/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm finally losing weight! I've lost 11 lbs in two months, and I'm starting to feel better about myself.

Admittedly it did take medical intervention (orlistat tablets 3 times a day) and it's not been fun shitting bright orange, but it's happening. I'm already fitting (tightly) into an asian L so hopefully I'll get to wear some super cute clothes!

(by the way if anyone wants to talk about orlistat/Alli I'm quite happy to give you the complete rundown on what it does to you)

I keep sleeping with my ex even though he's in an on again off again relationship with his gf of 3 years.
If I didn't live on the other side of my country to him we'd probably be together, until then I'm hooked on our long distance booty calls because I love him.

>>7489720
Tell me more! I'm desperate to loose weight, I've been on 1500 cals for four months and I've just maintained a 125lbs :(

Heavy flow today.

I have had a lot of luck with finding matching headbow, otks etc and also certain prints/items being cheap however I am now slightly in debt (because of lolita and other things). I have just gotten a part time job whilst studying which is fantastic but I feel bad that I am in debt even though I will be able to pay it off soon. I still can't help myself window shopping at the moment either. I just feel a bit guilty but am also happy that I've managed to find things I have been searching for.

>con in two weeks
>super excited since I've never stayed in a hotel
>honestly more excited for the hotel than the con
>suddenly idea
>might as well look for an escort/hookup for bf and I
>bf gives up searching, I keep at it
>hours later
>it's a fruitless search
>tfw everyone is ugly or fatties
>tfw con is in middle of nowhere so there's even less of a selection

Not even mad, I'm just really disappointed and disgusted at these ugly women.

>>7489728
oh anon

>>7489727
Eat less calories than that.
It's a healthy weight though

>>7489728
I had that two days ago, leaked onto my undies. :c Stay strong, anon!

It pains me that I would be such a better lolita and cosplayer if I wasn't an alcoholic.
It's horrible. Every single day, I come up with plans on how to tackle my latest cosplay or coord a new lolita outfit. And every single day I get way too drunk to do any of it and just end up passing out and waking up to a shittily cut wig or a halfassed costume piece. It's taken me two months to make maybe 30% of a really, really simple costume, because I work on it about 40 minutes and pass out because I don't give a shit. And then I just have to fix the crap work I did while wasted anyway, so I'm basically going nowhere slowly.

>>7489727
Well if you don't eat much fat anyway it's not going to do anything, as orlistat binds to 25-33% of the fat you eat and you basically shit it out eitehr as an orange liquid, or integrated into the matter you pass instead of absorbing it in the intestines. It's both preventative measures and aversion therapy.

You still need to watch what you eat and you do still need to at least a little exercise for it to work, and for the love of god do not eat a really really fatty meal. I made that mistake and I actually had - I can't put this nicely I'm sorry - fatty anal seepage. Not enough to stain anything and I was at home but there was a definite patch on my underpants. a lot of people get horrendous bloating the first week and even after all that, it might not work for you.

If you're thinking of getting it OTC I'd definitely read up about it and the side effects and consider if it's really worth it for you. I can't exercise much (wii fit is hardcore cardio for me) and my self esteems so deep down the shitter you can't even see it so I put up with the danger-farts, seeping and orange-stained toilet bowl.

>>7489727
Eat less than that. 1500 kcals is almost exactly what you need to maintain 125lbs so of course you aren't losing more.

>>7489731
If you've never stayed in hotel I strongly question how attractive you are yourself

>>7489744
What? How are they even related? I never did because my parents don't travel and I was a poorfag.

>>7489747
exactly, poorfags are rarely attractive, especially hicks that don't travel

>>7489754
>tfw when bait

>>7489755
It's not bait it's a fact
Attractive people are more likely to get hired for better jobs, meaning they're more likely to rise out of poorfagdom. they're more likely to have successful partners and careers. And the people that do rise out of poorfagdom for being attractive are usually well known success stories *because* they're outliers, not because they're the rule. Poor people eat horrible diets, live hard working lives that age them prematurely, and are usually born to other ugly people because if they were really that attractive they would have gotten out of that mess. that's why it's unlikely to be a poorfag and also be very attractive. again, if you know someone that is, they are an outlier, not a standard. Just drive through a ghetto sometime, they are pretty much all landwhales with horrible personal styling

>>7489762
>[citation needed]

>need money for conventions and my hobbies
>can't get a job because I don't have much experience
>decide to get a sugar daddy
>he drops me after a month to get with a younger girl
Fuck

At least I got money for my next convention

>>7489728
What does this mean?

>>7489768
http://www.businessinsider.com/beautiful-people-get-more-job-interviews-2013-9
http://online.wsj.com/news/articles/SB10001424052970203687504576655331418204842
http://www.businessinsider.com/attractive-people-are-more-successful-2012-9
http://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/europe/attractive-people--particularly-women--more-likely-to-get-a-job-than-the-unattractive-says-study-8809987.html
http://www.businessinsider.com/beautiful-people-get-more-job-interviews-2013-9
and I told you how you can get a citation yourself, go through a ghetto sometime. I'm sure your white middle-class SJW self cringes at the thought of *actually* interacting with the lower class but it's not actually that bad. You're not going to end up in the middle of a gang shootout or whatever mommy & daddy told you would happen.

>have work tonight
>can't go to a lolita meetup
>trying to do this shitty ass grad assignment before I go in
>so uninspired to do it
>have an hour left
>have more work to look forward to when I get home

I feel like I'm not living. I'm just existing day by day.
My unpredictable work schedule and mountains of grad work make it so I can never have a real schedule with my life. It's like I wake up every day in an anxious haze dreading what I have to put up with for the day. I'm stressed so much that I think romantic thoughts about suicide everyday.
I'm just tired of being a "student." I want to fucking live already.

>>7489772
lol beauty is always inherent and never relies on how well you can afford to dress and take care of yourself

>>7489775
>beauty is always inherent
gr8b8m8

>>7489776
>and never relies on how well you can afford to dress and take care of yourself

sarcasm

>>7489775
That's exactly the point, though. A lot of poor people can't afford to take care of themselves. They're forced to buy cheaper foods or are uninformed enough to buy them. They can't afford premium skincare or decent makeup. They don't have the time to put into all that bullshit anyway. The few poor people who are beautiful are that way by winning the genetic lottery, not by anything they were able to control themselves.
I'm not saying it's their fault or think less of them for it but it's the reality of the situation. Ignoring it and pretending poor people are attractive, beautiful people who live these great lives is bullshit.

>>7489780
I need to up my sarcasm game. I completely agree and that was my point. I actually thought that that was such a stupid thing to say it'd be obvious - forgot where I was.

I had an opportunity to be social on my first weekend off in a while and I passed it up to eat junk food, read manga, watch movies with my parents, and try to convince myself that 50 bucks is a reasonable amount to use in two days for mobile kanojos and boyfriendos

I lost my only friend and now I go to cons alone and leave them alone despite meeting great people. I just can't maintain contact, the aspergers chooses the hobbies over the friends and fighting it only makes me unhappy. Thanks for being the understanding, low maintenance friend that only leaves when my shitty ISP is down, 4chan.

>>7489771
Period anon, period.

>>7489782
Yeah, I got the sense you were being facetious but thought it was a salient point anyway

>>7489699
>traps getting bigger
>shoulders getting wider
>triceps finally showing some definition
>starting to get pecs

Getting closer and closer, day by day, to that Armstrong cosplay of my dreams. Feels good.

>been wanting to into lolita for about 2 years
>constantly shopping, itching to buy my first dress
>but my deal with myself is I have to stop smoking or at least start using only an e-cig if I want to buy lolita
>I was doing really well until yesterday, I'd gone about a month without a regular cigarette
>tfw had a few yesterday while drunk

today I'm hungover and pissed off

>>7489810
Oh well. Just keep going anon, everyone makes mistakes.

>>7489774
I'm in the same boat anon Shit work schedule and mountains of homework and studying. I feel like I've been waiting all my life to become old enough to be on my own and have my own money

>>7489790
???

>>7489826
Blood, period blood.

>>7489828
its 7th grade health class on cgl today

>>7489826
she's on her period.
heavy flow means more blood than usual.

>>7489826
are you okay? did you have a stroke?

>>7489720
How did you get on Alli? Did you just say "Hey doc. Needa fit in some kawaii j-fash shit. Hit me up."?
How much did it cost?
And how much do you weigh/do you need to weigh for them to give it to you?

>>7489839
I'm on prescription from the nhs. I was obese (81kg at 5'4") and I have a chronic condition that is negatively impacted by my weight and makes it difficult to lose said weight. It's a pretty last-resort thing because of, y'know, the whole shitting orange fat thing.

>>7489830
Where do babies come from?

>>7489787
>Thanks for being the understanding, low maintenance friend that only leaves when my shitty ISP is down, 4chan.
This is my eternal life, thanks for being a pal 4chan.

When I was younger, the "Lolita" fashion was forced on me. My mom just had some weird obsession, not with the current trendy style, but general old timey, lacy gowns. Complete with ornamental pendants with pale colors and white silhouettes of women.

And I hated it. Being forced out of my time playing outside to dress up in fancy dresses and pose with little parasols was just the worst thing in the world. I wish I still had those pictures, she even put together cute little albums of me in stunning dresses, but with the most sarcastic smile I could muster.

Now I'm twenty, and I fucking love it. I wish I hadn't spent years hating it, and I also wish I didn't have so much pride keeping me from telling my mom I like it now and get the many gorgeous items she still has.

>>7489841
I don't mean to be rude or intrusive, but could I see a picture of your body? Clothed of course.
I'm the same height/weight about and I'm curious.

>>7489871
I weigh a little less than that now but here: http://i.imgur.com/woD1Q5F.jpg . I carry a lot of weight in my lower half and have very little muscle tone in my upper body because I can't train those muscles easily.

>please ignore my gross bitchtits i know

capcha: future idlarge

>>7489858
how is babby formed

how girl get pragnent

>>7489905
I honestly had no idea you could be fat yet still flat chested.
I envy you. I wish I could be flat chested, I have saggy bitch tits.

>>7489733
>>7489739
You don't even know how tall they are, or how much they work out, don't give out shitty advice like that.

I am grossly underweight (90lbs/40.8kg at 5'6"/165cm) and cannot gain weight. People don't get when they tell me "Eat a sandwich you're so skinny" does not help me at all, and just makes me way more self concious about my body.

>>7489930
Keep tracks of what you're eating and what you're burning off in exercise. Underweight people overestimate what they're eating and underestimate the calories burned during exercise a lot of the time, same as how overweight people underestimate their calories from food and overestimate expended calories. Try to eat a good amount of protein in your diet whilst doing strength training and you should get some lurrrrvly muscles coming through with time.

>>7489927
Anom who asked for the picture I'm 5'3 at 170 and I have small breasts too. (36B in most brands.)
Pic related

Speaking of weight, I've managed to lose a good deal and I'm pretty happy with how far I've come. But I just feel miserable due to my build. No matter how much I lose, I'm never going to have a slender looking frame. I could get down to 100lbs lost and still be called fat on here due to just how wide I look. I think the only thing that works for me is high waists and big hair.

>>7489940
Oh God anon, you're me. Except for the high waist stuff, that looks awful on me.

>>7489940
I feel you. I have a really wide build too thanks to my dad's Scandinavian background really wide shoulders, wide jaw, wide hips, and I can never seem to get my waist thinner

>>7489945
They tend to take away from having a wide ribcage and less than narrow waist. I'm short torsoed. So my waist can only go in so far. If I get to my low-end goal, I'll probably see a 28" waist, but 18-20% or body fat. I'd probably just have to do waist training at that point.

>>7489947
yes!! ugh. wide ribcage, shoulders, hips. plus i have pretty small bones so it looks like i should be way more delicate and petite somehow. at the very least i got an hourglass figure so my waist is small, but it looks stupidly small with how wide my ribs and hips are. sigh.

I have anemia, and a type that can lead to schizophrenia to boot

wat do

>>7489957
Man, it does genuinely kinda piss me off when girls complain about big hips.

Try being a GUY with fucking woman hips, there is jack shit you can do to look good

>>7489980
Try being a woman with man hips. Forever saggy ass.

>>7489983
No way pal at least you can still look slightly attractive and get away with it. I get regularly mocked and called disgusting

>con time
>spend whole day with my crush
>dressed in lolita
>everything goes fine
>next day and week after he doesn't talk to me
Oh well, better luck next time

>>7489989
>I get regularly mocked and called disgusting
They're just saying that but secretly they want your booty and dem hips, go rock their world bro. They mirin'

>>7489983
Petticoats were invented for a reason.

>>7489951
Ah, much luck to you, anon. I feel like high waisted stuff did the opposite on me and accentuated my wide rib cage, so I usually go for anything that accentuates my waist instead.
I started at 28" (I'm pretty short also 5'1") and am now at 25", 18% body fat to boot.

>>7489957
Everything to this as well, except I WISH I had an hourglass, it's the only thing that'd make me not hate my body. I'm two inches away on my waistline, but I've been stuck at 25" for months now, with a 1200cal diet (heard it's bad to ever eat less than this) and regular exercise. It's driving me insane.

>>7489977
Get your ass to a doctor and see what they say. Don't trust stranger on the internet.

>buy something on lacemarket
>they charge me $5 for a shipping tube
I am not amused. I've literally never had anyone charge me for packing materials, wtf

Jumping aboard the body hate train...I posted in the last confession thread that I've gained 20 pounds in the last 18 months and I feel like a whale, especially in spandex.

The worst part is I have no motivation to exercise and any friends I'd want to talk about it with would just say "cry moar, you're still skinnier than me." I don't want to be "skinnier than x," I want to be able to look in the mirror and not see a tub of lard. Fucking body dysmorphia. I just want to be able to cosplay without worrying about showing up in a fatty thread.

>>7490081
I got a blood test.

Vitamin B12 deficiency, ALSO combined with Iron deficiency. It's real shitty

Tomorrow I'm meeting with my local comm for the first time. I'm worried about spilling my spaghetti everywhere or just having nothing to say.

>>7490085
>The worst part is I have no motivation to exercise

Is there something holding you back? Like not wanting to go to the gym alone, or depression causing lack of motivation?

>>7490085
I know this feel. I gained 20 pounds also.
I got depressed because of a bunch of family drama, and my boyfriend didn't exactly help by feeding me honey crullers from timmy ho's.
I would just go run and eat healthy, but I can't run with the ice on the ground still, and I live with his family, who hasn't eaten a single healthy thing in their life. (His brother 400+ pounds.)

And to boot, my bf's mom asked me if I was pregnant... Repeatedly. Because "well, honey, you've put on quiet a lot of weight."

I went from 150->170 and hate leaving my room now.

my complaint is when fucking fatties hijack threads to whine about how they're so fat they're literally shitting out fat. Go to the fuck somewhere else, why does ever other post have to be fat people confessions? Aren't there enough places for you all to bitch and whine?

>>7490095
Are there any cheap gyms in your area? You sound Canadian based on the Tims comment. We have Fit4Less around here, which is about $10/month. If you're still in school, is there a gym you can use that's covered by your school fees? I used the school gym all winter because it was cold as fuck in the GTA and it's included in my tuition. I know it won't exactly cure your depression but endorphins from exercise are pretty nice.

Does anyone read manga/watch shoujo animes and "copy" the main characters personality? Whenever I feel bad or I don't know what to do, I read something cute and the mc's always inspire me (pic totally related; tohru is a character everyone wants to be like)

>>7489770
>>7489731
Are girls in their early 20's really this gross? I am not a prude or goody-two-shoes by any means but the things I see here sometimes just sound really unsafe and just...gross.

>>7490091
Lingering depression, I assume. I have a gym membership and friends willing to go with me, but I just..don't.

I've been dealing with clinical depression since I was a teenager and every 5 years or so I tend to develop a tolerance to my meds and have to switch. This time I didn't notice that I was slipping because of ~*~drama~*~ (depression is a cunt like that, isn't it), and was pretty deep in the hole before I realized that I was even depressed again. I stopped taking care of myself, so I started gaining weight then, and when I finally switched meds I had such bad withdrawls that the only thing that would stop the nausea was eating carbs.

I decided "fuck it, I'll get my brain healthy and then I'll work off the weight," but...I haven't. I'm pretty stable now, but it's just so frustrating to be fighting my own brain every step of the way. It's hard to stay motivated when you know in a couple of years you're just going to be repeating the fucking cycle again. I also kind of hate this particular med because it makes me completely unable to drink without massive nausea and headaches. It's like I skip the fun and go straight to the hangover.

tl;dr: fuck my brain I'm a lazy whiner with no self control.

>>7490108
For the most part, we just don't let people know.

>>7490105
Well, I don't 'copy their personalities', but I do pick up certain of their ticks. This applies to all characters, not just shoujo ones though.

>>7490146
Yeah! That would be a better way to put it, I didn't really know how to explain it haha. I tend to only do it with shoujo characters though since they're the most positive usually

I know that even if I lose weight, pile on makeup, or whatever, I will still have this ugly fuckin' Jew nose.

I am seriously considering surgery, but A). I want to go to Korea to do it, and B). it will take a while to get the money to do it.

Plus, I have the moral dilemma of having a 3-year old kiddo to take of, and I don't know if I can save up 4 or 5k-ish then justify spending it on plastic surgery. I won't be neglecting my kid if I save up the money a bit at a time, but. I dunno.
But I seriously want this so bad.

I just wanna look pretty and feel attractive, but I don't want to be selfish about it.

>>7490101
I live in Olds. There's not much of anything, but the community college is up the street and they have a gym, it's kind of pricey though. Was also looking the pool over there, but I'm visiting my mom is the states right now, and I'll be home in a few days.

I was so happy when I worked out, I really want to do it again.

>>7490167
I'd honestly just put a little bit of money away into a separate savings account from your rainy day funds, and not touch it.
As long as you aren't struggling and you and your child are doing well, then I don't see the harm. Especially if it'll make you happier.

>>7490108
just as gross as the dudes who pay for us, yes :^)

>>7490167
having a kid doesn't mean you suddenly can't buy or do anything for yourself. Some people might criticize you for it, but those people are assholes, and not worth thinking about.

mfw late bloomer and hanging on to the hope that i can still grow [i hit puberty at like 15/16 and am 5 feet tall]
tell me gulls how fucked am i?

>>7490167
It's a shame some women hate their noses so much.

>>7490204
I was the same way, I managed to grow two more inches when I was 23-24. I'm 5'4" now, there is always hope, good luck

>>7490206
it's a shame some people feel the need to comment on how some women hate their noses

>>7490235
It's a shame there's so much shame in this thread.

I'm disappointed, seagulls.
Disappointed with your shameful displays.

>>7490167
Why would you want to go to Korea? The surgeons there are experienced in performing Asian nose jobs- in other words actually adding dimension to the nose, rather than removing it.

>>7490169
Good luck, anon. Hope you can find something that suits you.

>>7489727
how tall are you? I'm 5'2" (157cm) and I only lose weight if I eat on average <1400 (best if 1000-1300). If I eat more than 1600 I start to gain.

And as far as 1200 supposedly being the "minimum healthy" amount of calories, if you are petite like me, and not terribly active, it's not true at all. petites need very little to eat lol.

my best weight loss came when I was biking ~7 miles/day and eating <1400 calories. of course, then school stress kicked in a couple months later and I couldn't keep it up.

>>7490204
but being short is cute! ;)

>>7490244
They still have the training and expert surgeons there that could do it. And please, people go to Korea all the time for surgery. I'm sure any decent clinic has worked with European clientele. Its cheeper, they're better at it, etc, so why not Korea?

>>7490259
You may want to look at your basal metabolic rate to see what your proper range should be to maintain your weight, if you haven't yet.

Women: BMR = 655 + (9.6 x wt. in kg) + (1.8 x ht. in cm) – (4.7 x age in years)
Note: 1 inch = 2.54cm
1 kg = 2.2 lbs

Activity multiplier
Sedentary = BMR x 1.2 (little or no exercise, desk job)
Lightly active = BMR x 1.375 (light exercise/sports 1-3 days/wk)
Moderately active = BMR x 1.55 (moderate exercise/sports 3-5 days/wk)
Very active = BMR x1.725 (hard exercise/sports 6-7 days/wk)
Extra active = BMR x 1.9 (hard daily exercise/sports & physical job or 2x day training, i.e. marathon, etc.)

So say, you're 5'2" (~157cm) and 125lbs (~57kg). 655 + 547.2 + 282.6 - 89.3 = 1395.5. After the activity multiplier is used, your BMR would be:
Sedentary: 1675 calories/day
Lightly active: 1919 calories/day
Moderately active: 2163 calories/day

etc.

>>7489731
>tfw bait
>tfw using my reaction image
I don't know how to feel. at least its getting spread, even to trolls?

>>7490173
>>7490194
All good points. I guess I shouldn't feel too badly as long as I take care of what needs to be taken care of first and foremost.
Thanks for the kind words.

>>7490206
Can't be helped, I guess. I want to like it, I do, but I just can't get over it. I will be much happier when it's changed.

>>7490244
I think there are clinics that cater specifically to non-asian "tourists". I just don't see any clinics in my area/country that showcase the kind of features I'm looking for. They have a specific "style" that they do, and I'm looking more for the style that I often see being preformed in Korea, ie., slightly indented bridge, less of a tip, that sort of thing.

>>7489770
How bad is it to get dumped by a sugar daddy for a younger girl?

I want to know...

>>7490342
I don't really care about him, I just wanted the money.

>>7490343

You're a slut lol.

>>7490343
how do you even get a sugar daddy

>>7490357
Found him on okcupid.

Well actually he found me. He told me I looked very submissive and asked me if I was looking for a master.

>>7490357
That's what I'm wondering. I'm more looking toward a sugar daddy that is more online (because I have a boyfriend) and nowhere near me.

>>7490357
there's dating websites specifically for that, too. lol i considered that when i was in la and fucking broke

>>7490363
>tfw submissive girls would rather fuck an old man and in >>7490365's case cheat on their boyfriends than be with a guy who will care for them

shit nigga i ain't even euphoric fedora tier beta loser but that's some bull shit

I've been on mini pills for a bit over a month now and they're not working for me. I mean ok, I haven't gotten pregnant so they work as a contraceptive but holy hell they mess up my cycle real bad. My last period lasted for three weeks straight. That is not okay.
I was told to stay on the pill for another two months and then see if my cycle is still fucked, but honestly man. I went on the pill so my bf and I don't have to worry about condoms breaking etc but since I'm bleeding all the fucking time it kinda defeats the whole purpose because I sure as hell ain't having any sex when there's blood involved.
I really just want to make sweet tender love to my bf without having to worry about bleeding and ruining the sheets. Sad smiley face.

>>7490367
Not my fault so many men are spineless fucks that make my vagina dry.

>>7490367
its cuz they have money

>>7490367
I'm so sorry women aren't making their own choices based on what you like

>>7490366
>>7490363
>>7490365

>I need feminism because
Jk girls it's all good. I like you for what you're doing.

>>7490367
I discussed this with my boyfriend actually. What I want is more money for interaction with a female. I wouldn't do sexual acts at all.

>>7490381
>more money
I really mean some money. I do not gold-dig my boyfriend... he's too sweet and I know he would give me the world if he could.

>>7490368
Do give it at least another couple months. When I first went on the pill (for dysmenorrhea) my cycle went even more haywire than it already was for a couple months, but then it settled down and I've been practically pain free ever since. As a bonus, I've been on the pill so long that my cycle is almost nonexistent and I can get away with just pantiliners. It's awesome.

If your cycle is still fucked up after 3 or 4 months, talk to your gyno and they can try you on something else that might work better for your body.

>>7490368
Have you thought about an IUD? Although the insertion procedure is a pain (literally), they last a long time, and have very low-dose hormones (or none at all!) I've had my Paragard for over two years so far and it's fantastic.

it's been 17 days and 21 hours since i ordered my bodyline

i need my shoes

body and facial hair. i just can't anymore. my moustache is fuller than my boyfriend's.

> Tfw you want to have tea parties with fresh cake you made that morning
> Tfw your a manly male and will never be pretty

Pfffffffft.

>>7490435
>tfw you're a pretty-ish thin female
>but you still can't have girly things because you don't feel pretty enough for them

I almost know that feel, anon.

>>7490435
but anon you can be the prettiest princess in all the land if you just believe

>>7490438
At least you arent all scarred up

>>7490457
Eeeeeeeeeeeeh....

>>7490463
you have to believe

>>7490457
Somewhere deep down inside of me, I wish I could do that with my hair.

>>7489941
>posts pic in the baggiest shit possible so nobody can tell anything anyway

Don't be an attention whore.

>>7490087
Yeah, so... take vitamin b12 and iron.

>Lolitas who play the violin, viola, or cello.

I hate my job. I want to somehow find something to do that I enjoy but I have come to the conclusion that there is no money to be made from my hobbies that can support me and that is kind of soul crushing.
But I feel like my retail management job is a black hole and I will never get out of retail now.
I just want to live the kawaii life.

>>7490580
I'm the same way. I can't think of anything that I'll truly love that's connected with my hobbies. So I'm settling for a career that'll be okay enough. Just a day job. Work won't be my whole life, but I'll have the money for my hobbies and it'll be tolerable -- just a little customer service, no drug testing, office job, can dress nice, same shit all the time. Maybe find something like that, tolerable?

>>7490563
cellolita here

>>7490456
>>7490457
>>7490463
>>7490464
I used to be a pretty boy, but rough living and getting ravaged by rocks and trees in training can make a sapphire into granite. Still collect my tea pots though

> having to hide your pretties from guests because youre afraid they'll tell the 1stSgt

>>7490270
not when you are a 20 year old man
>>manlet

waiting for an anon to reply to a sales email for a dream item is the worst
especially when someone else said "I'm also interested in this"
I feel so anxious--... What if my offer was too low and the other person just emailed a better offer?

>mfw

>>7490270
not when you are a 20 year old man
>>tfw manlet
i havnt grown more than 2 inches since hs started and now im 20 OTL

All I want is to be able to plan a meet-up and not have to deal with people and their food intolerance and vegan whinging.

I am really fucking mad about how AP is handling there new site....They seriously expect customers to use tenso instead of just shipping oversees themselves?
What the fucking hell? Talk about taking leaps backwards.
I miss the international site already.

>>7490675
> Vegan

Ugh

>>7490675
portland?

>trying to change passwords of Heartbleed bugged sites
>get to pinterest
>their retarded-ass pretend smartphone website design has no clear ALL YOU ACCOUNT SHIT HERE link
Well, fuck you, Pinterest. If a Romanian scammer takes over this account, I won't even give a shit anyway.

The worst feel is when people snicker when they see something you have a keen interest in. I usually get pissed and throw heavy shit at them

>>7490689
Im wondering if I should even bother with these bugged sites. like is it really bad? I have tiered passwords depending on the kind of website it is and how much I care if it's compromised. I don't really understand this bug, I just don't want my gmail or cc/pp sites comprised.

>>7490697
if you don't go on unsecured internet connections (IE in public places) or if you don't have unsafe browsing habits (IE you don't get a virus every week), you're probably fine tbh. just change what's important or what you're paranoid about.

>>7490699
I don't and don't really go to unsafe sites. I probably won't bother. I have backup authentication for stuff I care about and its never been a problem disputing charges on my cc or pp if something happens

>>7490697
I don't think it's a dangerous thing, except for email accounts and people who use the same PW everywhere. Lots of those dummies could really get fucked because of this.

>>7490294

Out of curiosity, do certain people just higher metabolisms than others? I've always heard that but I'm not sure if it's true.

I'm 5'2" and 120 and I maintain my weight at between 2000-2500 a day. When I was 130 or so I tried to cut back to about 1300 and felt so sick and faint I couldn't really function on it, but I don't exercise or anything so I'm not sure why my I maintain my weight at a higher calorie count. If there is such a thing as a "high metabolism", should I just fudge the numbers so that it works with what I eat to maintain my weight? IE, say I'm "moderately active" when actually I'm not, and then look at what they advise for that category for weightloss? I'd like to lose a few pounds but I know I just can't seem to function at what's advised for my height and weight (around 1300).

>>7490683
Can someone make a guide for this shit fest google translate is so frustrating

>>7490712
yes, they do. that thing says if i eat 1800 cal i'll lose weight (or maintain? either way). i was eating 1500ish in very healthy foods consistently for months and didn't lose any significant weight. i have a lot of other issues going on - and you might too - but people do metabolize food very differently.

>>7490712
I don't recall the correct figure but the variation in human metabolisms is actually quite small, between 5-20% either way.
The way people talk, you'd think some people have 300% higher metabolism than the average. But that is very, very, very, very rarely the case.
Another interesting fact about metabolisms is that they decrease about 1% per year sometime after age 30. So anyone who tries to tell you their metabolism crapped out at 25 and made them gain 50lbs in a year is full of shit.

>>7490716
So what foods did you eat? What are your issues?

>>7490712
You probably shouldn't cut back so suddenly
I mean I'm fairly sedentary and feel fine at 1200 and many others do. It may be something you need to get used to.

>>7490706
I'm... sort of guilty of this. I did however, change the password to my e-mail. But for everything else I haven't really done a thing. I'm worried, but I don't want to change a billion things.

>>7489727
Same weight but I'm a guy so I'm desperately trying to gain it.

>>7490714
It wants me to write my name in fucking katakana how THE FUCK WHAT.
Fuck you angelic pretty

>>7490721
This is correct, the difference is very minimal. People who believe they have a higher metabolism are more likely just more active or naturally eat less without realizing it. I've read a few papers on the subject, I'll see if I can find the sources when I get off mobile.

>>7490706
I was one of those dummies. Blog, steam, and email? All nearly identical passwords with 1-2 character differences! Eugh.

Sat down and made unique bulky passwords for everything. I've been meaning to for a long time anyway because I kept mixing passwords up.

>>7490746
how do i japanese

All I want to do is sign up for AP and maybe order a new dress. Fucking hell. I need a step-by-step walkthrough.

>>7490725
Have you tried green coffee extract?

>>7490367
I'd hope the inverse of that is true (dommes wanting younger guys and be with a caring guy).

>>7490754
Seriously what the hell is this.
I WANTED BERRY GARDEN
NOW I FUCKING DON"T
TAKE YOUR GLORIOUS BERRY DRESS AND SHOVE IT.
Fucking shit, I am going to regret rage quitting latter..... I have thrown thousands of dollars at this company via the international site, and I'm sure plenty of other English speakers have as well.....and you can't fucking have an English guide set up?
I mean, sure you don't want to ship to us
BUT YOU CANT FUCKING EVEN HAVE A FUCKING GUIDE?
Ok, I will step away from my computer for a while now I am quite irrationally angry about this.

>Friend says I'm ugly as a guy and would be even uglier as a girl
>Take his insult to heart for some reason
>Begin visiting /cgl/ for skincare and makeup advice
>Begin getting more compliments overall, specifically on my complexion
>Making tons of friends with girls because I now understand the pains of makeup and can understand conversations just a little bit more
>Decide to take up an effort to prove him wrong by taking up dressing in lolita fashion
>Try assembling my first coord
>Decide to go with gothic because babby's first and easiest coord right?
>Order a jsk, blouse, petti, and bag from IW
>Order a brown wig from Cyperous
>Get it in the mail and try it on
>It isn't really all that gothic or dark
>In fact it's brown all over
>Brown JSK with a matching brown blouse, matching brown hair and brown bag
>It's literally the plainest coord ever
>It could not possibly resemble any notion of OTT or contemporary. It literally looks like some normal person, not even a princess, was wrested from the Victorian Era
>Slip a picture of myself into FB chat while discussing something with him
>He doesn't even notice it's me
>Tfw deciding when to drop the bomb on him
>Tfw I really love my first coord even though it wasn't what I was expecting

I love you /cgl/, you've really improved my life.

>>7490754
Is like they've reverted to the early 2000's...

>>7490758
Not that anon, but what's that used for?

>>7490687
Nope I'm UK but this feel is felt worldwide.

>>7490795
A lot of us going through the med-board process with the Army cant do PT, so our metabolism crashes. We take this pills before eating so we can maintain and still lose weight with what minimal PT we can do. I just started taking them in a serious manner Monday and ive already lost an inch off of my waist. Google them and read up (ignore the BIG PHARMA HOKEY WITCHCRAFT posts)

>>7490775
picture of cord?

>>7490716
BMR anon here. That equation is to maintain the same weight, though your mileage may vary. Were you exercising at all during the months you were eating 1500cal/day? And yeah, it might depend on other issues. I have vitamin/nutrient absorption issues since I have no large intestine, so my diet has to be different from a normal "healthy" diet (I don't digest vegetables, whole grains, or insoluble fibre very well, etc.).

>>7490809

/cgl/ is far more scrutinizing than my friend. Until I get the makeup really good (still figuring out how to put on foundation and not make it look like shit at a close distance) I'll refrain from self-posting, I don't want to end up as one of 'those' itas / brolitas.

Though to give you an idea of the coord it was:

>British Noble Emblem JSK (IW)
>Round Collar Rose Embroidery Blouse (IW)
>British Noble Emblem Tote Bag (IW)
>Wig SC-540-627 (Cyperous)

Still trying to figure out how to handle the overknees and shoes. Also I have an obvious love for Britain and Westminster, as you may infer.

Polite sage for non-feel.

My appetite has for some reason gone down considerably and taken my weight along with it. I used to weigh a good 55kg which is smack dab in the golden middle of the BMI scale, but recently I got down to 47kg within a few months. Now, I'll go and see a doctor for that but what pisses me off is that none of my clothes fit anymore. Absolutely none. I feel like a mix of a hardcore gopnik and Regina George wearing a tracksuit around the school because they're the only clothes that don't fall off, even with a belt.

>>7490843
Wait a second holy shit
>you can't squat with us!

>>7490807
That sounds too good to be true, but I think I'll try it. I'll try anything to get these last inches off. So it's a pill to be taken with every meal or twice a day with a meal?

>>7490857
taken 5-30 minutes before every meal but not more than 4 times a day.

>>7490861
Where do you get yours from

>>7490807
What do you mean by PT anon?

>>7490868
Commissary, but civilians would have a hard time getting on base to get them for the price i do. Wamart/Walgreens and like stores should have them though

>>7490877
PT: Physical Training

I live across the street from a yuppie daycare center. Tonight they held a party, it was like a frat part with squalling children.

Shortly after I found that somebody had attacked my cat and her tail is injured. I'm going to take her to the emergency vet when they open tomorrow morning. I feel so awful, she's such a sweet animal. I'm so mad, I can't say for a fact that those assholes did it, but surely they did, and I have to pay for it. Bye-bye money.

>>7489930
I have had your same problem for years. I get all the stupid anorexia comments and the poking of my ribs and the telling me to eat more... people just don't get that that's not how it works. I've been gaining weight lately though... I'm 5'7 and my goal is 110lbs. I'm FINALLY up over 100 (barely but still) and really proud of myself. I signed up for weight training at a private gym and am building muscle. You should look into something like that... it's been really helpful, my trainer gives me dietary tips too.

Why do I like agressive and violent men so much?

>>7490883
I am not the anon from able but usually in these waters PT refers to Pixiteri... Even I was confused why the entire army was doing her.

>>7490946
*above

>>7489930
I feel you. I'm 165cm and hover around 42-43kg and if I had a dollar for everytime someone insinuated or outright said I had an eating disorder...

I saw a nutritionist and some helpful tips she gave me include:
1) fat has more calories per gram (9) than carbs or protein (4 each), so eating good fats means you'll get more calories in each bite. Healthy foods with high fat content include nuts, nut butters, whole milk, olive oil, avocado (you can google for more).

2) Try to continually snack throughout the day if you can. I like to keep a bag of trailmix (that I made myself, since I hate raisins and premade ones always have them) in my purse. And you can pack the mix full of fatty nuts!

3) Be sure you're getting enough of all your essential vitamins and minerals. If your body is low in something, it can affect how it reacts to foods because it starts tapping into reserves of whatever you're deficient in and kind of freaks out in general (for me, it starts dejecting gluten - I'm not intolerant normally, but if I haven't been eating healthily enough...without getting graphic, it goes through me before I have time to absorb anything). A multivitamin might be a good idea.

Trying to build muscle is also something to look into, although I personally have difficulty gaining both fat AND muscle (stereotypical ectomorph), but slight gains are possible.

Idk if anyone have feels like this, but here it goes
>be a Lolita for 2 years now
>planned to buy AATP briar rabbit paysage lucky pack last December
>sold 75% of my Lolita wardrobe to make way for the lucky pack
>miss the fucking date and everything is sold out
>everything is scalped on japan auction sites
>lost to auctions 5 times
>be sad as hell
>suddenly BTSSB rereleased their cherry rose lucky pack in pink
>make order form and cross my fingers
>order processed so I pay everything
>tearsofjoy.jpg
>receive set weeks later and am more than happy to own the pack!

Months later (now)
>haven't been in LSE lately due to school
>search LSE page just bc I like to look at sales
>see that someone was selling their AATP briar rabbit paysage in FULL SET
>have high hopes and right when I was about to PM the seller
>mfw it sold already.
>cryalot.jpg

Sigh...at least I'm happy with my BTSSB set...

im gaining a consistent two pounds per week from pushing myself daily while exercising and eating a lot.

>>7490457
Would hold hand and run in the field with/10

>>7489774
don't worry, it doesn't get better once you work or "live". You'll have an even more un-predictable work schedule since once you get out of school (unless it's trade, vocational, medical or engineering) you'll be expected to work for free, below minimum or just barely that (and that's if you had internshits). While working those first jobs you won't be able to do SHIT. You'll work all the time, not very much free time to do anything really and no money to spend. Have fun! Oh yah, you'll get yelled at even more since you're the "lazy, inexpeienced millenial"

>>7490881
You know that question "if there were a car coming straight at a toddler, would you sacrifice yourself to save it?" No. No I wouldn't. Screw kids

>>7489774
>>7491049
>tfw dropped out after one semester of uni to go into a trade

Feels good as fuck to get out of that trap early on

>>7490881
That's very strange. I'm really sorry about your kitty, hope it gets better soon, but I've never heard of drunk yuppies attacking cats, are you sure it wasn't a fox or another pet or something?

>about to graduate
>had a really good time the first 2yrs of college
>got fit, made friends, was learning a lot
>bad shit went down
>utterly depressed for last two years
>no networking, no references
>barely any friends
>slowly getting fat and ugly, again after blossoming after HS
>barely earned my degree

I feel no enthusiasm when I think about walking at graduation, it seems like a ceremony to make me think about being a waste of potential, I will hate it. I want to cry when I think about the course of my life so far and how unlikely it is to get better in the future

>>7491067
what's your degree

>>7491071
biology w ecology specialization?
it's not the employment/money front i'm worried about nothing ever getting better in (it's not that great or anything, but there are a lot of research centers and the like in my area), I'm just depressed and lonely as fuck.

>>7491062
Drunken people walking past animals will all too frequently step on, kick, hit or otherwise lash out at them for a laugh or to impress their mates. Being drunk they don't have very good control of their strength and often use way more force than they would otherwise for a "joking" blow, and the animal can come out of it severely injured, especially from a kick. It's always a good idea to keep your pets indoors or in the back yard at night and away from the general public.

>>7489980
i feelz ya man. you know that bentover chair lift thing they have you do in science class? not one boy could lift it except for me. i have really high child bearing hips and a tiny ass torso. pants just dont look right on me.

>>7489720
Congratulations! I've struggled to lost weight for years then I got the hang out counting calories and calculating my deficit, and now I've lost 27lbs in three months. Good luck sticking with it and looking fantastic for summer! what's your starting weight, if you don't mind me asking?

>>7490881
I am so sorry for your kitty, but really you shouldn't be letting it outside in the first place. Outdoor cats live years and years less than their indoor counterparts, not to mention outdoor cats are an absolute blight upon the environment. I hope after this you make the right decision and keep your kitty inside from now on.

>>7491049
Not that anon but did you experience this yourself or are you trying to be edgy and make me consider dropping out even more?

To add to the thread, everyone is amazed at my art talent and I constantly hear "you should major in art! Do what you like not what makes money!" And I kinda wish I was gifted in physics or something actually useful instead. I just want the aimless days on campus to end.

>>7491140

> "you should major in art! Do what you like not what makes money!"

Oh god I've gotten this one so many times. I enjoy drawing but I draw shitty animu stuff and the art schools here suck balls. I've seen people's art who graduated from art schools here and their art is still shitty even after years of classes. Not to mention all the artists that graduated and now don't have a job or money.

Now for my own feel, I'm at the dilemma of using my money for college so I have to loan as little as possible, or finally try to get into cosplaying etc. Because while I obviously don't want to have that debt at the end of my college years, I feel like if I put everything off just for that I'll miss out and feel old when I finally can get into the cosplay scene.

>>7491140
>"you should major in art! Do what you like not what makes money!"
Sick of hearing this. My family is convinced I'm some sort of art prodigy, but honestly I haven't drawn anything in years, I hate drawing now, started off better off than others but then never improved, and have given up because it isn't something I enjoy. So I opted for nursing for the payout, and am really close to dropping that to major in psychology instead, because at least I actually enjoy that.
>mfw I'm trying to do what I want instead of what makes money and they're still all disappointed because I won't go to an art school

>>7490105
>wanting to be Tohru and not Haruhi
Pfffft

>>7491210
>>7491203
>>7491140

>tfw illustration major
surely I will find a job related to my major!

>>7491140
That anon wasn't being edgy, this is the unfortunate reality facing people when the chose to 'grow up'.

Why do you think so many young adults act like children? Being an adult is hard and not fun.

>inb4 ur on 4chan
>inb4 stop being so edgy you're scaring the children

My family has no middle ground when it comes to assessing my capabilities. It's either 'oh, anon is totally fine doing all this really complicated and stressful stuff by them self' or 'anon, you're so young and experienced, let me handhold you through this really simple task.'

Cases in point:
>anon can totally run the entire household and do all the the cooking, cleaning, and shopping whilst trying to juggle school and work for the next two weeks
>oh anon, you're trying to order takeaway? Let us yell instructions at you whilst you're trying to do it because we're afraid you'll mess up.

Mainly good board related feels:
>finally building a well rounded wardrobe
>getting enough push to sell off pieces that I've had sitting around for ages
>can now make a fair few coords so my stuff is being worn a few times a week
>skin is improving
>feel like my lolita knowledge is at a good enough point that I feel comfortable giving advice when someone asks
>made better connections in my local comm, got invited to chill with some of the girls who are long-time good friends.
>still feel a little alienated from a good chunk of the comm but it's not bothering me as much

I used to be a depressed fat fuck who could only dream of being a cute lolita. Last year I finally decided to stop pitying myself and follow my dreams. I've lost 50lbs since november with keto + DDP yoga. 20-30ish lbs more to go, but I'm happier than I've ever been.

>>7491109
When I first went to my GP I was ~81kg, lost 1.5kg to "show I really wanted to lose weight" and started on orlistat at ~79.5kg.

good luck with yours too! I never got the hang of counting calories so I don't bother.

>>7491254
Nice! Keep at it!
Question though, do you public ally or even just let people you know close in on your weight loss tracking? I hear that can hinder weight loss but I'm liking your huge success.
I'm about 10-20lbs from where I like to be ATM, I'm at a difficult stage now.

>>7489774
What major are you doing grad work in? I go to GT and I'm really surprised by that attitude since everyone here went to grad school because they loved the subject.
>>7491049
Pay internships do exist. Twitter, Zynga, and Microsoft pay their interns. I believe Facebook and Google interns are paid as well but I never managed to get an interview with either of them.

>>7491281
I'm a GT graduate as well. By the end of my grad career there, I wanted to kill myself from being so overworked by my advisor. I loved the subject but just couldn't handle working in the lab 7 days a week at 14 hours a day.

>>7490082
They have, they just didn't itemize it. If I have to buy a new envelope/box, I factor the cost into "shipping."

>>7490204
Being short isn't all bad, anon. I'm 5'1" (and 29, so unlikely to grow any more) and there are advantages. I always have plenty of room on airplanes and buses, I never need to worry about clothing being too short (and hemming is much, much easier than trying to piece more fabric on), and if you have a baby-ish face you can cosplay young characters or wear sweet lolita well into your 20s and 30s.

It's been a month since I started going to the gym 3 times a week. I gained 3-4 kilos (like 9 pounds), but no noticeable gain in muscle definition yet. I wanna look good for the summer T_T

>>7489738
My gf is an alcoholic too.

It fucking sucks.
>vomiting all over the place
>can't go too long without a drink
>always wants to fuck when drunk, and sex with a drunk who reeks of alcohol sucks
>emotional mess

I don't even drink.

>>7491319
Different person. Is she going to try to get help, anon?
My boyfriend very vocally hates my drinking and has been urging me to get help. I haven't gone to AA or anything but I just bought some pills that are supposed to cut off the endorphin rush alcoholics get when they drink. So I'm just waiting for that to come in. It's hard, some days I don't want help at all, just my bottle of wine. Other days I feel really ashamed and wish I could do better and my boyfriend didn't have to put up with me.

>tfw all my wisdom teeth grew in fine and I was really excited not to need them out
>tfw 6 years later all of them are fucked to hell
>horrible throbbing pain all night no sleep
>$1400 to get them out
>insurance won't cover even half of it
>con season just starting up

no cons for me this year, i wish i would have just gotten them out when i was on my parents comfy insurance.

>>7491323
She pretty much denies she has a problem and says it's no big deal.

The only time she considered it was after she punched my face and made me bleed. A week later she forgot it happened.

>>7491327
Jesus

Dump this drunk bitch

>>7491337
You aren't the first person to tell me that.

>>7491338
Then why are you still with her?

>>7491343
I love her. She's my first girlfriend and I've never met a woman who connected with me like she does.

>>7491345
have multiple people told her she has a problem? like there are checklists for if you're an alcoholic or not you can't really make excuses. I always knew I had a problem, sometimes I tell people I don't and I'm very convincing, but I know damn well I have a problem, i'm just trying to maintain my image.

>>7491345
Lost cause. Nothing to see here.

>>7491347
Also threatening to dump her could be a wakeup call, it was for me. do you really want to stay with her if she continues? If once or twice a year she gets violent with you? Even if you say yes, you know deep down she's really hurting herself. She's going to die early if she keeps this up.

>>7491347
Yes, multiple people. I'm pretty sure she knows she has a problem, but for some reason she doesn't want to admit it. Maybe pride or shame.

>>7491350
I really don't know how to answer your questions. I still love her, but I want her to get better.

>>7491356
It could be pride or shame, or it could just be the addiction speaking. Alcohol addiction works in your hindbrain on a very instinctual level. When you're addicted to something, your hindbrain (which can be kind of stupid) is literally convinced you will die if you don't get your substance of choice and will do basically anything to convince your normal, human brain that you NEED this substance at all costs. It makes really stupid arguments but they get going in your normal, human brain, and eventually you're able to rationalize it as a good decision.
It's pretty easy to convince yourself that you don't really have a problem with these two factors working in conjunction. Like I would look at other party goers and be like, how am I different? I'm not jobless, does it really matter if I like drinking once in awhile? I would quit for a month or even a year and that justified that I didn't really have a problem, because look ma, I can quit!
But on a higher level I understood it wasn't normal to need drinks as soon as I woke up or two drink 2 bottles of wine a day. Eventually I decided that the pleasure I got from alcohol outweighed everything else. I'm hoping the drugs I'm getting will fix that though, what I have read is very very positive.

>>7491319
Do you let her have drunk sex with you even though you don't enjoy it?

>>7491362
I hope you get better, anon. I'm gonna continue trying to help her the best way I can.

>>7491368
Most of the time I do. When I deny it she gets really pissed off and it's easier to just let her have her way.

>>7491362
Actually, alcohol is the only thing that can make you die if you don't have your dose. Alcoholics need to have medication and to gradually decrease their alcohol intake or they might die (I thinkg it have something to do about their liver, can't remember exactly what it was though). My uncle was alcoholic.

Anyway, orginal anon should dump her. He is in an abusive relationship, and if she doesn't want to get help their is nothing to do appart from tiping her family about that.
>>7491356
Anon, you are in the typical martyr scheme of abuser's victim. No you can't help her, she has to see a doctor. No it's not ok if she insult you or try to hit you.
I know it's difficult to understand, because it's your first girlfriend, but girls are legion in the wolrd, she is not the only one you will get along with. If she refuse your help, you will have to dump her. Don't let her ruin your life please, even if you love her it isn't worth the hassle, I swear.

>>7491374
actually, it's both alcohol and benzos that can kill from withdrawal. the withdrawal from them works in very similar ways.

>>7491356

Anon, ask yourself the following:

If you really love her, will you want to marry her and start a family?
Will you be okay with her being an alcoholic while educating future children?

You need to consider your future. That's what "making good choices" is all about. It might force you to make difficult decisions, like making her face her addiction and actually forcing her to get better, or abandoning her. I guarantee you that letting her go on this way will do no good, neither for you, your relationship nor your future.

>>7491374
>>7491381
You people are right, I need to be more firm with her. We need to have a very long conversation about all this.

I want to marry her, but not this way. I wouldn't want to raise children with a woman in this situation.

>>7491345
A violent alcoholic woman with rapist tendencies and a virgin weeaboo with low self esteem. A match made in heaven.

This board really attracts bottom of the barrel people.

>>7491140
> I just want the aimless days on campus to end.
I really understand you, anon ! I'm a software dev major. I'm pretty good at what I do and I used to work several freelance jobs on top of my studies but my school forced me to go study abroad. (long story)
Now I'm studying in a country in which I'm not allowed to work at all, and forced to sit in very uninteresting and slow classes with classmates I really don't like.
Three more months and I come back home, and then one more year and I graduate. I can't wait for it to be over. I really love development and computer anything so getting a job and being a "responsible adult" is not going to be a real problem.

>>7491418
what country are you currently in anon?

>>7490301
Wow, this must be bait.
It's not *your* reaction image. You're not a visionary, there will be someone else who decided to screenshot that scene from a very popular anime.

>>7490691
>>7490659
Your teasets are kind of crap.

>>7490563
we weezer now

>>7490881
>keeping cats outside
shame on you anon

This is my weight loss graph from the last three years..When I was loosing consistently and was at my lowest was when we had /fit/ Fridays on CGL.

I miss them. They were a wonderful motivation and I am really struggling without them.
I mean a lot changed since 2012, I got a new job, had some major surgery. But fuck, I have gone back on all my progress and ruined it...I am back to being a fat fuck.

I am trying so hard to get back into it. I want to be 130 again (I'm 5'8" btw). I want to feel that good again.

I have gotten rid of some toxic people in my life who kept bombarding me with "Eat a sandwich" and shit. I do think one of the lowest points for me was when I was in the waiting room for my surgery and my mom decided to bombard me with questions about how much I weigh because "the doctor would need to know"
The doctor has a fucking scale moron. Whatever, I have basically cut ties with her.

I am now comfortable with my new job. I am going to make this work again, one day at a time.

I miss the anon praise so much, I am too awkward and it makes me too anxious to talk about my weight in a place where I have an identity. Even forms with a blank avatar don't work for me like /fit/ Friday did. I tried a lolita weight loss group on facebook, and NOPE.

I love you /cgl/ I wish we could do that again.

>>7491478
awww, anon, don't obsess that you're not "your best". you're just you.

if you feel so strongly about /fit/ friday though you should bring it back!! i could stand to get involved in anon weight loss help, i hate bringing it up with rl friends or anything like that...

>>7491478
I agree with you in the sense that despite there was some obvious terrible thinspo during /fit/ fridays, it really motivated me to see other anons losing weight and working hard.
I miss all the progress charts of anons losing their weight and everything

>>7491483
They are no longer allowed anon...
From the sticky:
>• Discussing accessories such as wigs/circle lenses/prosthetics/makeup (These must be within the context of the board-related topics listed above; weight loss threads should be kept in /fit/, beauty and fashion generals should be kept in /fa/)
I don't know about you but I don't think a /cgl/ weight loss thread would fly on /fit/

>>7490712
oh wow, I am so jealous xD I'm 5'2" and if I ate 2000-2500, I would gain so much. is it just high metabolism or do you exercise a lot?

>>7491490
I really think we need to make an exception. Those threads were really helpful, one a week and the only negativity generated from it was people shouting "OMG go to /fit/! What do bodies have to do with cosplay?!"

Have you ever been to fit? It's an angry jacked shithole. I think it would be great for cgl to have a "safe place" for cosplayers to discuss weight management.

>>7490712
oh wow, I'm so jealous. I'm 5'2" and if I ate 2000-2500, I would gain so much. I love eating though so it's always been a challenge for me to eat in my target range

>>7491496
can it be a sub-part of the feels threads? so the thread is not solely about fitness, but we still have somewhere to report.

>>7491490
well, there's beauty generals and what not here as well. if it was a once a week thread that popped up on fridays (idk i wasn't around when it was) then i can't see the harm.

This is very petty but:

I just cut my long nails short. It always feel weird for a couple of days because I can't scratch myself as well and my fingers look so stumpy.

>>7491496
I agree, but someone made one a few days ago and the thread was deleted shortly after. The mods probably won't notice if you only discuss it inside a different thread though.

>>7491500
I tried that and got shot down within the hour. I even connected it to j-fash and clothes but nope.

>>7490820
no large intestine?? how is that even possible :o can you poop?

>>7491499
>>7491504
I think this is the best idea.
If we carefully hide it in the feels threads on Fridays, we can check in and hopefully the janitor will leave us alone.

>>7491496
I have been to /fit/ anon, never again. I can imagine all the "I would/would not stick my dick in that" ect comments we would get if we ever dared to post progress pictures..

>>7491504
>>7491523
mission: lolimpossible

>>7491347
since she's your first girlfriend, it sounds like you just don't have enough experience with other people to know that you deserve better, and that there are other people who would treat you better. you should break up.

>>7490820
yup, exercising consistently. for a while after that i was eating well but not exercising, then just barely eating at all.

i have crohn's, actually, which is completely unmedicated right now, and i am having huge difficulties finding things to eat. a normal day is 700 ish calories for me, if i'm lucky. thank god i have insurance now.

I will see you Friday anons

>>7490712

Some people do have higher metabolisms than other. Often though this is limited to your twenties and early thirties, after which you'll basically explode in terms of mass if you've built all the wrong habits.

>>7491507
I had ulcerative colitis for a few years and was really sick. Medication wasn't really working anymore, and the only cure was removing the one area affected by it, my large intestine. (tl;dr it was being a dick so I evicted it from my body.) I had an ileostomy bag for a while, but there's a procedure called a "J-pouch" that turns your small intestine into a reservoir and connects it to your other end. So yeah, I can poop; I just have to go more often than a normal person.
>>7491528
IBD friend, high-five. What areas of your digestive tract are affected by your Chron's?

>>7491567
oh fuck I have colitis oh fuck
I wanna keep my pooping gear intact, how can I treat this?

>>7491573
Colitis or ulcerative colitis?

I just had a bad run of things, so surgery isn't always endgame. I was never fully in remission and even Prednisone wasn't working towards the end. The final straw was catching C. Difficile, missing three weeks of full-time work and getting hospitalized in quarantine for three days. I went through my three surgeries in a year and a half and got my life back. I was sick of getting trapped in bathrooms paralyzed with pain for hours.

>>7491567
wow anon, glad you turned out ok!

>>7490879
Gonna buy these today, thanks anon!

I want to eat my feelings so badly today. I know I shouldn't, though. I caved last night and ate a McDonald's sundae, and went over my calorie limit by 300. I want brownies, and chocolate, and everything that is sweet and filled with carbs!! But I'm going to try my best to not cave in. My cheat for today is a light blended starbucks drink, and that's it!

God I wish these cravings would go away! They've been relentless lately.

>>7491612
This may be relevant to your interests.

>>7491616
Thank you! I do need this!

>>7491616
Thissss
I've gone so far just recognizing my cravings for what they are. It's not really covered in the chart but a lot of the time when you crave soda, milk, or another beverage, what you really need it water. 0 calories, free, and takes care of the craving most of the time.

>>7491524
This so much. My first boyfriend I kept clinging to because he was my first and I thought no one could be better than him even though he was abusing and manipulating me the entire time.
You deserve better.

>>7490754
I made an account, made a tenso account, yet I'm scared shitless to order something because I don't know if I've entered the info correctly.

>>7490807
>>7490857
>>7490861
>>7490879
does this actually work? can someone tell me what exactly it does? i don't care for weight as it's literally just a number, size for me is a bigger issue and I want to get my measurements lower. I want to be smaller.

Seagulls, in terms of dietary advice just read the sticky on /fit/. It's really solid. What you wanna do is establish a solid diet, then you won't experience cravings for overly sugary/fatty/salty foods.

>>7491698
we're not talking about that numbnuts

>>7491496
This. If we can have a Skincare/Beauty General then why not weight loss? A bunch of girls/guys who want to look kawaii in school uniforms aren't going to find a place on /fit/ The guys who want to get ripped for Gamagoori or whatever can go ahead.

>>7491698

Nooo, I want my magic bullet Acai pill xD
I dun want to exercise~!
Might get bulky and start eating tree bark for dinner.

>"SHUWEET RORITA IS AGUPRAYU!!!!11"
says the corpse fuckers and grandma fetishists

>TFW very slim, small chest
>Always boob magicked as a teenager
>Have maybe 25 pushup bras
>hundreds of dollars of bras
>Never wear any of them
>love how cute I look with my tiny loli body
>feel like I wasted all that money on stupid bras
>friends always tease me for not hving tits

But jfash looks so much better on a flat chest 9/10 times

But I look so much cuter

But why do the have to make fun of me? ;-;

>>7491567
high five! hope you're doing okay. they found inflammation in my ileum, the usual, but all my pain is on the left side around my hip, I think that's where it's the worst but I haven't gotten the pill cam to try to pin it down yet. Maybe next month.

>>7491864
stay adorbs, anon! just know that you'll never win. i was teased non-stop for how big my tits are and all i wish is that i had a tiny loli body for jfash.

Been depressed lately. Haven't had the time to work on my cosplays and I don't seem to be losing any weight despite working out and eating right. Boyfriend is encouraging, but he's part of the reason for my depression. I love him but his finances are absolute shit. At this point I'm not sure if I really love him or I'm just with him because he's my first boyfriend and I'm worried of being alone.

It doesn't help that he insists on getting a hotel just the two of us for upcoming cons instead of roomsharing. Goodbye money.

>>7491879
I'll appreciate your big tits ma'm, if that's what it takes.

>>7491698
It's more about being able to discuss exercise and nutrition with people who have common goals. Most people who want to lose weight on this board do not have the same goals as fitizens.

>>7491864
Dude, just remember, you're hella cute and they don't. They can suck it.

>Tfw you discovered someone you idolized for being awesome and genuine and making amazing clothes by hand is actually just as much of an insecure, manipulative liar as nearly every other girl who gains popularity promoting herself on the internet.

Damnit, Kato.

>>7491923
>trusting anyone these days
Everything's a lie.

>>7491864
>people who complain about this
Seriously . Stop
You'll never sag or worry about back pain issues. It's much much easier to exercise. And you can wear cute logo shirts without feeling self conscious. I am getting surgery next year because I can't take my huge boobs anymore. It's an honor to have small chest. You're super cute. And remember, large Breasts do NOT make a woman. Her chromosomes do. Don't waste your money on what the media wants you to look like. You have a good deal.

>>7491937
How about you start doing deadlifts instead pussy.

>>7491583
I'm guessing the c. diff pushed everything over the edge. Even non-UC/IBD patients who get c.diff colitis can end up with pancolectomies.

>>7491923
Dude she's batshit. Are you really surprised?

>>7491941
How about you kindly mind your business and I do what I want with my money? I already exercise and it's not helping. I feel like you're that same anon who replies everyone someone mentions getting a reduction . Go somewhere else with your unnecessary opinion

>>7489699
>tfw lost the detatchable bow on a jsk
>tfw have no idea where it went
>tfw about to fucking have a complete mental breakdown because of it

>>7492076
It's ok anon. As long as it's in your bedroom, you'll find it. Just don't stress too much.

>>7491937
>>7492010
>tells flat girl to shut up about being flat
>bitches about having huge udders
>doesn't want other people to tell her about her own chest

ahahahaha hypocritical cunt.

Just like ou wish you had smaller boobs, some girls wish they had bigger ones. It's the same feeling.

>>7492086
This. I've lost count of the times I went looking for something and it ended up turning up in some odd area(It's worse when it's something like your car keys) Worse when you live with somebody so sometimes they move things without thinking. Most stuff usually turns up on it's own of if you take your time looking for it. at least it's a good excuse to clean.

>>7492137
I usually clean my room to find lost trinkets from forever ago

>>7492108
Are you ok? No one said anything hypocritical here.

for whatever reason I get so much anxiety over things I should be excited about. I feel so ANXIOUS and prehaps I internally have some built up tiny worries that have developed into a bit of a clump in my basket of exctiement but STILL. I have an upcoming con and I seriously believe it'll be the best days of me and our friend's lives but I can't shake the feeling of anxiety. Prehaps it's because I want to be desired and thought of as perfect with my partner in our punk sailor moon cosplays. I'm not thin, i'm very curvy. I have huge hips and thighs and i'm wearing leather leggings. I don't want to look so BIG next to her (she's tiny as fuck like 90 lbs) and i'm just chubby (I embrace this normally as I have no problems with self esteem and feel beautiful in my own skin NORMALLY). I just want to drop the anxiety and maybe lose a few lbs before the con but May 15th is RIGHT THERE and it's simply impossible to make any noticeable changes to my body right now...atleast i'm wearing a corset... ;///;

>>7491937
>Her chromosomes do
I'll never know the feel of being a genetic woman ;-;
fml.

>>7490356

/r9k/

>>7491140
>implying physics is useful

my partner is majoring in physics and unless he pulls an A average no one will look at him for grad school or employment
just go to business school like everyone else that wants a secure job

>>7492188
someone who told someone else to stop complaining about their chest the went on to complain about their own chest. 0/10 reading comp

>>7492295

I saw the anon use "her chromosomes do" and I knew it would hurt someone here
i'm sorry, anon, you're a real lady too!

>>7492295
As if the only way you can prove your gender is with your full genome map? Roll my eyes at these internet "social biologists". don't get bummed! at least you get to be pretty without fucking endo.

>>7490368
Hmm, you may have a cervical ectropian which can happen from being on the pill? I have one which causes me to bleed (breakthrough bleeding though, not full on period) on and off all the time. So I'm always bleeding after sex, or if I am very stressed, or god knows why. I'm considering getting my cervix cauterised and seeing if that solves my stupid vagina issues.

>>7492295
It's okay, anon.

You can still be beautiful and kawaii <3

Gender don't mean no thang anyway. It's just parts.

>>7492498
Gender does, sex doesn't

My prop broke... It's like 4 days before the con since we're going on day zero.

Fucking depressed. But at the same time it was my first prop and I was optimistic I wasn't going to fail. Too bad I was wrong with that.

There's a girl in my lolita comm that I'm very infatuated with. I went to my first meet a while ago and I left with good impression of everyone, especially her since she was very sweet and cute. Thought it was just giddy moment of babby's first lolita meet, but every time she comments on a post or something on fb, I just get butterflies.
And I know she's probably nice to just about everyone because she's a generally sweet person, and it's not like I haven't gotten compliments from equally pretty/cute girls, but for some reason her compliments make me incredibly happy.
It's just feels weird to me though because rarely ever crush on people I've barely met, much less girls. I mean, it's not like I'm deterred to idea of liking another girl, but I always thought I was more straight.
>mfw when my chances with her are probably slim to none

>>7491440
In Asia. I only have a student visa, no working hours allowed at all. If I still try to find a job with it they can kick me out of the country and that means failing my master's.

>>7489929
>You don't even know how tall they are, or how much they work out, don't give out shitty advice like that.
I'm not the anon you replied to but I'm 5'7", and the general recommended weight loss calorie intake I've been given by countless people is 1,300 for 3x a week light exercise (Light being cleaning stalls, moving 40 pound hay bales for an hour 3 times per week.)

I've dropped 10 pounds in 1 and a half months. I'm 115 pounds now. To maintain my weight I eat around 1,800.

If you want REAL weightloss, honestly, you might as well just go big. It's easy to go over your set calorie intake -- NOT as easy to go under. And it's much more difficult to burn calories than to eat them.

>>7492010
>I already exercise and it's not helping
Stop using the handjob weight and the crosstrainer then.

I have $1000.00
Always wanted to trap, not crossdress. I want to actually look convincing. Decided that a con is a perfect excuse.

However I live with my parents. AX is in July.
>Want to go in genuine maid uniform that isn't revealing
>Want to avoid making friends look awkward
>Want to have an awesome time
I might not do cons for a while after this because school/work, so I really wanna hit it hard this July

I decided that 2014 is the year to do stuff. I'm already off to a good start but there's so much I want to do. I'm getting older and I don't want to live with regrets: stuff I wished I did when I was younger.

I also desperately want a girlfriend, I want to make new friends, surround myself with people who help push me further into my goals.

So yeah, I wanna make it all happen, but this doesn't come without resistance.

>What if I get found out by lol parents
>Isn't there a stigma for this kind of shit
>I sure hope my friends aren't assholes to me about it
>I don't wanna get harassed!

But most importantly, can I even pull this off?
>tfw 5"5, 127 lb, and 28" waist. I also have long hair but it won't be long until my work tells me to cut it ;-;

My dream skirt went up sale and I lost the auction by five bucks. This feel, anons. When will the pain go away?