/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

This really makes me wanna brainstorm some sort of weekly lolita web meet where we hook up web cams and just enjoy each others company in frills.

I'm also a lone lolita but because of proximity. Sorry to hear you going through that though OP!

>>7348665
That's would be great, but it can be difficult because of the time zone (I'm in Europe and would love to try it too)

>bored cause most friends are away for college while I'm local
>spend so much time on 4chan
>cousin sends me a text ending with "xD"
>think he's mad at me and ask him while

Realized moments later he wasn't mad and that I spend so much time on here I thought he was ironic shitposting irl. I have been looking for a job I hoppe this doesn't impact me anyway. Socializing I mean.

>tfw gained 20 lbs since last year
And it's not that I don't know how to lose weight. I've lost a shit ton of weight before. I just can't mentally stick to a diet/workout routine anymore.

>>7348665
Oh that would be great anon, I'd definitly do it ! And thanks, I'm used to it but being stuck at home all by myself sometimes get on my nerves

>>7348686
I'm sure you have tried many things before, but have you considered slowly changing your eating habits instead of dieting? Investing more in fruits and veggies, avoiding sugar, carbonated drinks, etc? That has always helped me not putting weight.

>>7348670
Host 2 a day of course! Or maybe if the platform allows it , be open 24 hrs and we all just meet with whoever
I'm in the AU with web friends all over the planet so I understand.

I'm gonna research some webcam platforms. I'll probably make a thread about it once I get some way into this.

So after the previous thread, how many of you sent your shit in for analysis? Come on, fess up.

>>7348722
????

>>7348723
she was probably referring to the story of the op of that thread. She is a chronic nail biter who got pinworms from biting her nails, and the whole family had to get dewormed because of her so her mom got pissed and threw her loli away.
Reasonably so, because pinworms are extremely contagious, get on everything and are a bitch and a half to get rid of.

Then a bunch of anons started freaking out about having pinworms themselves.

>>7348722
I-I did, actually...

>>7348723
OP of the last thread got pinworms from biting her nails.

I just finished the first semester of University, and I feel awkward.

I still did.not fully umderstand how Uni works. I still do not really know what to expect for next Semester. I do not regret my choice of subjects, but I wonder if I can really do.it. I still havent learned HOW to study. I did not make any friends. I just feel like everything is rushing by and I cannot find a hold. Notging touches me realkyn It feels as I am watching the life if someone else.

. I imagined to wear Lolita more often but all my friends moved away and I barely see them anymore.
I havent found any new friends and apent most of the time alone; in the other hand people around me annoy me and I feel afraaidto be bothering them.

I dont know what to feel anymore. ...

Skinnfyfat working out for cosplay update from a previous feels thread.

>can now do an hour of workouts
>40 minutes on elliptical, fuck yeah
>boyfriend also getting more muscular
>my armpit fat disappearing
>legs thinner now
>stomach flatter
>butt bubblier
>on a diet of no large cookies or sweets
>tfw things I do for cosplay
>tfw first world problem

>>7348658
Why don't you just talk to the organizer of the event, say that you have some pain issues and you're a bit worried about walking, might have to stop and rest every so often, don't want to inconvenience the group, etc?

>>7348777
It's at con, with a very large group. The con is small, their is no resting place easily available, plus I'm not that active in the comm so apart from a few acquaintances nobody knows me, they wouldn't bother.
I'm thinking of ditching the meet. I may go to the con last minute and stick with them for a bit if we cross on the path.

>>7348777
Oh you know how lolita comm members and disability/injured people go when they ask for simple rights....

How do I get over a broken heart, cgl?

>be me
>read last thread with pinworm infestdd OP
>"poor soul, glad I am alright"

>One day later
>Mom comes home with sister from doctors appointment
>"Anon, your sister has lice!"
>mfw I have lices too
>mf

Not as disgusting as pinworms, but still...

A couple of years ago, my body changed. I always had healthy eating habits, but I went on a diet nonenthless. I only got fatter with the diet, got really bloated and was always hungry. I tried going to the gym so I would be fit. After 5 minutes of running, I already felt like fainting, very weak and tired. I'm apparently healthy, but I can't handle exercise, even walking large distances makes me tired. And I walk large distances every day.

In summary: I got fat, am only getting more fat, I'm afraid of cosplaying and being posted here and being called fat. I'm 66kg at 1,68m, which everyone around me says it's ok, but it's not ok for /cgl/s standards.

>>7348798
You shouldn't run at first. My SO is buff but really only walks on the treadmill. Getting tired at the five minute mark is normal too, what keeps people going is being stubborn and their drive. Go try again, shoot for 20 minutes (the minimum for burn.) You can also try pic related to put less stress on your knees/ankles/feet!

>>7348792
Find another cutie to think about

>>7348798
>caring about cgls standards
care about yourself ning nong

>>7348665
Try joining the /cgl/ G+ group or make a Lolita one? Then you can do hangouts and people can join as they please or set up a time to meet.

>>7348798
What sort of diet did you go on to have that happen to you?
>mfw people recommend 'juice cleanses' and other pseudoscientific shit on this board

>>7348665
I have always wanted to start one of those! Too bad the ladies in my comm aren't very interested.

You should totally do it! I would join in a heartbeat

>>7348806

Jesus Christ, this is almost a troll post. Your SO can't run for more than 5 minutes? He may be buff but that's no better than a fat neckbeard. Don't accept 'it kills gains'; eating incorrectly and too little kills gains.

Also 'the burn' doesn't start aftet a magic20 minutes; you burn ccalories by doing stuff. A 20 minute run is at least 150 calories if you have any sort of speed.

Fuck, >>7348798, google 'couch to 5k'. Start running, eat properly, read the /fit/ sticky. You're welcome.

Oh, and it's called a cross-trainer you idiot.

>>7348755

Same situation here

I found joining some clubs helps

>>7348665
>>7348665
>>7348670
why not make a skype group?

I always embarrass myself or accidentally piss off or annoy people I talk to. Am I just that much of a jackass?

>tfw ordered a bodyline LP for shits and giggles
>tfw filed a dispute because I "didn't receive contents" listed on the packs, even though I knew damn well it wasn't set in stone
>tfw I'm going to sell all my dresses on LSE and make a profit while also getting my money back
>tfw something I can use for my cosplay was in the pack

feels good, sis.

>>7348882
I'm thinking Tinychat first, since you dont need to download anything and you dont have to add contacts you'll be awkward about having. If that doesn't turn out I'll go with Skype.

As said I'll make a thread about it in the morning but I'm testing out TC now and by the looks of it it may work!

>>7348813
I didnt know CGL had a G+, so you can do webcam chats with that?
I may consider this as a 3rd option as I think those things are like Facebook basically, and not everyone wants to have that plus their recent Youtube video arguments put up there you know? Just lolitas meeting up as lolitas?

>>7348879
Seconding, join some clubs.
Any time you're not in a club, study. You'll make friends eventually if you join lots of clubs, so you should smarten up now so you can socialise later.

Also, most unis have a counsellor and they won't be a stranger to what you're going through.

>>7348892
Probably just need to work on your social skills anon.

My best friend is really super nice but is unintentionally awkward/annoying/weirds out my other friends and people she meets. Shes got a personality disorder though but even without it I think she's just one of those misfits. She could learn it out a bit though, and I know you can too, but don't hurt yourself on it ok?

>cosplay characters i really like at the time
>this ends up being a phase and i lose all excitement for series/character
>this goes on after every time i go to a con i cosplay

>>7348893
>nationality not related

>>7348897
On G+ you can sort things into 'circles'.
Aka, a lolita-online circle so the rest of your friends don't see it.

>>7348908
Oh, then that's actually really good.. I'll give this a ganger further and maybe leave it up to a poll? Skype vs Tinychat vs G+?

>accidentally attached and image and i cant get rid of it without refreshing the page so just have this

>>7348901
Yeah... I've tried to befriend people through cosplay in the past year or so, and out of the dozens of people I've met, I've managed to creep out or piss off at least 80% of them. I really don't mean to... but, thank you for the words of encouragement, anon.

>>7348897
You can have circles on G+ where only other lolita can see your posts if you want. Google hangouts run a lot smoother than tiny chat in my opinion too.
Here is the /cgl/ group:
https://plus.google.com/u/0/communities/105862296825299525510

tfw no qt 3.14 /fit/ bf

That feeling when no cutie pie cosplay girlfriend.

Any time I get even slightly motivated about ANYTHING, be it cosplay or otherwise, somehow, I'm compelled to shoot that motivation back down. Is there something wrong with me? Is it like, the very thought of doing something progressive (that is, something that isn't me lazing around all day and doing nothing) is somehow repulsive?

Like, the other day I was thinking to myself, "okay, I need to get these cosplay pieces and order this wig, I'm gonna do this", but then I became apprehensive about it. Am I just allergic to progress?

>>7348929
I know this feel so hard. It's like I get anxious when I try to take any amount of control over my own life, and get super pessimistic about anything productive.

>>7348914
I'm glad you're attempting to make friendships via a hobby, that's what I've been trying to get my friend into doing (she collects 80s MLP toys to an insane level which probablu accounts for a lot of her friend making problems since she has nothing else she can talk about except them and so she gets desperate and starts talking awkward "randumb!!" because thats all shes got in her life).

Maybe you don't do weird and awkward things that morphs you socially inept like collecting old plastic horses, but perhaps you're just not currently around like-minded people. Like I'd die being the awkward odd one out as a librarian, because I'm just not the type of personality who compliments them (go there fortnightly for 2 years but have never had an unawkward conversation with any of them yet) yet at my restaurant where I work its so much easier.

Or you may not have been pissing them off and you're kinda low confidenced? I used to think that a lot once I left school for the workforce and had to work more closer with people.

>>7348921
>>7348922
Hook up

>>7348916
Thanks for that!

>join cosplay group on facebook
>girl complains she can't cosplay as characters who don't wear long sleeve because her arm is full of scars from cutting herself
>group turns into a carebear hug box
>go to her facebook page
>recently uploaded pics
>no scars at all
>call her out for being an attention whore
>she retorts that I'm a stalker for going through her pictures
>she manages to turn the whole group against me
>leave group
>she messages me that if she ever sees me at a con she's going to get her boyfriend to kick my ass
>mfw I have no face

>>7348942
Group wasnt worth it.

Also some bitches just hate being caught that much.

i see this complaint all the time but i just dont get it

>>7348942
Wow, screw those guys.
Glad you left the group, they sound like a bunch of idiots.

>>7348930
Apparently, my problem with people is that I end up making people feel uncomfortable even when I'm not aware of it. And then when I do realize and try to apologize, I'm given no quarter.

>>7348869
I think you need a visit to the ER.

>>7348979
My problem is that I'm just painfully boring.

>>7348956
I never understand people just calling it "chronic pain."

I mean, I have chronic pain. I have tendinitis and chronic migraines, but they're both very different problems with very different solutions.

>tfw too ugly to ever be a brolita
I-I just want to feel like a pretty grill ;_;

>>7348994
Yeah, pretty much this. It's always something different for different people, but they don't seem to understand that their bodies work in different ways from person to person so they lump it all together.

>>7348994
>>7349006
Sometimes these things are difficult to diagnose and usually get chalked down to fibromyalgia.

>>7348855
No complex carbs after 5 pm. I had stomach pain due to hunger and nightmares every night because I had not enough sugar. I ate so much veggies that I guess they fermented in my intestines and gave me a huge bloat.

>>7348869
I read the sticky and I have been eating healthy for all my life (my mother has been on diets since I was born, we eat what she eats and it kind of stuck forever)

Running makes me suffer, I don't want to do it. I went to the gym three times a week and always left swollen, tired, angry, and crying. /fit/ told me I would start to enjoy it, but after one year and a half I only hated it more.

>>7348764
you know anon, I should do this too
I'm tired of being a skinnyfat

>>7348879
>>7348755
Having been and done the whole university lark, I can honestly recommend joining some clubs. Look up some groups based on your interests, or even something you want to learn and pop along to one of their events.
At my uni, most clubs had regular events and then some extra meets from time to time so you can work out a social/study schedule.

As for studying, it's best if you find a way that works best for you. Not everyone finds reading books/notes useful. One of my house mates would cover her walls in huge colourful posters with mindmaps of the things she needed to study on.

Hang in there, anon!

>>7348686
go running three times a week then work out your tdee and minus 500 kcals from it. that's like 1,800 kcals a day for me (usually i stay way under). if u can't stop urself eating over 1,800 kcals a day then there is no hope

Excited for Katsucon
Excited to do Banjo Kazooie
Excited to do photoshoot with SO
Excited to meet people and take ALLLL the photos (and I always upload after cons)
Not excited to finish work on costumes
Not excited if paycheck will get here on time (direct deposites annoying but...ugh...ill do it eventually)

>>7348792
Buy a lot of brand. Think how amazingly kawaii you'll be and that this fucker will never see it.

>fucking love chiffon blouses
>tfw cold as fuck and can't wear lolita without freezing/covering up with a jacket

goddamn it i just wanna be kawaii 365 days of the year.

>>7348942

Damn, you reminded me of that group I joined

>browsing a cosplay forum
>see topic about a cosplay group in my area
>why not ?
>join the FB group, post a small presentation message
>get a notification, people have answered
>first message "Welcome *__* "
>well they seem ni-
>see second message
>"RAAAAPE"
>wtf
>the whole thing soon fills up with variants on "rape !" and "drugs !"
>realize I just joined a group full of immature high school students
>try to make the most of it
>maybe they're good cosplayers !
>see new message "Just ordered my cosplay on milanoo ! I hope it gets here soon !"
>whyyyyyy
>time passes, stay on the group to see the retardedness going on
>local con is soon, they decide to make a huge pokemon gijinka group
>working on my own cosplay because there's no way in hell I would join them
>inscription for the cosplay contest open
>cosplay from fanarts are forbidden
>laughing my ass off as they panic and try to negociate with the staff
>mfw I'm in and their attempt will probably fail

>>7349183
>tfw want to wear lolita/jfashion
>tfw have the self confidence of a can of dead worms
>tfw i will never be as kawaii as everyone else on here

>>7349315
shit didn't mean to quote

>>7349315
You can do it anon!

>>7348792

Give it time. To quote Sex and the city: You need half the time of how long your relationship lasted to get over it.

Also do what >>7349102 suggested. I can confirm that this strategy helped me a lot - yes, I mostly dress for myself, blablabla, but deep down I get a huge satisfaction from feeling cute and thinking "Ha, he does not even no how awesome I look. I am so cute and I will never be his again. See you in hell motherfucker"
Boosts your confidence, and spending time with and for yourself whith grooming, laying out an outfit, etc will usually make you feel great.

This will of course not solve all your problems, but will make you feel a lot better. Trust me, I have been there, I feel you.

>>7348869
>the burn
It's an expression.Would you rather her do 10 minutes or 20 minutes?

>5 minutes
He can walk/jog 45. I only said he walks. Where did I say he stops after 5?

>>7349315

We all started somewehre, Anon!
No one has perfet confidence from the beginning, and even if you have been into Lolita/jfash for a while you still get dubts from time to time. Its a battle fought everyday anew.

Try to build up your confidence slowly; you can do it. You will have bad days, but you will have good days too, more and more.

>Tfw new girl joins comm, has a lot of potential, comes to first meetup in a simple sweet co-ord
>Asks questions, takes con-crit well.
>Starts to develop own style
>Three months down the line she's befriended the local ita rangers and starts wearing lace monsters, can't take criticism.
>You had such potential, why?

>>7348686
Stop dieting and actually change your eating habits into something more healthier, become more active in your life. Go to the park and walk every weekend or something.

>>7349038
>Running makes me suffer, I don't want to do it.
Don't start with running! Dear god.

Start with interval jog + walk. NOT running. LIGHT jog and walking. Pace yourself and don't push yourself too far. And lots of stretches before and after.

Sounds like since you were pushing yourself too far, your body never got the time to recover. It's impressive that you kept up with the suffering for a year and a half.

Other things you can do: swimming, stationary bikes, tennis, yoga.

>Pretty severe emetophobia
>Over thinking makes me nauseous
>This makes it so I can't eat
>Lost 60 pounds because of it
>Find out my brother has a pretty severe case of the stomach flu today
>oh christ
>He's coming over tomorrow to take me food shopping, only have enough money to afford a couple meals
>Get so nervous that I've been shaking and making myself feel sick for the past 3 hours
>Stomach is pulsating from being so nervous
>Keep reminding myself that I'm not even sick and that I need to eat or I'll feel worse
>It's not working
>Been sobbing out of fear since I heard I may get it
>Don't even have enough money to buy disinfectant or soap
>Only have dish soap on hand
>The idea of throwing up feels like the end of the world
>Last year I went through a period of not eating more than a few bites of strawberries, or a couple bites of dinner for 4 months
>Worst time of my life
>Missed my first convention because of it
>Scared it's going to happen again

>>7349609
>Find out my brother has a pretty severe case of the stomach flu today
>He's coming over tomorrow to take me food shopping
Ask him not to, for someone else to, or for him to just deliver food. You don't even have to bring up your phobia
Tell him you don't want to get his severe sickness. Getting sick sucks and you want to avoid it.

>>7349038
>No complex carbs after 5 pm.

That's stupid. Work out how much your maintenance calories are - you can do so here http://www.freedieting.com/tools/calorie_calculator.htm, and then subtract 500 from that number and you'll lose a pound a week.

>>7349609
Most cases of "the stomach flu" are actually food poisoning and therefore not contagious.
But if it's stressing you out this much, then I think you should reschedule.

>>7349630
>tfw manlet and my maintenance calories is 1700
500 calories a meal is suffering

>>7349546
Oh man. When the weather clears up, I should go to the park and try this out. Pack and apple and some water with me. Thanks anon.

>>7349627
Everyone in my family knows of my phobia and how bad it is. He doesn't believe it and thinks I'm just lying to be lazy when I feel genuinely nauseous. I rarely leave my home due my social anxiety, none of my other siblings have a car and I have literally 0 friends. The closest supermarket is an hour walk and we're having a snow storm tomorrow. I have no other food in my house except one apple, which I'm trying to eat now, a single piece of tuscan bread and a rice krispy treat. Grocery stores don't deliver here ( I live pretty much in the middle of nowhere in Maine ) It's like fate wants me to get sick.

>>7349632
As mentioned above I don't have enough food. He was suppose to come today, but I told him to go home and rest. He did get stomach flu and confirmed it. His boyfriend got the stomach flu and passed it on to him.

>>7349632
I hate know-it-alls like this.

>tfw bruises all over my legs
>tfw light bruises on face (but i covered them with foundation)
>tfw hurts to walk
>tfw i still love him

to the anons from 2 threads ago who tried to help, i'm so sorry.
i promise i'll work hard and make sure i leave him within half a year.

>>7349670
There's a difference between love and stockholm syndrome, the sooner you start planning the better

>>7349670
Oh God, this is awful. Please leave him. I don't know your story, I didn't catch it, but please leave him. My father beat my mom for almost 30 years, it got so bad that we believe he's tried to get her killed, he's also tried to poison her. After she got out of her coma, he used to beat her because she couldn't talk much and scream for him to stop. Mom was too scared of what would happen to her kid if she left him, since she's disabled, very ill and can't get a job. It wasn't worth the abuse we all had to endure. My first family memory was my dad choking my mom out in a car and him telling me mommy was just feeling a little sick and to stop crying. The only reason all the abuse stopped was because my neighbor heard my mom screaming at 4 in the morning, called the police and he got arrested.

You don't deserve to be hurt, no matter what you think. Please don't let this man hurt you any more. I don't want anyone to go through what my mom had to go through.

>>7349695
Wasted effort.

>>7349670
babby, where ever you are, come live with me, i will send you money, you need help.

>>7349670
>half a year
And he's beating you all over? Gurl you might not live half a year. I didn't read the last thread but you should be getting out of there ASAP.

>>7349670
Do you have any friends or family you can stay with? If he's not monitoring your internet access can you look for domestic abuse charities or find details of your local shelter?

>>7349675
>>7349695
>>7349710
Thank you for the concern.
My plan is to finish this semester and then transfer to a different university.
I won't finish until the end of May though, but with the help of some anons from a few threads ago, I've already started thinking about what I would say & do.

>>7349705
>>7349713
I live with my parents still, so I'm mostly safe and I at least have a safe place to stay.

To stay on topic, we're doing a couple cosplay at Toronto Comicon in March and I still haven't started making it.

>>7349743
I feel really bad for you. I hate to think what might be wrong with your view of him or yourself right now, I've been there, and it's scary, it's not a good thing.

>>7348795
>lice
Oh god, I'm so sorry anon. That's awful - I hope you get rid of them!

I had bedbugs and I'm pretty sure it's caused me mild psychological scarring. I get a small itch on my leg and suddenly I'm like "they're back! holy fuck they're back!" and I freak out and shower and throw all my clothes in the dryer.

Anyway, probably suck too

>>7348658
What about hosting a meet-up at your place? Like a crafternoon, or a swap?

>>7349743
Tell your parents, student services, anyone.

>tfw you know really attractive qt3.14 cosplayers
>tfw you're too spaghetti to talk to any of them

>>7349364
>>7349102
I'm not a lolita though. What do?

>tfw I can't stop spending money
>tfw I can only find nice stuff shipping from other countries so I have to deal with long waits and huge custom fees
>tfw enchanted coming up in a few months and I have no good coords

>>7349647
for the future, getting groceries from amazon is super easy. and you can set up recurring shipments of X amount every X days/weeks/months.

have you gotten professional help for your phobia? even if there isn't one nearby, you might be able to do online sessions with a good doctor based in MA, for example.

>>7349782
Buy lots of really nice underwear (comfortable as well as cute).

>>7349743
It's great you're thinking about your future, and have a safe place to stay. Before you say anything to him though, have your shit all together first. Knowing you have a real and solid path ahead of you will make it so much easier.

1) Have someone who knows your situation- whether it be someone you know well personally, or a crisis center counselor.

2) Have your applications to schools filled out, or reference letter requests submitted, or at least have a clear plan laid out with an academic counselor; make your transfer "real" and serious

>>7349183
Lolita coat

>>7349743
Hey anon, if you're in the Toronto area, I'm a local cosplayer who would be willing to offer support as a friend. Throwaway email in the email field.

> tfw you want to gain weight to fit your lolita better and not get sick/ feel like shit
> twf can't gain weight even when eating healthy and exercising
I know I'm not really large and it makes me cry that I'm stuck but I feel like I'll die if I don't gain

>>7348755
I know your feels, Anon.
I've heard a lot about clubs helping, as the other Anons have suggested, but I have to commute an hour away so staying late is really unfavorable. Plus this semester, I have class from 8 to 4 two days a week, and like hell I want to drive all the way down there on any other day for some club thing.

If you happen to be in my boat, you end up depending on conventions, online communities, etc. for friends. It's no where near as easy as joining an organization, but you just have to make do with your time, sometimes.

Also don't pack your schedule with back-to-back classes, it was the worst idea I've ever had. Split it up and give yourself at least one break mid-day.

First semester is pretty much always rough because you're transitioning from lax high school to busy college. You'll make it through, there's a lot of resources to help you, just never be afraid to ask.

>>7349546
Man, I remember wanting to try running and just... stupidly starting until I couldn't run anymore. It wasn't fun.
These schedules are so much nicer. I'm still slow as butt, I probably took twice as long as that schedule to build up 30 minutes. But at least I can manage that now.
With the way I was training before, I thought I'd never even last five minutes.

Running can be good for you, but it's quite a heavy sport. If you start about it in a wrong way, it can do more harm than good, really.

>tfw never have fun at cons anymore besides the raves
>tfw anybody I bring tends to never be into it, or cosplaying in general
>tfw every con I've went to, there's been group conflicts with friends I brought or people bail days prior to con
>tfw nobody ever wants to spend more than like $20, let alone work on their costumes if they go

>>7350012
>>tfw nobody ever wants to spend more than like $20, let alone work on their costumes if they go

UGH, so much this!

It's even more ridiculous when you're at a large con like AX and no one has more than $20 to spend... FOR 4 DAYS.

>planning for AX'12
>cosplay group/club at college decides to go together
>i'm put in charge of finances
>manage to get a room at the Marriott
>buy everyone their 4day pass
>buy everyone their train tickets
>day before, get stuff together
>remind everyone to bring their own extra cash to spend on things
>take train
>get to hotel
>put on cosplay
>pick up badges
>awesome day 1
>it gets late
>we go splurge on nice food
>back to hotel
>day 2
>we hit the vendors hall
>i notice i'm the only one buying things
>"are none of you finding anything you like?"
>"oh, I only brought like $20 and I already spent most of it yesterday on food. I have to make it last LOL, we're all not as rich as you hahahahhaha"
>i freeze.
>pretty much everyone in our group of 5 was in the same situation
>i was the only one that had $200+ to spend
>"so you guys don't have any more money?"
>"We were hoping to dig into the club fund! :D"
>I tell them all that money was already spent buying the room, passes, and train tickets
>i explained that i had clearly told them to bring their own cash to spend
>everyone gets angry at me
>we go back to the hotel
>"fuck this, we're leaving"
>everyone but me leaves
>worst feeling ever

I got kicked out of the club and none of them ever spoke to me again. Later on I learned that none of them had jobs and had only brought their allowances.

You can't go to a con on just an allowance, you just can't.

>>7349038
>Running makes me suffer,

Buy a bike. If you cant ride a bike due to whatever issues you have then buy a recumbent trike. There's a fat black guy at my job who rides his to work everyday and he's been losing weight like crazy.

I'm proud of that dude.

>>7350326
good lord

the hell with them

>>7350326
Fuck them.

Did you at least enjoy your Marriott hotel room all to yourself?

>>7350392
>>7350415

I ended up having a great time after with some friends I met up with. I still felt bad, but my friends did their best to cheer me up. Sleeping on a queen bed all to myself was amazing though!

>pic related

I've gone alone to AX ever since though. No one ever wants to go for all 4 days with me.

>>7350326
stupidpeople.exe
Please delete program
and format

>Male. Over 6'0" feet tall, broad-shouldered, and have a wide rib-cage
>Have a highly stereotypical and masculine personality. Typical cockiness, overly-joking, almost cliche assertiveness
>Have always had some minor popularity due to these traits
>In reality it's really all a facade, I actually hate the way I act
>Would truly give anything in the world to wear a beautiful, complex, elegant yet modest lolita dress in full attire
>Not even a sexual fetish, just a deep longing
I can't even contain my immense faggotry anymore. I actually cried about this a few nights ago. I'm sure someone here would just respond with "lol just wear it no one gives a shit", ,but that's the problem though. *I* give a shit. The thought of anyone finding out about these feelings fills me up with so much shame that it makes me want to fucking vomit. The thought of my friends or family seeing me in a dress..... Christ it literally makes me want to die.

Sorry for invading your space seagulls... I just didn't know where else to drop these feels.

> Go to my first lolita meeting ever
> I never met a lolita and I was so nervous
> I put my only lolita dress, and only shoes, etc...
> Makeup, wig, bag... all ok
> Trying to look wonderful
> feelinggreat.jpg
> Totally ready 2 hours before meeting
> getting more and more nervous
> finally go to meeting
> fucking lord
> a lot of lolitas (about 10-15, so much for my little country)
> Noticed... all are itas... or "casual" lolita (leopard printed skirt... satined... LACE.png, etc)
> really don't care so much,I went there for meet kind girls on lolita fashion
> approaching to them with a giant smile
> they seem so nice
> look at me ... weirdly
> thinking it's my imagination
> go to a park for make a picnic
> when I was preparing the food, I hear some things:

"look at her"
"she think is better than us"
"what she is thinking?"
"we're not rich like her: just a pampered daddy's girl"
"She thinks is superior"
"... just a bitch..."

(I saved all my birthday + christmas money for buy the only lolita dress/socks/shoes/burando/gloves I have - my family is relatively poor, and my clothes weren't expensive tho)

> feelingbadashell.jpg
> almost cry
> Trying to still kind with them
> giving my chocolate to all
> poisoned glances
> still hearing that kind of things all the day
> fake smiles everytime
> before return to home, all exchanges FB
> not asking for mine
> give it anyway (hoping for a lolita friend...)
> never receive a friend request

> after two months, see they made a FB group with the lolitas of my country
> I was cropped out the photos (they always pulled me on a side)
> only talk about me on some photos
> insults (about I have a rich family... wtf, I'm more poor that all them together)
I had bad experience in lolita, so I never dresses again as one, even if it's my passion and I wear only into my house.

Bad english... my apologies...

>>7350511
aw you poor thing
it's okay they're just jealous of you i'm sure you looked beautiful.
they were just mad because they looked terrible.

>>7350506
maybe you could try really, really elaborate dandy?

>>7349922
Emailed, thank you anon.

>>7350511
Ah, this squeezed my heart. I'm so sorry this happened to you. Not everywhere is like this. I'm not sure where you are from but if a smaller area, maybe you can try again somewhere close to travel to? US lolita here, we drive 3 hours to go to a nice meet in a better place because local comm is dumb. Not mean like yours though, psh.

>>7350506
Don't apologize bruh, this is a pretty appropriate place to tell those feels you have.
I can't really say that I know exactly how you feel since I'm pretty much the exact opposite in appearance, but I can relate to that feel of not being who you want to be. All I can say is if you really want to go for it, it's best to take small steps toward your goal, give people hints of how you want to be and what you want to do.
Do you cosplay at all anon? I have the feeling most people would accept crossdressing as a costume more readily than "just because you want to". If you do you can start with that.
Or you could approach dandy and see how that goes.

Of course, if people don't know if you're into any related things (cosplay/jfashion/animu/mango), than it might be harder...sorry I can't give better encouragement or advice or anything, but all I can say that first things first it would definitely help to make/have a friend who's interested in these things so that they're at least one person that would strongly approve of your choices.

>>7350511
What country are you? I'm sorry that happened to you, maybe you can make some online friends?

>>7350506
Get a lolita GF or faghag, and then dress up secretly together. Nothing's stopping you from buying the clothes and wearing them without anyone knowing.

>>7350506
Anon, I'm really sorry, you sound really sweet. I wish I could get my boyfriends to wear lolita, I think guys are so cute in dresses. ):
Some lolitas are really private! You could get dresses and go to meets and just ask that nobody tags you in photos.

Some happy feels

>younger sister tells me her friend is trying to get into lolita
>tell her to contact me and I can give her advice
>she's already pretty well-read and has done lots of research
>Just needs to start lolita wardrobe and figure out where to buy stuff
>fuck yeah newbies with great potential

>>7350506
You have no idea how many girls on this board would love to be your loli fairy godmother.

>>7350506
You sound like you're suffering from gender dysphoria. literally everything you're saying fits the profile to a certain type of transgenderism
See a gender therapist immediately for your own good

>>7350506
Here you have an anon to talk
Maybe telling your feelings you can feel better

>haven't made a friend in several years
>just wish I could make some friends on conventions
>everytime I attend cons I just take pictures and feel lonely

>>7350583
If there's anyone like that around I would be thrilled to meet them.

>>7350588
I secretly went to my first appointment with a gender therapist just this weekend. It took me two hours of holding the phone in my hand and nervously shaking to even make the appointment. I don't understand how people can so readily jump into transition, it seems like everyone else with similar feelings is just dying to do anything they can express their femininity, but with me the prospect is so absolutely terrifying that I don't even want to try.

>>7350599
I'm... not all that sure what to say. I just feel like this is eating me upside, and it makes me feel guilty and stupid to be so affected by it.

I'm just so tired of having all these disabilities. I have this rare genetic disorder that connects two bones in my feet and makes walking uncomfortable and after a while painful. After 15 years of not knowing what it was I finally got lovely inserts that help so much but I still can only last maybe an hour and a half tops but then at cons I get caught with friends and the con's so interesting that I feel bad for not being able to last as long as them and push myself way past I really should

And it doesn't help when a con has like zero sitting accommodations like ALA where pretty much all the couches and pool chairs were gone and the 2nd day I basically pushed myself to the point where after I retired for the day I could barely walk because my feet were so swollen and I was just in so much pain. And like I can walk so I don't want to bother anyone and be wheeled around in a wheelchair but I am just so fucking tired of these feet

Captcha: Moorror Walker, how ironic

>>7350506
Fuck, I know that feel. The only difference is that for me it's half longing, and half sexual because I'm a fucking pervert who gets turned on by crossdressing and gender play. I think "oh, I'd really love to crossplay as this character!" but no, I can't because not only am I not built for it physically, I'd be aroused the whole time and you can't really hide that under a skirt.

I really want to go to a local meetup, but I'm so nervous and really bad at meeting new people. I just clam up and act like an awkward mess. Does anyone have any tips for attending a meetup for the first time?

>>7350760
>Do not wait for other people to come to you. If you want to meet people, you have to take initiaive
>Practice conversational topics in your head
>Remember that if someone talks to you, it's a chance to elongate it into a conversation! Don't let it stop at, "Oh, I love your dress!" "Thank you!"
>If you want to keep in contact, exchange FBs. Don't feel weird about asking.
>Go in with a positive attitude. If you expect for it to go badly, there's more chance of it happening

>Realize you haven't sewn for yourself since October
>Realize you haven't drawn for yourself anything of worth since November
>Can pretty much pinpoint when fun stopped for you

>>7349782
>>7349814
I second that. You can also try with perfumes or really nice lipstick, or even a video game. Just get something that would make you happy. You can also try to go to some events, like festival, free concert or all-night-long movies.
It hurts now, because memories of your ex are still fresh. You need to cover them up with memories of things you enjoy.

>>7350813
>Practice conversational topics in your head

also, *don't* practice or obsess too much over potential interactions. keep your mind relatively neutral/open, don't be afraid to think for a few seconds before replying. you don't want that moment where you rehearsed the fuck out of replying to "how are you" but then somebody says "hello" and you still say "good"

>>7350641
not everyone with these feelings is gungho about transitioning anon. i'm entirely sure i'm male but i've never seen a therapist due partly to being financially dependant on my family because they refuse to let me be independent or even identify as such (i had to fight to get my hair cut to a short but still feminine style) and partly because....well, it's a big life-altering change. that's really scary to some people even if it is a positive one.

if you do decide to begin transition, asking your close friends to refer to you by different pronouns or even just looking in the mirror and thinking "what a cute girl" has been in my similar situation (except, obviously, i was calling myself a boy haha) and may help you too

>>7350813
>>7350910
i find that it helps me feel more comfortable talking if i think of the worst things that could happen in a conversation, then think about ways to circumvent them. sometimes i have whole situations thought out, estimating/predicting the response that i should get from people (and then my subsequent replies back). i've never actually had to use any of the situations i've thought out, but it helps calm me down like, well, at least i know what to do if needed.

>>7350511
Oh, pet... I'm so sorry that happened to you. You sound like you're better off without those girls. Like you said, you went to that meetup to find kind girls who liked Lolita. It's not your fault that there were none.

>start buying lolita
>have 2 jsk's IW and KL and 2 skirts IW and BL, might get L378 though
>want to get some lolita friends but no idea where to start, posted in the /cgl/ friend threads at least 3 times
>Don't have many friends in general since I moved cities, all I have are guy friends
>Slowly becoming extremely shy again
>There's a local Lolita comm, but a girl my boyfriend knows is in it and I feel like it would be awkward with her and the last thing I want is her texting my boyfriend about it
>tfw I just want friends but I don't want to be an awkward mess

I also find it a bit harder to make friends in this area compared to when Iived in a different province in the sense that you have to try REALLY hard to actual get to "friend" status as opposed to extremely casual acquaintances. It might be just me, but apparently it's a common feeling here.

>>7350511
Poor girl, don't worry they just felt inferior because they're bitchy itas

>>7350992
>There's a local Lolita comm, but a girl my boyfriend knows is in it and I feel like it would be awkward with her and the last thing I want is her texting my boyfriend about it
>tfw I just want friends but I don't want to be an awkward mess

Girl wtf just go, so there might be 1 person who knows your boyfriend, why is that stopping you? that's the lamest excuse I've heard in ages. Unless your boyfriend is against you wearing lolita idk why it would be awkward - do you not tell him about the things you do/like? i.e 'hey honey, I'm going to the lolita meet, hope I make some friends!'.

Seriously usually between 5-20+ people can show up at a meet depending where you live 1 person maybe showing up is hardly reason to not go....

>>7350961
*has been helpful

there's probably a lot more typoes :( hopefully what i'm trying to say still makes a little bit of sense

>>7348658
Hey there! Our group does a lot of swap meets and potlucks and stuff. One of the members will host and there's plenty of room to sit and chat while hors d'oeurves are passed around and there's music playing. Maybe something like this would be best for you to try?

Or even a crafting meet, where you all pitch in for silicone caulk and deco supplies or beading equipment to make accessories.

If your comm is small enough, you could even do a dinner party (though being a hostess can be a little rough - but you could have a friend help you

>>7348956
94% of people with chronic pain have had some sort of abuse as a child, physical or mental. Chronic pain is transmitted through the body in very different ways than acute pain. Also, abuse in your developmental years can fundamentally alter and inhibit the construction of neural connections as you grow. One of the theories is that this type of chronic pain is a manifestation of emotional/psychological problems that cannot be handled properly because of those missing neural connections. Tendonitis doesn't really fall in that category but things like fibro seem to.

>>7348792
Memorial cake helped me heal mine. True story.

>>7351024
It could also be something like scoliosis. I have chronic pain(varies), I didn't find out till I was 17 after I tore a muscle in my back.

>going to uni
>always drawing favourite characters in class bc bored
>nice student turns to me and whispers "I always see you drawing males, why do you not draw women?"
>completely flabbergasted, not sure what to say bc I usually cosplay as males too & pretend its because of my height
> "Tolkien's female characters lack emotional depth"
>probably the dumbest answer anyone could ever come up with
>feeling regretful all day long bc I can never put into words why I crossplay and prefer male characters
>afraid of stereotype lesbian cliché
>not sure if transgender, never been sure
>would prefer not having to bring up the topic at all but also disgusted by tumblerian nitpickiness and avantgardism concerning gender topics
>saying "genderfluid" probably makes you sound like some special snowflake or huge douchebag and seemingly blows the matter up disproportionally
>end up completely weirded out and entangled in what is probably first world problems
>???????????????????

>>7350835
What happened?

>>7351631
Female characters tend to be more boring than male, there's nothing gender-identity related about that.

Just don't overthink it. You happen to like males more. It's okay.

>>7351631
It's ok to just like them because you like them until or unless it means more to you then simply that.

>>7349609
>emetophobia
its funny, I used to have this, then became bulimic. odd way of facing a fear

>>7349931
I know that feel anon

>>7350511
Where is this? You poor anon, sending all my frilly love to you!

>>7350616
Let me love you!

>>7351631
I always draw women, to the point that I've practiced drawing them so much, I'm worse at drawing men.. so I continue drawing what I'm better at.

I draw what I think is more aesthetically pleasing, I guess. I'm not sure it's envy or just admiration.

I've had people comment that they all have similar features, though. My cousin pointed out that a lot of them look like my ex fiance. I draw landscapes now instead.

>>7350760
I'm not sure if this applies to your comm, but my comm is super nice! I was pretty quiet at first, but after they started talking it was a lot of fun!

>>7350616
>tfw you're me

off topic and this is going to be so long, but I gotta get it off my chest.
pt. 1/2

>dad is overweight alcoholic
>dad used to pick on older sister
>every time he got upset he took it out on her
>always felt bad about it
>sometimes he'd throw stuff at me but it wasn't ever bad
>sister moved out 2 years ago
>became dad's target
>get ridiculed every day
>"you're such a pain in the ass, anon"
>"why are you so selfish, anon"
>brings up my past failures to friends and family in front of me to embarrass me
>ridicules me for my weight, (135 @ 5'5, average and trying to lose weight.) whenever i eat something, either im not eating enough or im eating too much
>every time I am remotely happy, he yells or makes a snarky comment towards me
>struggle with mental illness (that was diagnosed by my old psychiatrist), and self-harm
>cannot go get therapy or new meds because my father will not let me
>"you have no reason to feel this way, anon. god youre such a baby."
>develop shit self esteem
>"you suck anon!"
>agree and i get yelled at ("how could you sell yourself so short anon!")
>disagree and i get yelled at ("how dare you talk back anon! i am right!")
>overall no matter what i do, i am going to get yelled at
>"anon you just have to ignore him! distance yourself from him!"
>try that
>yells at me even more about how rude i am for never involving him

>>7351631
If an indicator of someone's gender confusion is drawing more of the opposite sex, then I guess a lot of males secretly want to sport vaginas (vaginae? I don't know)

>>7351989
A lot of dads find it really, really hard to identify with their daughters on any level. It's really sad but unfortunately it is what it is. Dads and daughters can't have close, loving relationships.

>>7351989
This seems more appropriate for /r9k/ to be honest.

>>7352012

>Dads and daughters can't have close relationships

really? because I was raised by a single dad and I think we have a great relationship

>>7352012
My dad basically raised me by himself after my birthmother peaced out. I'm sorry if your dad abandoned you or something, but fathers and daughters can have great relationships.

>>7351989
Not trying to make you leave, but a friend linked to this board to describe her parents recently and I think you might find some comfort among people in similar situations. http://www.reddit.com/r/raisedbynarcissists/

>>7352020
>>7352032

You're reminding me of that Eurasian singer on that Taiwanese talent show who was raised entirely by her father after her mom died, it was so sweet.

>>7351989
pt. 2/2 aka oh wait, theres more!

>dont wait to sound dramatic, but from all of this, i get pretty depressed and down in the dumps all the time, with panic attacks happening every few days in the middle of the night
>mom suddenly diagnosed with breast cancer
>has both breasts removed
>starts chemo
>she loses her hair, has to quit her job for months (going on 5 months.)
>becomes depressed
>needs emotionally support more than ever, especially from dad
>dad has none.
>dad starts yelling and picking on my mom for being 'a debbie-downer'
>w/ sister away, become moms emotional crutch
>never want to be home but i HAVE to be home because im afraid my dad will pick on my mom more, and she cant handle it
>worst months of my life
>a week ago mom was done with chemo
>mom is getting cheerier and stronger
>dad is opposite
>dad literally drank himself into a giant hole
>hear him tell my mom the other day, "i cant take acetaminophen anymore, docs are afraid ill go into liver failure."
>mfw i dont know how to feel anymore

and its over
sorry about this being offtopic but i had to let it out somewhere.

>>7352020
What's it like being raised by only your dad?

Do you compare boyfriends to him?

Did he ever have girlfriends after your moms?

>>7352012
I dunno, I know a lot of girls who have great relationships with their fathers, I used to have a close relationship with mine, until my sister moved out.

>>7352019
probably. iii will have to remember to sage next time.

>>7352038
thank you! I'll definitely check this out.

>>7352039
Anon, just channel that all into work. It helps a little, and you can work towards becoming a successful person who will be able to stand on her own two feet and support herself and help her family if needed. Moreover, you'll be able to afford a doctor's yearly exam which is necessary to prevent cancer early and something you should definitely do if anyone in your family has a history of that disease.
When I was younger I was exposed to heavier doses of radiation and am in danger of getting cancer, but if you catch it early there's absolutely nothing to be worried about.

>>7352039
>i cant take acetaminophen anymore

As someone who regularly takes this, this scares the shit out of me.

>>7352039
>don't want to sound dramatic

Except that you're living in a fucking nightmare? Jesus christ dude

>>7352076

As long as you don't overload your liver, you can keep taking acetaminophen for pretty much almost your entire life. Just don't be OP's dad and drink yourself to death - his liver is basically so cirrhosed that he doesn't have anymore to process the acetaminophen anymore. And try not to take too many a day - the recommended dose per day is 4000 mg, so try not to exceed that. But since you take it regularly you probably know all this precaution stuff by now.

In a word, don't take too much acetaminophen, and try not to kill your liver. You'll be okay.

>>7352083
I don't take anywhere near that, but I've been taking a fair bit of codeine now and again.

I suffer from really, really bad back pain which is odd as I'm a guy and a /fit/izen who regularly lifts. My posture isn't great though and I've been told I need to do yoga.

>>7351792
>>7351795
>>7351846
>>7352018

Ah, thanks you all!
It's just, I'm kinda angry at myself for always coming up with stupid excuses for these topics and I have the same with crossplay. I just like being a male character on weekends. I had that whole tomboy-phase going on as a kid, short hair, always mistaken for a boy and liked it that way etc. and sometimes, when I see handsome/androgynous men, I am angry that I can't be like that and I constantly have this "oh god don't tell me I'm one of those tumblerians now, don't tell me I need one of these fancy terms to wear it as a shield against nice people just asking out of interest". But I think you are right and I am overthinking and overcomplicating stuff

Bet you remember me.

>pinworms, sweet jesus
>OCD intensifies
>must wash everything, must burn everything, must sterilize everything
>hands dry and hurt from overwashing
>all clean laundry bagged
>finally convinced mother to wash hands before touching food and after touching keyboard
>feel them crawling over my crotch at night, paranoid they'll get in my Jean Vajean
>read complaints on some website how people tried to get rid of them and couldn't for many years, tried everything etc
>panic, with my luck I'll die infested with pinworms
>I had a dream my life would be much better than this hell I'm living
>my eyes and ears itch, getting more paranoid, crying every night
However
>Mom apologized, said she'll give me money to buy a few dresses after she gets her paycheck, so that's good
>Cleaning ladies up the wazoo
>Everyone pitches in to help
>Family strangely spending more time together than ever

>>7349038
you should try a low FODMAPS diet. it reduces bloating and makes you feel better if you're used to IBS-like symptoms. also helps for losing weight.

>>7352105
I was like that too! Now I'm into both Edwardian-type granny clothes and gyaru. Seriously, it's just aesthetics.

>>7352104
>Jean Vajean
I'm so naming my vagina that

>>7352104
>paranoid they'll get in my Jean Valjean

Oh my gods, I love this. Sorry, that made me laugh harder than it should of

>>7352039
I'm so sorry for you, Anon. First of all:
>Don't wait to sound dramatic but [...]
You have the right to feel the way you feel. It sounds like a really tough time you are going through. You are probably comparing yourself to the situation of your mother and your father but suffering is never something you can compare. It does not come in numbers or can be grasped in dimensions. And even if it did, it would not mean you were not allowed to feel the way you feel. There are people who have it all and still suffer from depression and/or other mental health problems.
You should not beat yourself up over this. Also, you have the right to take care of yourself as well. I think you have been very, very strong just from reading this brief summary. You have been there for your mother and I am sure she knows and values your support and that you have helped her through.
Now would be the time to find help, to seek for someone to help you out as well. Maybe that could be in the form of counseling. Once again, I am not sure about the situation in your country but maybe there are independant consultants that could help you figure out what steps to take (maybe someone that works systemic, as in, regards the family situation as a whole)? Or maybe there are self-help groups for the relatives of cancer patients and/or alcoholics that could prove helpful to you? That could be for establishing contact with a personal therapist or generally finding a way to make you feel better.
Because - and that is something I would ask you to keep in mind even though I am just a person on the internet telling you this - you deserve to feel better. And it is okay to ask for guidance.

>>7350992
By province I'm assuming you're in Canada? What province?

>>7352104
T-They're not that bad Anon, jesus!
The only nutrients they take are from your shit, and the worst thing they can do is make your appetite lessen and your asshole itch.

I seriously don't get why people keep making this such a big thing. Ants are worse than pinworms.

>>7352104
I'm sorry about all this anon, but at least your mom is trying to make it up! If I knew you I'd give you all my brand you poor girl

>>7352179
Just thinking about them grosses me out so much! I hate small things in big numbers anyways, but on my ass? Aw hell no!

>>7352104
Look down! Look down! Don't look them in the eye!
Look down! Look down! They're there until they die!

>>7352179
I know, but I read a lot of comments on this one website where people were talking about how difficult it was to get rid of them, and I swear if that is how it's going to be I'd have liked a tapeworm better. Sure some of them tried to "treat it naturally with garlic" but others said they tried everything and they still have them which scares me to bits.
On their own they don't look that gross, but the crawling across my crotch and (TMI) rivers of vaginal discharge make me want to scream.

>>7352204
You did it, you went there, you totally did. Dear god, my sides, so funny. Poor worm-chan but o-m-g.

>>7352224
Did you actually find them there, or are you just speculating?
They tend to stay inside your anus, because that's where all the food is.

As long as you wash your hands when you wake up, they'll die off and you'll be fine. The main way they stay in your system is when you scratch your ass at night, eggs collect under your fingernails, and you put your hand in your mouth without knowing it.

>>7352224
What you read in those comments is a form of 'participation bias'. Especially concerning illness, you will find an overly large sample of people that suffer from chronic forms of an illness on the internet. It is simply because those that have been cured seldomly return to the forums and internet platforms to report their cure. It is mostly people that still suffer who turn to the internet and will exchange their stories.
So please, do not feel discouraged by those comments, it is really the worst cases around there. <3

>>7352104
I'm sorry about laughing at your plight anon but the les mis references did me in. I hope your situation continues to improve!

>>7352272
Thanks for the kind words! They help a lot!
>>7352246
I actually found a few on my labia, gross as it sounds. I did try telling myself I'm just imagining it but it's so unbelievably gross.

Threadworms/pinworms can be easily treated with a single dose of medication (usually mebendazole). I think you can get it over the counter but if not, see your doctor. He might recommend that everyone in your home takes the medication because they can spread quite easily.

And don't worry anon, I've had them before too - it's really not uncommon for them to 'migrate' upwards, although it is gross and annoying. Just make sure to wipe downwards and wash your hands properly, wear loose fitting underwear etc. Good luck, I hope you get it sorted out soon.

>convention coming up
>guy friend who's never cosplayed wants to join me
>I'm nervous about his cosplay standards
>we start talking about his cosplay
>he wants to be beast boy
>get nervous, what if he wants to be lazy with it, etc
>turns out he already has plans drawn out for it
>detailed list of everything he needs, including how he's going to make things
>see wig on the list
>mfw

I'm so proud my friend wants to get into cosplay and that he has all his plans written out already. It could've been a mess, but everything will turn out great.
I'm also impressed he plans on getting a wig. Most newbies don't even think of doing that.

>>7352300
Ahh wow.
Rinsing there with water during a shower should help with that. No soap, just water.

Best of luck on the whole situation though.

>>7352326
yeah those fuckers spread really easily AND some people dont have symptoms when they are infected so then they end up infecting others

>>7348686
Other people have given good advice (slowly change eating habits as opposed to dieting), and I'm sure you've tried plenty of stuff, but may I suggest getting a physically active hobby? Something like rockclimbing, yoga, tennis, martial arts, swimming, hiking, etc. You'll probably make friends in it, and you'll find that you want/need to eat well and work out on the side to get better.

It's a lot easier to exercise when you're doing it for fun, as opposed to health!

>tfw you're testing make up
>while waiting for it to dry, you take too long and forget you have it on
>tfw you walk by a mirror and scare the hell out of yourself

>>7352246
> The main way they stay in your system is when you scratch your ass at night, eggs collect under your fingernails, and you put your hand in your mouth without knowing it.
uggghghhhh

In college, gained 20-30 lbs while overloaded in semesters year-round... Stare longingly at Moitie in closet before sitting down to study again.

Not directly loli or cosplay related

>Decide to start integrating working out into my daily routine, but have to do so sporadically due to sudden influx of school work
>Jump rope for almost a solid 30 min Monday night while cooking dinner
>Legs tingly afterwards, but not painful- actually feels good
>Start making plans to workout more regularly, go rockclimbing with friend this weekend
>Tuesday morning- legs slightly sore, but barely noticeable
>In a rush that morning, grab random pair of shoes- turn out to be an old, worn-out pair of boots with the left heel almost coming off
>Makes my left heel roll in while I walk, but can't go home and have to wear them all day
>By the time I get home, there's a shooting pain up the back of my left calf, can barely walk and can't put weight on ball of foot
>Ice it, try to keep off it, assume it'll be fine by Wednesday
>Nope
>Had to limp/shuffle all day, and going down stairs feels like someone's trying to tear the muscle out of the back of my calf
>Feeling stir crazy because I can barely walk and definitely can't exercise

Also,
>Want to join a local gym
>Don't want anyone from school watching me exercise
>Dilemma

>>7352071
Thank you! yes that's what im trying to do, focus on my education and job to try and take my mind off of it!

>>7352076
you should be fine anon, my dad got this way from drinking at least ten years a night for over six months and eating a very unhealthy diet.

>>7352081
Yeah, it has been pretty... nightmarish. I'm just glad my mom is cancer free now.

>>7352171
Thank you anon! I really appreciate that.
I will be able to get help next September! So there is a light at the end of the tunnel for me! (I hope.)

>lost so much weight over past 3 months because I have a smooth muscle disorder
>5'1" 103lbs wispy thin body, so perfect for trapping now
>feel too sick to even dress up
>feelsbadman.jpg

>>7352090
DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE

Better be careful with those opiates. If there's even a hint of any sort of addiction in your family, I'd be pretty worried.

You should find a new doctor that'll actually take the time to manage your pain in other ways

>>7351989
>ridicules me for my weight, (135 @ 5'5, average and trying to lose weight.) whenever i eat something, either im not eating enough or im eating too much
Fucking this, except I'm 105 and 5'4". It has made me hate eating around them and feel self conscious eating around anyone.

>struggle with mental illness (that was diagnosed by my old psychiatrist), and self-harm
>cannot go get therapy or new meds because my father will not let me
Also this. I feel like I have to sneak to my college's doctor offices, and can't bring anything up to me and my mom's shared psychiatrist. My mom seems to think it's impossible for me have any anxiety/depression/possible bipolar tendencies, despite the fact that she takes multiple medications for general anxiety and has self-diagnosed herself with depression. Any time I try to tell her I'm anxious or depressed, her response is either "You just need to exercise more!" or "You just need to get out more!" It's been going on since I was 14/15 and it's really draining.

I feel for you anon, for all of what you've said.

>>7351989
>>7352039
>tfw I can relate to this pretty damn close and I'm a dude

My mom at least divorced him very early on, but man it's tough.

>learn to stay quiet so as not to bring my presence to him and him interact with me
>conversing with him on any level is just stressful
>polar opposite personalities (I enjoy calmly working with others/bettering myself and others, he rants/shits on everyone else that's not him and just drinks/smokes everything else out)
>short temper to the point where it's neigh-nonexistent
>yells, screams, just doesn't give a shit, used to throw shit/threaten to kill me
>harasses my little sister "playfully" and gets mad when she cries (she's 7)
>wire-taps/stalks my mom/random people, has body guards follow step-mom from afar, scared to move out for fear he does it to me
>depressive episode (silently self-helped out of it) then developed anxiety issues, refuses treatment and tells me "mind over matter"
>gets my uncle (his only friend) to berate me on the anxiety, they both (horribly misinformed, mind you), tell me therapy is stupid/brainwashing/etc.

I could go on for post upon post but I'd rather not derail the thread with daddy issues (though venting it was calming). Sorry you have to go through that stuff, it's rough. Remember to focus on the positives, and know that some day you'll be out of the house. Like that other anon said, try to channel it all into work, or at least something constructive. When strong emotion is harnessed (good or bad), you can do a lot of shit with the drive.

>tfw I'll never be able to hire anyone on /cgl/ for my business

If only I could. You guys are so talented.

How do you seagulls stay productive? There are things I still need to do like try using contacts for the first time or properly apply on some fangs, but I can't ever seem to bring myself to get around to it.

>That feel when you've dyed and styled your hair so much that it feels like it's a part of your identity
>Hair got dried out, though, so I decided to let my roots grow out and eventually go natural
>It's been over a year, and I've got about a foot of my natural dark blonde and a foot and half of brownish-red
>Actually looks surprisingly good
>Miss having funky hair, though
>Look through old pictures for inspo
>TOO MANY OPTIONS
>Really don't want to damage hair
>But really want a cool colour
>Rinse and repeat
>Indecision 2014

>>7352539
I limit the time I use my computer/phone

>>7351844
>Let me love you!
Under which conditions?

>>7352456
In my city we have those gyms where you run facing a giant shop window and all the passers by can see you sweat. I guess it's a good motivator, most people I see there are middle-aged businessmen and women. Ah, the charms of Helsinki.

How do I start eating healthy? I tried following a meal plan but in the mornings I usually hurry off to school and have no time for breakfast, and when I do I catch up on lost sleep so I skip it anyway. Lately I had a stomach issue that has made me lose weight too. I don't even know what to eat, I know "fruits and veggies" is best but I'm just super picky and vomit whenever I eat something I hate.

>>7352547
Are you me? I keep wanting my hair to grow. Also getting bleach to do my roots is so damn expensive.
>hair is passed shoulders and it now takes two bleach boxes to dye properly

Ugh. It's miserable when you look good as black or blonde and those are the two hardest colors to switch to and fro .

>>7352566

Greetings /fit/

>>7352573

sum more

>>7352581

>>7352573
Sure, but a lot of that involves buying fresh organic ground unicorn hooves from Somalia. I'm a college student who not only has little time but also little money. Therein lies the problem, otherwise I could have just googled it.
At least I eat chicken and fish and no red meat...

>>7352573
>>7352581
>>7352585
>>7352586
Oh and thanks for the infographics, /fit/ anon

>>7352573
I bought a full jar of stevia to try and replace sugar, and shit's bitter. Yuck.

>tfw no qt cosplayer gf

>>7352573
And this is why I love my hypoglycemia~

>>7352573
>>7352581
>>7352585
Saved. Thanks for this.

>>7352602
It's better to just not have sugar at all. Or substitute with non processed honey or cinnamon

>>7352610
I know that feel.

Oh look, Valentine's Day is coming up in about a week or so.

>>7352687

Just raging with my bf over the STUPID wristwatch from baby.

>2 days ago tells me if i would like it as a present
> i tell him yes that'd be lovely thanks
>proceed to make the reservation yesterday
>today he snaps because I had a 'mean attitude' with him today (?)
>I get pissed off because i dont even get what's his deal, I was fucking Radiant planning the dinner for Valentines and thinking in what to get him for that day.
> he says 'THATS THE WAY YOU THANK ME FOR THE WATCH?! Smashing the door of your house in my face??'
>I tell him to fuck off and dont bother
>he tells me Im selfish
>he doesnt even know what I was planning

Oh fuck you A. and that fucking watch.
/rant

Yeah, Valentine's its not all about the love anyways. Ill just buy some chocolate and watch a movie at home.

>>7352547
I know that feel, anon. I've settled on just doing a streak in the back of my hair, that way, I can have funky colours AND keep my hair gorgeous-looking.

>>7352602
The liquid is better.

>>7352699
Yall need to stop acting like children

>>7352699
Have fun with your shitty relationship

>>7352687
>posted Valentine thread a while ago
>wanted to see some Valentine themed coords or something
>maybe get some ideas on what to do with bf for the day
>janitor shuts it down within 5 minutes
>wank thread on retarded Amy cosplayer lived on for days
Mm.

>>7352687
>people who still celebrate valentines day in 2014

>>7352807
It's okay anon. Janitor shut down the few good threads going on, yet bullshit like homestuck and draw threads still rage on.

>>7352807
I was disappointed too, sweet anon.

>>7352813
>people who think anyone gives a shit about what year it is and what's considered uncool now

>>7352838
Enjoy your waste of money and falling for bullshit.
>I bet you do everything your calendar tells you to do

>>7352847
Someone's not getting laid on V-day.

>>7352847
wow soo edgy

>>7352847
Has it occurred to you that I actually enjoy it and celebrate it with my SO because it's fun?
Have fun being a bitter hag.

>>7352853
>>7352854
>>7352857
you all taking the bait

>>7352861
>implying it's bait and not just some sad /r9k/ beta
it's too pathetic to be bait, and not on the nose enough.

>>7352868
>arguing with the sad /r9k/ beta

>>7352853
Married actually. I live with my wife and we both think valentines day is for retarded children. Try again.

>>7352884
A dakimakura doesn't count as a wife no matter hard you wish. I will be having valentines day with my dakimakura as well though, but you don't see me bragging about it.

>>7352894
I love how you stupid bitches think because someone doesn't want to celebrate valentines day, they must be lying. Okaaaay

>>7352909
You're trying too hard to prove you're too edgy-desu for a mainstream holiday.

>>7352884
I'm married and my husband and I kind of skip over Valentines day since my birthday is two days before it. I'd rather do stuff for my birthday then Valentines day.

Anyway I was the anon in the last feels thread who posted that I found out I was pregnant. I've gone into "OMG LOOK AT ALL THE CUTE BABY STUFF" mode. I admit my inner weeb is coming out a bit since I keep looking at all the cute as hell Miyazaki/My neighbor totoro stuff for babies and nurseries.

My jimmies get so fucking rustled by people who buy dresses, make one coord, and then sell it for an inflated price with the reasoning "Doesn't look good on me" or whatever, like two days after they were bragging about how amazing it was and how much they loved it.

>>7353002
This is adorable. 10/10 would buy a bunch for your baby shower if I knew you and you had one.

>>7353017
Seriously. I love a lot of the colors because they tend to be more neutral and earthy. I already told my husband that if it's a girl(my husband wants to do sports theme if it's a boy), I don't want a nursery dominated by pink. A friend was saying she thought I'd want to go more lolita/Rococo since that's kind of my taste(I like wearing Classic lolita). But honestly don't really want a lolita nursery.

>>7353067
Saved.
Just in case I ever do want kids, this is such a calming, timeless theme.
(Gender-neutral too which is nice.)

I don't know a dang thing about pregnancy--how much longer until they can tell you the baby's sex?

>having feels for pregnant 4chan anon
>happy fuzzy excited feels
>hope all goes well

>>7353067
It doesn't even need to be a nursery; I'd have this as my room theme right now.

>>7352738
Personally, I think Stevia tastes like Aspartame.
Agave might be another liquid substitute for regular sugar, but it is sweeter than honey.

>>7353067
>>7353002
Adorable! I'd love to see a whole thread of this,

>>7352894
Do those things have built in ona holes or are they just to cuddle? Why do people carry them at cons?

>>7352847
It's a lovely, fun excuse for french perfume, a Lolita haul, swanky dinner, wine and chocolates, oh yeah!

>>7353067
>gender roles applied by parents
Almost all the men I know don't even like sports

>>7352334
that's similar to what happened with my friend, a newbie lolita

>be friends with girl in high school
>don't talk to her very much for years because college, busy, etc
>i get into lolita and post pics once in a while from meets
>she contacts me asking about how to get into it
>i send her to internet guides and helpful faqs, answer her questions
>she genuinely asks me for advice on making a nice, cute coord
>plus sized so i worry she might try stuffing herself into clothes she can't fit
>measures herself accurately and looks for things that will actually fit her *and* look nice
>styles her hair and nails nicely and wears cute, not overdone makeup
>buys a Meta lucky pack on my advice
>the skirt is a border print and fits her perfectly
>sells the blouse that doesn't fit her without even needing to ask me for advice
>buys cute loliable shoes at payless
>routinely talks to me about how excited she is planning cute coord, asking me for advice on accessories
>is joining a group order for an indie brand to get a custom sized blouse that will fit her perfectly *and* be versatile for her future wardrobe

im so proud

>>7353118
Actually my husband wants sports theme because he's a baseball fan. You know, kind of how I'm looking at all the Miyazaki stuff because well, I like Miyazaki.

I have such low self esteem to the point where it keeps me from doing what I want.

>Been wanting to cosplay for years
>Afraid I'll just end up on the board as a cosplay fail and have everyone laugh at me
>I look in the mirror and see a foot face
>My eyes look wonked out, my nose looks huge, my lips look crooked whenever I look in the mirror
>Been bullied so much for my fucking fat nose
>Whenever I was out with my sister, she was called the beauty and no one said anything to me
>I was just seen as her sister
>I was the ugly one
>Been a shut in for many years now due to social anxiety
>Afraid of everyone judging me when they see me because I am overweight and consider myself an eyesore
>Dropped 70 pounds, 10 pounds away from being healthy apparently, but I still see myself as this fat landwhale
>First boyfriend dumped me after a single day
>oh man, am I really that unattractive?
>Mom claims I'm pretty, tells me that my siblings and even my sister's husband think I'm beautiful
>if that's the case why hasn't anyone said anything to my face? I don't believe you, moms are suppose to say their kids are nice looking
>have had a couple online relationships, all of which never saw a full picture of me
>meet a guy online
>he's a shut in like myself
>Shows me a picture of himself
>He's handsome as fuck, I'm shocked
>Claims my personality is great, that my shyness is cute
>I'm afraid that once he sees me he'll think I'm disgusting and dump me
>Show him my picture after so many attempts at getting one
>He's the first person to call me gorgeous in my entire life
>Feel my heart a-flutter
>he must be lying. I'm overweight, I have a gigantic nose and ugly smile
>Goes on about how he thinks I'm lying about thinking I'm unattractive
>Feel good for the first time in a long time
>Start to wonder if he's just saying this because he doesn't want me to feel bad

I hate this. I wish I could see what these people apparently see. I know it sounds pathetic, but I want to see myself as pretty

>>7353270
post picture

>>7353298
Nope.

>>7353270
anon i bet you're cute, good luck with q t shut-in guy

>slowly been getting over horrible self esteem issues
>no longer hate myself, but i don't like myself either
>think my face and body are too incompatible to look good in any kind of j-fashion and most cosplay
>don't feel that taking care of my appearance is worth it because there's nothing to make look good
>all my friends are ultra fashionable and talented at cosplay
>they're constantly trying to help me get better
>feels like I'm just wasting their time

I want to look as cool as them, but god damn, I really don't feel like it's worth it, especially since I'm basically a shutin so I don't have any reason to wear nice clothes or learn how to do makeup.

>>7353192
I wish I knew people like that
>routinely talks to me about how excited she is planning cute coord, asking me for advice on accessories
most adorable thing ever

>>7353479
It's worth it.
Challenge: Think of yourself as a project and just concentrate on improving your skills at dressing, learning makeup, etc. like a task you need to accomplish. Not the outcome, don't judge that yet. Just give yourself the practice to just learn some new things, to experiment and test to se how it feels. To mess up and try again.
Do it for a while, without much thought, commit for maybe for a month, see how you think and feel then.

>have massive crush on cosplayer friend a long time ago
>get rejected
>say some really bad shit (like "publicly crucified on tumblr" bad), mutual block of one another on FB
>still hang out with their friends when they're in town
>4 years later, apologize for all the shit I've put them through
>get told everything is fine between us
>still feel really, really awkward and guilty around friends because of what happened back then (being the only cis male doesn't help)
>no way to contact the actual person I need to apologize to
>not sure I could handle facing them again either
>have minor panic attacks when I see their picture or name

I feel like I'm cruising headlong into disaster here, especially if I start going to more than just the local conventions and cosplay more. Thought I was over it for a year or so, especially after talking with their ex, but then I saw their picture and name in an old message log a few weeks ago and felt it like ice water was running through my veins. I just want to move on.

>Hey, I wonder what soc is like?

see this >>>/soc/18654414
nope

>>7353736
It got baleeted pic related
> but yeah! it's yukky there.

>>7353739
no, its still there

>>7353270
Hey, don't be so down about it, it goes the other way, you know.

>Physically fairly attractive, 6' 4" male with a swimmer's build
>Never had a single longterm girlfriend
>Every single male on both sides of my family have some sort of mental issue - bipolar, aspergers ( hardcore socially retarded ) schizophrenic,
>Genetic health problems make me irrationally paranoid about future
>Joint issues at 16
>Vomiting stomach acid in my sleep at 17
>Stress-induced migraines
>Partially colorblind
>Night terrors stemming from migraines that causes more stress which causes more migraines which makes me lose sleep which... Yeah.

Part of me refuses to commit to a relationship because I would never want to pass on my genes as they've made life hard enough for my parents growing up, and I'm too afraid to admit this to people I know.

>>7353761
Oh poor guy, I know your feel

>be average cute girl, small and baby face
>had a geat relationship once
>want another long, great relationship
>my health condition become worse and worse
>fight with chronic depression after having been hostpilatized for suicidal tendencies a few years ago
>start to feel better mental wise, but becomes really tired and sick
>I'm diagnosized with CFS
>So now I have CFS, possible fibromyalgia, asthma, sever excezma, chronic depression (not mentionning horrible teeth that costed me an arm to get fixed and I'm going to have an operation because I'm very very short-sighed), basically can't go out and have to skip classes and friends meet because I'm too tired
>at least I'm not too ugly.
>dark circles and acnea due to lack of sleep
>foreveralone.jpg

And that's why I can't find someone. I tried going out but my (now ex) boyfriend was tired of seeing me faint or having spasm attack at least once a week, and I can totally understand why.
I want to have children in the future, but I don't want them to be some kind of broken, worthless human like I am.

>>7353772
Yeah, I share your pain.

There's a bit of solace though - you know for a fact that you aren't alone with the issue. For me, I don't think I could stomach the idea of making someone tolerate all of my problems. I'm a super patient person, but I couldn't even imagine trying to make someone put up with me when I'm a mental wreck with enough physical ailments to kill a small elephant.

Also, I can almost guarantee that you're not worthless. Since I'm guessing that you're in school judging by the skipping classes remark, I'd wager that you're on the same boat as me, the HMS Academia.

Health problems and mental issues aside, I kinda hope I can work up the courage to ignore my inner self and get into a committed relationship, because being lonely for the rest of my life doesn't sound very pleasant. I suppose we can both hope that we'll find someone who's tolerant enough to put up with us and genetically well-off so that we can balance out our shit genes.

>>7353791
My former boyfriend (and only long lasting relationship) had a few mental issues and was very muscular too, he was afraid of hurting people but actually feeling loved helped him a lot, and when I was with him I never ever witnessed his unfamous rage. Also, he didn't sleep because of recurring nightmare and night terrors, but never had this probleme when we were sleeping together (apart a few times because of extreme stress).
So don't cut yourself away from any good relationship, it can really help you.

And thanks for your kind words anon. Yes, I'm at the uni and I hope I don't fail this semester. I'm single right now but I work on a future possible relatonship, that's just...I don't know if he can put up with all of this, mental breackdowns due to sickness and all.
We just have to do our best and cross our fingers, dear anon :)

>>7353805
Hey, no sweat. Just don't give up on yourself, and don't take anything for granted, especially not the other people in your life or the fact that you're in a position to get an education.

A kind word from a stranger on the internet is one thing, but having someone to talk to in person is another. The only thing that keeps me sane during is family and friends, so don't neglect those relationships. Here's to the both of us finding someone, and good luck with your studies.

>>7353816
I vent here because I don't have anyone to talk with plus it's anonymous. I don't have a bff or anything, only a few 'friends' from uni and I never talk to my familly either. I don't want people to pity me anyway, I wouldn't bear it anymore.

Shit I need a new boyfriend and I need to stop venting on the internet, I juste feel even sadder each time.

My boyfriend's crazy ex-girlfriend is withholding all his game consoles because he "doesn't deserve" to get them back. She is seriously so frustrating.
She reblogged pic related on tumblr and then goes through the trouble of calling me "bulldog faced" and a "warty toe" to my boyfriend in the same day. super clever, right?
She has no right to any of this behavior, I did nothing to her and have never dealt with this type of person in my life. :|

It's just so frustrating, I'm so glad to vent ugh

>buy dish soap and hand soap
>roommates use all my dish soap
>they now use the hand soap for the dishes
>soon there will be no soap at all
>they probably will stop doing dishes altogether

>>7353761
Maybe you could get a vasectomy if the idea of having a kid is really worrying you? Plenty of women out there don't want kids, and it might make you more confident if you already know that development won't happen

>>7354666
Tell your roommates to get their asses down to the dollar store and buy some more dish soup(or go on your own, demand they give you a $1 to cover the cost. Get everybody to pitch in $1 so you can stock up on dish soap)

Seriously, you can buy fucking dish soap at the dollar store. Even brands like Dawn.

>>7353761
Just adopt a kid if you want your name carried down.

>>7350511
You poor thing! :( I'm really sorry that happened Anon. What country is this? Those girls should be ashamed for judging you on literally first glance!

>>7350511
This is why I hate the "rich people are all inherently evil" mentality. I've never been part of any super-rich 'elite' nor hung out with such people, but my parents are quite well off and the things I hear about me are downright disgusting. I'm so sorry you were treated like that, anon, don't feel bad because of them. At least now you know which people to avoid, and you'll find new friends in no time!

>>7354661
So she basically stole them. Call the cops. Why isn't your boyfriend acting?

>Con just around the corner.
>Super excited, putting a lot of effot into the cosplay.
>Almost done.
>Suddenly, start feeling very insecure.
>Feel like costume is different from the character design.
>Don't like how it looks on me.
>Start thinking it'll look like shit.
>Anyway, my comm is full of casuals, so I don't think anyone will recognize me.

Damnit. Sorry for the rant, but I hate feeling like this.
>Meanwhile, bandwagoners getting praised.
>Some of them haven't watched/played the source.
>mfw

>>7354761
He's banging her on the side.

>>7350511

they sound like horrid sports! honestly if they act like that towards you just remember that they will easily do that to anyone who crosses them. you don't need people like them to be your friend. I hope a seagull shits on their headbows

>>7354666
ths same fucking thing happened to me
not only that but
>recieve a gift from my parents for christmas
>put it under the tree
>come christmas morning, it gone
>see roomate eating macarons and throwing the wrapping paper away
>turns out the gift was a $25 dollar box of macarons
>can't even yell at him, he doesn't speak english
>tell his bilingual son
>bilingual son shrugs it off
>tell boyfriend
>boyfriend shrugs it off

I am so pissed

>tfw you feel too fat to cosplay

>tfw you know a bunch of cuties
>tfw you have no idea how to talk to any of them without being spaghetti or coming across as a creep

>>7354878
Who does this? Who even does this? There would be do much breaking of faces and breaking up with boyfriend. Wow. I'm sorry that happened

>>7354928
>these feels every day
I honestly don't know how to curb my junk food addiction. It's so shitty

>>7354982
I would have started hollering at him in English. They'd have been forced to translate.

>>7354878
Hoooold on! Even if person doesn't speak English, the package clearly didn't belong to them. Did you do ANYTHING ??

>>7354986

>>7354991
Where do you even live? No way is live with someone who doesn't speak English ( at least where I'm from)

>>7354993
I'm only 10 pounds overweight... I just kind of want tips on how to improve my overall lifestyle

>>7354986
I dunno either, today I ate a big sandwich with fries and everything.

>>7354982
Don't be so dramatic, anon.

>>7354982
a war vet with PTSD
>>7354991
>>7354992

I was just kind of sitting there, like "that was my only present"
and when I told his son his son was like
"yeah, sorry about that, that wasn't me, my dad does shit like that"

honestly, I'm passive. a bit too passive. and lately, my roomate has gotten into the habit of asking for charges (which no one has ever paid because he's pulling them out of his bum and it was never in a written agreement). if he does that shit again, I'm just going to list all the food his Dad eats of mine and the other roomates, and the christmas present, and demand that they pay not only me, but the roomates, every penny.

>>7354998
we are close and not only that, big city, lots of foreigners

>be starting mah cut after winter bulking
>that awesome feel when sweating in mid-winter thanks to an ECY stack
>feels stim man
>tfw I want to cosplay to get them nerdy bishes mirin and get into those hotel parties
>tfw talk so much shit about cosplay and cosplayers though
>tfw no idea where to begin
>can't even start measuring for materials because I know my body shape changes (right now 180ish, goal is around 155-160), so it can't be elaborate
>tfw 5'9, the time of learning is now

>>7354986
>>7355001

Dude, you know the hardest part? It's just starting. Your brain loves habits, and breaking them is incredibly hard (th-thanks dopamine). But as soon as you start and establish it as a habit, your brain takes over. Th-thanks dopamine.

>>7355040
Well, I'm still skinny enough so it's not all lost.

>>7352550
As long as you aren't a gross weeaboo

New thread:
>>7355138

I get really upset with myself because I'm so negative about everything. I always find something to nag about peoples costumes (way above their skill level, shitty wig/make-up, doesn't suit the character at all, sloppily made costume, generally just a bad looking person etc..) and even if they were good cosplayers I'd have a problem with their personality ("I follow this bitch on twitter and I know she only got interested in this series after it got popular! stay away from my babies attentionwhore ugh") and so on. It's gotten to the point where I only have a couple of friends and even then I'm afraid my constant negativity will eventually drive them away too.
I've kind of figured that the reason I judge others so harshly is because I do not look the way I wish I would, aren't skillful enough to make elaborate costumes and generally just lack motivation to do even half of the costumes I actually want to. It doesn't help that I'm embarrassed of this hobby so I don't want to spend all of my money on it. I back out of anything that seems like a lost cause and never look at it again. I deliberately stop myself from doing costumes that I would look awful in no matter how much I'd love to do them, and I think that's why it pisses me off when other people are able to have fun without thinking about silly things like those and just do what they want.
The worst thing is even when I know all this I still can't stop, and I keep being judgemental of everyone who's not perfect and still hold myself back from doing some of the cosplays I really want because I couldn't even imagine dealing with looking myself in the mirror and thinking "as I thought, I look like shit".
Even when I fit the character I'm cosplaying I keep thinking how much better it'd look if I was this and that and everything but the way I am now and that's honestly just so tiring.

sorry for the stupid rant and being a little bitch

>>7355026
You sound like one of those people I hate. Please continue being a passive doormat. Do nothing and then whine about it on 4chan and accomplish nothing.