/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>finish cosplay in time for con
>con turns out to be kind of a letdown but at least my cosplay looked nice

eh

>order headbow from BTSSB a month ago
>they still haven't gotten it in
>"oh anon it'll come in with our october shipment!"
>mfw my con is at the end of this month
>sweating intensifies

>ordered a bunch of stuff for my cosplay, still hasn't shipped or arrived
>con is in a few weeks
i am fucked.

>>7859834
> sudden post-con depression
All I want to do is to make cosplay to forget the pain, but my sewing machine is securely stored away until Christmas in an effort to make myself study.

>Walking home from the gym.
>See a bunch of people on my bridge home have stopped to watch something.
>There's a jumper on the bridge near us.
>Have imagined myself jumping off that bridge a million times.
>Hadn't seen anyone jump before.
>This fucker had climbed over the suicide gate and was balancing on the top.
>Decide to watch since the suicidal thoughts have been really frequent recently.
>Is he going to do it?
>Shaking and feel like I'm going to vomit.
>He ends up getting down.
>Suddenly feel very alive and like I don't want to kill myself anymore.

I-It's really stupid, but watching him decide not to jump was kind of really heartwarming. It was really scary there for a moment and way too easy to imagine myself in his position. B-But I want to do all those stupid cosplays and I want to go to finish college and I want to make friends.

Now, let's see how long this lasts.

>>7860194
>B-But I want to do all those stupid cosplays and I want to go to finish college and I want to make friends.

Same here anon but ...
This is my 4th year waiting to attend college but I can't because $$$ + sick worried about my dad dying soon.
We thought I could go this year but it turns out that his health is getting worse little by little, so I gotta find another job. He doesn't like the idea of me suspending my studies for him.

I am in constantly worrying, constantly whining about not going to school while my friends are progressively getting their dream job out of their diplomas and I'm sitting here not getting anything out of life.

>>7859996
Maybe you should look for a backup? Which headbow did you get?

>>7860215
everyone has different paths. i had to suspend by studies for a similar reason, and while it sucks, you end up fine. you should cherish your time with your dad, it's cliche but you'll appreciate it in the long run.

>>7859834
Kuroko ;-;

At a meet up over the weekend a girl I have a crush on kissed me (on the cheek)! Im really not sure what her deal is, she is often hugging me or touching me. I have watched and she never does this to other people in our comm. At the same time she is married in a happy relationship, soo...

Im horrible with telling if someone is flirting or not. Was accidentally going out with some dude a few years ago and I didn't even know until my friend congratulated me,

>>7860251
It's not cliche but thank you none the less.
I'd appreciate a slice of your life though, did you finish your studies? How old were you when you had to suspend?

>trying to motivate myself here

>>7860280
>she is married
>in a happy relationship

get those mixing thoughts out of your head m8, you don't want to be that guy flirting with somebody's wife, don't you?
Being horrible at telling whatever somebody else is feeling is a thing, going further with somebody that is already engaged/in a relationship is another. Best tip would be to speak up instead of constantly wondering. Or better yet, don't lust for people that can't hold their end of the deal.

> lolita comm needs girls for a simple fashion show
> pretty sure I single-handedly made us all look bad

I've gotta git gud, seagulls.

>>7860215
Oh, anon. I'm sorry about your dad. Spend time with your dad. If his health is really getting worse, you're only going to have so much time with him. If you want to take classes, enroll in a community college and take one or two, at least to get you going if you are feeling really restless.

But-- just do whatever you can to be with him. If it were my dad, I don't think I'd be able to handle being really busy while my dad was dying after the fact. I think the guilt would consume me. Him and I are really close, though.

College and good jobs can wait. They'll be there for you when you need them. How long does your dad have?

>>7860611
Thanks for the concern anon, it's just the class I want to take is EXTREMELY precise and I don't want to waste it away by taking other courses, feel the drill?

I'm super close to him as well and I try to not be busy but I work to help him pay the bills and provide the essentials for my pet bunnies. There's a small amount for my cosplay-related spending only. I really do my best to be there for him, he likes to talk a lot so I take a few hours a day to randomly go up to him and often make sure he breathes when he goes to sleep ... We hang out, go eat out, help him as much as I can around the house. To the point where I wouldn't feel guilty if he passed away soon, I won't regret the time I haven't spent with him by working because I did it for him.

I have to agree but he's disappointed somewhat, our family hasn't gained much education-wise, we're kinda the first generation to reach college and university he really expect me to be as high I don't know what to do sometimes. I want him to see that I CAN be what was supposed to happen but whenever I bring this up he goes on saying things like " We can borrow money don't worry!"

>his credit card is 5k$ in debt
>wtf dad no we can't

He's 75 years old with a lot of back and shoulder pain, slowly but surely being affected by alzheimer. He also hates going to the doctor so it doesn't help him. Whenever he gets sick it's violent he could cough his lungs out.

>that dread when october starts
>all your normalfag friends come up to you
>"hey anon youre sooooo good at costumes can you help me make an amazing classy elegant burlesque Elsa costume, here's $25 and I have these hot pink heels I wanna wear with it so lets make them match somehow"

>>7860646
Oh, this hits very close to home, anon. Alzheimers runs in my family as well and my father hates going to the doctor, too. This will be me when things start going downhill.

With that information though, I think it's a very hard decision. Is the class you want very expensive? Would it take a long time to pay it off if you got a student loan? If you want to make your dad proud and don't feel like it'll cut too much into your time, I'd try and go for the class when you can.

I'm sorry, anon! Also, I don't have a reaction image to portray the hug I want to give you. Just know there's a hug.

>>7860654
>This will be me when things start going downhill
my heart anon I don't want this to happen to anyone asdhfkjg

My class is indeed expensive and I heard so much about student loan that I cry for the remaining time. As much as I want to make my dad proud, I feel like he ~knows~ somewhat that I will do my best whenever the time comes and I will reach my goal but I really want him to see it with his own eyes. I tried to settle things out with him but.. maybe, next september I will. This is what I'm aiming for, working hard this year in hopes he won't leave me beforehand.

muh feel, the hug was returned.

>planning first coord
>"i've been lurking lolita comms for years this will be easy"
>starts shopping
>can't decide on anything

Not really /cgl/-related but
>have been crushing on internship supervisor for as long as I've known him, which is more than two years
>dude is married and has kids
>I have bf
>obviously not going to work out, try very hard to get over crush
>crush almost gone
>suddenly sex dreams
>sex dreams every night
My brain hates me.

>find dream dress for sale
>in my size
>put a deposit on it straight away
>came back the next day after i got paid
>owner sold the dress to someone who paid in full upfront
>eternal sobbing
>try not to cry
>cry harder.

My heart is broken...

>>7860650
Slap them. Or tell them your sewing machine is broken.

I'm trying to get the prices of some medical material for a project at work.

Nobody tells me the prices of Ketamine. They probably think I'll use it to party.

>Fuck you, I need to buy some K

>>7861022
Also, this is cgl related because if I don't find the price of this crap they will fire me and I will not have money to buy cosplay materials.

>>7861022
but does the project involve getting high

>>7861026
No, it involves surgeries in animals.

>>7860650
Aaaagh I knowww
I love October with its Halloween spoopiness as much as the next nerd but I spend it mostly hiding from my normalfag friends. I'm not even known for making costumes but just owning a sewing machine apparently makes me their Friendly Neighbourhood Costume Maker (who works for free because we're frriiiieeeeenndsss!!!)
>fuck that

Also I'm nearing the age where most of my friends are getting married and am already dreading the "teehee anon could you 'help' me make my own wedding dress (i.e. make it while I sit by and complain/constantly change my mind about major construction issues)" bullshit. Yes, I'm making my own. No, I'm not making yours. Deal with it.

>>7861029
it's a shit project then m8

>>7861029
Why don't you call a vet and explain your project ? They should listen.

>talking with friend about instruments at restaurant
>he suddenly brings up his ex girlfriend playing guitar
>get annoyed
>"Could you not make everything about your fucking ex?"
>"Dude, this is the first time I've even talked about her in a while. I just thought you might want to know"
>"Well I don't. If you care about (ex name) so much, why don't you go back to her?"
>"Anon, what the fuck are you even mad about?"
>so close to tipping my drink on him
>he can tell
>"Anon, calm down"
>accidentally yell "No, fuck that" and people stare
>realize I'm making a scene, but it's too late to back down now
>stand up and pour my drink on him
>see the look in his eyes
>leave without paying
>go home and browse 4chan
>I'm still mad as fuck, but also sad
I don't understand why he'd even bring that up. Congrats, do you want a fucking award for having a significant other?

>>7861116
>notsureiftroll.jpg
anon u cray

>>7861116
pls b real

>>7861116
You're the problem, stop being such a cunt and this wouldn't happen.
>talking about instruments
>guy talks about someone he knew that played an instrument
>"why is everything about her" even though he doesn't talk about her much
>make a big scene & ruin his clothing
>you poured a drink on someone because you couldn't handle hearing the name of his ex

>>7861116
>>stand up and pour my drink on him
do people seriously do this? its like something a 7 year would do if they dont get their way.

>>7861116
If this wasn't copypasta, it is now. Thanks anon.

>Significant other
is the only thing I'm changing, otherwise it's too obvious a poorly trolling redditor wrote it.

>>7861116
wut

>>7861124
No, he's the problem. He literally waits for opportunities to bring up the fact that he has had gfs so he can quietly neg me.
Whenever I bring up something I'm proud of doing, he has to talk about his ex. He doesn't do it all the time because he knows I can tell, too.

>>7861127
Fuck off, I don't care what you do with this. You're the one from Reddit if you seriously don't understand what I'm getting at or my feelings

>exchange e-mail with guy from another board
>having excellent conversation, send him a voice recording
>he says he liked my voice, I send another one
>he hasn't replied
>listen to the file I sent, to see if I did anything wrong
>ohogod.jpg
Why didn't I listen before sending it? So cringy. So, so cringy.

>>7861143
What was in the recording?
If possible, could you post it?
I need a laugh

>>7861137
Do you work at a movie theater? You seem like an expert at projecting.

>>7861144
A poem. No way in hell I'm sharing that. I can't believe I act like such a retard sometimes.

>>7861147
but did you like him or is this a misunderstanding

>>7861116
So.. You have feelings for him.

I got my hair cut today. I got a subtle hime cut, and I'm really happy with it. My hair colour is boring as shit though, I want the colour changed but I'm an awkward mousey dark blonde, which means all the darker hair colours I really like will look bad when my roots grow through (I used to have bluish black hair, and got given a funny nickname for when my roots came through)... I'm thinking of getting my hair dipdyed but it's expensive at the hairdressers...

>>7861035
>>7861075
Oh well, maybe it was because I posted here, but they just answered to my request

>mfw K is only 15 bucks
>mfw I'm a vet and I can buy this
>mfw I'm going to be rich by selling this shit underground

>>7861154
To me it sounded like she's a schizo bitch

But if she does like her friend treating him like that won't work

>Going to try to sell some of my lolita clothes
>Don't wear them very often anymore and need some cash
>I've never mailed anything in my life
>How do I into shipping
>Test calculating shipping costs so I don't fuck up if/when I get an actual buyer
>This seems really expensive
>How do I know for sure this is right
>Fuck why am I so retarded

I can't wait to be finished with school so I can work and start saving money. I want to get a place with my boyfriend, get back into going to cons, and buy lots of frilly dresses.

>>7861169
>implying it's a she and not some beta male

>>7861182
No chance for him then

>>7861116
>>7861182
>pathetic virgin male who flies into a rage and pours drinks on people for mentioning relationships
Looks like someone is in need of a government-assigned girlfriend~

>>7861149
It was just a lot of spaghetti. I like him as much as I can, considering I don't know him that well.

>sorta chubby, not fat tho
>be at con
>sporting cosplay I've been working on for months, looks great
>go back to room to take a break
>hello Svedka, my old friend
>look at clock
>"oh fuck I have a photoshoot"
>drunk by the time I get to the shoot
>fucks are out the window
>I think the shoot goes great
>get my pictures back weeks later
>double chin in every picture because I forgot to care

God dammit.

>>7861116
Anon if this is real I got a nice new comfortable jacket for you

>get e-mail from college nearby about concerts they host
>a band I like is going to be playing there but it's student-only
>I'd have to find someone at the Uni to buy a ticket with to be able to go
>Too much of a socially inept spaghettilord to find anyone or ask old friends for help
>On the same day another band I kind of like is going to be playing a free concert close to the area

I'm likely going to go to the free one but it's probably not going to be as fun compared to having a chance to mingle with people my age. But dammit the only socializing I even do anymore is with my co-workers or posting on 4chan...

>>7861192
>chubby
>cosplays
>references the sound of silence

All my life I've prayed for someone like you

>>7861197
Excellent

>get out of relationship, we no longer have anything in common, doesnt even want to go to cons, casual "shit taste"
>a year later, start to hate being single for whatever reason
>only attract people that have a very normal hobbies, dont even watch animu just go to cons cuz friends if anything.
>I dont even know why I keep looking, I have no time for one right now anyways, maybe Im so narcissistic that I need another living human to validate my appearance and worth in this world.
Realize Im the one with bad taste since Im so hipster/cynical I avoid things that make me part of a bandwagon even if its something I enjoy.
Dont know how to stop this and need someone to help me find what I need to fix but dont want to use them for personal gain.

>find myself becoming slightly/moderately obsessed with an internet celeb
>going to make and send some awesome gifts to him
>want to go see him at a con or something
>will only be seen as a fan
>want to be his friend
>isn't a big deal
>BUT IT IS
>feel like shit over it

He talked about how he was afraid he couldn't get a gf because he acts so silly with his online persona, but I couldn't give 2 shits.
Everyone I know who's met him says he's SUPER genuine and just so nice and cool to hang with.

S-so why would he want to hang out with such an uninteresting, awkward girl when he's so cool and self-assured?

>>7861197
>>7861218
your samefag is showing

>>7861218
Fuck anon, if it wasn't for the relationship part in the beginning I could have sworn you're me

>>7861225
I dont even know what the sound of silence is, thought it was silence of the lambs for a second

>>7861225
ha

I get it

because you're implying that person has shit taste

>>7861196
>posting on 4chan
>socializing
what?

>>7861224
just ask him out you fucking faggot

>>7861257
Y-you guys are my only source of discussion for things I like

>>7861259
Ask out an internet celeb who I have yet to even meet?
A+, 10/10, Great idea!

Friends first to find out if he would even be into me.

>>7861234
A song by Simon & Garfunkel from a long time ago

>>7861274
>friends first
that never, ever, ever works 90% of the time

just give him the present in person, make some small talk
'you're really fun to be around, want to hang out sometime?'

It's literally that easy

>AWA was over a week ago
>Still pissed about the way things went down with the fashion track director
>Embarrassed on behalf of my comm for the way she acted around Baby's representatives
>Disgusted by how she treated crew, indie designers, volunteers, stylists, etc.
>Woman needs to get her head checked if she thinks she is going to be in charge at AWA ever again

>>7861171
i understand this feel. i've got some things in my wardrobe that i'd like to sell off but i don't know how to go about it properly. i don't know what the steps are or how to protect myself...
i feel rather stupid.

>>7861218
>i'm so narcissistic
as far as i understand, you're using that term wrong. a narcissist is "in love" and unhealthily obsessed with themselves, they don't really need or crave outside validation the way you describe your need for it. your need for validation seems to stem from low self-worth or esteem.

good luck with all that.

>>7861306
But. It's not.
We live across the country.

That's why it's all feels bad.

Updating: >>7861143
Pretty sure I blew it with the weird recording, because it's been over 24h and he hasn't replied.

>>7861017
Uhhhh that's a load of honky bullshit.

You put the deposit down, it was yours. Please tell me she refunded you, and please tell me you left negative feedback for her.

>>7861171
Just use flatrate, it's so much easier.

>>7861224
I know this feel, but the person is a famousish lolita. I just want to be her friend and get advice on shit because I really look up to her, but she lives in another country so i don't have a chance.

>>7861306
Uhm, friends first works way better most of the time, actually.

People who just start dating know nothing about each other and break up rreally fast.

>>7861388

>>7861313
Can you give specifics? How was she acting?

>>7861224
>>7861348

inb4 markiplier?

>>7861306

It honestly depends man. My ex and I went back to being friends, no hard feelings. But it wasn't differences that made us break up either.

Tbf though we still admittedly have feelings for each other, but I think it's cooled down a lot since we haven't literally seen each other for 2 years now.

>>7861393
That's my experience, too.
Otherwise, how do you KNOW you want to date someone? You get to know them first!

>>7861400
Naw, but you're in the right zone.
Sorry, I'll never tell.
>U-unless he lurks 4chan??

>>7860646
Not to be a debbie downer but you should talk about stuff like DNR/DNI/advanced directives now before his disease makes him unable to talk/think about it. Last thing you want is for him to suffer for days to weeks in a hospital because no one's willing to pull the plug. Not to be morbid, but based on what you're saying & his diagnosis, it sounds like pneumonia will likely be what claims him, sooner or later. People can languish for weeks on a ventilator when they shouldn't have been intubated at all and should've just been allowed to pass quickly, peacefully, and quietly.

Sage for depressing medical talk

>>7861419
This, my grammy is only 65, but she's basically an infant in a grown woman's body.

>>7860215
Have you looked into doing open-availability courses through edx? It's free, they're the SAME course material that's available at flash universities like harvard etc. and there are online forums for support, plus you can complete them in your own time and there's no penalty if you drop out. It's not necessarily going to get you a degree, but it can help prepare you for being at college and also means you're still learning things that could be helpful for your degree later...

>made big involved cosplay that I'm largely very proud of
>got a lot of positive attention at con, filmed for CMVs, photos, etc
>looking at photos all I can see is how crappily fitted the bodice is and how badly I need to re-make it

I know this is kind of a humblebrag but I wish I could just enjoy the fact that one of my cosplays went over well...

Why do I always talk with my guy friends about lolita? I feel like a fool every time trying to explain why I'm willing to spend so much money on this

For fucks sake can't I just be excited about my hobby it's not like I question any of yours you dipshits

>>7861396
Rude towards the people "working under her" and lazy as shit when it came down to getting actual work done. This was talked about to death in the AWA threads, but she sat down in the audience during the fashion show while everyone else worked their asses off backstage and then left for lunch right after it was over, leaving those same people to clean up. Hell, the only time she even showed up backstage was to yell at crew and then try to convince Baby how wonderful everything was going, all because of her of course. I came around to Baby's booth multiple times in the dealers room while she was supposed to be working and every time she was chatting with friends instead of helping customers. Well, everyone on Baby's team noticed her behavior despite her trying to creepily force intimacy with them. I highly doubt they will ever want to work with her ever again.

That honestly isn't even the half of it and there is other information floating around, but this is what I witnessed myself.

>>7861171
Flat rate, flat rate, flat rate.
>>7861333
Take good pictures of the item beforehand.
Make sure payments are sent as goods and not as "gift" or w/e.
USE TRACKING
USE TRACKING
USE TRACKING
SERIOUSLY TRACKING WILL SAVE YOUR ASS

>>7861374

Maybe he fell asleep, went to work, was hanging out with friends, forgot, any number of things.

Give it a few days before over reacting.

>on the quest to find the best tasting pumpkin beer
>fridge is stocked full of different brands
It's going to be one hell of a season

>See post on last feels thread about being in a comm with a bunch of people selling Avon and all it's pyramid scheme cousins
>"Good thing they haven't hit my comm"
>See new event
>Some girl is having a meet up for the purpose of pushing her shitty Jamberry stickers
>Everyone is telling her not to rope us in this
>"But guyssss, I'm morbidly obese and I can't get a job in this condition and I need mah taobaos"
>Mods aren't doing anything
>Some people are considering alienating her but we don't want to be known as "that comm that bullies people."

>>7861416
what

at least where I come from you ask people to hang out to meet them

I really don't understand clapistans and their twisted dating bureaucracy

>>7861374
just tell him

>pls respond

always works

>had extremely bad experiences socializing in the past
>lost most feelings, let myself live because i don't even care what's going on in my life anymore
>become pseudo-friends with some people because they just came to me, still not giving a fuck and everything i say is a random lie, just wearing some lolita once a month to attract people with similar interests hoping to improve situation
>then i fall in love
>feels are back
>god it hurts
>senpai friendzones me , still acts nice and all
>all i can feel is hate and jelly , crying every night
>why
>i'm such a terrible person
>i just want to be as sweet as my clothes
>bullies special snowflakes on tumblr to pass time because they glorify being awkward and fucked up and i wish i was a normal person
>drifting away from ideal
>even more bad feelings
>i'm so sorry

>>7861592
just remember that death is not the end

>Can't shut up about Halloween
>Obsessively looking at Halloween stores and vintage markets within the area
>My boyfriend asks why I'm so excited for Halloween since I'm not usually so hyped
I finally have something to look forward to now that I can dress in lolita. Desperately trying to make two outfits so I can dress my cute as fuck model friend and we can do a witch twin.

I am honestly jealous of asian girls.

I'm jealous of their hair. I'm jealous of their figures. I'm jealous of how much attention they get from white guys these days.

What do?

>Lost two inches off my waist
>Finally a glorious 25in
>Now I can fit into my burando without looking lumpy
>All Praise frilly Jesus

>be me
>find a friend really attractive
>tell them that
>they feel the same
>they might be interested in hooking up in the future
>YUSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

>>7861653
How?
And how long did it take you?

>not-so-secretly jealous

>>7861661
Whore.

>>7861635
Become at peace with what you look like and who you are. Find a look that suits you best and stick with it, try to become healthier and find a sport you enjoy. Find things about you that you're happy about and that put you at an advantage over them. See what they do and try to tailor it to yourself, don't just blindly copy but take elements and implement them into your own appearance/behaviour. It may not take away the gelatin but it'll at least water it down a tad.

I used to be really self-hating anon, I still am. At school I was bullied for my hair colour, my eye size, my eyebrows. I hated where I was from, my accent, my social class, and all of the above appearance-wise but eventually you realise many people are just taking the piss and others will find something to pick apart no matter how you change.

And hating something on you doesn't mean you're insecure, it's okay to change things you're unhappy with as long as it's within reason. I dye my hair chestnut brown and my best friend changed her name (her mother was one of those hippies and decided to ruin her daughter's life for the sake of being a snowflake). Likewise you can try to change your hair and figure.

Also remember that jealousy is a very human thing and as long as you don't act on those emotions you are not a bad person. But please, instead of thinking "god I hate her so much why does she get everything and I not" try to think "hmm, what is it that they do that gets them good marks/male attention/etc?"
That isn't to say that you should fake your personality/interests and try to act like someone else, but it'll give you an insight on what you have already that could be used to achieve similar things, if that makes sense.

I used to be really unhappy with myself and was jealous of other people a lot, but now it's much better with this line of thinking. Cheers, anon.

>>7861662
>How?
fork putdowns 3xfailure
plate push aways 5/3/1

>>7861419
>not to be a debbie downer
you fucked it anon I'm in tears right now

but yeah I know where you're going with this, most of his friends were suffering in their beds because it's the law to keep them "alive". Pff. Morals.
>Not to be morbid
nope, not crying today.

>>7861430
I fear that's because they're more aware of their ends getting closer. If not, your grandmother should skateboard.

>>7861440
>some anons guilts me for being busy working
>some anons encourages me to find alternatives
>this vicious circle will never end

But thank you none the less! I'm gathering every piece of information see if I can do something about it in January, if not, september.

>>7861447
sounds like you need better friends

Maybe I can finally feel comfortable in a cosplay since if I go as Brief it'll finally be a character who fits my own personality.

>>7861635
Honestly, the vast majority of guys who exclusively chase after Asian girls are just creeps with "yellow fever" anyway. I'd rather not date someone who doesn't see beyond ethnicity in the first place.

>that feeling of depression even though you have nothing to be depressed about and life is good

>>7861940
Is it still yellow fever if you're Asian yourself?

>borderline disorder acting up like fuck tonight
>body shaking from self-harm withdrawals

Fucking hell I can pull through this

>>7861946
No, it just means that you're not a race traitor

I'm a race traitor though, so I'm allowed to say that phrase.

>tfw go on a date with a white dude
>nice enough dude, very easygoing, I think we can make this work
>except that he fucking eats food with his mouth open and doesn't shut it and some of it dribbles down his beard
>yes i can hear the chewing noises
>it's a sight to behold
>worse table manners than my asian ex

Should I be frank and bring this up with him? It's really offputting.

>>7862003
bring it up
if it doesn't work he wasn't worth

bam

>>7862003
Be frank about it, some people chew with an open mouth because they have trouble breathing through their nose. But most people just have poor manners.

I used to date a guy that was called "the sailor" because of his horrible table manners. It was one of the major dealbreakers for me

>>7862003
What does race have to do with dining etiquette unless you're eating bananas off a tree

>>7862027
>looking for a man
>must like bananas
>brown hair
>naked
>tail
>100% monkey of any kind

>>7862014
>>7862017

I should talk to him about it. Is there a nice way to bring it up? I go all spaghetti out of my pockets when I try bring up anything slightly controversial.

>>7862027
A few feel threads ago people were talking about how Asians tended to have pretty bad table manners.

>>7862003
>>7862017

>>7861653
> mfw gained weight
> mfw lost my glorious 25in waist

Lately my mum is being an idiot. She's always "we're running money, stop shopping, stop inviting your bf to lunch in our house, stop going to cafes, stop spending my money on cosplay" when none of these are truth. I'm not selfish, not avaricious, nor spendthrift. I'm always watching how many I spend, I know we haven't much and I try always to spend my own money, not my mum's. And usually (almost always) is my BF who's buying me things with HIS money so she really can't say I'm spending her money on my things! My fabrics are bought by him, like my coffees, some gits, he's buying our lunch or dinner too! And sometimes he buys for everyone in my family too when we lunch all together! So why does she keep insisting I'm wasting her money? And why does she not blame my sister who is always shopping, wasting money in cigarettes, partying every day? Holy shit, it's getting me so upset I can't even talk about it without raging

>>7862083
breaking news, you're not her favourite.

>>7861662
Since August, I stopped eating like shit and used my bike to travel everywhere. My weight tends to fluctuate significantly, though. In June I was over 135 and now I'm back to 120, this is without consistent exercise.

I'm kind of assblasted because I won an auction for some art supplies I thought I had a deal on but they all turned out to have damaged nib tips (that also cost a lot to replace). On the other hand I only spent $25...$25 isn't a lot of money, it's like one night out for dinner or a credit card payment. And it was definitely worth trying compared to how much it'd cost to buy the same number of pens new (almost $200). But I'm disappointed in myself for not really thinking it through and looking at all the item photos, sometimes I feel like I'm getting a deal and it's just a waste of money.

>mfw dream dress finally pops up on lacemarket for the first time in a while for a decent price
>mfw it's not my preferred colorway...

>Score 95th percentile on MCAT
>Score 30 points higher than average of Biochemistry exam
>Land opportunity to do research and work under head doctor at my uni
>Everything going well for medical career
>Can't feel happy about anything because I'm probably semi-autistic
>Send message to ex-gf for being such an unfeeling ass, she's already moved well ahead
>Have barely made any new friends in my 2 years at uni
>Too afraid/shy to join clubs or meet new people
>Best friend at uni with whom I was going to live with this year couldn't make it because parents got divorced
>Constantly feel soul-crushingly alone in classes
>Only feel okay when lifting
>After lifting, feel shallow because I'm mainly doing it for a shirtless cosplay

Life feel so empty, /cgl/.

>>7862265
>Send message to ex-gf for being such an unfeeling ass, she's already moved well ahead
You really shouldn't do that unless it was a short-term breakup

>>7862277
It probably wasn't the smartest or most necessary thing, but the guilt for what I had said and done to her had been hanging over my head for a while

Rescued these two kittens from the street. Adorable brats that are the cuddliest cats I've ever had. They've drained my fun money fund with their shots and meds, but are totally worth not doing the cosplays I had planned.

>>7861569
This is kind of happening to me but with friends/classmates rather than a comm. One girl is pushing some lower-tier cosmetics line and constantly inviting us all to her sales parties, and even got a few other girls to sell for her too. We're all stylists of some variety so its kind of insulting to us for her to shove this stuff in our faces when it isn't even Sears makeup counter quality. Its been like 7 months of everyone making excuses why they can't come to her parties and she still hasn't gotten the hint. We also have a girl who sells Avon, but she's much more chill about it and doesn't try to rope us into anything, just leaves the catalogs in the back room with her number written on them.

>>7862310
>tfw hitting early twenties and suddenly everyone needs you to go to their 31 bag and home decor catalog ordering parties

It's like the easiest way to get someone to never go over your house again

>>7861020
That lie only goes so far because several of them own machines that they don't know how to use for some god forsaken reason. Plus there's a few who just keep bringing me random things and going "hey here is a bedsheet I want to be Cinderella how do I do it" and you have to try to explain that one twin size bedsheet will never make a glorious glittery Cinderella ballgown.
>>7861033
I somehow missed the wedding dress phase but now all my friends are popppin out kids. I made one friend a blanket as a baby shower gift, and made the mistake of posting it on FB. Now there's a bunch of people I barely even know asking me to make them one, why didn't I make one for so and so, how much would it cost, can I make one out of lace with a purple unicorn in the center, etc. When I tell them I really can't because I'm still learning and direct them to Etsy, they go "Oh but I want to know the money is going to you!"

>used to have chin-length mori hair
>pretty long now
>hime cut makes me look like a doll
>break out winter wear thursday
>coincidentally best clothes that I have
>seriously got hit on three times
>friday I get hit on once
>today got hit on again, on my morning train to school
>never had any creep problems on morning trains
>tfw considering a 'tomoko disguise' while commuting

I know this sounds vain, but this is getting on my nerves. Does anyone have any hairstyles that they'd consider ridiculous or people-repelling?

>>7862334
> winter wear
> best clothes I have
My nigga.

>>7862310
>>7862324
I'm friends with someone who's selling Posh and I'm like "Yeah, no. I can make the same shit at home, AND it's legit all natural."
But I shut up for posterity's sake

>>7862298
Aw, they're adorable! Congrats, anon. I hope you all make each other super happy for a long time.

Actually related to thread so not completely offtopic:
>find dream dress
>immediately buy
>look more closely at listing after
>mfw dress measurements sound puny
>only notice after buying
>shit
>shit
>dress arrives
>fits great

I guess it's to be expected with flat measurements, but damn that was worrying for a bit there.

>going through my cosplay album with a friend
>"hey I know this guy!" friend says as he points out some random guy I was in the same picture with
>turns out the cosplayer attends the same university and eventually I get introduced to him
>turns out he’s some rich asshole who thinks he’s hot shit for traveling to big conventions and being in a lot of photoshoots/cmv’s.
>he’s apparently 'too good' for local cons and says I go to all the shitty, cheap cons
>he goes on about wanting to quit cosplay because someone once “ruined his cosplay” at a convention. Story sounded more like someone accidentally stepped on his shoe and he had a tantrum.
>stahp.jpg

And then this shit happens:
>out of nowhere the guy says I'm cute after looking at my cosplay pics and offers to hook me up with a good photographer if I ever needed one. I’m literally caught off-guard from this.
>suddenly says he MIGHT make an exception and go to the next small con I’m attending.
>straight up sounded more like “i-it’s not that I WANT to go to a cosplay w/ you. b-b-baka.”

> That feel when you have a skinny ass loli body and a mature looking face.
> All the characters I want to cosplay are either too cute or have tits and curves.
> Don't want to cosplay someone that doesn't suit me very well
Why couldn't I just have a body that fits my face.

>>7861333
This. I wish there was a step by step guide. I hate being spoonfed, but I'm just so scared of messing up and losing hundreds of dollars.

>sold a really expensive item on LM
>sending it overseas to australia
>buyer paid for EMS and tracking, but i'm constantly fearing it will get lost in the mail, get damaged, etc
>mfw it'll be a week of worry before dress reaches its new home

>>7860409

> just saw pictures from fashion show
> had lost weight, feeling good
> my face is still fat as fuck
> my legs are thick as fuck
> I look like Gabe Newel in a dress

Kill me please.

>>7862298
They look adorable!

>in a relationship
>happy but feel like we're drifting apart
>meet new guy, pretty cute
>likes anime, hasn't been to a con yet but he seems interested in going with me
>start to be interested in new guy
>new guy always acting like he's interested in me
>feel guilty for being attracted to him while in a relationship

I'm a shit.

>really want to cosplay from Lilo and Stitch
>pale ass white girl with glasses
>will never be able to cosplay anybody but Myrtle

>>7862324
I go to these parties all the time because there's usually free shit involved.

>>7862662
>attracted to someone else while in a relationship
time to you-know-what

>>7862284
>>7862277
I apologized to a friend I had been "broken up" with for like 6 years.

The guilt won't go away until you do sometimes, and I'm sure sometimes people do really like hearing that you realize that what you did was wrong. Moving on is a thing that happens on both ends with things like that sometimes.

I know I still think about things that people had done to me in the past, and if they apologised, I could let it go. I don't hold a grudge about it, but sometimes I just think, "how could anyone do that?"

>dealing with depression and anxiety
>seeing therapist for this
>she's great, the first person I've seen in like ten years who I can actually talk to
>but part of a big, horribly bureaucratic organisation
>ideally should be seeing her once a week or every two weeks
>am actually only seeing her once every two months because they keep fucking with her schedule
>feel like depression is getting worse but only person who can help me deal with it is only available for half an hour every two months
>no guarantee that if I leave I'll ever find someone as understanding as her again
>fuck me

More /cgl/ related:
>depressed and recovering from illness, practically a NEET
>spend most of my days at home in pajamas
>have closet full of cute clothes but why risk getting them dirty if I'm not leaving the house anyway?
>boyfriend invites friend over
>holy shit social interaction wtf do I do I don't want to embarrass bf by being a gross slob aaaahh
>clean house
>dress up cute
>finally feel happy for the first time in weeks
>boyfriend: "anon why did you get all dressed up for my friend?"
>he's jealous and thought I was trying to impress his friend rather than him
>fuck me

>>7861940
The creepiest yellow fever comes from white weeb girls, just look at /cgl/. Too dumb to even realize that Koreans are, without plastic surgery, the ugliest ethnicity in East Asia. Obsessed with "going to Japan and becoming an idol", with such illustrious figures as Yukapon. White women have no right to talk, their hypocrisy is crass.

The whole "eww yellow fever" thing is basically applied to any white dude with an asian girl and it's purely because white women are butthurt as fuck that they're finally getting a taste of their own medicine after all these years of praising blacks as more masculine than whites.

>>7862780
Hit a sore spot, eh m8? Time to tip your silly hat o' autism!

>>7862781
There's no way around the fact that white weeb women complaining about white men liking asian girls is hypocritical as fuck and thus we're forced to conclude their real objection is that it makes them butthurt/insecure.

>friend used me to become friends with other well-known cosplayers who I attracted the attention of.
>very shy and insecure so the minute I see them liking her more I back off totally
>express my feelings telling her to back off so I can at least become friends with them first before she jumps in and dominates everything
>Now hate this friends for continuously doing it over and over.
> ^^^not the only reason, along with being a shitty person, I made all her costumes before and she never credited me until I chewed her out multiple times...
>Cosplayer who I have admired for ages and who has actually stuck by me has people who she strongly dislikes that my ex friend has now cozied up to (via through me, surprise).
>My shit literally became bffs with her shit
>We both could not be happier.

>>7862793
I hope you stopped making her costumes for her
that contributed a lot to her being able to schmooze

>>7862765
Aw I feel you anon. Try to explain to your bf that you want to look good around his friends because it makes him look good. Everyone wants an SO they can be proud of and even show off, right? Also, maybe your bf wonders why you don't put that kind of effort in for just him. It felt good to work on yourself and the house and get all dressed up, so maybe doing that more often will be make both of you happier.

>>7862783

You're assuming it's the same women doing both things though?

Personally I wouldn't date a guy with yellow fever, any more than I would stay friends with women who obssess over kpop boys. As an Asian find both groups to be equally obnoxious.

>>7862780
Hav u cn phillipinos

>>7862806
In a lot of cases it is.

Anyway, think about it like this, various mainstream libtard rags run stories about "creepy white guys dating asian women". We get stuck with that stigma regardless of our reason for dating them, can you imagine a mainstream publication ever talking about "creepy black guys dating white women" or anything similar, even though those relationships are, statistically, a lot more dysfunctional?

>>7862814
C'mon man your /pol/ is showing. I'm telling you now, there's no point trying to talk about this stuff on /cgl/.

>>7862814
That's because women dating black guys tend to be slags. You'll find it in your heart that it's true.

>>7862820
Well yeah, we all know that. That's not the point though, criticizing that pairing is verboten.

>>7862814

None of my mainstream media ever runs stories about either scenario.

"White guys dating asian women" tend to be fodder for cultural exchange-type stories. The other kind of stories we get are the eye-rolling kind when Western people yet again prove they can't tell the difference between, say, Bai Ling and Lucy Liu.

I think you need better media sources. That, or someone is sending you these stories as a roundabout way of telling to stop being creepy with your yellow fever.

>>7862334
God, himecut is such a beautiful hair cut. It practically makes a cute girl gorgeous, and an average girl beautiful.

But yeah, poor you. Being too attractive must be such a huge burden.

YOLO and throw your hair over your face

>>7862820
white men to asians is what black men are to whites. But no one currs about da whyte man.

> Getting ready for con, got my AA table set up down and ready to go
> Bought a dress and waiting for it to come in the mail
> Fuck, yeah. Life is good!
> Wake up at 3AM to the doorbell ringing
> "You're 91 days late on your car payment."
> I paid for that this morning and never missed a payment, whut?
> My car is getting repossessed.
> Watch in horror as car gets taken away.
> Bank is closed so I can't figure out what the fuck is going on.
> Decide to sell AA table because con is no longer important and I need my car back.

>>7862866
Wat. Himecut looks like shit on most people if they're not already perfect-looking

>tfw visiting japan
>tfw when walking into Closet Child
>tfw when milky planet skirt in color way for 80$
>tfw when cake bag and set completing head bow
>tfw triple play in less than 30 seconds in one store

Holy shit muh pilgrimage

>>7862841
>when Western people yet again prove they can't tell the difference between, say, Bai Ling and Lucy Liu.

Lucy Liu is ugly. It's Hollywood that pushes her, most white men don't find her features attractive. As for the "telling the difference" thing, that's just something Asian Americans tell themselves to feel as if they're privy to super seekrit esoteric knowledge, when in reality you regularly get shit like Northern Chinese being mistaken for Japanese and vice versa, and even some darker Cantonese people being mistaken for SEAs.

Your average 3rd gen Asian American is a humongous whiny faggot SJW these days anyway. I remember telling my girlfriend's family about some of the stuff Asian Americans find "offensive" (the song "Kung Fu Fighting", associating Asians with rice and noodles, white chefs cooking asian food). They honestly didn't believe me. They thought I was making that up because, to them, it reflected badly on ethnic Chinese abroad to be such whiny faggots.

>That, or someone is sending you these stories as a roundabout way of telling to stop being creepy with your yellow fever.

I've dated the same Chinese girl for four years. The media I'm talking about is stuff like Salon, Slate, HuffPo etc - Fairly mainstream left-liberal digital media.

My point, that you have failed to contest, is that they'd never laugh at or shit all over BM/WF relationships with the same glee, even though those are statistically a lot more dysfunctional (higher divorce rates, higher domestic violence rates, higher incidence of resulting in single motherhood etc).

>>7862814
top kek, they say it because it's true. Even in my country (one of the scandies, where asians are not common) white guys who go to some asian country and come back with a wife tend to be overweight beta virgins who are grasping for straws or whatever the expression is. Actually most asians here are either students, labourers or trophy wives of grody white dudes.

There's this buttmad old guy who posts on /int/ a lot because he got burnt and felt sorry for a Cambodian prostitute, married her and brought her with him to Finland. Then she proceeded to make his life a living hell and now he whines about it on a Cantonese shadow puppetry imageboard.

Your kind brought this upon themselves.

>>7862908
m8 aside from huffpo and gawkshit media all those are fairly niche

>>7862909
Whatever you can say about WM/AF relationships, you can apply with ten times the weight to BM/WF relationships, which are the darling of the media and progressivism in general.

Something has to explain your cognitive dissonance.

Anyway, regarding your point: Yes, a lot of old white guys go for Southeast Asian girls. But a lot of old Korean guys and Japanese guys and Chinese guys do too. South Korea is the number one market for mail order brides, or it was, until Vietnam banned bride exports there because a lot of them were being killed by their hick farmer husbands. Second to S. Korea is Taiwan, where the same phenomenon exists.

So ascribing it as some "white man" thing is retarded. Vietnam has been treated like a giant whore house by Chinese since the Tang Dynasty for goodness sake.

>>7862909

Yukapon, Kanadajin and their ilk are far creepier than any sex tourist I've encountered.

After all, they literally do it for free and are usually motivated by a sort of weird self-loathing that you don't encounter amongst white dudes that date interacially (Yukapon comes from a broken home for example, as does much of /cgl/ with its yellow fever).

>>7862912
Well yeah but since most western media in the west tends to focus on westerners nobody really gives a shit about what the chinese or japanese do aside from "heehee look at those silly japs being silly".
And I'm not disagreeing with you on the bmwf thing, I'm just saying it also rings true for wmaf relationships. We have lots more arabs and blacks here and they get a lot more shit so I guess our society is just trying to accommodate them more as well. Don't know how it is in NA nor do I care but that's the reason here at least.

>>7862916
It rings true in any older man/younger female relationship. Most white dudes in their twenties, which is where the bulk of WM/AF relationships come from, are not dating Cambodian mail order brides. They're dating FOBs or 2nd/3rd gen Chinese/Korean/Japanese immigrants. Hardly "poor people".

>>7862918
whats a fob

>>7862924
Fresh off the boat.

Usually not in relationships with anyone other than co-ethnics, occasionally are though.

>>7862883
This, hair that's one length, not layered, with a straight fringe (not a Hime but more common where I am) tend to make women's faces look worse.

>have horribly picky, sensitive skin
>receive foundation sample with order
>perfect texture, perfect coverage, doesn't irritate me or break me out
>completely the wrong colour
>does not come in the right colour
>mfw
Seriously though, I ordered bb cream in a certain shade and they sent me samples that were all like five shades darker. Why do this? Do they enjoy breaking my heart?

>>7862918

I find the better a 2nd gen Asian speaks English and the more they are integrated with the majority culture, the more likely they are to date a white dude. It's probably due to them being more comfortable with that culture than dating a fobby Asian guy who might not understand what they say.

That said, I know plenty of 2nd gen Asians who don't come off as fob that are dating other Asians, but it seems to be mostly Asians with good English themselves or are 2nd/3rd gen themselves. They also happen to live in tightly knit Asian communities (I live in an area of affluent Asians with kids who do ridiculously well academically), so while excellence in English was encouraged by their parents and peers, a return to roots was also, you know, 'highly encouraged.' Take that as you will.

>>7862875
Something about that doesn't sound right. Are you sure it wasn't just stolen by some guys saying that they were repossessing it?

>>7862960
I called the bank and they said I was 91 days behind on one payment when I definitely have the statements and reciepts for them. They never really mentioned it or notified me beforehand.

i just realized that I left my favorite hat in the club last night which is ticking me right off cause I had that cap since I was real-real small

then find out just right now that my main squeeze went through my phone

so I guess I'm single now

imagine that

>>7860650
>an amazing classy elegant burlesque Elsa costume
kek

>>7862334
put on an ugly hat?

>>7863048
If you were doing shady shit with other people you deserved it

I desire a cosplayer who can match my strength in Quake 3. I would never dare to share any interest in some dirty commoner who can't even strafejump. Quack 3 separates the pure maidens from the dastardly succubi. When I look upon the denizens of a convention, I see nothing but water in an ocean. But occasionally, a glimmering treasure of a doomguy catches my attention. Then we flex and ripple our muscles, causing blinding rays of manliness that rival the sun to shoot off into the occupied stinkhole.

Basically, post doomguy or Crash cosplays.

I feel like my group doesn't want me anymore.

I'm pretty stubborn, and I keep volunteering to make bits of costumes or organise going to events and transport just so I'm too useful to actually just kick out. But a few of the group members changed and I think a lot of them don't want me to be around. I've put a lot into this but maybe it'd be better just to cut ties and go? I'll be leaving at the end of the college year, so maybe it's worth sticking it out?

>>7861116
Damn, nigga you going cray cray?

>>7861592
>bullies special snowflakes on tumblr to pass time because they glorify being awkward and fucked up and i wish i was a normal person
glorious

>busy with a ton of shit over the last two years and don't see friends often
>move into new apartment, invite bff over
>finally get a response six months later, asking when he can come
>I respond that same day with a number of possible dates
>two months later, still nothing from him
Whelp, looks like I have no friends anymore. I guess I'm just too boring.

>>7863084
Yikes, I know the feel.
This year I've gotten really bad at keeping up with my friends and if it weren't for one that lives in the same building as me I don't think I'd have any.

>move to another city
>tfw no friends

>>7863078
I laughed to hard at this, anon. Thanks anon waiting for the bus is boring

>>7863101
Internet??

>>7863090
You too?
I suppose for me it was inevitable, since even when I saw these people regularly I was always the one who had to pursue them if I wanted to see them outside of school at all. My (ex?)bff was the only one who would ever actually invite me to things and want to do stuff one-on-one.
I'm now one of those women who has no friends aside from her boyfriend. Doesn't help that these were all people I've known since middle school, when making new friends was relatively easy.

/cgl/, how do I new friends?

>>7863073
just ask them if they want you out but are taking advantage of you instead

what could go wrong?

>>7863073
If you don't feel secure or comfortable around your group, ditch them.

>>7861187
Patriarchy, anon

>crazy about a seagull who's already seeing somebody else/who more than likely isn't interested in me like that at all

It's been quite a while since I experienced unrequited feelings as bad as these, she's wife material. Fuck

October is the best month i'm so excited
>cute comfy warm outfits
>lazy rainy days
>rilakkuma blanket ordered
>hot chocolate and pie in the morning
>pretty leaves and tree
>hellaween and cool spoopy shit
>my birthday is this month

>mfw i didn't have a emo/scene period
>my mom would never let me be a edgy special snowflake weeb
>i grew up kinda frustrated
>i'm now a closet weeb
>and i dress somewhat emo/scene but i do it without the too-cringey shit (fried hair,too much makeup,rainbow vomit with nothing matching,...)
>and i mixed it with a bit of j-fashion
>i feel super happy

>>7863133
>and i dress somewhat emo/scene
...at least you're happy, because I'm 90% sure you look at the best dated, at the worst a train wreck.

If you are over 15, wearing emo/scene clothing is super cringey.

>>7863130
if she's wife material it's pretty obvious she'd be high on demand

>>7863158
I meant she's wife material to me, not necessarily to everybody else.

I started typing up something but it's become way too long so I'm just going to condense it
>meet up with internet friend
>been crushing pretty hard on him but pretty sure it's one sided on my end which is 100% okay, I really am cool with just being friends
>wear stupid underwear that's great for lolita (since that's what i was gonna wear), don't shave because hey blouse and tights i don't need to right
>we meet up
>he holds my hand
>he cuddles me when we fall asleep
>he kisses me
>we make out
>of course we eventually fuck
>oh god damn it, of fucking course...I have SO MUCH matching cute underwear, wasted opportunity
>at least he didn't say anything about my hairy ass body/sad underwear choice
>afterwards we cuddle and I whisper really quietly "I like you"
>he says almost instantly "I like you too" and we fall asleep
>go home next day and I'm like "welp see you when I see you", trying to stay aloof just in case it didn't mean anything to him, trying to play it cool
>text him that I got home alright, we have a normal conversation, once again trying to be aloof about everything
>the end

so happy. I think I'm in love. too bad I have no idea when I'll ever see him again.

>In a long distance relationship
>Madly in love with SO
>All of my extra funds are now invested in international travel
>Nothing left for lolita
>In school full time
>Can't find a place that will just let me work for a handful of hours a week so I can get some extra money

I love my SO, I really do, but sometimes it really hurts to come on this board and read about new releases and see fabulous coords...

>tried to make reservations 3 months ago at best restaurant in Epcot for thanksgiving
>completely booked obviously
>check today
>someone must have canceled recently because I took that bitch
>mfw

cgl-related
>no one to go to con with
>$400 for hotel
>o-okay ;_;

>>7863184
>just now turn my phone back on
>40+ text messages
>5 missed calls
>2 voicemail messages
>all from my fucking ex

holy shit dude

>>7863213
Uh. That's kind of terrifying.

>tfw I haven't had a period since March
What do

>>7863131
tumblrfag detected

>>7863216
yeah you're telling me
it was nothing bad just like an excessive life update on his situation, he wants to get back together but I don't want to, obviously now lol...

>>7863184
Having similar feels right now. They're damn good ones.

>>7863131
>hot chocolate and pie in the morning

stay fat

>>7863130
>falling for someone through a cantonese scroll agora
anon...

>>7863232
aren't they though? gos, having your feelings returned when you least expect it is so nice.
I was so sure nothing was gonna happen, I even overheard him talking about moving in a year to be with some other girl...of course that could still happen but I am highly satisfied with my one-night stand, if that's all it ends up being.

>>7863226
Go to a doctor.

Welp, I escaped from /r9k/ for my daily dose of chicken skin, so I might as well do exactly what I just left for the day.

>fucked around during freshman/sophomore year in those stupid general education classes that no one cares about
>do well in the classes I actually give a shit about
>lel too bad
>don't meet minimum requirements for grad school anywhere in my state
>don't meet minimum requirements for most schools in any state
>take an honest evaluation of my life
>no friends
>fat, losing weight taking forever
>ugly
>emotionally broken, search for ulterior motives when anyone chooses to associate with me
>no future
>the only thing that can make me happy is a video game
>I suck at them, too

If it weren't for the fact that it would hurt my parents so bad, I'd take the shop owner down the road on his offer of a 140 dollar shotgun and sing into Kurt Cobain's microphone.

I really wish to be a sex object. I just want to be wanted by someone irrevocably.

>>7863247
Just remember that death is not the end

>starting week 3 of diet and exercise
>lost 4 pounds so far

I'm so proud of myself ;_;

I always feel like I waste my time at cons because I don't interact with other cosplayers or photographers and make friends as much as I want or plan to. I've been cosplaying a long time and have a good chunk of older cos friends, but as cosplay has become more mainstream and attracted more people I've found myself floundering socially. Before everyone knew everyone else because the community was so small and open, but now I find it really difficult to go up to people and talk to them, even if we've talked online or briefly irl before. I just pretend not to see them...
It's not that I don't want to talk to anyone, I just feel so fucking awkward and freak out over what to do. I'm perfectly capable of talking to someone online, but once it's face to face I freeze up and panic. I'm not really sure how to approach extremely casual aqaintances? I dunno, it sounds silly and petty when I write it out, but it really bugs me. It's not like people don't notice me, either- I get messages often from locals I havent met saying hi and stuff, and I'm a pretty decent cosplayer.

I dunno, I just wish I knew what to say and when to go up to someone and say it. I really nope no one thinks Im giving them the cold shoulder... I just want more cutie cosplay friends and expand my social circle. ;-;

>>7863249
Who can say? I traditionally thought of myself as a christian, but I wonder: is doing the right thing necessarily enough? If all you're doing is following god's orders to get into heaven, that's really only saying that you can be bribed. And hell, if heaven is a paradise for people who don't like to do anything but praise god and work the earth, who's to say you'd even want to go there? Sure the alternative is to get stabbed with pitch forks for all eternity, but at least you might occasionally hear a good joke in hell. Seems like you'd only want to go to heaven if you were a good person by default.

Oh, and I didn't mention this since it comes with the territory, but
>tfw no gf

>>7863263
have you tried men?

>>7863263

I always thought being a good person didn't matter so much as having an intensely personal relationship with the God. Recognizing that you're flawed and using them to help you is the basis of Christiantiy. You could be good, but that's only as a result of having a great relationship with the Lord, and not just because you're a good person.

Unless you're Catholic, in which good deeds have somewhat more clout.

>>7863274

>them is referring to god, jesus, and the holy spirit.

Though being currently without religion, I'll now show myself out.

>>7863263
If heaven is full of basic religious people eating cucumber sandwiches while they play croquet pls send me to hell where everyone interesting would be

>>7863272
Well there WAS the time I got molested in Tennessee. I hate to admit the surge of damn near ecstasy I got in my dick from him twisting my nipples since it in retrospect kind of makes me feel guilty, but there was really just no attraction at all. I'm not cut out for dudes.

>>7863257
Complimenting people's cosplay is a good ice breaker.
You could go into deeper conversation with it too or just as a 'hi how are ya'.
Exchanging tips and ideas, future cosplays, maybe schedule a day where you just work on your costumes together, no big groups.
Obviously you do something right in this regard, so use what you have as a basis, and if people don't want to talk about cosplay, they are at the wrong venue, my friend.

>>7863213
kek

>>7863247
Eat less, move more, stop being fat, do squats so that you have a nice ass enough that no one will consider you ugly

But seriously, the best way to kill yourself is by living an awesome life. You're going to die anyways, make the best you can out of it. Unless you have no aspirations in life in which case I'm sure you still think there's something worth anything, else you'd kill yourself

Say your parents are worth staying alive, well, make your parents happy as fuck then

>>7863289
i dodged a bullet i think

>>7863263
I used to be very traditionally Christian until my best friend revealed to me she had been practicing a pagan religion for years. I was extremely mad at her at first, then made all sorts of attempts to convert her. It essentially ruined our friendship.

Years later, she still a witch, and seems very happy from what I can tell. My faith has turned to mush though, because I couldn't reconcile that I couldn't save her, or the fact that someone I loved who was a good person is damned.

No one probably cares, lol. I just miss being so sure.

>>7863295
well maybe he's just having a bad day and isn't a creep

I dunno m8 you're his ex not me

>>7863298
your post seems like something I'd read if 4chinz existed during the inquisition

>>7863298
You sound so pretentious, jesus tittyfucking christ.

>>7863299
he was, like i said it was just a life update since he had a sticky situation but life seems to be going better for him. still excessive.

>>7863249
Most people are bad gamblers :(

>>7863263
>>7863274
>>7863277
>>7863279
>>7863298

>>7863298
leave the saving up to jesus

>>7863302
Lol

>>7863303
I'm pretentious? Because I had a crisis of faith? I don't get it.

For the record, I hate that I ruined our friendship. But my faith taught me that I was SUPPOSED to respond that way. I honestly believed I was helping her, saving her soul. I now realize I just caused a lot of heart ache.

Did I fuck up? Sure. I don't think that makes me pretentious, though.

>>7863313
Oh no, the 4chan emperor is here to kick me out!

Faggot.

>>7863321
discussing religion on a taiwanese pencil collector board is pretentious

>>7863329
Why are you so angry little boy. Did your pastor touch you?

>>7863329
there, there, alter boy. no one can hurt you now. hush, hush. the bad men are gone

>>7863330
Sorry, I wasn't the one who started the religion subject.

>Really enjoy lolita and substyles
>Slightly chubby, short guy
>I'd consider being a brolita if I were confident, and if I looked good, but right now that's impossible
>Want to try Ouji or Kodona
>Still too chubby for that though
>Besides I don't even know where I'd get stuff, seems a lot easier to find lolita stuff
>stupid white boy problems, I know

>>7863435
The real question is if you are attractive or not. Fuji is really hard to pull off if you aren't cute, I'm sorry to say.

>>7862522
Holy shit anon are you me?
Cosplay is suffering

I like a guy. Is this okay to say to him one day?
>"You wanna go, punk?! You wanna go? To the park? So we can hold hands and make out? Because you're really cute!?"

>>7863478
...no

>>7863478
Do YOU have signs of autism? Take this test to find out if you're one of the rising number with the condition

>>7863484
I actually do have autism. That's why I asked.
[cglhasnospoilers]sorry[/cglhasnospoilers]

>>7863435
when will they learn...

>>7862908
>Your average 3rd gen Asian American is a humongous whiny faggot SJW these days anyway. I remember telling my girlfriend's family about some of the stuff Asian Americans find "offensive" (the song "Kung Fu Fighting", associating Asians with rice and noodles, white chefs cooking asian food)

lel i'm second gen asian americans. that sounds like a particularly uptight sect of AA's, none of that shit offends me or most asians that i know.

> white gf makes kimchee for me

>>7863478
'you're fun to be around, want to hang out?'

then you fuck him right in the dick

>>7863461
I have an okay face, I think, but I'm not super hot.Too immature of features to look classically attractive, which is why I figured Ouji MIGHT be okay for me.
>Fuji
Did you mean Ouji or is that something else? I don't know a whole lot.

>>7863490
You don't need a line, anon. Just talk to him like he's a normal person.

>Hi, (cute guy's name)! Do you want to (go see that new movie/ grab some coffee/ whatever activity) with me sometime? Great, how does Friday sound?

>>7863509
Yeah, I meant ouji but my phone auto corrected.

It sounds like you need confidence more than anything, then!

>tfw apps went through
>it's been a week since I sent it, already got two interviews
>omg omg omg so excite

I know this isn't exactly a job offer, but I'm so happy. I thought I wasn't going to get any interviews. And one of them has a great program that's suited for my career goals as well.

There's a lot of other programs I'm waiting on, so I'm hopeful that I'll still get at least some more interviews to up my chances.

>>7859834
>really want a specific guest to come to a con
>helping out head of con on my own time
>i'm not on staff at all
>get asked to help out
>now working on getting guest i wanted for the con
>find out guest's agent is really hard to contact
>could take weeks, maybe months
>mfw we're a month in on emails to the agent without any contact

I wish i could not feel frustrated about this but if i have nothing by the end of the month, i'll feel so fucking horrible to approach the con heads empty handed.

>tfw no friends to get excited over anime with
>tfw only person to geek out with is my bro
>tfw excited over a show but bro is out of the loop on current stuff
>tfw containing my feels
maybe i'll give anime club a shot. i hope showing up in the middle of the semester won't make it difficult to make friends.

>bought the Miss Manga mascara
>tried it on today
>haven't turned into a kawaii-uguu idoru desu or a shoujo manga heroine yet
>mfw

It looks kind of cute seeing how my lashes lay out when I close my eyes, but I hate that my lashes don't naturally curl which makes it hard to wear falsies. I'm going to try again with a heated eyelash curler tomorrow.

>>7863498

I cannot get a fucking string/tack/pencil elementary school compass to work to make a circle skirt pattern and I swear to fucking God I'm going to kill someone if I have to struggle with this for even a second longer.

>>7863710
>heated eyelash curler
that sounds terrifying

>>7863710
That mascara is terrible. I tried it on once then threw it away. Buy something nicer, you deserve it.

>>7863725
Yeah, it does, only, I actually just heat up my eyelash curler with a blow drier.

>>7863731
Man, that sucks. A girl from my comm was wearing the Miss Manga mascara at a meet and it looked really nice on her. Maybe it just helps that her lashes don't grow downwards like mine.

>tfw you've had Tumblr since ~2011
>tfw you look back at your old posts/old blogs and realize just how much you've changed in that span of time just from looking at the pictures you reblogged
>tfw you feel a little bit sad
Is "tumblr nostalgia" an actual phenomenon or am I just weird?

>Coworker keeps trying to "approve" of every guy I talk to, even online
>gives opinion on what I wear, what I eat, where I go
>never in a harrassing way, just teasing
>offers rescue and rides everywhere
>mfw I'm 26
>... arigatou, onii-chan

So is this what it feels like to have a protective, funny onii-chan? Why didn't I get an onii-chan sooner?

>tfw met g/f cosplaying at at con
>tfw hit it off and shared similar interests
>tfw she's not crazy as shit and fairly laid back
>tfw things are still going alright

anyone can share in this feel?

>>7863716
jab the pointy end into floor/cardboard/whatever. I use thread and a pin and this works for me. It doesn't have to be perfect, just close to it.

>>7863782
You seem to lack the foresight to cringe, so I'm cringing extra hard for you.

>tfw Innocent World didn't select you to model for them

I'll be glad if I get selected for any of the other brands since they ask look really nice, its just that IW is the only brands I own and it would have been nice to wear one of those beautiful new prints.

>>7863800
I'm not actually using the word onii-chan anywhere else, please don't worry (too much).

>>7863803

all look really nice*

It's been a long day.

I'm about to break up with my husband. We've lived together for 4 years.
No kids or anything. We're still in college.
I love him but I'm not ready for actual marriage and there's so much pressure from our families.
I feel so selfish. He's this handsome guy who's crazy in love with me and would do anything to see me smile. But I'm so uncomfortable with our relationship. We haven't had good sex in a year! Even random quick sex is so rare I can't even remember the last time.
This is not the relationship I want to be in. I don't know what to do.

Sorry if this is not cgl related at all. I just don't talk to anyone besides you, cgl. I didn't know where else to rant.

>>7863836
Have you talked to him about it? Couple therapy maybe?

>>7863836
I have sorta similar feelings. Been going out with my bf for nearly 4 years, but we haven't had any sex for nearly a year. Long story short, it was originally from the stress and inconvenience of his brother and wife with a baby and 2 cats staying at his who couldn't move out until the brother got a job, and then actually bought a house to move out to. Then I've been working full time and anytime I've come over I've got to get up for work at 5.45am or I'm on the rag, or I've really not feeling it.

Now I keep having recurring dreams of a guy who used to like me. My boyfriend treats me I'm his whole world and we get on really well, but the only time I want sex is when I'm alone or when I get a sex dream (again when I'm alone). We may be going on holiday at the end of October so hopefully things will pick up from there.

For you, I would say ignore the pressure from your families, you feel it's too early to get married and you know what's best. Maybe take some time out just to get close, like a romantic day out or two.

>>7863844
We talk. We've discussed the lack of sex before and we didn't reach anything.
I just told him I want to move out and it broke his heart. I hate to do this to him but I'm not happy anymore.
I'm pretty skeptical as to couple therapy. Besides, we couldn't afford it anyway.
Thanks for replying. It makes me feel a little better to know someone actually read my rant.

Silly, but boyfriend reacted to two new dresses exactly as I had hoped.

>formal jsk
"Classy, it looks nice on you"
>short casual jsk
"Damn, girl"

Dress for yourself, but damn, emphatic approval from people you care about feels good.

>>7863836
Me and my boyfriend recently had problems like this after dating for 4 years. We both work full time and we just did not have the time or energy.
We just started scheduling sex days. I mean, we schedule evwrything else, why not? They are on the callender, on Thursdays we have sex.
It gives us both time to get good and ready and dirty talk each other or send sexy texts or whatever.
>it helps we are into kinky shit so we can make a big all day thing
And it worked for us, we are both happier and less stressed, and on Thursdays we have sex.

>>7863867
I'm jealous, anon. I wish my boyfriend liked my clothing. He supports my hobbies, even buying me a wig for my birthday, but he really hates lolita. He thinks my love for anime and frilly dresses comes from my absent childhood.

Can't a girl just love her frills without being judged?

>Be me
>Long time lurkfag
>Always wanted to into jfashion, never really took the plunge
>Want to also save money to hopefully buy car in a year or so
>Also want to save some dolla to go buy some new every day clothes
>TFW school is already stressing me out
>MFW

>>7863870
And on Wednesdays you wear pink?

> Halloween is coming
> only a couple more weeks before the annual "dress up as oh so edgy references to recent misfortune, tragedies, and blackface" shit show.
>People who weren't affected by the situations will insist that they're using humor because "you only give power to those things if you don't learn to laugh" and totally not because they're attention whores, hungry for the salty cum the news sites well feed them

What'll it be this year? Naomi Oni might be too long ago, but I'm sure someone will manage a physical representation of JLaw's nudes, somehow. Lots of accusations of butthurt and sjwness will fly.

>>7863951
back 2 tumbler

>>7863951
What?
Personally I hope Ebola-chan will be popular. Maybe finally someone does the hair right.
At least some people are cosplaying her for Halloween.

>>7863967
Why do people even say this on /cgl/?

>>7863746
It's plain old nostalgia. You get it whether you browse through your old Gaia account or your old DA account.

>>7863878
Jesus. I'm sorry, girl. I'd like to think I had a good childhood, but I love my frills, too. Sure my folks had to work third shifts, but hey, it was the 90s - everyone could work overtime : I had my Lisa Frank gear, Saturday morning cartoons, rest of the day outside with a friend, and the SNES. Best childhood evr.

>>7863870
Oh nice. Haha, I just thought about the Flight of the Conchords song.

angelic pretty has been doing a lot of more mature peices, and their sweet peices have been seeming really lackluster

just fucking release something sickeningly cute damn you. you're angelic pretty, what's the meaning of this classic bullshit

>>7863984
Anymore when someone says 'gb2tumblr' it's less actually telling them to go back to tumblr and more of a 'keep your shitty and boring social justice opinions to yourself, you'll receive no back pats from us for expressing them here'. A kind way of saying this isn't where we talk about that and we don't want to get off topic.

>>7863191
Which restaurant anon? I'm curious. Also congrats! Holidays are a bitch to get reservations at.

>>7863782
he wants to fugg

Perhaps not relevant, but I couldn't find a vent thread and she is cgl related.
I never knew you were coward. After all the times you helped me when I was down, comfort and consoled me when I was down, and after the times I tried to do the same for you, you think I'd talk shit behind your back? I get that you're probably paranoid, but goddamn. Just because I lurk on here doesn't mean I'm an almighty backstabbing bitch. And what about your other friends who lurk on here? Did you drop them too? You're probably one of the closest things I've had to a friend in a long time, I told you that, and you just let me go like I was nothing. Has your, more or less, exploding cosfame gone to your head?
I am so hurt I honestly almost wish I was one of your leaks.

>in a ldr with an airforce guy
>hoping to see him for Christmas
>starting getting really pumped up for Christmas for once since it's usually shit due to family drama
>breaks the news to me today that he won't be able to make it back for the Holidays
>fucking sucks

Maybe if I make this cosplay and fit in with other people at this con I'll finally make a social group outside of my 10 friends that I can't lose or I'll have no one!

I'M SO ALONE.

>>7864312
Whether your cosplay was good or not, I'd be your friend anon. ;_;

>>7864322
I really hope so. I can't seem to make any friends anymroe.

>>7864345
I'm sure you'll make loads of friends at cons, with or without cosplaying! Just believe in yourself

>get ready to put money down for dress
>go on 4chan and see some other anon is bidding
THE GAME IS ON

I call my mom and dad "mommy" and "daddy"......is that really weird??

> get Cream Cookie Collection JSK
> as I feared
> bodice is too shiny
Hopefully, it'll look fine once I put it together in a co-ord.

I'm 19 years old and I feel depressed whenever people on internet talk about how tall they are
I feel like a midget
most dresses go past my knees, salopettes are normal lenght skirts... normalfag pants are always awkwardly long, I've never bought one that didn't need to be cut exept for those made for 12-14 years old children.
Cosplay looks always out of proportion since I don't have a full loli body.
Maybe I'm just over reacting, I really wanted to ger myself a surgery to make my body match how tall I am.

>>7861400
not that anon but I have a huge thibg for markiplier, I'm working in a huge ass game about him and stuff... but no one cares.
I also like Cry a lot, not only for his voice but things he usually say in his videos about his life just... I just want to hold him in my arms and fill him with love.

>>7864312
>abloobloo I only have 10 friends I'm so alone
Are you still in high school or something?

>>7864424
not if you're a wittle girl

>>7864222
Nah, he practically has a line of girls knocking on his door. I kid you not. He wouldn't need to do half that effort to score a much prettier girl.

>>7864221
Thanks! Le Cellier Steakhouse

New thread: >>7864715

>>7863235
stay mad

>>7863478
this sounds so tumblrish, I can't explain it

>>7864424
I'm almost 20 and I still do. It's endearing... I don't understand the reactions or stigma it gets here. IRL no one has ever told me to stop, because there's no real reason to. I've gone my whole life calling my parents a certain way, why should I change that once I hit some age range where I'm "too grown up"?

>>7863478
While I understand why others are against this, my heart would explode if a girl asked me out like that anon.

>>7864312
>10 friends

Anon I have one.

Two if you count my boyfriend.

And you won't hear me whining "weh weh I don't have enough friends."

10 friends is above normal unless you're in a sorority/fraternity, or underaged.

>>7860999
> was in the same situation, but as freelancer
> quit job for several other reasons
> still can't stop thinking about him and wondering if he's well

Hugs to you, anon. I know your feels.

>>7861137
>muhfeelings
into the trash it goes