron, stuff like that.

>>8028699
Awww Thank you for the offer! I already have a room and I think the owner will be OK if I can pay portion now and owe him later. I'm just a little annoyed I have to drop out of groups I've been wanting to do for katsucon because I've been so out of touch with them this past 4-5 months and I don't have the money to get the costumes done or bought from taobao unless I want to pay out my ass for express shipping

>>8028666
Deets, anon.

>>8028404
Congrats anon! You can do it!

>>8028337
Have fun dying of an arrhythmia, anon.

>lost 100lbs in the last 13 months
>realized I wasn't ugly because I was fat
>I'm ugly because I'm ugly

Shit.

>>8028777
thats why there is photoshop and makeup

Start of a new year, thought I'd go through and get everything in my apartment cleaned and organized. There are some trash bags with stuff in my closet and I decided to go sort through them after getting some laundry started.
>Okay, let's see what's in here!
>smells of mildew and smoke
>oh no...
>it's stuff from when my house burned down a couple of years ago
>more specifically, it's stuff that was in my craft room
>water and smoke damaged fabric, posters that were just stuffed in the trash bag as we tried to get as much stuff salvaged as quickly as possible
>overwhelmed, sit down for a minute in the closet
>can't do this right now
>come back later after trying to muster my mental strength, I can do this
>I sit on the floor and cry
Pic related, heartbreak. There's a bunch of stuff that I have in storage that's probably all mildewy and gross because I can't bring myself to go and take it out and deal with my feelings.

>>8028777
Post pictures. We'll judge

>>8028658
You can try taobao or someplace else for used cosplays. Or even Japanese used cosplay places.

Also someone in the commission thread was doing cosplays for $50 or less so maybe you can hit up on that.

Find someone to room up with or maybe anon >>8028699

>>8028849
dont think i'll get it in time from taobao in a month

>Been recently catching up with -monogatari series
>Want to cosplay someone from it
>Arararargi is too plain, but I'm not feminine enough to pull off any of the female characters
>Can't do an ironic crossplay because I'm not buff or have a exaggerated body
>mfw

>>8028411
>cosplaying from the worst teen titans spinoff

>>8028411
>unironically cosplaying from That's So Raven

>>8028775
Max dose is 6 caps in 24 hours and I take two. And I'm 6'0, 200lbs. I should be okay.

>>8028939
It was in the original show too, anon

>>8028807
I totally understand you.
I survived a fire, and I lost everything, it just hurts me when I see those pictures or when I just think about you, anon.

Don't cry, just think about the future and present, it won't do good to you or your health,
We can discuss about it if you want, I'll post my email if you want.
Take care,

>>8028939
>>8028960
In the origina show they went into Raven's mind and meet her Emoticlones, I think there's like 8.

>>8028966
>tfw thinking of you hurting

>>8028454
And all her income goes to a Walmart card? That sounds very weird.

>>8028487
This thread is also for positive feels, that's why anon called you an idiot. Idiot.

>>8028865
Do Kaiki.

>>8029096
It would be an insult to do someone so handsome

>>8029001
Its kind of a lower income thing for the most part. If someone doesn't trust banks for whatever reason then they have a prepaid debit card kind of thing. Some shitty jobs make you do this too instead of direct deposit. I'm not trying to be an ass about the lower income thing, but the only people I know who do this work really hard but have to live paycheck to paycheck. Its pretty predatory from some companies and they like to charge a lot for it too.

>tfw your tiny cute lolita friends are encouraged to apply to fashion shows and model at several cons and events every year
>tfw your 5'9" average-looking ass will never be "scouted" for lolita modeling

I know it means pretty much nothing to walk down a runway in brand at a con, but I'm still somewhat jelly of my friends who are routinely asked by organizers to apply to their shows. I'm proud of them and happy for them, don't get me wrong, but I'd love it if someone genuinely thought I were pretty/dainty/whatever enough to be invited to apply, not just telling me to apply as an afterthought out of awkwardness of not including me in front of friends or out of pity. Oh well. Maybe I'll get plastic surgery someday and finally be kawaii.

>>8028807
I know how you feel anon, I did the exact same thing. I went through my entire apartment to clean things out, and finally went down to my storage in the garage where everything got flooded and thus was water damaged. Stacks of books, mooks, cosplay props/old costumes, etc. It's heartbreaking, but at least now it gives me a fresh start to get rid of things I didn't really plan on using again anyway, or redoing things better. I also donated all my salvageables with a bunch of other stuff from my apartment, so there's that too. You can get through this anon! You'll feel immensely better afterward.

>>8028325
MAKE UP

>every con, that one friend at the hotel
>the one who only sleeps in the biggest bed every night, never offers to sleep on the smaller or sofa bed
>loads on makeup like a hooker, brings all her makeup shit
>brings zero cleansing/skincare supplies - no shampoo/conditioner, no body wash, no contact solution, no face cleanser, no moisturizer
>has to use other ppls' stuff, she asks but it's like the type of situation where you can't say no
>hogs the mirror, leaves all her makeup shit all over the counter so that you have no space for your stuff and house cleaning can't do jack
>no hair ties, hair bands, bobby pins, safety pins, etc...
>mfw she wanted to use my fashion hairband as a hairband to hold up her greasy hair while washing her face

I buy a bunch of hair accessories at the dollar store before a con if I'm low on supplies because I know I go through bobby pins and hair ties like crazy even just for normal day wear so I don't mind basically giving those to her to keep since I don't want them back after they've been in her hair. It's shit like all the cleansing stuff that I don't understand why she can't ever bring her own since all of us have different types of needs for skin/hair. She actually complained that I brought shampoo for colored hair before. If she knows she needs a hairband for washing her face then why the doesn't she bring her own?

I've made comments about how we should clean up the counter area "a little" so that it's not such a mess for each other and house cleaning but she doesn't realize that her mess is literally all over the counter. I even put most of my shit away back into my toiletries bag and into my suitcase (except for wet stuff like toothbrush) because of how much stuff she leaves on the counter. When I'm clearing space with another friend we're literally like:
>"uh who's stuff is this? is it yours? can I put it away?"
>"no it's hers"
>"oh, how about this stuff?"
>"still hers..."
>"is anything in this section yours?"
>"lol nope."

>>8028390
Enjoy daibete latter in life.
And the day she ditches you being a disgusting lard will considerably reduce your dating pool.

She's extremelly selfish to push her fetish on you.
It's like asking your BF to start smoking because you think it's cool.

>>8028411
where are you from anon, i'd definitely join a raven group

>>8029332
>push her fetish on you
>she didn't FORCE me to do it
can you fucking read, jesus christ.
are you 12?

from how OP explained it, she got drunk and made a comment and OP went with it on his own volition to make her happy, and she was; she didn't hold him at gunpoint or pester him to get fat. I tell my boyfriend he'd look cute if he got fit and he tells me I should do more squats to get a better butt, in real life people tell these things to their SO.

I wonder how you function in society when you get so fucking angry over other people's relationships, fuck. Nobody's entitled to look how you like him to look, you're not OP's gf and if you don't like it fuck off. I don't even think he's that fat from how he explained it, just chubby.

>>8029326
>If she knows she needs a hairband for washing her face then why the doesn't she bring her own
I agree with her being selfish on other points, but people can forget small items like this you know.

>>8028367
Top kek.

This reminds of the story on /fit/ where this girl cheats on this guy and thinks he doesn't know. So he convinces her that he loves chubs, so he gets her to eat a shitton of food and gain 40+ lbs and get stretch marks. Then after a couple months of fattening her up, he calls her a cheating pig and leaves her, knowing that she's ugly as fuck and obese now.

>>8029349
sounds dumb because who is going to cheat with her when she's fat?

>>8029349
Fictional story? Lel.

>still unmotivated as fuck to make cosplays
>commission a friend
>fucking excited as hell to see the finished work
>feel conflicted about still wanting to cosplay despite not having fun actually making them

Am I rotten?

>>8028436
How'd you get into the seamstress business, anon?

>>8029355
She cheated on the guy BEFORE she got fat. So he lied to her, got her to get fattened up, then called her on being a cheating bitch.

>moving to a different country in Feb/March
>so happy, my current 'friends' are tumblr SJWs who constantly irritate me
>this is my chance to be less socially awkward and stop spilling my spaghetti all the time
>feels good

>>8029377
that's just petty tbh
why not just leave her like an adult would do

>>8029396
Because it's a revenge fantasy and didn't actually happen.
>/fit/
>straight
Pick one.

>>8029398
They still chase after girls and get GF as a status symbol, even what they really want is a D.

>>8029326
I shared a room with a friend when we went on a holiday. Stayed there about a week, and I have a shitton of cosmetics. So I put them all out and lined them up on a table. Roomate flipped his shit because of it. But honestly, I hate having to look for everything in my bags and just like to have it on display.

I want to blow all my money on axes femme. It's all just so cute holy shit. This sale will be the end of my wallet

>tfw overweight
>tfw unable to find job for whole year, go back to uni
>tfw gained weight that had previously been lost over last 6+ months
>shit diet, shit hours, 3hrs travelling a day, tired as hell, struggling to keep on to of studies
>mental health had been improving, takes a nose dive because of stress, lots of travelling, poor diet etc
>have to move during mid-semester, only found a place to move 1 week before end of contract
>fuck up a bunch of assignments because of stress of moving on top of everything else
>get to exam period, get sick, can't sleep
>defer exams, have to do them between 17-19th of Dec; didn't study enough because I just couldn't deal with everything, no sleep etc
>3 exam in 3 days, only about 10hrs of sleep for those days
>come home for christmas, nice time with family
>couple days ago (so still 2014) father decides both my brother (who's left at this stage) are bludgers - "don't want to work, won't work"
>Brother been at uni last 3 years getting Ds and HDs, about to do honors
>I have been struggling for 2 year to find work after uni, nothing except short term summer job teaching kids to swim which ruined my health
>breakdown and scream at him because he thinks I never tried to find work when I looked, got nothing and it ruined my self confidence (which I had very little of to begin with)
>say I have depression and he doesn't understand
>"I do because I am depressed we have no money" or some bullshit - basically pissed he has to pay bills and stuff like regular fucking people do and he DOES have money but is obsessed with it
>Tries to convince me to move to here - middle of nowhere. No universities nearby, even less jobs, even less chance to socialise because then they can "look after me"...After saying I am bludging off him when I'm not
>pay own rent, bills etc
2014 was a shit year, with a shitty emotional break down at the end because my father is an ass. I really hope 2015 is better.

>>8029098
I'm so glad someone else thinks Kaiki is handsome, I thought I was going insane.

>moved to a different country, both in the EU
>everyone is nice for the most part
>but holy SHIT do people take it badly when you ask them to explain something or tell you about something

It's practically impossible to find out some things because my language skills are fairly limited, and when I do ask someone who speaks it (namely my bf, friends, etc) they let out this desperate sigh as if I asked them to do my taxes and not translate something or explain how some system works.
I'm practically kept in the dark because when I ask for an explanation on anything it's as if I have to pay them per word uttered since they always explain it in the briefest way possible and omit any crucial information so long as it isn't absolutely necessary to mention it. Then I politely ask them to elaborate and each time I do they get more and more upset and then give up, usually by saying "UGH forget it I can't do this, ask someone else!" and leave me in the dark.

And worst of all is when I mention that to them and politely ask them to be more patient with me, they say "yeeeah, we're like that" and they even feel proud of it. As if it is something to pride yourself on.

>>8029462
Italian, per chance?

Just asking cos I had a similar experience with Italian friends I met up with.
As an English speaker it's common for us to say 'oh really?' Just as a response meaning to show interest and that our attention is held by the speaker.
There is no such equivalent in Italian, to speak of, and they got really mad at us for saying 'oh really?' Because they thought we GENUINELY were questioning their knowledge!

Maybe I'm missing the point but I just mean it's tough for you to handle because it's not your culture to be 'left out' just like it's tough for them because it's not their culture to 'give explaination', so to speak.

Am I making any sense? I'm going to shut up now.

>>8029465
Oh shit, is that not how "davvero" works? Well, I've been making an ass of myself.

>>8029465
No, not Italian, Belgian. They're Swedes.
Nobody's questioning my knowledge, they're just unbelievably stingy on words. So much so that they sometimes completely forget telling you any instructions and get upset when you do something wrong or don't know.

For example, I was supposed to see a doctor and I don't know anything about hospitals here. So I went to a public health centre and the nurses there got nervous because they spoke bad English (this is a small town) and I didn't speak Swedish, so they couldn't treat me properly.
Later I complained to one of my friends and she got really upset and yelled at me because "well of COURSE they wouldn't speak English, why'd you go there and not a private hospital?!"

The week before I'd asked her which ones people go to when they're unwell, and she just replied "dunno lel, I go to a health centre and so do most of other people".

>>8028865
you can do Araragi but it certainly works better if you have someone else with you. Sadly there are really only 3 male characters you can do, and if Araragi is too plain and you're handsome enough to do Kaiki then you really only have one choice (pic related)

>>8028483
Thanks anon.
Up until a year ago my parents thought I was full of shit despite my hard work. Now that it's actually starting to show that I'm successful, they're happy now.

>>8029376
I just pulled myself into it. Knew how to sew before, but now I offered out my stuff online through art sites and social media.
Kept growing and growing until I'm actually known locally and have a queue going.
Feels so professional, but I just work out of my back room/workroom stuffed with fabric and still feel like a smallfry.

You can do it! It will take a lot of time to get started and establish a base and portfolio, but you'll grow!
It took me about 2 to 3 years to be where I am today. But if you love what you do, still with it!

>>8029473
Ah I speak Swedish! I lived there for a year :)
Swedes do not feel the need to translate mostly because they grew up bi-lingual for the most part and feel if it's not worth saying in English the first time, it doesn't bare repeating.
I found that they only really used Swedish with each other if it make explanations between themselves more efficient, never to make non-Swedish speakers feel left out. Hell, swedes love to show off their mad English skills, so I wouldn't be too upset at all!
It might be good to learn some more basics with Rosetta Stone or enrol on an SFI class if you can spare the time, it's very worthwhile :)
Don't let it upset you Anon, it's not for you to be offended, it's just 'typical Scandinavian efficiency' ;)

>>8029473
Wtf? Fellow Swede here, but where the fuck do you live where people can't speak english?

>>8029482
I'm not that anon, but I've been living in Sweden for a while and I'm trying to learn the language better, I was just wondering how you got on with actually speaking Swedish with natives there? Because dammit, I've been trying, but every time they hear me struggling they just switch to English, and I know they mean well, but it's SO frustrating. I'll never learn at this rate. I encounter this to some extent whenever I'm learning a new language, but I've been finding that Swedish people are especially quick to switch to English.

>>8029484
Jokkmokk, and they can speak it but only if they're younger.

>>8029484
Sort of wondering same thing...

I lived in Köping and although there were folks RELUCTANT to speak it, almost all understood and responded to it, and Köping is sort of a 'the sticks' kind of a town, topped only by Kolsva and Kungsör, locally, for reluctance to use English.

>>8029492
Are you American?

>End of 2014, enter the best relationship of my life
>Known each other for years, just started dating and instantly fall in love
>Constantly reaffirms me and helps me learn to like myself again
>Fucked up eating habits make a reappearance
>Been vomiting every day for the past week on top of exercising
>Starting to restrict eating
>Happier than I've been for the past three years

It's really weird for me. Unlike most people, my relationship with food worsens when I'm happy about myself and my life. When I'm depressed I just eat all day (weight fluctuates between 126-130 lb no matter how much I eat, fortunately), but the second things start going well for me I stop eating. The vomiting is a new thing which I'm massively ashamed of, mostly because who becomes bulimic at 23? I'm too old for this yet here I am and currently happy about it but my happiness scares me and I will likely break down in about a month.

Tl;dr I'm happy and mad at myself for being happy because I should be sad and scared.

>>8029491
OH well If you live in Jokkmokk I can understand

>>8029493
No I'm English, doll :)

>>8029489
>>8029489
I know your pain. Best advice I have is to persist in Swdish. When they switch to English, kindly point out; "jag lära mig svenska, snälla prata bara svenska. Tack för ditt hjälp." Or similar. All swedes agree the best way to learn is to talk, so don't let yourself be talked down :) they'll get it! (Excuse my grammar btw, writing isn't my strongest point!)

>>8029500
Sage for not feels, but since we're kinda on the topic, is there a Norwegian speaking community? I know Sweden gets all the attention out of the Scandi countries, but I've seen not a thing ever for Norway or Denmark.

>why'd I have to go with norsk

>>8029516
you can just say norwegian

>>8028390

>Just got a bunch more blubber on me.

Yeah, 60 pounds of it nigger. Fuck that bitch, lose the weight and leave the whore.

>>8029494
I try to make me vomit a few time and it never worked.

I wish I could, it would be useful after the forced Xmas feast.

>>8029474
I guess I could do Arararararagi if I found another monogatari cosplayer to do it with me, but you know how rare they are...

>>8028658
Need a ride to Katsu? My buddies and I are going, and I can always get you a set of cammies and loan you some equipment that someone probably tried to actually kill someone else in.

>that feeling of resentment/second-hand embarrassment/disgust when you see a lolita and some cosplayers in the local bookstore

hits me like a rock every time. maybe it's because it's my lunch break.

>got fat last year
>hit highest of 183lbs
>"wow fuck that im gonna lose weight"
>bought bodyline outfit
>6 months ago finally pulled shorts up legs
>try them on every few weeks
>its getting easier each time

>1 year later down to 168lbs

i still cant zip them up, but the gap is getting smaller each time i try

a-am i gonna make it gulls?

>>8028859
Don't really know. I got my cosplay pretty fast from them. My package was only delayed because of some other seller from something else.

>>8029544
Why don't you do the girl related to your picture? She doesn't look too feminine or do the monkey tomboy lesbian girl. I don't know what you look like but I bet you can pull off a lot more than what you assume.

>>8029768
I'll have a think about it

>>8029762
That's not particularly fast to be honest (~140 calorie deficit on average) but you're gonna make it eventually.

>>8029782
Hey I believe in you anon. Don't let any seagull discourage you. If you want to do Monogatari rock with Monogatari.

>tfw you don't even like the show and trying to be helpful.
>tfw you hate the show because you wanted a harem ending with vampire/crab/neko/snail.
>tfw you hate the show just because the girl you like isn't coming back.

>>8029824
>tfw you hate the show just because the girl you like isn't coming back.
If you're talking about snail, then I have good news for you.

My face is breaking out horrifically and I feel disgusting. I know it's just stress/hormones, but this is the worst it's been since high school. I need to get this shit back in hand before I go back to class on the 11th.

>mfw I find out every 4chan post you make is tied to your Google account thanks to the new captchas
>mfw every occasion I've insulted someone or went on rants on this shitty site is now saved and could be used against me at any point in time
>mfw "Someone else was on my computer!" is not a viable excuse
It's not like I'm up to anything illegal, but it's still a scary thought and not good for my paranoia

>>8029842
Just log out of Google + delete your cookies.
If you're really paranoid, use Ghostery and block all the Google script trackers

>>8029828
Wait what? Spoil me anon!

>>8029856
She comes back as a shrine spirit

>>8029844
>mfw ghostery, secret agent, blender and noscript installed
the lizard man ain't gonna get ME

>>8028315
i let my bf have sex with me when i didn't want to do it
he had been a huge fucking asshole the night before on new years eve and got mad at me over nothing, went to bed at 11:30
then the next morning he comes out to the couch where i was sleeping and starts putting his boner in my face
it really pissed me off that he was so hurtful to me the night before and that he was doing this shit.
our sex life is actually pretty bad, he pretty much never wants to do it even when he gets boners which is quite often
anyway i just let him do it, i thought maybe id be into it once we started but i just wasn't so i kinda just laid there
it made me feel pretty depressed, i feel like i can't trust him right now? i don't know
i don't need advice because i know what plans i have, i just needed to post this somewhere because i don't feel comfortable talking about it to anyone yet

>>8029877
Did you tell him you were mad at him and didn't want to have sex? It sounds like you're going to break up with him, which is probably for the best, going from what you've written, but you can't just lay there and take it- you have to speak up. Your partner isn't a mind-reader, and if he's being a shit, you have to tell him, else you're just going to be miserable.

>>8029877
My advice is to break up.
But also not go running around saying he raped you.

>>8029877
why do you guys make such a big deal out of it
so fucking what
are you trying to get pity points from us for not saying no and expecting him to read your mind or what?

>>8029877
Bite it off next time

>>8029881
no

>>8029883
never said he did

>>8029885
don't need your pity, nor do i need your sand or projecting

>>8029891
then why'd you fucking word it as if you were the victim

>>8029898
that's how you read it
if it's upsetting or triggering you or something you can always stop reading and move on to something else like a big girl

>my job is terrible and my employers treat me like a slave and have done about a hundred illegal things to me
>can't quit because i need the $
>got dumped on christmas eve
>weighed myself, found out i was 15 pounds heavier than i thought i was
>family drama
>my pet dies

Like legit, I know there's people who have it way worse than me but I just want to curl up in a ball and cry for the next week.

>>8029903
lmao you're the one whining about it on here, why don't you take your own advice

>>8029891
>do you tell him you don't want to have sex?
>no.

Well there's your problem. Fucking talk it out or go to couples counseling

>>8029842
>be shitty to people online anonymously
>now worried people will know it was you
how pathetic

>>8029926
you're actually whining a lot more than i am

>>8029927
cool advice, thanks for the concern and replies

>>8029926
>not comfortable talking to anyone about it yet
gee it's almost like some people post here to vent and not for attention. unthinkable, i know, take your time.

My mother does not understand the concept of Lolita. No matter how many time's i tell her and sit down with her and explain everything about it. she still doesn't get it.
i got a few dresses in the post today and i was trying them on with a petticoat and blouse to see what they were like. this conversation happened after explain not several, but near hundreds of times the concept of Lolita.

>her: "why do you have to wear that stupid petticoat?"
>me: "because it is one of the main things in Lolita, it isn't really Lolita without it"
>her: "you look ridiculous, Why don't you wear it without the poof. It looks better without it and you look thinner"
>Me: "but that is the point of Lolita"
>Her: "It's ridiculous, Take it off, and you look silly wearing a blouse under a dress, why can't you wear it like a normal dress "

She also thinks it is ridiculous to wear hair bows, and insists i stitch them onto the dress and not wear them on my hair. She also doesn't see the point of wearing wigs and has proclaimed several times that people will just laugh at me. I've shown her loads of examples of really good coord and awesome lolita dresses. I've also shown her Ita's to prove a point...she has said the Ita's look nicer and i should dress more like them.

Tears. Literal floods of tears. I'm 23....I need to move out of my house and back into my own apartment before i slap a bitch.

>>8029970
Be strong anon

>>8029970
What Ita pictures did you show her?
And you do sounds pretty immature (oh no, this again) when you talk about slapping a bitch because you mum doesn't understand or like some niche fashion.

>>8029944
>calling you an attention whore is now whining
mhm
>>8029945
vent about what, herself being an idiot?

>>8029976
it's okay, next time i'll put TRIGGER WARNING at the top of my post
please relax and love yourself

>>8029982
you're the one who cried about being ~le almost raped~, maybe you'd get more asspats if you cried about it on your tumblr?

>>8029975
I'm not as immature as i sound. You can understand when you vent or rage about something, no matter what it is about, it'll sound immature. I'm just frustrated and that was my way of expressing it. I'm sorry was not better able to express my frustration.

>>8029988
>using memes of memes
alright opinion discarded have a nice day

>>8029988
show me where i mentioned rape in my post
it was pretty intentional that i didn't :^)

>>8029995
being frustrated isn't allowed here on this anonymous image board secret clubhouse, only memes and funposting

>>8029997
seriously? your whole damn post was
>muh bf was meeean to meee! I just went with it and said nothing and he STILL kept being mean to mee! feel sorry for me guys!

>>8030005
where's the part about rape tho

>>8030005
i dont know if you realized this but op was talking about how she was frustrated with her boyfriend for being rude and then suddenly wanting sex. she didn't call it rape, she said their sex life wasn't great, and said she wasn't looking for advice and just wanted to post anonymously because she didnt feel ready to talk to anyone personally about it yet.
you need to chill the fuck out man

>>8029891
I didn't mean to say you did say that, but I can imagine girls in that situation coming to the conclusion and trying to ruin their ex's life with that.

>>8029881
>>8029885
Does your bf just sticks it in you while you lie there like a dead fish and you think that's normal because you didn't verbally express your lack of pleasure? Obviously it's not forced on you but it's pathetic nevertheless and reflects very poorly on the guys character and what he enjoys in sex.

>>8029997
> :^)

Smiles on 4chan
Get the fuck out.

>>8030028
Being this new and upset
:^)

>>8030028
:^)

>>8029919
When you're ready to leave and landed a better job. Report them.

>>8030028
(^:

>>8030019
oh ok, i get it
i haven't had the chance to talk to him yet but i've already told him i want to talk to him about it tonight and i'm trying to mentally prepare so i don't just flip out and get upset u know

>>8030028
/cgl/ is tumble central.
Get used to it anon.

It's an image board. If you want to post smiles, Post them as Images. That was the entire point and the reason most people get annoyed when people post smiles. It is what reaction images are for.

>>8030044
:^)

>>8030046
Are you retarded?

>>8029842
only when you're logged in or?
it's not like I have much to hide save for the fact I go on 4chan
or that one time I told people on here about my brutal period-induced diarrhoea, h-hehe...

>>8030044

>>8030048
: ^ )

>>8030044
happy? :^)

>>8030048
( ¬‿¬)

Now you are just spamming up a good thread with your retardation.

>>8030057
:^( who r u talking to tho

>>8030028
>>8030048
AYYY LMAO :^)

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>>8030054
>>8030052
>>8030051
>>8030050
>>8030046
>>8030035
>>8030032
>>8030033

Will You stop derailing the fucking thread please and get back on topic? Jesus it's like your brain damaged

>>8030057
>maybe if i use the word retarded enough theyll think im cool!
:^) nah

>>8030065
*ur
:^)

I hope you retards get this thread deleted.

Go to tumblr if you are going to act like a 12 year old as this is an over 18's board, and you are clearly a fucking child.

>>8030065
>its the same person
:^() <(MEGA KEK)

>>8030065
>it's like your brain damaged
what did my brain damage
:^)

>>8030074
>not knowing le happy face
Teehee :^)

Wow this thread got over run with Tumblr fagots real quick.

>>8030074
>act like a 12 year old
collectively the same 12 year old we come 2gether to form 1 year old 12 year old
:^()

>>8030091
Seriously. Why?
I'm not the original anon but i an agree you guys are acting really stupid. the thread is going to be deleted because you're shitposting. Just stop already.

>>8030095
how was ur first day so far
:^) ??

>>8030090
:^) do you want to talk about it? are your feefees hurt? this is a feels thread after all

>>8030074
GRING GRING NIGGA JABBLOOBLOO WAKA WAKA NEW NEW NEW

:'^} :^)

>>8030019
>Does your bf just sticks it in you while you lie there like a dead fish and you think that's normal because you didn't verbally express your lack of pleasure? Obviously it's not forced on you but it's pathetic nevertheless and reflects very poorly on the guys character and what he enjoys in sex.
That's the sex life of a lot of women.

I have no libido or sex drive but I still let my BF puts it in because he needs it. It's not rape.

>>8030115
>enslaving yourself to your bf's sexual "needs"
>being with someone you're not sexually compatible with
ewwwwwww...

>>8030137
I'm not sexually compatible with anyone. I just don't like fucking.

And I believe that for a relationship to be successful a bit of effort are necessary from both part.

It's far from slavery. Just a bit of a chore once evry week.

>>8030154
if you don't like fucking then you're sexually compatible with someone who also doesn't like fucking

>>8030115
You know what works best for the blue balls or blue clit? A hand. If I'm gonna have sex it's so both of us are into it and enjoying themselves. It's fucking weird to treat your partner like blow up doll.

>>8030167
she won't listen to you, you know
she's going to argue with you about how it's all okay and normal
she's just gonna have to learn on her own

>>8030115
You are seriously missing out. I feel bad for you anon.

I sometimes really envy NEETs.
I have an awesome job, I'm almost finished with my bachelor's degree in a very sought-after major (in my country) and I have a wonderful boyfriend. But still, sometimes I wish I had none of these responsibilities. I'm almost panicking thinking about my next finals this month and thinking about whether I'll get a chance for my master's degree or at least a decent job. I can't stop thinking I'm not good enough at my current job, at my university or for my boyfriend, even if people tell me otherwise.
Sometimes I'd rather quit everything, fill my room with cute stuff, laze around in lolita, watch anime, read manga and cook japanese all day.
Sometimes I just want to be a cute frilly housewife...

>>8030165
what are the odds of finding a guy like that though
might as well die a spinster, so she might

>>8030261
I was a NEET for two years; it sounds great, but the novelty runs out after a few months. You don't have money to spend because you don't work, and constantly asking for rides or cash from friends and family is no way to live.

>>8028390
>my health is fine
Adipose tissue (fat) is unhealthy by just being there. Fucks up your metabolism, kills testosterone by converting it passively, and fattens up your internal organs.
By being 60lbs overweight you shorten your life by 10+ years, easily.

>>8028379
Except losing weight is healthy in the majority of cases

I'm sure you're going to retort with the 0.005% of the population that has anorexia, though.

>>8030266
Well of course I know this, being a NEET isn't an option, I'm fully aware it's way worse than it sounds. But everything is just a little too much right now. I've been told by a few people that "my life is very hard but also successful compared to others my age, so I shouldn't expect to ace everywhere", but I still haven't accepted not being superb everywhere with barely any effort like I did in school.

>250lbs at 6'0
>not really that fat due to how I'm built, no hanging gut or nothing, but still really fat
>decide to get fit
>lose 60lbs eventually
>turns out that I'm actually pretty handsome, not a model or nothing but still much more pleasant than I thought (due to the fat blowing up my face before)
>soon I'll be done cutting, not sure if I'll go for visible abs
>still don't have any friends
>still socially retarded
>still no idea where to find friends
>people look at me because I'm in pretty good shape, but nobody talks to me still
>still a NEET

help

>>8029530
don't be a fucking dick this is serious shit not some fun quirk
go hard or go fucking home

>sell dress online, hooray!
>yesterday, prep dress to post out to buyer
>postage website doesn't allow the shipping option I want
>quote site lists the shipping option I want as available, but won't process it through their label printing site
>"Good thing I got spare customs forms last time I was at the post office!"
>manually fill out customs form to send the package out instead
>go to post office
>post office is closed
>no sign explaining why
>go home and check their website and Facebook page, and there's dozens of people complaining that their post offices are also closed
>someone finally digs up a schedule of "public holidays" for the post offices and apparently, January 2nd is one of them
>okay, whatever, my bad
>go back to try again this morning
>post office is still closed
>January 3rd is not listed as a holiday


Yaaaaaay.

>>8030301
> tfw around same weight and height as you were before
> tfw hanging gut

I want to kill myself

>>8029430
>dad pays for all your shit while you're unable to get a job due to depression
>yell at dad for pointing out that he has to pay for you, wether he's depressed or not
Yeah you're an entitled child. Tell him you look. He's paying other peoples bills. He's certainly fucking not obsessed with money, or he'd not pay their bills, like he could do legally.

Try to think rationally, anon.

>>8029494
You know, you could solve all your problems by counting calories.
Just set a goal (read the sticky on /fit/ for some calorie calculation methods) and count it. You won't feel the need to vomit things out because you KNOW they were ok for your diet. You won't feel the need to restrict eating because you KNOW how much you can eat exactly.

>>8029877
Call the cops. It was rape. Get a rape kit.

>>8030338
Try this

>>8030049
I was in that thread

...threads

>>8030338
social problems aside, I've never felt better in my life. You too should get in shape.

>>8029877
>i let my bf have sex with me when i didn't want to do it
>>8029877
>Call the cops. It was rape

It wasn't rape. If she didn't want to do it, she should have left the fucking room / house / building and gone home.
>>8029877
>i just let him do it
Right there.
Sorry to burst your bubble, but you need to resist more if you really mean no.

>>8030340
Anon has stated that he/she pays for her own rent and bills..?

>>8030363
I laughed, it's amazing what kind of weight loss products have and still exist

>>8030375
Yeah I hear that a lot from people who lost the weight, and I don't doubt it will, when I'm on public transport I spend half the time thinking how everyone looks better them me and that i look disgusting

Godammit I wanted that dress so much.
But I'm a poor fag and I can't afford scalped resell prices.
Goodbye, my dream.

>>8030376
rape was never mentioned in that post, intentionally
sorry to burst your bubble but we're all in agreement here
i realize it was a situation i'd never experienced before and didn't handle it as well as i wanted to
>also we live together, just correcting you
so please relax and enjoy your day

>>8030424
I want you to realize you've spent 5 hours attentionwhoring about your boyfriend fucking you while you made like a ferret and feigned death.
5 whole hours of defending yourself, completely derailing a thread that has absolutely nothing to do with you.

Please go back to blogging on tumblr, you fucking cunt.

>>8030350
I agree with this. It will also motivate you to move your ass a little, even just for a walk because afterwards you can eat some of that ice cream you crave and still eat at a deficit and lose weight.

>>8030427
>>8030376
Please fuck off. You're derailing the thread getting hostile for no reason and then you attack her for correcting you. Shut up.

>>8030431
>literally "no you shut up"
it's time to stop posting now.

>>8030427
i was cleaning but ok, try to have a better day

>>8030428
Well, anon mentioned that he/she has been doing exercise while restricting eating and vomiting.
That's even worse than not doing exercise. If your body is out of calories to burn, it cannibalizes brain cells, among other things. It literally eats your brain cells for calories.

Plus, but that's debated, it does put your heart under heavy stress (as opposed to exercise) and might just make it stop working.

>always start a cosplay once January starts
>usually even have materials ready by the 1st
>moved away from home last year
>this year I flew back for the holidays
>too lazy on the days leading up to order anything
>too lazy during the trip to order
>don't even know what I want to cosplay right now

I have some ideas but it kinda sucks not being in a group. Even one other person going from the same series would be nice, but the cosplays I want to do aren't exactly well known either. I have to redo some things on my last cosplay too.

I'm frustratingly stuck in cosplay limbo.

>gets rejected by crush
>still friends
>said something I shouldn't have and they ended up blocking me on every single social media platform, with no way to contact them
>they still have some of m cosplay photos and items.

I'm not entirely worried about the items... just disappointed that I destroyed our friendship so easily.

>>8030703
what did you say?

>>8030703
If you didn't say something that horrible (racist, sexist, pre scummy shit)
Then they weren't a good friend to begin with to end for no reason.

>need a work email
>have to use gmail because "any other service isn't professional enough!" (really? says who?)
>have the most generic first and last name in the whole country, mary smith-tier
>can't use numbers because "that's unprofessional!"
>don't have a middle name
what the hell am I supposed to do? make up a middle name? Use my mother's or father's name as my middle name? All the initials are taken too.

>cgl related
I met the sweetest lolita the other day and also saw a mori girl in the bus several days before. I wanted to tell both of them that their outfits were adorable but I was too spaghetti to do anything other than stare like a retard, ah... I hope they didn't think me rude.

>>8030710
>good friends caring about racist or sexist remarks
You must have the most shallow friendships. I can call my black friends niggers when I'm mad, they don't hold it against me.

>>8030716
include the business name, dummy.

like WORKPLACENAME.marysmith@gmail.com

>>8030717
I don't know about calling someone a nigger but you're right about the other things. If I had a friend that got offended over anything they probably weren't a very good friend. I always get nervous around people who take offence at literally anything because you never know what's going to set them off and they probably don't trust you in the first place.

>>8030722
that's stupid, because I won't be MCJOB.mary@gmail.com forever and I really don't want to change my email.

>>8030724
It's actually much more convenient to have a seperate e-mail for every place you work at.
Who knows, maybe something happens and now you don't want to/aren't allowed to be associated with your old workplace anymore. You can't just use that old e-mail then.

It's not stupid, what's stupid is your unwillingness to do it.

>>8030729
I don't want to do it because I have other people who will be emailing me to that address even after I stop working there since I freelance on the side. Also, it's not a job to be proud of.

Maybe listen to what people have to say before going after calling them stupid.

>>8030731
So it's not a job to be proud of...
but somehow you still want to associate yourself with it permanently by using the same e-mail address for it that you plan to use for your freelance business and other jobs.

I mean, if that's really what you want, good for you. I feel like you should think this through instead of getting mad at me for giving you advice

>>8030724
What about mary.smith.work@gmail,
doesn't have to be the business name, but still indicates that it's not a personal email.
Or just pick a letter for a middle name

>>8030733
I don't have a problem associating myself with it. It isn't anything shameful, just a low-rung mcjob.
What I do have a problem with is having mcdonalds.mary as my email even after I move up in my career or start working somewhere else. It's not a secret that I worked there, everyone who knows me knows where I work so no point in hiding it but I still wouldn't want my (sort of) professional moniker to be MickyD's Mary and I already have a plethora of other accounts, more than I know what to do with. Capiche?

>>8030735
I tried the letter thing, unfortunately even z was taken.
I just tried the work one and it's taken as well, ugh

>>8030740
You're still using the same e-mail for everything is my point.
If some employer wants to see what you've been up to, all he does is google your e-mail.
>wow, mary smith worked at burger king?
>what an underachiever

plus, if the business is professional at all, they'll ask you to make yet another one.

If you really still want to do it, try something like
marysmith.biz@gmail
mary.smith.biz@gmail
smith.mary.biz@gmail

and all variations thereof. Maybe even include a made up middle name letter.

>>8030748
thanks! I'll try that and whatever else I can think of.
I'm mostly worried about my resume because I heard how some people toss job applications in the rubbish just because of things like numbers in the mail address, or using anything other than gmail (because let's give jewmail even more power over the internet I guess).

>>8030709
I got clingy and they told me " you should treasure what you have", I told them I felt like I had nothing, that I was utterly useless.

And well I guess that was it. They probabaly put up with me for a long time since I can be pretty clingy. I don't know how to get over this, it just happened this afternoon too

>>8030754
Well, it sounds like a misunderstanding. He probably took that as one of those "oh woe is me, you don't love me" things when you probably didn't mean it that way in the first place. Perhaps just message him somehow, if you can, and ask for the items back? At this point I don't think even mentioning what happened is a good idea, it'd be like rubbing salt in the wound imo.

>>8030748
The email I put on my resumes is linked to my other gmail accounts, and it's my full name (sans the middle name my father gave me because 'Kinder' is seriously horrible)

If I've put in a resume, I will open both email accounts in different tabs so I'm constantly notified. But right now I need to find a job that pays over $450 a week to rival the amount I get from living at home. Which sucks, but hey. Money is money, and I've saved like 4k so far.

>I get it from looking after my very independent mother, despite her disability
>tfw free money
>tfw captcha is actually 'school'
>Good thing I'm enrolled in uni

>>8030754
that still sounds like a silly thing to block someone over on every single form of social media to me

>>8030756
I think it would be more like the person was saying that even though he/she won't be their boyfriend/girlfriend she shouldn't be too upset and should treasure the friendship they have, to which anon replied that they had nothing implying that the friendship meant fuck all to them if it wasn't ending in a relationship.

>>8030350
>>8030428

Yeah, um, you guys don't seem to understand bad relationships with food. I'm not saying I have an ED because I was never diagnosed, but it isn't a matter of "Count calories and go for a walk! You'll feel all better and won't want to vomit!" This is something you can't control like that. No matter how much or little you eat, how much or how little you exercised that day, the urge just *exists* and gnaws at you. It is very difficult to suppress. It's like what >>8030435
said.

Your advice and the /fit sticky are really great for non-disordered mindsets. In this case, however, they don't really do much good.

>>8030788
I guess this is close to what I think happened. I treasure them a lot though I guess I wasn't feeling great after bein rejected.
>>8030756
To be honest asking for the items back might just make it worse. Like messaging them saying 'could I possibly get my things back' after ending on such a sour note

> midterms soon
> already stressed out

if anything it's because I know I'm terrible at getting myself to study and I'm afraid I'll fail and get kicked out of the course.
I'm looking at what I need to study but I don't even know where to begin.

>>8030802
Maybe you can't solve it because you treat it as a disorder.

I guess my "urge" disorder is more with... masturbating, but I got that under control. "Masturbating disorder, computer addiction, eating disorder, ect" it sounds so much worse when you put medical symptoms after it.

My "eating" problem is much worse, but I managed to adapt to that too. Ever since my appendix burst, I go absolutely apeshit when I'm hungry. My mind plays tricks on me and it simulates the pain I've had when my appendix burst whenever I get sufficiently hungry. It's to the point where I'm groveling on the floor trying to press my face against the tiles as if the cold would assuage the pain in my stomach. I pretty much can't stand up straight or think logically at that point until I eat something, then some of the pain goes away and I can go prepare a meal or something. I adapted to that by going on fasts until I could tolerate the pain, then after that I started timing when I would eat my meals and how much I eat to make sure it doesn't happen anymore. Though adaptation first was important just in case I ever wanted to cut to sub 9% or was put in a situation where food isn't readily available.

Not fat, by the way. 5'9 163 lbs at sub 12% bf.

>>8029842

Sometimes I wonder if my ISP knows what porn I browse. I'm not sure if it's actually legal content or not. Do you think they have someone stationed there, sifting through porn traffic and judging? Makes me paranoid and ruins my fapping since I'm afraid to look at what I actually want to look at.

I suppose my chan posts might cause more problems, but apparently I'm not on the no fly list so it isn't that bad, even if they do know.

>>8030802
>Solution has been suggested
>um no IT'S A CONDISHUN

okay
If you don't want change, you don't get change. Counting calories helps with all eating disorders.
It's almost like you WANT to be a special snowflake, the way you talk about this.
Your real disorder is special snowflake syndrome.

>>8030906
If I can watch midget dickgirl scat porn with full sound, you'll be fine.

>>8030115
>I have no libido or sex drive

>bf is on winter break
>no sex for two weeks and counting
>even if he's here, he's so busy that I only get it once or twice a week
>would prefer twice a day
>was like that with my last boyfriend as well

Are you a lesbian in denial or something? You should be attracted to your man and want to fuck him senseless and ceaselessly. Stop taking the D for granted when so many go thirsty every night.

>>8030919
>you should
haha no
different people have different sex drives, just because you are a dirty nympho trollop doesn't mean the rest of us have to be

>>8030906
I wonder about this too, except it's less ISP and more does the University really watch over my shoulder. I mean there's gotta be guys looking at a lot worse live action stuff around than me over here with my anime babe drawings but still, are they going to refuse to hand over my degree or something because there's loli shit on the same sites I look at or something

>>8030922
your slut shaming stop

>got thighhighs
>legs too fat
>pudge puffing out over tops of them
>need to diet and exercise
>so cold out that it hurts my face
>was just given a ton of christmas goodies, including cheese, chocolate, and pie

I'm having the cheese on apples rather than the crackers, at least. 1700 calories in that box of crackers that I'm saying no to. I'll give it to someone I guess. Why does food have to be so delicious?

Just ten pounds and I'd be perfect.

>>8030910

Guro. Also, really? Fucking why? Midgets are gross.

>>8030930
I think drawn murderporn is alright aslong as there's no flat chests.
Thank god the laws on this are so reasonable.

>>8030925
good, sluts should be shamed

>>8030936

I hate the loli laws. I don't even like loli, but what if something that caters to my niche fetishes happens to have loli in it? I mean, fuck me because the nips are all pedo, you know? Not to mention 90% of everything is set in high school so everything is underage.

Torture and mutilation is more acceptable than a high schooler. What a society.

>Order dream dress over a month ago
>Decides to have it shipped to parents instead of dorm because school is closed over the break
>Home on and off because of work schedule
>Hoping it arrives while I'm home
>Doesn't
>Parents refuse to pick it up at the post office, and won't sign for it
>I don't have a car and my parents live 2 hours away from me, and I won't be able to go home at all because of work schedule
>I'm about the cry I don't want to spend another 20 dollars on ems shipping

They get mad whenever I get packages, even though I have a job and make my own money. But being passive aggressive about it is making it worse.

I bitched about this a few weeks ago, but I'm going to do it again just to emphasis how banal and pointless this whole fiasco was.
>started dating my bf a few months ago, got acquainted with his circle of friends
>they all seem to like me but I hear about their drama....a lot
>one guy (we'll call him Bob) "emotionally cheated" on his engaged gf (Stella) with a girl he works with (Tifa)
>Bob is a near-thirty hambeast who has an odor with some autistic tendencies
>as a result he is regarded in the circle as "a nice guy" whom everyone seems toforgive when he admits cheating
>bf brings up the situation with me to fish for feedback and I tell him that Bob is a fat dumb idiot
>he dismisses just how much Bob had fucked up
>"He's a nice guy, anon..."
>I am of the opinion that if this situation were reversed and it was a girl who had cheated, she would be scorned as an evilslut
>I also think that Bob would have had to do more with Tifa than "emotionally cheat" because a few words don't mean shit and this wouldn't have gotten so blown up if it were just that, I digress..
>lots of tension as you can imagine

>at the new year's eve party Bob didn't show because Stella was there
>at this point everyone is getting tired of hearing about this situation as it's been weeks and they're still undecided about what they'll do
>everyone telling Stella to end it if she can't trust Bob
>suddenly the busybody of the circle (Lisa) blurts out that Bob had slept with Tifa
>nobody believes it and they get pissed, but I would believe it at this point
>nothing comes of that night besides Stella getting drunk and crying on everyone's shoulders

>yesterday night
>Bob gets invited to our movie night
>as soon as he walks in the door he announced that Stella and him are officially done but they will remain friends
>youdontsay.JPEG
>tfw this could have been resolved as easily weeks ago

>>8031003
tbh good on lisa for calling it
there wouldn't be a huge shitfit about it if nothing had happened

>>8028334
Grow some balls and ask them. Privately.

>>8031012
That's what I was thinking the entire time, I just didn't want to put myself in a bad position since I'm still regarded as the newbie to the group. I just really resent how they kept saying how Bob was so "nice." Ugh.

We spent so much on presents this year I'm actually starting to get scared. I got pretty much everything I asked for and it makes me so nervous because my boyfriend asks for nothing despite my offering of money and presents to him. It feels unfair to him, yet he keeps telling me it's okay and I just don't want to be a greedy mooch.

>my parents sent me €250 to spend for Christmas
>said it was for both of us
>he said I can spend all of it
>ask him ten times if it's all right to get a camera lens
>it is
>I order it
>there's still some money left
>"no you keep it"
>n-no you
>ask parents if they would like anything
>"we just want you to be happy anon"
>n-no you

I'm not used to this, what do I do?
I'm already sending a slieve of cards and letters to them all and baking my boyfriend a cake
I feel so ungrateful

I also got a really expensive hand-knit jumper, it's so thick and greasy and warm I can't imagine how much it must've cost

>60 year old mother needs food
>I ask her what she wants but she's being difficult
>I just give her around $100 to buy food and tell her to at least save me $20
>She goes out and buys food mostly for my cousin instead of herself
>Cousin works a job, her daughter my other cousin works, and they have a house. They already had two $1,000 checks from my uncle passing away and my younger cousin got $10,000 from her dad from back child support.
>My mom told me that they needed the money and she felt bad because they spent $500 on their furnace
>But she bitches at me because I buy figmas and like to cosplay, saying it's a waste of time


But you have no damn food in the house! And you only get disability while they get money!

And my family wonders why I don't give a fuck about their opinion.

>January
>live in northern hemisphere
>70+ degrees
>100% humidity
>air conditioner broken
>want to wear lolita/otome but sweating in apartment even when naked

>>8029494
I feel you anon. Been dealing with fucked up eating for about 2 years now (I had been fighting it before, but took a nose dive after some events). The vomiting started this past summer after I turned 18, and no matter how hard I try it just keeps getting worse and worse. (Hell, I haven't eaten today because I was happy my mother let me leave the house like an adult.) My parents found out (not the vomiting but the restrictive eating) while I was at uni, forced me to gain weight when visiting, which made me sad, which made me gain more weight. Now they think I'm "recovered" and I'm happy again, so I'm losing weight. I still feel kinda shit, though. I gained back 15 pounds after losing 60 (in the past two years I ate more when I was sad, but I mainly just plateaued, not gained...) and just feel like a fat fuck. I've been avoiding mirrors and scales but it's not working too well... Laxatives + restricted eating + vomiting is really gonna fuck me over in the long run but I don't feel like I can stop.
Also just... yeah like I do all this shit and I know it's bad but I don't... Feel bad? I feel bad thinking I have an eating disorder because all I can think is, "Surely it's not that bad... I'm blowing things out of proportion..." while vomiting plain lettuce.

tl;dr I feel you. I feel you and I decided to share some of my feelings as well.

>>8029877
>>8029877
if you didn't want it then it wasn't consensual. the lack of consent is what makes it sexual assault. you didn't need to say no or struggle or fight or whatever, what matters is that you didn't say yes. if you personally don't consider what happened to you rape then that's fine, that's up to you, but please talk to someone who's knowledgable about these things when you feel ready to do it. even non clear-cut examples of sexual assault can be traumatizing. i wish you the best

>>8031319
No, don't go fucking preaching this stupid shit.

It was her boyfriend, and she wasn't under the influence. She should have said no if she wanted him to stop. Allowing someone to have sex with you when you don't want it isn't sexual assault.

>>8031327
guys shut the fuck up already this has been discussed 5 million times in the thread, move on

>>8030261
NEET isn't great. Do you want to be without any kind of dependable funding, no boyfriend, and basically here or other places all days?

It sounds good but trust me it isn't. It's one step being closer to homeless and nobody wants that.

>>8030781
Not really. Anon >>8030754 probably said it like "Oh woe is me I'm a special snowflake and fuck everyone else because my problems are the worse."

People accused me of doing that when someone would complain about how sucky their life is and I would tell them "Welp I was homeless/there are girls who have been raped before so you shouldn't feel bad since you have blah blah blah" when I was just trying to point out that it could be worse and things get better, not divert the conversation to myself.

>>8030909
not that anon but oh my god you're an idiot. Even if anon isn't claiming it's an ED, many people with EDs have a hard time coming to terms with having an ED. Counting calories can help in some circumstances, but also leads to relapse as the numbers go higher during recovery. Don't think by googling "eating disorders" you're now able to recommend the best recovery methods for an anonymous person on the internet who just came to vent, not for a medical diagnosis. Not to mention, people with disordered eating tendencies need to be in the right mindset for recovery, which can sometimes take years of psychotherapy and emotional support.

>Same anon from threads ago with Friend A and B
>Emailed friend B because I felt bad about the train incident
>Can't have the courage or balls to read the email friend B send back because it's probably shit
>Friend A is still not working despite taking him to court
>Afraid friend A is going to rape me again
>Nobody really cares about my concerns

>>8029432
I love this bastard and he was the only reason why I bothered with Monogatari outside of snail girl.

>>8029864
>mfw
>Time to jump back on the bandwagon again

>>8031361
that's actually annoying as fuck
i wouldn't block you though, probably just tell you to shut the fuck up and stop making your life sound worse just because someone's trying to reach out to you
i had a friend who did shit like this and i would've rather she pointed out that it annoys her when i complain too much instead of being a passive aggressive cunt and start crying about being homeless and how there's kids starving in africa and getting raped and shit
the reality is few people actually have the balls to be forward with their feelings though, definitely something we all need to work on.

>>8031375
But the point is that it's not the end of the world. What might be a big deal to one person isn't a big deal to the next and most people suffer from meism and make their own problems seem worse than they actually are to either feel important or get attention.

I don't even talk to people because I hear some people complain about the most petty and self centered shit like, "Oh my dad didn't give me an iphone 6, he gave me an iphone 5 instead."

I had an ex friend who used to constantly tell me on a daily basis about their problems and how they want to kill themselves and it's the end of the world even though they didn't pay jack shit in college, they have both parents who love them, was never assaulted and have a boyfriend. That's why I started doing that because for some reason people wanted to compare lives but then people got annoyed by that too like I was a self centered sandy seagull or whatever. No I'm pointing out that your life could be shit or worse and you should just hush and be happy with what you got.

>Wanted to say to that girl, "Then kill yourself bitch because I don't care."

>Be friends with girl that I met in college
>Both like anime but aren't crazy about it.
>Talk about fashion and makeup a lot. She finally landed her dream job to work at a makeup store.
>Decided to try cosplaying and does alright at it.
>Starts making more cosplay friends while neglecting other friends
>All of a sudden declares she's agender
>Consered friends ask about the sudden decision. Nothing offense just curious.
>Starts accusing everyone of being insensitive and the choice of pronouns used are "triggering"
>Sold all her clothes and bought "agender" shit instead
>Hashtags every fucking picture with "agender" "androgynous" and other things like that
>Can't shut the fuck up about it.
>Feel sad since my old friend is dead and is now an attention whore

>>8031402
>*has a boyfriend *"Oh my dad didn't give me blah blah I hate him my life sucks."

>>8031404
Concerned*

>>8031404
>pronouns used are "triggering"
Man, she must have some serious PTSD about that one time her dad called her a girl.

>>8031211
We'll be the judge of what's a waste of time, so what figmas do you own? Post pics.

>>8031037
BAIL BAIL BAIL, HE'S TRYING TO GAIN THE UPPER HAND AND NOW YOU OWE HIM!

Nah, I'm just fucking with you, maybe he just doesn't need anything but you, anon.

>>8031423

I really wonder what her parents think of all this or if she's even came out the them yet...

I don't even know what to think anymore. She just went on a deleting spree, changed her name to some Japanese name, and now can't shut up about being agender.

>>8031429
I don't own a lot of figmas. Most of the stuff I buy are from Toranoana, play asia, or YJA. I stash it away in my closet because I'm paranoid about my roommates here. Once I get a place of my own I'll showcase all my goods.

My old mom doesn't like me buying anything enjoyable even though she used to collect comic books so she should know where I'm coming from. I don't know why either. It's not like I spend my bill money on stupid stuff. I still pay the bills and buy Japanese goods.

If you want I can look for everything I own and take pictures but it's a lot and I mean a lot.

>One item that I personally own. I don't even wear it because I'm afraid I'll scuff it up.

>Mostly mugs, watches, figures, little keychains, little toys, figmas, things like that.

>>8031438
she's a tumblrina harry

>>8031438
she's gone full tumblr, run while you can

>>8030909
Holy shit, you're an asshole. I do count calories like 90% of people of the face of this fucking planet. I maintain at 2400 due to muscle and exercise and am currently eating 1600. And it's not special snowflake syndrome. If it were I'd be screaming muh triggers and labelling myself anorexic despite not being anorexic. Yeah, a solution was suggested and I agreed that it's very effective for most cases. I frequent /fit and it was great for when I was lifting last year. Right now, however, I'm having trouble with food and working at keeping it under control. So get the fuck over your judgmental attitude (I know, ironic since this is /cgl) and just let me vent.

>>8031438
This is going to sound retarded and old fashioned but if it really happens that rapidly it's probably just a phase.
In a year or two tops she'll go back to normal and either delude herself into acting like nothing happened, or being like "I found out I'm actually not agender" or she'll just stop, and acknowledge that she was being stupid as shit.

Everyone does cringeworthy stupid shit once in a while. Tumblr just enables that stupid shit so hard, it ends up hitting harder, and sticking around for longer.

>>8031955
> I do count calories like 90% of people of the face of this fucking planet
stopped reading there
delusional as fuck

>>8031964
I'm so glad I was a slight weeaboo instead of getting dragged into SJW hell. Liking Japan is a whole lot less annoying to explain afterwards then 'Sorry mom I guess I'm not REALLY a genderfluid a-romantic demi-sexual otherkin. teehee."

>>8031955
>Let me vent
>This is /cgl/

Pick one.

>>8031978
Yeah.
I was a pretty awkward kid as a teen, if I had tumblr to tell me that I'm actually some sort of slug with an eating disorder and three sexes I would've eaten that right up and flaunted it.

>>8031990
same, considering I am actually autism as fuck, I would have probably been all over it and proclaim to the world I am in fact fictionkin

>>8031955
>I do count calories like 90% of people of the face of this fucking planet
more like 5% tops

>Me and friend get hired at the same job
>Oh cool money for cosplays
>It's only seasonal
>Since christmas is over they're laying off people
>Lays her off but keeps me
>She has to cut a con that I'm going to
>Feels really shitty for keeping job
>Feels like this will put a strain on our friendship

I'm so upset and i know it's stupid

>finally have a job and loadsa money for cosplay
>don't want to spend any because my craftmanship sucks
>comission horror stories
>not friends with anyone into cosplay
>tfw I'm alone and want to do cool outfits but can't

>>8031402
>what is chemical depression
Seriously, I had PTSD from my childhood, recovered from that, and am still crippled by depression. The doctors did a hell of a lot of tests, and it'd chemically caused. I had a decent career, a set of parents that love me, another set I'm on speaking terms with, and no reason to try to off myself. I know I had a pretty good life, but damned if I didn't end up losing almost everything to depression.

>doctors say I will probably never be happy, independent, or productive.
>am fighting tooth and nail not to be on disability

>>8031964

Oh no I completely agree. She's either doing this for the attention, trying to live out her yaoi fantasies, or both. She's determined to show on every yaoi online quiz that she's a seme and how she's going to protect her friends that are girls. I'm a bit confused because she has dates two men before so I wonder how a relationship would actually play out in this lolol. Strap on I guess?

Either way she is determined to push this despite the day before she transformed she had loved fashion and makeup. Probably should of seen this coming since she always tried to get attention and speak over anyone and ignore others options. Still I thought she would know better since she's almost 23 ffs.

>>8032074
Learn to talk about it. If you can learn about yourself and be able to speak up about how you're feeling any why, the next step is finding someone you can confide in. Just make sure that when you talk to them it's not all negative talk, it has to be constructive, not always problem solving, but the conversation should always be taking you somewhere to help you figure out more things about yourself.

I've had issues with chemical depression but those kinda-sorta went away when I matured more after puberty. I still struggle with it, but I know it's difficult for me to keep pressing through a long day at work when all I want to do is lock myself in a box and have a moment.

>Tfw my mom told me she'd take me to New York to visit the BTSSB store and she'd buy me a main piece as a birthday present!
I'm so pumped for this, I've never been to NYC before and I'm already planning different coords to take photos at different sights

tfw I almost don't want to buy something secondhand because of the person selling it.

>My name is ___

>I go by they/them pronouns

>I am white, allistic, mentally ill, and queer

>DO NOT FOLLOW IF
>You are ableist
>You are truscum, transmisogynistic or >transphobic
>You are racist
>You are anti sj and/or anti feminist
>You’re a TERF
>You hate otherkin
>You are against self-diagnosis
>You use slurs that aren’t yours to reclaim
>You do not tag triggers, refuse to tag triggers, >and/or make fun of triggers
>You think using nounself pronouns is “harmful >to the trans community”
>You think cisphobia, reverse racism, or any >other reverse oppression is a real thing

does anyone else ever get these feels? I feel pretty childish about it but then again I don't want to give someone like that money

>>8030340
I pay for all my own bills and rent, can you even read?

>>8031978
>>8031990
same tbh
I was even so ashamed of my own body that I was a fakeboi for a few years, although to my credit I was 14 and I never told people that "I'm MALE now", everyone just kind of rolled with it.

>>8032732
Nah I have that too, even with way less annoying people, I just don't want to interact with them

>>8032074
See you're different anon. My ex friend I have no idea what was wrong with her. She claimed she didn't have depression at all but she constantly moaned about how much her life sucked and she wanted to be an adult already.

>>8032732
What's this person's tumblr so I Can spam them?

>You think cisphobia, reverse racism, or any other reverse oppression is a real thing.
>You are against self diagnosis

Bitch I'm black and I know all of this exist and/or stupid.

This is not entirely cgl related but try to bear with me since I don't know nowhere else to ramble about this.
> At the time of last con my dad was missing, no one had not been able to contact him in a long time but that's not rare since he's alcoholic and doesn't want to interact with his family
> Tell few friends at con about this and your concerns but still try to stay positive
> After con when I'm back home my mom tells me that police found my dad's body and that he's been dead for 3 months already
> Only few people come to funeral since my dad was so difficult person and funeral is held by gas station since no one has the money or will to organize better funeral (I'm student without savings and I'm the only close relative who still sometimes talked with dad)
> Feel awful. Loved my dad even after all the shit. I can't stop thinking about how he died all alone and stayed like that for 3 months
> Feel I can't talk to my family about the fact I'm missing him since dad had treated them so badly
> Now next con is coming and this'll be the next time I'm meeting face-to-face those people I talked about my dad being missing at the last con
> Don't know whether I feel worse if no one even asks about him/cares about my loss or if I start crying at the con
> Just want to talk about someone but I think I'll be scaring people off if I try to speak about something this depressing

>>8032044

She should have been a better worker then. There is a reason they kept you and not her. Don't feel bad for being better than people.

I understand it sucks that your friend had to drop the con you were looking forward to though.

>>8032045
Start with something simple and search some good tutorials, you can do your own costumes if you start with easy things. You'll improve within time.