/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Gravity.

Being fat and not rich

I am a poorfag

Not knowing how to make a weapon for my cosplay is grating. It's tough Googling since I keep getting blueprints for the GAME.

I feel better after venting, though.

That thread about penises that got deleted.

i...think..i hate people/socializing

My boyfriend of almost 3 years moved far away a months ago and I'm unhappy that we only see each other at least once a month.

The cis white male patriarchy that promotes the rape culture and keeps womyn down.

Not able to make love.

My 11 day long autumn break started yesterday, and I'm already bored out of my mind.
I can't afford to buy a new piano until january, and my current one doesn't work. So I am completely unable to practice until work starts again.

To make up for it, I'm probably just gonna decrypt sheet music all week. I am really addicted to my job right now, so it's killing me a little bit on the inside that I can't take it home with me.
I'm absolutely not in the mood to socialise with anyone, but at the same time I am so incredibly bored and really in need to talk to some certain friends again. My brain is fucking with me right now and I don't like it one bit.

Sage for zero cosplay relations.

I'm surrounded by sick people. (And am also sick.)

I'm an out of state community college student who has no friends. Well, I do but they all live 3 hours away or farther...

>>6308891
Actually, the ones who are against transgendered people (mtf the most, obv) are women, coz they know that men make prettier women than women.

Supporting my family while my wife is in school and surviving on $300 a month once most of the household bills are paid for.

It's been like this for so long that it's broken me down. I don't want to be here anymore, seagulls. I'm done, but at the same time I can't bear the thought of leaving my wife with baggage like that. She's such an amazing woman, and has struggled through her hardest times to get into college and better herself.

I come online and try and amuse myself, and find things to keep me motivated, like hobbies and pursuits in my spare time. Anything to keep me motivated and feel like I have a purpose. But when I'm alone and I have time to my thoughts, I feel how useless it is.

It's a conscious decision every day whether I'm going to keep going or not. I don't think I have it in me to stop though. I harbour a terrible feeling of guilt when I think about abandoning people in my life.

I guess all I can do is wait it out. Thanks for letting me talk, OP. I can't talk about this with my friends or family. Especially not my wife, though I'm sure she knows.

>>6309040
Nice copypasta buddy :))

>>6309040
Can she try to get grants and scholarships to help lessen the load? Also, if you're really poor you can try for food stamps.

I'm slowly falling into a bad place. I'm generally unhappy. I just want to be left a lone but it's kind of hard to ask your SO to leave you the fuck alone for weeks and still expect them to want to date you afterwards.

Depression sucks. I should just drink more.

>>6309043

Copypasta, seriously? Is it honestly that unbelievable?

>>6309045
She's looking into grants currently; apparently through the program she's taking there's some sort of grant available if she maintains her honours status (which she has, she's been bloody stellar). I'm going to ask her about that again when she gets back home.

All of her tuition is already covered, so that's fine. She got the full provincial and federal loan amounts, plus another smaller loan from her bank for living expenses. We weren't able to get the full amount we needed for living expenses, so I have to shell out the majority of the funds to get us through each month. I don't think we have things like food stamps in Canada. I've just struggled to keep it all going with what I make. I already work 2 jobs so I'm not sure what else I can do.

Ehh, I'm still dealing with the death of a person who's been close to me since I was a baby. I think I've moved onto the "blind rage" stage of grief.

Other than that just class stuff and problems matching my she-hulk makeup for halloween to a good tights color.

So.. I was walking to the kitchen and my faggot cat decided it would be a good idea to run there THROUGH my feet.
Little bastard stomped against my leg and before I realized what was it I gave the next step, wich sent the cat spiralling around the floor.
Worst part? It was hilarius as fuck, I laughed like a little bitch.


Now my cat is offended and wont let me pet it.

That I'm a fat loser who will never achieve anything and will die alone.

>>6309040
Your wife is going to leave you once you pay her way through college.

>>6309134

No, I'm sure she won't anon. Also, I haven't "paid her way through college". The loans are all on her. I am paying the living expenses, not getting her nails did.

Thanks for trollin', though. Keeps it interesting.

>>6309068
You can always try a food bank. Or some churches.

school. lack of job. feelings. and it's the one year anniversary of my younger brother's death in a couple weeks. this month just sucks. i have so much to do, and i don't wanna do any of it. i was hitting the gym again for a while, then schoolwork piled up to the point that i was averaging 2 hours of sleep a night. so instead of gym time, i do work and eat snacks. hopefully next month will be better.

>>6309161

Thanks for the suggestions, anon.

We will get through, just very, very tightly. I don't know if I have the mental capability to see it through until it gets better. It's been a long time wearing through me.

It's not just money eating at me (of course), it's feeling and knowing that I'm never going to get the opportunity to do what I want to do in life. I'm really not where I imagined myself to be in my 30's.

I'm just rambling now, I'm going to go putter around and clean up. Anon signing off.

/e/

>>6309196
Don't worry about it. People actually change careers multiple times during their lifetimes. Things will get better. Afterall, your wife only has a couple years of schooling left. It's doable. You should tell her about your stress so you can go on a vacation or something.

>>6309054

Drinking more will just numb you and in the end make things worse. It's important to get sunlight each day, to set goals and to take care of yourself. I hope you feel better, anon.

I work at Macy's and I absolutely adore everyone but this one manager. He ALWAYS picks on me and bitches about things that I'm not even doing wrong and I can't do shit about it because I might get fired.

going through the "why-am-I-even-alive" crap that I thought I left back in high school welp going to see a counselor soon hopefully that helps.

Ex-friends who screwed me over, stole from other friends, swindled me out of money, lied about me and cost me friends while dealing out private information... are now in my one 'safe' fandom.

Nothing is sacred anymore, cgl.

My only hope is that their cosplays are as shitty as all the others and they'll be embarrassed into forever.

Work messing me around with hours; I asked for minimum of 9 hours a week so I could get my rent paid, and still have time to go to my university classes. Told them I could do late night Wednesdays and all day Saturdays. Last week, I got 4 hours. This week, I'm verging on 25, all on days I told them I couldn't work.

On top of that, I barely have time to see my boyfriend because of classes and work, and even when I do have the time, he rarely wants to be bothered...

That and I'm trying to lose weight, and it's so hard, and I feel so ugly and bleh. On the plus side, I got my new wig in the post today, and it makes me feel so pretty!

i will have no money, no job, no education, and therefore no future if i leave the man im with. i love him a lot and we have seriously talked about marriage and everything. it is just a ridiculous amount of pressure on me to be perfect, brilliant, and hard working.
> inb4 white girl problems.
> am white girl.

There's only a few people in the local community that know how to coordinate/ dress appropriately to their body type and the rest are new, still in highschool and a tad obnoxious.

Also the mod of our comm never comes out to any of the meetups and hasn't hosted one in a long time, I wonder if it's just because of the newbies but it sucks since it'd be nice to reach out to a fellow lolita that has a good grasp on the fashion.

But I wonder if she might be the same lolita posting secrets of our group...

I'm mentally disabled and ill. My body is showing it is majorly fagtiude and is starting to fail me.
I know it sounds selfish but it would be nice if my gf would fucking eat me out at least once, instead of looking bored out of her mind doing a few minutes of rubbing. I've never faked it so much in my life.
I feel better

I'm fucking hairy.

Finally decided to end things with my off-and-on boyfriend. I know I've been pretty bat shit insane throughout our relationship. It's the best thing for both of us.

Depression is also getting horrible. It's so hard to give a fuck. I can barely get myself out of bed on days where I don't have plans.
Need to lose 10 more lbs but so hard to feel motivated to do anything.

>>6309368
Me too, anon. Me too.

>>6309348
Why can't you get an education? Community colleges aren't that expensive.

Moved out with my girlfriend into our first apartment together, only for her to accidentally slice her hand open, cutting two tendons and two nerves.

She had to get hand surgery and can't do any work with the hand for 8-10 weeks.

My funds alone can't pay for the place, and we were only able to save up enough to last us to the end of November, and that's only if we do not spend a single fucking dollar on anything that's not paying bills, meaning we won't be able to go to Akicon, and any cosplay purchases are out of the question.

She's been looking for another job that doesn't require the use of two hands, but no luck so far :/

So yeah, that's what's getting me down I suppose.

>>6309040
she's using you for college bro.
there is no such thing as a deep down sweer woman, its all just an act.

lets see how those loans on her will feel when the court puts it on your name, can't declare bankruptcy since it's student loans

and have to pay her alimoney.

/my dad is a divorce attorney.

all the shit i have is from people like you
who were too lazy to look out for their own good

life isn't a fucking disney movie, and this country is sinking since it's run by women, i suggest you get into guns and look into mexico once it fails

>>6309395
sell furniture on craigslist while saying it's just for spare money to buy you guys more time.

then when all the furniture is gone,
take the money and the better of the two cars that you hold claim to (name on it) and leave

>>6309424
>>6309417

0/10

Too obvious.

my acne has been flaring up for reason. haven't been making enough money to buy the treatment i usually swear by, so it's probably going to get worse soon.

>>6309453
*for no reason
whoops.

Been single for a week. Had a chat with my ex last night. I've got the closure I needed, but I still feel pretty down. I'm afraid of how long it'll take me to get over him. I'm never going to let myself fall in love again.
> inb4 shut up you're eighteen
> inb4 first world problems
> inb4 time is the greatest healer/there's plenty more fish in the sea

Yeah, I know my problems are pretty minor/pathetic, but, ugh, men. I don't even.

For some reason, I feel awkward trying to hang out with the girls in my Lolita comm by themselves. There are a select few that I actually talk to on a regular basis and one of them(even though she's not a regular) has become one of my best friends. Though I get a bit sad whenever I see all of the girls posting to each others' Facebook walls about certain things. I almost never see them outside of meets. I'm just so nervous and cautious...it sucks. I need more friends.

things are slowly getting better. I got a new job that pays pretty well but I barely get any rest, which means I'm stuck there from early morning to night, every day. I'm still quite lonely and, at this pace and my superb (not) social skills, I'll remain a virgin for many, many years more.

Being lonely. I'm use to being alone though, don't know why I've been so lonely lately. Too much thinking time I think.

How about your hordes of fans?

I have a masculine jawline and I want surgery on it. I've also been trying to find work for about 2 years now.

I have a shit-pay job, I'm not doing anything special with my life like college or whatever, I can't seem to stop gaining weight even though I've been trying to watch what I eat and have been working out and I'm just falling into this major hole of depression because everyone around me is disappointing me so much lately. I want change so bad, but I can't do it by myself and apparently I can't rely on others to help me with it so I'm stuck in a disgusting rut of self-loathing and fat.

Everything sucks and I just want to cry.

Everyone I know has horrible problems...bad job, no money, bad relationships, depressed, etc...and I guess I feel bad because I'm the exact opposite...I landed my dream job, it pays pretty well (nothing stellar but I can splurge each month), live by myself in a bitchin' house for cheap, great relationship, overall I'm super happy...

I'm not really complaining but I feel so guilty a lot that my other friends/acquaintences are in such dire straights and I've already achieved everything I wanted at such a short amount of time...

I'm a manlet and I will never have a she-beast of my own.

I saw this girl's profile on POF and I'm pretty sure I saw her at Atomic Lollipop. She has a picture of her cosplaying as Stocking. Should I message her and say, "Hey, I complimented you and took a picture of your cosplay at Atomic Lollipop". HALP /cgl/!

btw i'm a guy

Girlfriend went to ACL this weekend. Without me.

>>6308895

niggerwuuuuut?

It's Sunday....

I can't tell you why, but my job has really been stressing me out.
My wife is still in afghanistan until june
I'm beginning to despise my 'friends' i've had for the past 2 years
Video games/internet is beginning to fail to cure my boredom
I really want to try and find a cosplay group or something similar in this country that I can talk to and make friends there but the language barrier is pretty big road block for that

All that I look forward to is going to the gym and checking my mail to see if my prop supplies have come in yet..

and i don't know how to sew or make probs or anything

Sometimes I feel like /cgl/ is my only friend.

I just want weeaboo friends that aren't embarassing to be around :< I'm so fucking lonely

>>6311034

Dem linesmen kroot

>>6310386
> don't know why
Probably because it's that time of the month, when you're in heat. So anything that could come inside you (pun originally unintended) seems much better and much more desirable.

>>6311091
I don't know but, this actually made me laugh.
I'm sure at this moment in time I would want... what...I think you're speaking about.

What I really really want is a hug or someone to go on a night walk with.

>>6311476
I would gladly give you a hug Elsie ~

exams

:(((

>>6311484
I'd actually take it. I don't want one! I need one! Now I feel weird, I actually got happy that someone wants to hug me. How sad. I think it's because I'm sleep deprived. I'd be too cowardly to do it any either way though.

>>6311499
Oh so cute ~
Also you should go sleep instead then, sundays was made for sleeping ya know.

>>6311508
I don't allow people to say cute to me! It's insulting!
I didn't even know it was Sunday. I need to get out more. I can't sleep though, I get really anxious when I try sleeping. My nightmares are getting worse. I don't like sleep anymore.

Sometimes I'm such an awkward barrel of spaghetti. I crave social interaction and have access to it, but I don't know how to infer to this person that I want to hang out, but I don't want in their pants.

>>6311514
Want to be moe instead then?
Go for a run, use some energy and you'll fall asleep easier? Else do you wanna cuddle ~ ?

>>6311524
I'm 3D, moe is not possible!
I would go for a walk but, I can't go out when it's dark by myself. Too many scary things can happen because, I'm a girl.
I don't know you! So I couldn't do such a thing with you!

>>6311548
Then... eye fetching? Attractive?
How bout a date then? That way you'll get to know me and we can take a walk outside, it's tots a win-win.

>>6311563
>>6311548
I really hope you guys are just trolling.

>>6311563
Also, how long was your ban?

>>6311563
I don't enoy compliments honestly but, thank you. I have never been on a 'real' date, I don't think I could!

>>6311583
He is but, I wish I was haha. I'm spacing out right now. Talking to anyone is kind of pleasant. Though, I will leave before I say more stupid things. Sorry anon.

>>6311594
3 days for avatar faggin.

>>6311600
Who said i wasnt serious? I'll just leave the offer up for a date to you.

>>6311616
Oh well. Let's hope we'll get an another 3 day break then!

>>6311600
>He is but, I wish I was haha.
Well thank god for that. I was almost worried you didn't know he was the resident troll (Hobbes/dildos level).

You were here for more than a year right?

Grandpa sold the house I live in. Have nowhere to go after we move out. Next day was birthday and I proceeded to do everything wrong at work. Day after that get fired for not being enthusiastic. I liked my job I just don't believe in pestering the customers all the time. I wish I would've gotten a warning though...

>>6311655
Yeah I've been around for a while, not sure how long but, definitely longer than a year. Was a lurker for the longest time and was too afraid to post. I'm going to head to bed now. Good night!

Hope all you with things keeping you down can keep your chin up and feel better! I believe in you!

>>6311669
Getting ready for that cuddlan?

>>6311600
Didn't you have a boyfriend?

I don't think I love my boyfriend any more. We're good friends and I greatly enjoy spending time with him, but I'm a few years older than he is and realize that he hasn't had the time to harden his heart or become who he wants to be as a person yet. The words come out of his mouth and he seems to have a good idea of the world, but he still acts like a child. I need a partner, not someone to babysit. It sucks being the mature, somber person in a relationship.

All of his friends think I have a stick up my ass or something, but I simply don't enjoy the same things that they do and would rather spend a quiet night at home or go to a play rather than go to a cosplay gathering.

>>6311684
How older?

>>6311688
Three years. It's not much, I'll admit, but he's still in his early twenties. He hasn't had the chance to experience a real relationship quite yet, which he's freely admitted, because he used to dance around from woman to woman.

This might seem a bit out there, but personal experiences have aged me, so I'm 25 going on 40. I know what I want out of life, but he's still coming into his own. It's a little frustrating watching him make the same mistakes and discoveries that I've made years and years ago.

I'm afraid to go to sleep.

I have night terrors and sleep paralysis, and every time I've gone to sleep lately I've had an episode. The night terrors don't happen very often, but when they do it's incredibly disturbing and every time I shut my eyes after that it gets worse.

At least with the sleep paralysis I'm aware of what is happening after a moment, but it takes forever to wake myself up. Plus, the whole time it's happening I'm freaking out.

I know that irregular sleep schedules don't help me, but I'm so scared... So I just stay up until I absolutely can't any longer, and I pass out. At least then it doesn't happen.

>>6311690
>It's a little frustrating watching him make the same mistakes and discoveries that I've made years and years ago.
What sort of thing are you talking about?

>>6311695
Have you tried a sleep aid of any kind? It might help.

>>6311676
Stop trying to get her banned again, pls.

>>6311702
But it happens while I'm drifting off to sleep and right after a lucid dream. I don't see how they're going to help with that at all.

I don't trust them, but that may be the lack of sleep talking.

>>6311704
Im just showing her my love, is it wrong of me?

>>6311700
Things like goals for the future, children, unrealistic expectations for financial stability while he's still in school, and the fact that he doesn't value independence as fiercely as I do. He's lived with his parents in the same house his entire life and doesn't have plans to move out any time soon. My pace is too fast to deal with a "failure to launch" project and I refuse to change anyone.

women

The girl I like and sort of had a bit of a thing with for a while got a boyfriend recently and hasn't told me. I don't know if she's making a point of not telling me because she thinks she's ~protecting my feels~ or whatever but I wish people could just be honest about stuff. Also it's been a little over a month since I last socialised and I sort of feel bad for not feeling too bad about that. But I'm feeling pretty down now and I'm not sure whether I'll feel up to going to the convention in a couple of weeks, let alone cosplaying.

>>6311738
You should go to the convention and cosplay, it might make you feel better. Try it, see how you feel after a while - it might be just what you need to cheer up and forget about her for a little while.

>>6311743
I'm hoping it'll help. But for some reason I'm making a three day thing out of it and it might just completely burn me out after not socialising for so long. Guess I'll just see how it goes. What's the worst that could happen.

>>6311709
Yes, the fact that you call it 'showing love' does not automatically make it positive.

The same way, you could understand killing people as 'showing [your] love [to them]', but it's still killing so it's kind of not good for them.

>>6311760
You also want my love?

My dog died yesterday. ;_;

I went to a convention today and I feel I'm seeing the con scene from an outsiders perspective. Most of the people there looked or acted overwhelmingly pathetic to me. Man children and weebs everywhere and I felt myself really disliking them, I enjoy my 'normal' hobbies far more than my nerdy ones now days.

My friends at times are 20 going on 12 and are hopeless homestucks, I just play nice to keep from rocking the boat, lying constantly to be nice but inside I feel nothing but pity and disgust. I regret introducing my friend to my fandoms too, its all 'feels' and childish behaviour from her, I liked it better when I kept it to myself.

I feel like a massive bitch.

I fucking hate being ugly. I'm so sick of it.
As soon as I'm able, I'm getting my ass to Korea for a bunch of surgery.

I hate that everybody's always watching me. It takes away all my control, people constantly checking up on me, refusing to let me do what I want, lying to me, trying to convince me I'm not disgusting. I can't even admit how I feel to my girlfriend because she makes me feel guilty for feeling ugly.

I'm getting back into my ED though. It took a while, but I've figured out how to do it without anybody noticing. It's so satisfying to be able to slip back into it. Nobody questions you if you claim you want to be healthy; it's only if you say you want to be thin. So it's easy.

>>6311774
Well you can't actually use your 'love' / ban trolling on anons, so, it's up to you.

>>6311833
So people are afraid of getting banned for talking with me..? Do you hate me?

Avatarfagging is forbidden by the global rules (#13), please don't do it and report it when people do.

>>6311844
I agree with this post.

>>6311835
No, I think you just need time to cool off. 3 days, or maybe 30 would be nice.

>>6311912
>>6311844
What i truely enjoy the most is Tsunderes, and /cgl/ is filled with these!

>>6311921
You know, sometimes, sometimes I'm really worried that you're actually autistic / retarded. You keep saying the same things over and over again, with the same pictures even.

At least dildozer and hobbes are sometimes funny. You're not even trying.

>>6311925
I might have slight autism since i cant handle being social, but thanks for caring atleast!

so i was suposed to go to nycc friday sat and sun.
I argued with my boss about it and i thought i had it worked out that if i worked 5 to 9 sat night i could have friday and sunday off.
so i get the scedual yesterday for this week when i came in to close, and despite her promise, i am working today even fucking though she promissed me i could have the day off......and she has sat and sun off.
even though i requested this months ago and she never put any request in.
only one key holder has to work on sunday, there is 3 of us, why the fuck do i have to be the one working?
it would not be so bad but my boyfriend kepts txting me updates of what they are doing and how crouded and wonderfull it is....he is just trying to make me feel involved, i know, but it is not helping how depressed I am that i did not find out ill last night and i had plans and things to buy still....
ya my boss is a cunt.
I am so close to calling my district and walking the fuck out, because this is not the first time this shit has happened.

>>6311970
NYCC is kind of shitty this year. Yeah, they have the standard dealer's hall and crap, but the panels aren't really that interesting and the cosplayers are embarrassing.

>>6311970
Dont be sad about it! You can still watch NYCC from where you are.
>http://live.niconico.com/watch/lv110281002

Or you could watch the stratos jumping
>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MrIxH6DToXQ

OR even.. watch both!

I seem to shit all over anything good that comes my way, particularly with relationships. I go for women that I want to be with only to find out they have no interest in me, then discover that I passed up opportunities with other women who were interested in me and have moved on to other guys.

It's a vicious cycle of shit and self loathing.

I'll never be agood singer or voice actor.
As much as I love it I'll never be any good at it.

>>6312095
Should've auditioned @ X-Factor.

>>6311047
It cannot enter in... uggg

This is kind of a toss up between hilarious and annoying. Hobbes obviously misses me so much and such a hardcore tsundere. I feel a little bit embarrassed for him. He acts like such a child and throws a fit when he can't get his way.

>>6312354
I was gonna say that it's not kewl to post private convos, but then....

>mfw someone saying that in a public post.
>mfw someone saying that... period.

wat

Took accutane for severe acne and for a while my skin was clear.
Few months after I stopped taking it, now I'm back to being plain ol' pizza face.

>feels badman

I also keep trying and failing to lose weight.
Goddammit, by the time I go to University I will be skinny if it KILLS ME!

I made the mistake of volunteering as the costumer for a play.
there is literally no budget and no time. one of the directors has high expectations and is expecting me to work miracles.
my family is going though some really scary medical things and I have ten million midterms this week.

ah college...............

>>6312354
>mfw Cali tripfag drama
This is what I come to /cgl/ for.

battling what i think is my third uti in the past two years. shit sucks, but since i can still sit down and my crotch doesn't feel like it's on fire, it's not too bad. hoping that its just dehydration or in its early stages and i can flush it out, because i dont want to go to the doctor. thankfully im covered insurance-wise, but i hate troubling my mother, since this would be the second time ive had to go to the hospital in the past 4 months.
plus she's also mad at me for taking a promotion at my job and therefore not going to college...its not like i wanted to drop out... but with the extra money i will be making i'll be able to go back next fall, hopefully.

>>6312376
Please be in London.

>>6312395

I am...

> Need a change of career.
I hate retail. My job's not so bad as retail goes, the money's not SO bad, but at the end of a day, it's a job. And there's very little opportunity for advancement. Oh, and I hate the industry.

> I need to treat customers more like people and less like obstacles.
Orders right from the very top to EVERYONE in the company. Seems they finally realised that the company is a pyramid. So now I have to improve my customer service enough that people notice it. I don't DO 'chatty', because I'm an antisocial bastard (also asperger's), so I'm trying to just nod at them, and acknowledge their presence and people-ness.

> ENGAGE PANIC MODE
I got necomimi. I want them black, they come in white. Was all set to get someone to sort that out, but now, two weeks before the con, they suddenly can't.
Not their fault, but now I have to find someone who can do it at short notice.

> Flu.
My mother has it. I can't really afford days off right now, so I don't fucking want it.

> Shitty phone connection.
Work called earlier. Twice. Call was dropped after a few seconds both times by the signal dropping out. I'm going to have to find out who called me and what about. And it was a new number, so I HAVE NO IDEA WHO TO ASK.
Maybe if I just ignore it, it'll go away. Unless it was something I actually wanted to hear.

my skin color and constantly being paranoid about no one liking me if i cosplay anyone pale or white

I hit my hand on railing to a staircase last night, and now my tendon is bruised. Cant sew or do anything barely with it, so I just have this retarded hand...

>>6312401
Shit I wasn't expecting that. Well I'm sorry to disappoint but I'm not actually from London.

>>6312447

>>6312460

>>6311800
you're such a faggot why the fuck are you tripfagging while talking about your issues what the fuck are you doing lady you sound like me when i was 15

>still no qt asian bf
it's a tough life

>>6311800
you do realize any self respecting trip drops it for posting that suff right?

>still no qt nerdy gf with glasses
life is suffering

I keep trying to figure out how and why separation of variables works for PDEs but I can't ;_;

>>6312462

>>6312474
>tfw no 5'5" average qt 3.14 corean/cosplayer gf

ended an extremely unstable relationship with my boyfriend a few days ago, slowly getting over it and figuring out how to be a person again.

messaged a guy I used to be friends with yesterday and sitting here hoping he responds even though I know he almost never uses facebook

senior pictures are due thrusday and i haven't even gotten mine taken and man it's stressing me out a lot wow

>>6312551

w-want to t-talk about it?

I'm still in love with my boyfriend who broke up with me a few months ago after being together for two years, during which he promised that we were soulmates, that he would never let me go and that we would spend our lives together.

My mum moved into the middle of nowhere which is too far away from my state's only university, so I was forced to move out and was homeless for awhile. Oh, and beforehand I was expecting to live with my boyfriend until he broke up with me.

I found out that my dad died when I was six, not two like I had always believed. So basically my whole family lied to me and my mum refuses to talk to me about it. I still know barely anything about him after meeting what's left of his family for the first time since I was one after going to my grandfather's funeral (I never met him either).

I have no real friends, everyone cancels on me but then again I do that too because I'm so fucking anxious whenever I'm in public. Due to being so bloody depressed I've been hiding away in my room and now the anxiety when I'm in public is unbearable.

Oh, and I'm failing university so I may lose my government support which means I'll have to move in with my mum if she'll let me which means I can't go to uni at all. Oh, and I'm in debt 1000+ dollars. I think that's most of it.

>>6312582

>>6312571

I give the same offer to you

>>6312466
>>6312502

I actually meant to drop my trip, I kept it on by accident (I usually drop it to post on /ck/, and as I was coming from /ck/, didn't realize I still had the trip on.). Didn't notice until now. I'm sorry, it was an accident.

>>6312594

The nice guy facade doesn't work dude

>>6312551
oh you must be soo heartbroken that the first thing you can think of after breaking up with your boyfriend is to message another dude for a rebound fuck
I smell slut

>>6311679
No, I haven;t had a boyfriend for about...geez, it will be 2 years in a couple months. I haven't even been on a date.

>>6312852
The date offer is still valid ~

>>6312891
Whiteboy pls, leave Elsie along she a strong independent woman who don't need no man.

Why you never done hit on me like that? Just that "big sister" bs. Is it cause I happen to be black?

>>6308775
lol'd so hard

>went full retard about some job with a pc
>lost 1.7gb of personal data of that person
>recover as much as possible, 1.5gb in pictures, videos and music
>client is all like "oh, it's cool, don't worry..."
>disaster adverted

2 days later

>recieve email
>Hey anon! Are my over 100 personal docs amongst the data you gave me?
>mfw

...shit

On another note I wanna get an eyepatch but it'd be too embarrasing to wear in public.

>>6313086
Yo.

Stop posting.

>>6313086
>On another note I wanna get an eyepatch but it'd be too embarrasing to wear in public.
It cool if you be fly like dis sister
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PrK7TOoa7s0
Dayumn, she like the winner for me already. And they shown like none of her audition, you believe that?

Just like they dumped my fave Panda after her adition, like whatdafuck. Racism on TV.

College and living on my own is a bit overwhelming.

>>6312632

o-okay..

I feel fat but I won't stop eating.
I need to do some work and so does my boyfriend but I just want to have sex.

>>6312582
What the hell is the deal with your mom? Unless your dad was a douchebag or something, it's only right for children to know their fathers as well as his side of the family. You should ask her straight on why she did this. Don't worry about you 1k debt. One minimum wage job will take care of it. Your social anxiety is what's really keeping you back but since you're going to a university which is obviously has a bunch of people, it can be managed. Try to get a job ON campus.

>>6313116
Whoa, they're actually good.

Love doesn't exist.

new biebz video sucked

kms

>>6313251
You're husbando has nudes, how does that makes you feel?

>>6313263
AW FUCK I LOOSE TRACK OF HIM FOR A MONTH AND THE NUDES COME OUT? link link link

>>6313283
http://xyzea.wordpress.com/2012/10/12/photos-justin-biebers-nude-photo-leaked/

>>6313293
not him, hes missing too many tattoos

Need more motivation to lose weight. I'm not fat, but I used to be athletic from soccer and DDR, but then I went to college and lost all time to myself. I'm out of college and control my eating, but I need to exercise now also. I want to get back in shape to cosplay again before I get too old (If there is a too old point.)

Need to complain more. I'm tired of not being able to be alone. The second I'm alone I get scared because I think of stuff I don't want to. I try music, tv, and games but it doesn't help much. It's depressing, so I just talk to people on Skype 24/7 and not sleep much.

>>6314729
You can always talk to me, Elsie.

I'm European so I'm on whenever everyone else is off.
>tfw

>>6313022
I what?

>>6315075
>>6314729
But that's a fake Elsie...

Get started a few minutes early.
Work on something that’s meaningful to you.
Complete an important piece of unfinished business.
Spend time with positive, friendly people.
Do something nice for someone else.
Be present. Focus on where you are, what you’re doing and who you’re with right now.
Do one thing at a time. (Read Getting Things Done.)
Listen to your self-talk. When you hear negative thoughts, think about the positive side of things.
Smile, even when there’s no pressing reason to do so.
Unplug. Entertain yourself with real-world experiences.
Go somewhere new. See something new. Meet someone new.
Do something that makes you laugh.
Challenge your mind. Learn a new skill.
Challenge your body. Exercise for 30 minutes. (Read The 4-Hour Body.)
Let someone help you.
Clear a little clutter by getting rid of something you don’t need.
Be honest with yourself and those around you.
Don’t compare yourself to others. Instead, let them inspire you.
Spend a few minutes alone in silence, just thinking.
Focus on solutions.
Keep an open mind to new ideas and information.
Handle important two-minute tasks immediately.
Stay out of other people’s drama. And don’t needlessly create your own.
Say, “Please,” “Thank you,” “I’m sorry” and “I love you,” when you should.
Don’t try to please everyone. Just do what you know is right.
Eat a healthy breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Savor the natural joy of simple pleasures.
Notice what’s right with the world.
Focus on all the things you already have, think about them and appreciate them.
Get to sleep a little earlier tonight so you’re well rested tomorrow.

>>6315078
Or maybe she was just tired and mistyped her name +trip. Stop being racist.

I went to my first con last weekend with a few friends.

Needless to say I miss the amount of cat ears everywhere, the music shaking everything there, hugging people I don't even know and pretty ladies.

school. work. i want plastic surgery, but i have no money.

Some of the "cool kids" need an extra roomie for a local con, and I am flat broke and cannot swing it.
Probably a good thing, as I would just end up being awkward as all get out.

>>6315653
>implying you're not one of the cool kids

Worried I'm not going to get the job I just interviewed for. The interview went really well and I have a bunch of people in high places rooting for me, but I can't help my paranoia.

I'm also feeling like killing myself if I don't get it, like this is my last chance to succeed in life.

I don't know how to lose weight. I'm at 120 (5'4) right now, right now I just try to not eat lunch/dinner. But I don't want to be a party-pooper with healthy stuff, all my friends are thin and loves chocolate, fries etc, and think healthy people are kinda lame. They just eat crappy stuff, but then don't eat for two days or whatever. My boyfriend thinks that the perfect date is playing video games and eating doritos and stuff (and it is!) and as he doesn't want me to lose weight, he would probably be sad if I didn't want to do that, and get worried.
fml (white girl problemsssssssss, ikr)

>>6315855
oh, and also, the school lunch here in the uk is crap.

>>6315855
Exercise more and eat some fruit instead of unhealthy snacks. If your friends/boyfriend complain about you for going for a jog or eating an apple then they can fuck right off, because these are things that should make you feel better. Seriously, if they're good friends then they should support you in this.

I skipped class today.
Didn't want to but I didn't finish my art project in time and it would've been really awkward for me to just sit there in class with everyone else presenting. I'm just really tired. Work and school is all I do.

Work tried to call me again. Twice. Both times it dropped. I now think I know what it's about; EVERYONE is expected to bring in proof of their right to work in the UK. By 5PM today.
I don't work weekends, so I heard about this today.
So, I have to remember to take my passport in tomorrow, or I get suspended without pay until I produce it.
Now they're going to laugh at my passport photo; 18-year-old me, with short hair, dorky glasses, and stupid-looking teeth.

Con-disaster averted for now.

I need new glasses. I can't really afford to spend £300 on them, but neither can I afford to cheap out on the damn things; I need to wear them ALL THE TIME. I NEED that anti-scratch coating, and the ultra-thin lenses.

I don't feel well. I think I'm a bad mood away from getting sick; if I can't stay positive, my immune system will stop trying.
I can't really afford time off work, but I need a fucking break. Maybe next weekend, I can spend some time in recovery mode, sleeping, playing videogames, and not eating too much.

I'm contemplating just pulling a day off sick, taking the bureaucracy on the chin afterwards, and taking some fucking time to myself so I can decompress.

I need more people to talk to, and to remember how to be a nice, likeable person again instead of a ball of depression, rage, and tiredness.

Maybe I can pick up friends at expo this time.

>>6316042
Why would they laugh at your passport picture? Everyone looks like crap on them anyway! xx

My Mom, who I haven't spoken to in the past 5-6 years has just discovered the internet.

Back when I was a kid, she was an alcoholic, and did a few things I don't want to talk about even under the cover of anonymity.

Anyway, she went to prison for arson for a number of years and changed her life around apparently. Woudn't know havent talked to her, by my family says she's better.

She's dying, liver and kidney damage from a lifetime of abuse, and now she can easily track me down.

Part of me wants to talk to make amends (from what my sister has said, she isn't... really there anymore. Its more like talking to a neighbor you used to live by, they remember you, but not that well.)
Part of me wants to just let her die and have it be that.

Thats what's got me down today, everything else is just peachy.

Well, since you asked.

Basically every time i try to do something right/not fuck up, i tend to fuck up even more.

First, my computer got mysterious water damage while i wasn't in my dorm. So i luckily go to someone who will fix it for free, and gave me his temporary one while i looked for a cheaper lapto i can switch the harddrive into. Whilst waiting for my new one to ship, someone took it and spilled beer on the keybaord, thus breaking that one. I finally get the new one, and the company sends me the wrong laptop. All while i need my laptop for my graphic design class.

On top of this, I somehow managed to lose my phone from the walk to the dorm doors to my dorm room. Still in wonder. Then I lost my ipod, but luckily someone found it.

I then spent the rest of the week rushing my cosplay in time for a con, and then my sewing machine broke.

On top of all of this, I found out today I failed two tests which I thought i got perfect hundreds on.

I just.... everything is just going wrong and every attempt i do to fix something it gets worse.

Well I was kicked out of home this month last year, and it seems to be going that way again now. Not really a bad thing I guess, I am of age now where I can move out, just I can't support myself. I don't have a well paying job, I haven't finished my studies, I would literally have nothing if I was to leave home again. The only reason why I survived last year was because I had friends willing to support me, but not anymore.

My relationship with my mother isn't the greatest. I'm kind of lost at the moment. Sometimes I feel she would be better off without me, but I also know she's lonely as fuck. I admit, I wasn't the best kid and I'm definitely not the best adult but I'm trying. I'm trying so fucking hard to make things better.

That, and also my mum is a psychopathic bitch who's out to sabotage what happiness she has. She called the cops because I was at my boyfriend's house. I'm fucking 20 years old.

>inb4 just stay live with your boyfriend
Yeah, he also relies on his parents. Kind of a spoiled brat since he was young. His mum still cradles him and believes I should be that ~kawaii Asian housewife~ that all Asian men deserve.

What the fuck do I do.

>Captcha: idkyour and

My best friend got suspended from university in February for trying to kill herself- she was 'disrupting other students' studies'. She did need some time off, she was going crazy with social stress. I know better than anyone. I'm the one who took her to hospital. I knew she needed some time off, but she didn't need a year. The Master of our college is just being a power-tripping cunt, suspending her for longer and longer because she called him a Nazi for dating Enoch Powell's daughter. You'd think a successful middle-aged man in charge of a prestigious college would be less insecure.

but he isn't. Just keeps extending the sentence. I miss her so much and I just want her back, fuck, I'm leaving this country for Germany in a year's time and she might not even be back by then. I worry that if they keep fucking with her, she'll go crazy again. They're fucking with her whole future. She worked so hard to get into Oxford and now the welfare team are just being malicious cunts. They don't care about anyone's welfare, only the Master's precious reputation.


I just fucking want my best friend back at uni with me man. I'm so angry and upset and I just want to beat someone up right now. I feel so helpless.

>>6316112
You sound stressed, time to relax abit and take it easy.
Get some overview over your life and focus.

>>6316131
Grow up and accept life as it is, time to be the adult you should be.
Start with a low-wage job whatever it could be and work your way, sometime you have to offer what time you have to educate yourself + work.

When your education is over and you get a better job, you can look back at what you have achieved in life and you'll be happy.

>>6316095
Because I look like a complete dork on it! I see it, I cringe at my lack of style.

It's not quite as bad as my old student ID card, though. THAT had a photo taken when I was recovering from a bike accident, and had visible scarring all down one cheek.
(It's since healed up, but I STILL can't grow muttonchops. It destroyed a bunch of folicles. :( )

>>6316145
Oxford are cunts like that. Whole town's full of stuck-up snobs, university isn't much different.

Cambridge far superior. Even if they do need to add compulsory common sense classes.

My grandma passed away this morning around 9am
She was on hospice and everything and we knew it was coming.
Its just hard since my family was taking care of her.
I need hugs.

>>6316297
I know that feel, make her proud by smiling and show you're growing up, it's part of life.

My boyfriend threw me under the bus and needless to say I broke up with him.

Fucking coward.

Tired of being tired all the time, though I'm going to go for a blood test to see if I have anemia. Also waiting to be paid, kinda annoying. All first world problems though.

>>6316383
Now now, like did he literally throw you under a bus or is this some kinda word play?

it is not a real world issue, but my community recently blew up in unknown drama and I just want to leave lolita. I know the fashion can be enjoyed solo but I am not feeling it without a community.
Or more like I will enjoy the fashion on its own but I feel I do not need as many clothes as I do if I do not go to meetups. But I do not want to regret selling most of my clothes in the future either.
what do

My mother's death.