/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Was in a car wreck recently. Not my fault, myself and the other driver are Ok. But my car is awaiting inspection at a facility and I'm not sure how to go about settlements for total loss (the adjuster is telling me it's *probably* totaled in response to the pictures I sent in and the fact it will not start and the front basically was torn off in the wreck). I've never dealt with such a bad accident and I don't want to be taken advantage of by the insurance company if they low ball me on the value. But I'm not sure how to go about refusing offers/waiting for new offers? Anyone have any experience?

the guy I'm interested in doesn't like me back and I don't deal with rejection well. I keep trying to make up fantasies where we are in a perfect happy relationship. whenever I see him I always hope he will come to his senses and ask me out but deep down I know it will never happen.

>>6269406
Was in an accident on the 9'th. 18 wheeler ran a red light and plowed into me at 55 mph. Luckily he only hit my front end and sent me spinning..

My car is totaled, a '96 Camry LE. The claims adjuster straight up asked me how much I thought my car was worth, I told him 7,500.
I took very good care of the car, you see. Lots of sentimental value.

They tried to settle with me for $4,300. I fought back against them and managed to get 4,800.

if you roll over and die, they will dick you good. my sisters car got totaled by another driver, wasn't her fault. She was driving a '04 Dodge Stratus. Car got totaled. She didn't fight back or anything, and she only got $1800 out of it.

>>6269411
b-beta as fuck

I'm similar to PT, just not as delusional and worse off socially. I'll be 30 in a few years- I've never dated or kissed a guy, I have no friends or social skills. I spend all my time alone. I can't talk to people, I even stumble with clerks at stores. I don't work. I tried once, I was shaking so hard before the interview I just left. I have no idea how to start improving my social skills, I always embarrass myself. I really don't want to depend on medication either.

>>6269429
Ok, I've already done research into the blue book value for trade in as well as private sale, and I've looked at actual listings available for my car (in worse condition than before the accident even). Did you do the same research for your value, or was it a ballpark? If they only offer me close to 50% of the value that seems like they are taking advantage of me. It seems I would be able to say I want the option of buying my exact same car pre-accident, so the value should be close to what's on the market now? Thanks for the info, I am definitely going to fight back.

I really want to cosplay and I think I have the potential for it but I don't want to attract attention from bad people and 4chan stalkers and gossip or have pictures of me floating around the internet for the rest of time while I try to get a more respectable boring white collar job as an analyst at a financial firm or whatever.

>>6269441
My car's value was about 3k. I had newish tires on it, told the adjuster that I recently put a new water pump and timing belt on it ($200). and new front struts ($300)
I explained to him that since the accident that it's become difficult for me to drive, I keep having panic attacks when an 18 wheeler passing me on a 2-lane road, etc.
The key is trying to get some pain and suffering money $$

I don't know why I struggle to make friends.

I know how to make friends, but everytime I meet people I find it so hard to connect. I find them boring, mostly because they don't seem to have any passionate hobbies. So I end up feeling lonely as fuck and my boyfriend doesn't. He thinks I have some sort of mild aspergers and I genuinely found that distressing.

Close family friend also has cancer in his kidney but refuses to try a transplant, even if I offered. We're throwing him a party this week and it's too surreal right now. Doctors said he had 4/5 months to live.

>>6269448
Ahh ok, that makes me feel much better. As for pain and suffering... I wasn't injured and declined ambulance services, I don't know if I can spin that, I'd just like to get the value of my car back (around 12 grand according to current used market prices). I had just paid it off too. Annoying.

>>6269406
Not only are they supposed to pay for the cost of the car, that are supposed to pay for your medical costs + pain and suffering. Do not let them low ball you. If you can't handle the stress, get a lawyer. But be aware that they will take half of what you are awarded with.

So a guy and I like each other. We haven't said it but it's really obvious to anyone with a beating pulse. So now, what's the next step? If I made a move, would it be too fast? If I wait longer, too late? I honestly don't care if we get into a relationship, but I don't want to have things blow up and destroy our friendship.

I sound like one of them lovesick women who write to advice columns, and frankly, I don't like these feels.

>>6269454
Pain and suffering is a broad term.
I've been without a car for almost a month now. They only gave me a rental for a week. All the headache and looking for a new car, fucking hard to do if you do it right.. Driving near out-of-state to check out cars to buy, etc.

That shit is pain and suffering.
As for actual pain and suffering, I only received a bump on the head, bruised shoulder, and sprained ankle. they were going to give me $250 for P&S

I was supposed to leave for a month-long field training exercise with my unit last Friday. The day before, I had a medical procedure done and my doctor wouldn't allow me to go. (No showers, port-o-potties, and there's no fucking toilet paper down there. Too unsanitary for recovery) My boyfriend as well as every single one of my friends is there. I'm alone on base with literally no one I know.

TL;DR
I'm lonely as fuck

>>6269463
I'm not afraid to argue with them, I'm not in a position that I need the money, since I have a rental through my own policy for several weeks. How do I go about the pain and suffering though? Just tell them I start getting nervous while driving and it's affecting me? I have not actually spoken with anyone other than my claims adjuster and a rep from the other insurance agency just wanting basic information. I have not spoken to the settlement rep yet, as the condition of the car has not been determined at this time.

Ever since I started work as a cashier I have become severely depressed. I hate how people treat me like shit for doing my job, I get ridiculed at work by nosy coworkers (working as a cashier is drama). I just want to do my job and get experience so that I can leave already and get a desk job or something not as horrible as retail/customer service.

>>6269469
Also, there will be no phone communication for the next two weeks. Fuck.

I think it's better to get it off your chest. If denied, nobody said you still can't be friends, right? Just don't be annoying clingy.

>>6269470
If you do decide to contact a lawyer, don't contact a personal injury attorney, they can only help you if you're injured, obviously

2many qt boiz

>>6269471
Yes, retail is horrible. That's why I treat them nice now. Until you've worked a retail job, you can't even begin to imagine the daily shit you get from all directions.

>>6269483
I know I can get a free consultation from an attorny. I figured I'd throw that out there if they want to haggle with me. I already know that even if they say 'sorry we can't offer any more' it's not a reason to simply accept. Now that I know a little more about the pain and suffering and to insert all the work done on my car (regular, responsible maintenance such as the 60k mile inspection/work and replacement of all the belts as well as installing a trailer hitch and new muffler) I have an even better idea of what to say. I should hear from someone about the settlement next week I think. The other insurance company has already claimed liability. This is all assuming the car is totaled of course. Thanks for the help anons, now I have a lot more ground to stand on.

>>6269437
Kind of the same. Except I'm a guy and working.
Professionally it's all fine, because it's my job to be awesome and produce awesome stuff.

But if it's personal, the void. And I just freeze thinking about any slight possibility of relationship.

Want to talk? I can at least try to make you get a job.

Well, my dad is an elder (76) taking care of me by himself. He doesn't take care of himself (diabetes) and his mood/vision is getting worse and worse. He keeps losing his money and throwing it around everywhere. He's in excessive dept (lawyers, dentists, house/bills) and he's putting it all on me. I've been trying to get a job for about a month now (I just turned 16) to no avail. I'm also really behind in school, but now at a different school taking as many classes as I can to catch up, and I just feel so overwhelmed. It's horrifying to think that when my dad kicks the bucket all his debt will be on my shoulders and I can't stop him from adding more/helping him solve it now. ;_;

>>6269510
im not totally sure the debt will fall on you anyway, just do your schoolwork

>>6269510
>It's horrifying to think that when my dad kicks the bucket all his debt will be on my shoulders
That's not the way it works.
Where do you live?

>>6269510
You can't take over your dad's debt since your underage. It doesn't work that way. Truthfully, if you're under that much stress, tell him to declare bankruptcy. If you can't or won't do that, consolidate his bills under one loan. Tell them to lower their interest rate or get nothing.

>>6269510
also gtfo underage

>>6269495
I've always treated retail people nicely since I knew their job was crap. But the thing that adds onto this is where I work, walmart... It's made me turn into a sour, cynical, depressed person.

I graduated college and couldn't find a job, especially since I had no previous experience. So I'm using this as a building block to try and get a government job or something else better.

I just realized that my boss is retarded.

No, I don't mean HURR DURR HE SO STOOPID

I legitimately think he's getting alzheimers or something. I am actually pretty depressed about that.

He's gotten to the point where he doesn't remember that he assigned me a task or not. I've told him explicitly at least five times this month that I've graduated from college this spring but he still keeps citing me in work as a student. He calls me by my coworker's name constantly, in real life and in emails. I can't remember the last time an email was titled by my name.

I get so frustrated at him, but I immediately feel bad about it after. He likes me a lot and relies on me heavily because I'm his only employee who gets any shit done. He's highly regarded in his field and pretty intelligent, so it's bewildering and kinda scary to see him act so spaced out.

>>6269404
I'm finally recovering from a life of mental disorders and I'm finally able to be happy, and it turns out a lot of the things I stopped worrying about in regards to my relationship turned out to be true. I'm trying not to let it get me down but I'm not sure what to do. I've been officially with my boyfriend for almost 4 years and I don't want to break things off but I don't think I can trust him anymore. He keeps trying to apologize and say he loves me but I don't believe him. He needs to figure his shit out. I'm really pissed and I wish I could just go out and find a new boyfriend but it's not that easy. We got along so well.

My exgirlfriend and I started talking a few weeks ago after not talking for a month after breaking up. Then I posted a picture to FB of me and a girl together that she was jealous of during our relationship. She unfriended on both the IM we talked on and FB. I don't know what the fuck to do. We didn't even do anything that bad, just hung out for a couple hours. I don't know if I should ignore my ex because I know she's pissed or try and contact her again. I don't think there's anything I can say at this point.

It's so hard to let go. It feels so fucking bad.

>>6269515
>>6269517
>>6269518

Isn't it? That's what I've heard from a few close friends. And I mean that when I'm 18 it would. California here. And yes, I'm doing my best on schoolwork now. A's all around now that I'm trying.
He wont let me talk to him about it at all, he just gets upset and goes in his room. I've even tried talking to my sister (she's 47) to try to talk some sense into him, but nothing really works.

>>6269522
Like half of 4chan isn't.

>>6269530
Those type of people need to have things written down because obviously his mind is not there anymore but he can still read. Make it easier for him to remember you, a name tag or a desk plate will do. Maybe you should talk to his wife about this.

>>6269539
Just ignore your ex. She's your ex for a reason. You don't need more useless drama. And not for something especially mild as this.

>>6269540
if i wasnt doing my homework, id be telling a mod

lucky you

>>6269539
Just leave her alone. She probably needs the separation more than you need her companionship, especially if you were the one who broke up with her. Just go on without her and you'll both be better for it.

When she feels up for it, she'll get back to you, but don't try to force it if she's the one who cut contact with you.

I've recently stopped giving a shit at work.
I’ve had so many fights with them- its ridiculous. I’ve never been written up before because I think my manager enjoys it when I blow up at them. When they complain about me, he pretends to be too old that he cant understand what the problem is. He pretends to scold me a little then once they leave he looks at me and says “Fucking Bitches- Like I give a damn.”
Also, the little questions are starting to irk me. “DO YOU WORK HERE?” Fuck this question
>when I just come out the stock room AND THEY SEE ME WALK OUT THE STOCK ROOM
>when I’m behind the register
>when I’m stocking the store
>when we used to wear bright ass t-shirts that had the stores logo on the front and back
One person asked me while I was stocking- I told them no and walked into the stock room.
Also, fuck you if you don’t at least acknowledge the fact that someone is greeting you.
This job has made me a wee bit racist. When a Mexican or Middle Eastern family comes in I know they are going to be the messiest fucks ever. When an Asian/white family come in, I expect spoiled ass vermin. I specifically hate Mexican families. Messy, spoiled fucking kids.
Drama between co-workers. they steal from the store- I know it. But there's no incentive to rat them out. I know most retail stores offer 5k bonus to their check if they report a co-worker is stealing. Nope- not our store. So fuck it.
I know this isn't the attitude for customer service- but this is the most flexible job for a college student. While I do realize I'm to blame for being unhappy at work, after all I could go look for another job but I'm transferring schools in the next few months. I still vent about it to feel better.

>>6269540
debt doesn't work that way, end of story.
every human is responsible for their own shit in murrika

>>6269541
I've been trying my best to help him when I can, and I don't hold it against him when I get called a different name. I think treating him badly for something he didn't mean to do would just make him upset and even more confused.

I...don't know where his wife is, actually...She also works, and their kids are in college doing their own thing. It seems she has a hard time getting ahold of him too, she's called the lab phone at work before looking for him. I think he doesn't keep his cell on. Maybe I can talk to some of his colleagues and at least get her number or email.

>>6269540
Your friends are stupid. The person who should be afraid is your dad's wife since the debt would be shared. It wouldn't go to you since you didn't sign anything and it wasn't your choice. However, the companies may TRY to make it seem that you owe them but don't listen. Tell your dad to do some estate planning before it's too late.

I can't make friends at all

It seems that guys only talk to me because they wanna go out with me.I always feel happy whenever it seems that I've finally been accepted into a circle of people but it always ends up as "Oh, anon? She's the girl that X likes" and no one else really likes me

also I'm pretty much invisible at work. I solved this problem we've been having and made a new, more efficient method to do what we do, and my boss attributed to a less experienced girl and told me to ask her to show me how to do that procedure.

we have protocol changes all the time and no one ever fucking tells me anything

>>6269557
Really? Are you sure? If so, oh gosh am I relieved. Just have to worry about my own shit till I'm ready to move out then.

>>6269558
I think this might be a safety issue also. You wouldn't want a person like that driving and getting lost. It is not his fault of course but it is a sign of old age. You definitely need to get in touch with the wife. She might have a better chance of convincing him to retire.

I'm an introvert who teaches teenagers. I have numerous great and eager-to-learn students but I have a handful of others who don't give a shit about anything but pissing off anyone and everyone who crosses their paths. Getting tired of being talked to like I'm shit by dumbass delinquents. If they were 1-2 years older they would have already dropped out.

Otherwise, I'm also in grad school... I'm looking into quitting my job to pursue my PhD but the sad state of higher education and professor employment in the US right now make it seem not feasible to pursue my passion and end up unemployed with loans.

>>6269437

how do you have a place to live/internet access without a job?

>>6269563
Make female friends?

>>6269577
Still live with the parents probably

>>6269571
I've been worrying about that too. Especially since part of the job is to go overseas every now and again to go show off the product to companies. He's a bit oblivious to any type of danger or risk ever, and either wants to go alone/send me alone/have me tag along. However, some places like Pakistan aren't exactly a place you want either a confused old person or a petite girl to be. I don't want him getting lost or going somewhere he isn't supposed to, or leaving me alone in a place where I don't speak the language or have any idea where I am. The more I think about it the more worried I get, actually. I guess getting worked up isn't going to do anything, especially over the weekend. I'll poke around Monday.

>>6269563
I have the opposite problem. People keep wanting to talk to me when I don't want to talk and people keep giving me praise when I prefer quiet modestly.

I'm a cynical asshole. I try my best not to be, but I can't seem to fucking stop it. I have the horrible tendence to be a totall asshole to my friends whenever I loose my cool and it has costed me dozens of friendships.
I try my best to be normal, but when I get angry I can only think of ways to make others feel bad or hurt them emotionally, and I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.
I ended up with only 2 friends that I talked to regularly, but I lost contact with one because I had been depressed lately and didnt want him to put with it since he has supported me a lot already. And I actually wish I had done the same with the other one since I gave that person shit constantly. Ultimately got defriended and I decided to follow up, since I knew if I kept contact I'd only do it over and over again.
The best part is that I'm not sure if there's something up with me or if I'm just an immature asshole who can't deal with his emotions. either way I'm just gonna try to shut away from the world for as long as possible

>>6269601
Not to be cliché but how is your relationship with your parents? Were they overly critical?

>>6269601
Sounds like my ex. Actually it's the reason we broke up.

>>6269550
She broke up with me actually. I know you're right, I really do, but it's hard to just do nothing about it. I feel like an asshole for totally ignoring her. I'd like to explain myself, but I doubt that would go over well...

>>6269614
You're too hard on yourself, guy. If she's not a reasonable person, why try to force it? You're did nothing wrong.

>>6269471
oh hey that's me. i also hate all the dirty looks from the asian ladies like "why are you working here why aren't you working at school" ffftalsekjf

>>6269627
They just care about you and want you to be a doctor. Is that so wrong?

>>6269610
Single mother, and she was more lax than regular. Never hit me, never grounded me for things other parents would but never praised me for getting top grades or anything either, she'd just leave me be.

I've wondered if I should see a phsycologist at times, but I think that'd be trying to get rid of responsability from my own actions if it comes out it's only atittude problems or something like that.

>>6269640
I'm not a psychologist, but maybe you didn't have a father model?

My mother is as lax as yours and my father was rather strict.
Well, I'm also that anon there so... >>6269505

You looked so amazing on stage tonight. I don't know how you learned to play like that or where you learned to sing like that, but I could've listened to you all night. Sorry I was the only one not moshing or singing or generally looking super into the music, but I was too taken aback and starstruck. Just, thank you for inviting me, thank you for letting me hear you play.

I wish I could actually voice all of this but I'm forever a loser who can't express herself.

>>6269640
Do you remember when you started to be cynical? Sometimes being too lax is as bad as being too strict since the child doesn't get the feedback so they don't really know how to act. Might be seen as uncaring but it could really just be the foolishness of youthful mother.

>>6269631
it's mostly how they backhandedly insult my parents
this one asian coworker lady was talking about how she would never let her son work where we work and that i shouldn't be here
she then gave me a dirty look, shook her head and asked what my parents were thinking

>>6269655
Oh lawd. I mean, if she, herself, is working there, it must not be a bad job. I guess it's just the older generation wishing the newer one is better than themselves.

>>6269510
The only way the debt would transfer to you is if he owns his house and is in debt and you want the house. Otherwise you will go through probate, declare the estate insolvent and wash you hands with it.

Now if you want the property, that is slight different and may not be possible in the end. I know this because I lost my father in law to cancer with 50K of medical bills (which is a greatly reduced sum mind you) and my husband wanted to keep his childhood home.

So just stay clam and get to your school work. Honestly that is the most important thing for you right now. Get an education so you can help yourself in the future.

>>6269624
I can't help it. I'm scared of being apathetic. She was always jealous of her, I should have known...

>>6269627
I enjoy the part where they're nice to your face and talk shit when they think you're out of earshot or speak their moon language. It's worse when you're Asian American, more scrutiny.

>>6269662
idk it's giant

>>6269670
AHAHAHA YEAH THAT
and if they know you're Asian American and don't think you can understand their language
it's kind of hilarious as well as infuriating

>>6269601
I actually shut myself away been going for three years now. The reason being that i actually hate having friends. I hate the stupid bullshit that goes with having friends so i just stopped talking to a fuck ton of people. Im a pretty friendly dude i just hate the hassle that comes with having friends and to make things worse people seem to gravitate towards me and look up to me. I just like being alone and some people don't understand that. I talk to some people here and there and will go to do stuff like going to cons etc. But i don't consider them friends just people i know. But anyways if your really gonna shut yourself away know what your doing. Because what is essentially a peace of mind for me can be fucking hell for you.

The white man.

>>6269668
Except you're not apathetic since you care so much about this. You can't talk to a person who won't listen. She just needs to calm down. Your problem is that in you mind, she is still your girlfriend and not your ex. If you had a different friend unfriend you for this, wouldn't you think it was retarded?

>>6269683
hi eva how are you ^_^

>>6269649
Actually my uncle tried to take that role, but my mother hated that, there were many arguments because I'd find his magazines when he wasnt around when I was a kid.

>>6269654
Not so sure. My mother worked with children for several years, she raised my sister and I the way the system she studied taught her, but you might be right.

I actually give the image of being polite and reserved to others, since I try to be so, but other people see it as pretention.
When I moved with an uncle he told me told me that my personality was too complex and manipulative for my age before I had to leave them because of depression, aparently he thought I was leaving because I hated them.
I've also been told that when I was 3 years old I'd hurt myself so that I'd cry, then I'd tell my grandma that my sister hit me so that I'd get sweets and watch tv why she'd be left in the yard as punishment. I don't even have memory of that age.
All in all it makes me think there's something with me, since when I loose my temper I become passive agressive and actually enjoy hurting others, while I would hate ever doing that when I feel normal.


Sorry for ranting so much.

I lack motivation to do anything productive. I'm pretty depressed, but meds and exercise don't do anything. I'm physically healthy and drug side effects are bad, yo.

I think that worst part is that I feel bad for having no real reason to feel bad.

>>6269707
Nocebo effect?
Try to do some walk outside and get some sunight?
Try to do something you like? Starting small?

>>6269681
That... actually helps a lot, thanks.

>>6269687
I do care a lot, but she doesn't know that. I think you're right about me thinking of her as me GF and not my ex. A friend wouldn't have the same intimacy as us.

I wonder how long I would have to wait. I hate waiting like this; I want to do something.

>>6269690 an uncle he told me told me that my personality was too complex and manipulative for my age
>when I was 3 years old I'd hurt myself so that I'd cry, then I'd tell my grandma that my sister hit me
Kids will be kids, my little sister would sometime do this when we were kids, but my mother knew the bullshit so it didn't work. But in the end she ended well. Kind of.

I'm partly like this and rather stay alone too, but I guess it's sometime OK to just let off some steam, so I try to just talk about non-sensical stuff, or mocking world events.

>>6269666
He owns a few properties, 3 houses and quite a few empty lots scattered about, and about 8 cars (he invested in them ages ago and wont let them go to pay off other things)
I would like to inherit those after he dies ;_; it would help so much. The empty lots, all cars, and one house is paid off. The house I live in and the other isn't.

And thank you, I will.

My best friend and I were drinking last week when he tried to put the moves on me really REALLY agressively...I'm not sure how to feel about it but we haven't talked since and I've been agonizing over whether or not we should talk about or if things will ever be the same...

>>6269690
Since you know you have a problem, you can fix it. That's better than most people I'd say. Sounds lame but try meditation. Just need 10-30 minutes a day and you can do it yourself so you won't be losing any cool points. Sometimes you just need to be by yourself to do some self-reflection and then you'll wonder why you made a mountain out of a mole hill.

>>6269719
Try again in a week. You'll just have to accept that she knocked you down a notch. You're in the confusing "Not really friends; not really lovers" stage. If she still won't accept your apology, you really should let her go. Actually, you should start dating that cutie she's jealous of. That'll show her.

>>6269754
And if you'd rather not be so spiteful, try sending her an explanation. As short and concise as you can, just to let her know why you did whatever and just leave it there. It sucks that she ended up, but you guys both need the air. Learn how to be yourself without her first then try something.

Don't be too hard on yourself, people are weird after breakups. Just do your best to dust yourself off and move on.

I've moved back to my home state and I love it here, but it's so hard finding anyone to befriend. I'm young and such, but I'm a seagull too, so..Anyways. I'm being put on depression medication and will be going to a body-image counselor type of person because I am apparently showing signs of anorexia or some EDNOS. I feel like I kinda just want to fly away to Neverland because my parents care less and less about me each day it seems. I just want to feel important to someone. I know I really need to suck it up but it's hard when I can't find release. I used to self-harm, had a clean period of about 2 years, then relapsed when I came out to my dad (divorced from my mother) and grandparents as gay and they basically disowned me. I've been clean for about a month now, though, and I think I can stay clean this time. I'm so scared to tell anyone all this, even anonymously to anonymous strangers on the internet because everywhere I go I get called a faggot emo who's just overreacting.

Please don't reply to this if you're just going to fuck with me, I really just needed to type this out somewhere. At least just keep the taunts in your head. Thank you.

>>6269773
:( i hope things start looking up for you! and good for you keeping clean
may good things come your way u v h

Stress is turning me into the jealous type. My best friends seem to only do fun shit on the nights I'm not around, when I'm sitting at home trying to keep from getting sick. (I have a delayed immune system)

One thing in particular that's driving me nuts is that a longtime friend of mine keeps talking to/asking his roommates (also longtime friends of mine) to activities and things right in front of me, that I help plan. And then find out later from friend A that I'm not really invited. I blew up yesterday after I changed my plans to do something with them and they had forgotten that it was going to be a "just them" thing. I feel like such a reject.

Are there any cons in your area? You need to get out and socialize even if it's just between people as awkward as yourself. Maybe try some gay support groups.

I want a mini-draco ak pattern pistol

However it's not on the "safe handgun roster"

And every gun store I go to looks at me like I want to rob the place when I ask them to do a single shot conversion so it meets the exemption transfer req

Instead of trying to share our opinions of having tried Pocari Sweat in a thread yesterday, I made fun of a fellow anon for not knowing that it should be enjoyed when you need hydration. I made a comment which she (I hope it was a she) thought was implying that I thought she was fat. I honestly wasn't thinking that. I'm sorry anon I'm just socially awkward. Even on 4chan ;_;

>>6269802
i know this feel ;___;

I honestly wouldn't care if people suddenly don't want me around, just

fuck

just be honest goddamn

>>6269443
If I were you, I wouldn't worry about the drama. If you feel like cosplaying, go for it! Very few cosplayers (in comparison to how many people cosplay) become a recurring topic in CGL. Just have fun with it.

Besides, if you're on CGL in the first place, I'm assuming that you'd put effort into cosplay (hopefully,) so I don't think you really have much to worry about. Don't let CGL fool you into thinking that every cosplay ever becomes a catfight or a debate.

>>6269850
Nah, people just like causing dramu for no reason here. I gotta try pocari sweat though. Can only find the Korean version of it. I wonder if it's the same.

>>6269465
Why don't you just be frank with him? Be direct and tell him that you're interested, but if he isn't looking for a relationship with you, that you're okay with that, but you want to be friends still.

Get on the same page with him. The worst that could happen, would most likely be a little tension between you two if he isn't looking for a relationship, but if you're nonchalant about it, I don't see that awkwardness lasting too long.

>>6269465
If it's THAT obvious, hop to. Seriously. Ask if he wants to do something "just the two of you"

>>6269852
I KNOW. Instead of me changing my plans to do something, and then getting a "well, I don't really know, we kind of planned it to be a different way..." and leaving me shit out of luck. I've already talked to the guy that keeps doing it to quit that shit, and both times I got "I'm sorry, it was an accident." Well then stop fucking it up, dude.

Can't.Sleep.At.All

I'm at home for the weekend and all my gerbils keep doing is fucking this. Shitty photo at 6am etc.

BANGBANGBANGBANGBANGBANG
Argh.
First World problems, sry.

>>6269754
>>6269760
Thanks you guys. I guess I'll try again in a week. I really don't want to be too spiteful. I know time will be my friend. At the very least I just don't want her to hate me, because that's happened before in my relationships.

>>6269869

Holy shit, mine too. I have a little raised platform in my gerbie's cage and she just keeps climbing up onto it and jumping off onto the lower level, ignoring the ladder. What the FUCK. Kamikaze rodents, man.

>>6269563
I know that feel, sis. How did I made frendz?

have a clingy friend who is suffocating me. Fuck this shit

School is suffocating me and I'm so stressed out and tired because of it. Sometimes I wonder if this'll be worth it at the end

I got promoted at work a while ago, which is pretty great. My instructors are allowed to use me as an example to new co-workers, and if anyone has a problem, they take it to me.
Which is normally fine, since it helps me socialise more. Except a new girl just started two weeks ago.
She's got an extremely bitchy attitude, is very loud about her belittling opinions, and only show up to work very rarely.

She started yelling at one of my friends the other day because it was totally gross how he accidently spilled tea on the table. Then she started threatening to beat the living shit out of him. For spilling some tea.
And afterwards she came crying to me and asking me if she is even welcome here at work, because everyone else says she isn't.
I wish I was allowed to be honest to these people, but all I can do is encourage them and say "it'll get better" :|
So basically, high school drama, all over again. I'm way too old for this crap.

>>6269882
>>6269889
A whole lot of breathing problems lately.

My ex (Who cheated on me with two of my friends and generally stomped on my heart.) is still hanging around all my social groups. I can usually ignore her but now she's started bringing the couple she's banging too. So now every picnic and game night and con weekend is like a delicious Halloween apple; will there be apple, will there be razor blade?
It's really not helping my anxious disposition.

>>6269890
I can tell you now that you can never, ever escape high school bullshit. Especially in workplaces.

>>6269896
This. Even if you just keep your nose clean and just do your work, that seems to be like a welcome mat for people do dump THEIR work onto you.

Pretty much everything atm

I've had to go to the police (again) about my ex-flatmate because she is doing sociopathic things that could really hurt someone.

My father has pretty much stopped talking to me because he thinks that I am being petty and bitchy for going to the police, and doesn't understand that I couldn't live with myself if anything happened to someone and I could have stopped it.

I have a million assessments due for my final year at university, and I don't feel like I'm on top of it at all.

Ditto with lots of deadlines at work.

And because I am so stressed out, my arthritis has flared up, and now my DMARDs don't appear to be working on it like they used to, so I may have to move on to chemotherapy for it.

Fuck. I feel like most of these things are really normal challenges that I should be able to cope with much better than I am. I am drowning in all of these problems.

>>6269877
D'aw I love gerbies. Got any photos?
Here's one of mine that doesnt make a shit ton of noise.
Sage for unrelated

>>6269896
>>6269900
Yeah I guess, damn. Last time I worked where I am now, 2 years ago, one girl, out of 30 people was in charge of all of the drama. Whenever she was not present, we all got along just fine.
I'm horrified that it's going to be the same thing all over again, so I really hope this girl wont last for too long. With how little she's been coming to work, I know it'll be over soon. Or, I hope so anyway. Our instructors can sometimes be a bit blind to this kind of thing.

Fortunately there is no work to dump on anyone, since our job is music. This girl is not in my contact-group, so I am not going to get involved with her on the work-level thank god.

>>6269707
> I think the worst part is that I feel bad for having no reason to feel bad.
THIS, so much this. When I was depressed, I made up horrific things that happened to me to try and justify why I was so down. The worst thing is when people say "look on the bright side", "your life isn't ~that~ bad", "there are people who have it much worse than you." I hate those people.

The point is, if you feel like crap, you feel like crap. You shouldn't have to justify it, because you won't be able to get better that way. If meds and excersize don't work, have you looked at your diet? You might be eating a lot of something that's a depressant, like ready meals or junk food.

After not speaking at all for a year, my ex started calling/texting me like crazy the other night. Haven't answered, don't intend to.

REALLY knocked the wind out of my week! And gave me a serious case of feeling lonely... this is like my third or fourth time whining about that on here or /mlp/.

OKCupid is loaded with douchedudes scaring girls off, Geek2Geek is deserted, next con isn't for months. Blarghfurmwuh wat do.

>>6269917
For some reason, I thought you were a waitress.

>>6269923
Wait. Why are you feeling lonely if he wants to get back together with you?

My mom let me go off to college before we finished sorting out all the financial issues, and now I'm about a month in and we still haven't found a cosigner for loans, so we owe the school about 3000 (which will go up every month)
I really wish someone told us that you can't just get a student loan easily. I wish we'd waited a year, so we could get the money first. I wish I considered going to community college for a year or something first. But everyone kept telling me it'd be fine.
So now, I'm sitting here stressing over when I'll be sent home, how I'll pay the school back, my 20k/year scholarship that will soon be worthless, the wasted money to get here, etcetc and it's frustrating as hell, not knowing what's going to happen.
I'd love to stay here, but I'd be okay with going home. If I stay here I can keep up my education smoothly, familiarize myself with the city, make some close friends, and find a part-time job. If I go home I can get an internship somewhere and try to build connections in place of an education. I have either one figured out, but being stuck in limbo I have no idea how to proceed, and all the free time I have is spent stressing over the phone with my mom about this, or looking for last minute scholarships or sweepstakes or anything that can get us money fast.
And all I can do is just wait, wait, WAIT for word to come back from my mom that money or a cosigner fell out of the sky, or from the school that I have to pack up and get out.

I'm usually an optimistic person, but this is really getting to me. At least I know that this stress will only last a few months.

>>6269926
Not the person you're responding to, but exes are generally exes for a reason.

>>6269925
I was a waitress back in 2009, for a few months. Not anymore though!

>>6269934
But then I remember you becoming a hikkimori When did this new job happen?

>>6269926
She. Also I broke up with her due to her alcoholism: Her stunts included "water" bottles hidden under the sink in multiple houses, and getting fall-down drunk in front of my family. Plus lots of lying.

>>6269938
August. It's a danish concept, where you get paid to do something you love for a year, and then you're off to get a real job or start school or something.
This is reconstructional therapy as much as it's work, which is probably why I'm given so much responsibility. Hopefully it'll give me the balls I need to complete college, or move to a different country and try my luck there.

>>6269944
That's a cool program.

>>6269946
It is! It is quite helpful when you have no idea what you want to do with your life, along with other more personal problems. It is a nice breather, and other countries should really start picking up on it.

>>6269923
"Pretend" like you don't need a boyfriend/girlfriend. Every morning, if you have to, tell yourself in the mirror "I am a strong (black) woman who don't need no man" and go about your day, even if it makes you dumb. Make excuses to be social with your regular friends, make an effort to make new ones, and just pretend like you're untouchable and you have everything you need. After a while, you'll start to buy into it and before you know it, you really will feel like you don't need a significant other to stop that weird pit of loneliness.

The important thing is to not physically search someone out because then you're gonna keep pining for a relationship you don't have/need right now. Like I said to another anon, get comfortable being by yourself first.

You're still gonna feel lonely at times, and it's gonna suck, but you'll get over it. Everyone does. This is you right now anon. You are the best and don't forget it!

>>6269948
Your tv programs ain't so bad either.

http://youtu.be/HYW3He_1JdU

This is my only possible response to this thread.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KS6zlW7o51c

>>6269953
Haha oh god, that is terrible.

>>6269923
Like Tim wrote, tell yourself that you don't need a relationship. If you can convince your brain that you're fine on your own, then it can only get better from there.

>>6270013
Sorry about the long rant, btw. I think I needed to vent somewhere.

My life SUCKS. That's what's keeping me down.

I'm sick of my job. Overworked, underpaid, deal with customers all day, and it's destroying my joints. I need a fucking holiday, at the least. Just got to wait until expo. And start fucking applying for better jobs.

I'm sick of sharing a car with my mother. And sick of that tiny car, as well. I hate having to find the right angle for the seat every time she uses it, I hate the stink of cigarette smoke in it, and it's too fucking small for me to feel comfortable in.

I'm sick of this town. I hate it. I want it to burn.

I'm lonely. Recently lost a bunch of friends due to my now-ex girlfriend suddenly turning full bitch on me, so now I have next to nobody to talk to online. I think I forgot how to make new friends. Huge void in my life where they used to be.
And I missed my weekly gaming session with friends because the car wasn't done being fixed in time for it, and I wasn't prepared to leave my bike in that shithole of a town. Or ride it there at night.

EVE is no longer giving me the same thrill it once did.

I'm finishing games off. Ending fatigue is hard.

Winter is coming, and I hate cold, dark, wet conditions.

I'm too lazy to get off my ass and DO anything about this, because I get too distracted by games and the internet and don't get on with things.

I'm trying to throw myself back into hobbies to get the depression to lift, but it's hard because of distractions. I come home from work tired, loaf on the sofa while gaming for a few hours, and then do a couple of hours work on stuff if it's not raining outside, because I'm currently in the 'needs outside airflow' stage of 40K modelling.
And a bunch of my old models are either with a friend, or lost forever. I don't remember which friend I left them with. They probably don't remember they have them. It's like £50 of models if I re-bought them new. I thought I had them all, but I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHERE THE REST ARE.

I miss my ex bf. We haven't talked in about 2 years and now I have a new bf. I find myself wondering what's he up to now, is he working in the same place he was working? Does he have a new gf? Is he studying? Is he lonely? Honestly I wouldn't mind if he has a gf and is happy. I think I just miss the good times we spent together before everything went downhill. If I had the chance to meet him, I don't think I would. But at the same time I'm so fucking tired of living in the past.

I want some new hobbies, but I dunno what the fuck should I do.

The work I have barely covers my expenses and I feel so stressed.

I'm really lacking motivation for everything and I feel really sad for all these things.

And on top of that, I don't have any friends and seems that I'm unable to make new ones because I'm too socially awkward.

I just hope everything gets better...

Tired of being poor & not being able to find work--what was the point of all my degrees if I cant even beat out a high school drop out for a simple hourly job? Also missing my boy like crazy--fuck long distance.

>>6270084
why did it go downhill?

I was recently diagnosed with a rare sleep disorder after dealing with symptoms that increasingly worsened over the past 6 or 7 years.
There's no cure and it's a lifelong illness. Treatment isn't super great, mostly because they have no idea what causes it.
I'm incredibly scared about what this means for my future. It'll have taken me six years to complete my undergrad degree (assuming I can graduate by the end of this summer), and who knows if I'll ever be able to hold a full-time job. Countless relationships have been ruined for me because people think I'm just lazy and unreliable - when in reality, I just can't wake up when I need to, no matter how hard I try.
I'm sick of feeling so exhausted all the time and sleeping 12+ hours every day.

people who follow my blog will probably know who I am, but idgaf.

Tried to help a friend recently with a cosplay project. Now I feel like I'm babysitting/playing mommy or something. Every time I think she's got things sorted, I get another text or another call or another message on Facebook asking me a question.

Girl, you're twenty-fuckin'-five. FIGURE IT OUT ON YOUR OWN. I've got my own costume to sort out by December.

Starting to wonder if I should get help for anger problems. Tried to start three fights last night and my girlfriend had to break it up. I've noticed more and more that I'm getting really angry when I'm drunk, and sometimes I've said/done violent things without even knowing- the other day I found a tweet I'd sent drunk talking about beating my girlfriend up. It's kind of worrying, but I don't want to seek help because Oxford is fucking terrible when it comes to mental welfare, they'll rusticate me if they think anything's wrong. Already rusticated my best friend for self-harming. Feels bad, man. I worry that I'm going to hurt my girlfriend or something.

Can't finish a touhou game on lunatic.

>>6270147
>I'm getting really angry when I'm drunk
easy fix bro, stop drinking

>>6270162

I had to give my mum some money last week, money I couldn't afford to give but I did it anyway cause I know she'd do the same for me.
This week once my money comes into my bank account I have buy a brand new £39 uniform for college, some goddamn hairdressing heads and a bunch of scissors and shit, not to mention the bus fares that are £6.20 for a return to the college and back. I haven't even got my funding sorted out for college yet and I haven't got a clue how to go about securing it.
I also have to pay for £30 for two sofas come Monday, then I've got my boyfriends birthday 2 days later and he wants Warhammer Blood Angels Death Company pieces or something like that and I'm guessing they're gonna be like another £40 or something. I've got four weeks worth of rent stacked up that I need to pay, and my water bill has stacked up to over £100 (I don't even want to look at it, I'm too afraid).

I even had to message Chokelate on FB last week and ask her to cancel and refund my order of her BJD tights as I could no longer afford them which was embarrassing as fuck. Just checked my bank account now, thought I had like £1.30 left to buy a sandwich since all I have left in my fridge is milk, 6 cans of Kopparberg that don't belong to me, a tub of butter and two jars of pickles. My bank balance didn't read £1.30, it reads minus -£11.30 somehow which I don't understand since I don't have ANY direct debits and I don't have an overdraft.

This also means I can't afford my shit for Halloween which I was so fucking looking forward too.
These next two weeks are going to be hell.

>>6270120
Kleine-Levin syndrome? I'm sorry it's just that I'm always curious about disorders.

>>6270166

That money that has been taken out of my bank was Skype... I don't even USE Skype.

Gonna crack me open one of those Kopparbergs... or two. Goddamnit, I hate being poor.

I'm just so tired, cgl
Right now, I wish I have someone to hold me until I fall asleep, and make me smile, do silly things with me and eat the food I make them.
>tfw I'm too ugly, crazy and socially awkward...

Back to pillow cuddling.

>>6270108
We were just ok 'till he started to get interested in another girl and was fucking delusional about his crush. I started to get more and more jealous and the quarrels started to became more frequent and violent turning into fights until I decided I had enough of his shit.

Pic related, how I felt on our break up.

>>6270166
>>6270170
Sorry to hear that
I hope everything gets better ;_;

>>6270166
http://www.direct.gov.uk/en/EducationAndLearning/AdultLearning/FinancialHelpForAdultLearners/DG_1003
3131

Try that if you're 19 or over, maybe some help.
Too bad EMA was stopped. :/

>>6270173
I know dat feel so hard it punched through my screen

>>6270179

Yeah, me too hahaha
I wish for one time in my life I wasn't constantly worrying about money or how I'm going to make it to the next week, but that's just the way it is I guess.
Maybe I should I start playing the lottery...

>>6270182

Oh this looks good, didn't even now this existed thanks.
And what, EMA was stopped??? What the hell I totally relied on that completely last time I was at college, what the hell have all the college students been fucking doing? How have they been managing?

I fucking hate this government, what a fucking joke. I can't afford to go to university because I'm so terrified of finance support fucking up my grant like they've done with every one of my friends who've went, and then we're still giving away billions in foreign aid to richer countries with a far superior economy, and then they're talking about privatizing the NHS because there's not enough funding. This shit makes me so angry, especially when I'm one of those people who're literally on the bottom rung and suffers the most from this kind of shit.

>>6270190
Yeah EMA was stopped and so was the over 19 one. I used to have £10/week from EMA then for my final year of college I used ALG and got £30/week.

The finance system is rather retarded being based off parents income. My parents earn too much for me to be able to get a lot of money but too little to be able to give me any money. Stupid stupid system.
Any way, goodluck!

>>6269916

Yes!

>>6270195

Thanks, and I'm sorry to hear about your own struggles.

I need to rant so hard right now. So hard. I am just going to drink and become surly instead.

>>6270173
Hey, you'll find one. God knows if someone as obnoxious as me can find a partner, anybody can. Something as simple as your priorities in a relationship tell me that you'd make a great boy/girlfriend, and someone will realise that soon enough. Lots of people are willing to tolerate a bit of crazy if there's good food and cuddles involved.

>>6270213
Thanks! I'll keep trying!
If all else fails, there's always the crazy cat lady route...

>>6270191
Good luck to you too, anon!

>>6270108
Btw anon, thanks for showing interest in my story. I feel better now.

>>6270221
Thanks, you too!

Stressed out from job hunting. I hate working retail so much. We got a new store manager who's an idiot and most of the coworkers I'm friends with are quitting in droves. I don't want to be here come Christmas time.

Some months ago I got diagnosed with Asperger sydrome (hurrdurr assburgers yes)
And even though my psychologist told me I'm handeling it really well, the whole idea feels so weird to me. For years I hoped I would at one point be able to grow out or at least properly change being awkward as fuck, but the diagnose pretty much says lolnope you'll be an awkward fucker for the rest of your life.
I'm aware you can improve it, but still.

Also my best friend seems to be talking to me less and I'm worried that she's finding me really annoying or something despite saying she's just busy.....

After a year of wakeboarding and hitting obstacles, an operator tells me the way I've been hitting rails and boxes is insanely dangerous and way too aggressive to actually pull off anything. People in my club had been telling me that it was the best way to learn how to hit Obstacles. After the new operator told me that, the guys in the club told me it was funny to watch me fuck up on rails so no one told me it was really close to ruining my self. I'd leave the club but I'm the treasurer and I feel like I'd fuck everything up for the new members.

TL;dr Guys in my wakeboard club have been trying to indirectly murder me.

To keep this /cgl/ related, meeting up with the British seagulls at London expo again is one of the few things that I'm looking forward to.

I have a question for you guys. How do you find your motivation? I've been feeling this complete lack of motivation for anything these past months, and it makes no sense to me because I really do want to do well and graduate.

tl;dr How do you motivate yourself?

>>6270268
I try to listen to music and sort out my problems into smaller chunks. Such as right now, I'm having to work on something for my fourth year of college project. It's quite a large thing but I simply break it into sizable chunks.

That and simply looking back at how far you've come and realizing how much you've progressed always helps. But that's just me.

TL;DR :Listen to music.

>>6269563
I understand ya. 'Tis hard for me to make friends and now that I'm in my nice little circle of them I'm afraid I'll fuck it up some how.

Doesn't help that I always feel a bit like I'm intruding at college whenever walking along course-mates even though I know I'm not and shouldn't be feeling like that.

Also Pic related; Closest I've gotten to texturing a model fully.

I just got into Uni and taking engineering. The problem is that there's way too much guys trying to talk to me and trying to get my number when all I want to do is study hard and get out due to the massive stress my family is under to get me there. I don't have the time or money to party. It's also weird as hell that since I've lost weight and learnt to dress better that all these goddamn stupid douchebags are trying to talk to me. I don't even know how to deal with this shit without insulting someone because I know when the time comes, there will be projects that require me to work with other people and keeping a drama-less environment would be best for me to get honours and maybe a full on scholarship for masters and so on.

>>6270292

Thanks anon. How do you keep yourself on track? I'm terrible at managing myself, so I always end up doing everything last minute. I'm kind of useless with everything.

>>6270293
Tell them you have a boyfriend ASAP even if it's not true. Most guys will lose all interest in you as soon as you tell them there's another guy in the picture. It's freshers week so there's an especially large number of douche bags around. Welcome to uni life.

>>6270293
Follow this person's advice.

>>6270315
Indeed our fresher's week just passed. A mate of mine actually kept telling guys I was her boyfriend just so that guys wouldn't hit on her even though she's a lesbian which made it all the more funny. Worked surprisingly well.

>>6269862
Agh, though I admit I'm fucking scared, I'll give this a try.. eventually. I want to time this perfectly because I don't know if it's a right time for me to have a relationship. But thanks for the advice, it helped.

>>6269863
We have gone together on dates, even though we haven't called them that. I guess I need to invite him to do something with me, without convenient excuses like off-campus assignments or "omg Spirited Away's screening at the theatre, wanna come with?" and such.

>>6270312
Build a plan or schedule. Here take a look at the image, that's my actual production schedule which I'm on track with so far. The only fuck up I had was missing out on two days in the first week of college because of illness.

Don't mind me I just need to use the google image search.

>>6270375
>Not using http://images.google.com/
>Click on the camera icon

>>6270403
Thanks mate, I'm not good with this stuff. Unfortunately my search didn't yield any results, do you know who she is? I saw her in the 2012 sakuracon stream.

My friend backed out on me so I have to build the helmet for my costume entirely in a week on my own, and I am so scared of fucking it up. I worked really hard on the outfit and now I am terrified that the helmet I make which is the first thing people will really see is going to ruin the entire costume, or that even worse I won't be able to finish it on my own...

I'm trying REALLY hard to not be upset at my friend but he really threw me under a fucking bus with this, and I'm sick of him offering to do things to try and impress me or to get me to do costumes with him and then him bailing when he can't live up to what he promised.

I TOLD him I couldn't do this costume because I didn't know how to do the helmet, and he wanted me to do it so bad he offered to do it for me because armor was 'his thing' and here I am now doing it because he only lets me know he can't do it A WEEK BEFORE THE CONVENTION

My part was done two weeks ago, I hate doing shit last minute more than anything

>>6270344

Thanks for the tip! I am always disorganized, so it's time for me to buck up! I feel inspired. Thanks again anon.

>>6270120
Try some melatonin. But check with your doctor first. It might affect your other meds.

http://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorders/tc/melatonin-overview

Constant pressure of becoming successful in my "field". Even if it's going well so far, I'm working 12+ hours a day if not more. I have no money for another three months either by the looks of it.

I love doing what I do, but it's tough shit.

>>6270166
Besides rent, check your water usage. It shouldn't be that high. When you take a shower, turn off the water mid-way such as during the time when you're scrubbing your body. You're not rinsing right away so no need to let gallons and gallons of water go to waste. Turn your toilet into a low flush toilet but putting some rocks in a 2L soda bottle (or any small bottle if it doesn't fit) and fill the rest with water, cap, then put the soda bottle into the tank.

I never hang out with people after classes or on the weekends. I text my friends but they're always busy. Sometimes I lie and say I'm busy so I make it seem like I actually have a social life.

I watch people have conversations and talk about things I know/have interest and talk about making plans for stuff and wish I could be apart of their group.

A guy started talking to me and I don't know how to reply or react back to him and will probably end up pushing him away and ignoring him. I'll never have a boyfriend because I'm scared of intimacy.

>>6270169
Sorry, I (ironically) fell asleep right after writing that.
My official diagnosis is idiopathic organic hypersomnia with a long sleep period. Kleine-Levin is a form of hypersonia, but those with it have periods of normal sleep-wake schedules. I can't remember the last time I woke up feeling refreshed.

>>6270496
I certainly appreciate the suggestion! But I highly doubt it would help in this situation, since the problem is basically that for whatever reason, my brain doesn't recognize that I've had enough sleep. I'm sure the sleep specialist would have mentioned it if it could even help a little.

>>6269882
tell her to back off?

>>6270641
Have you ever slept in the lab yet? They are supposed to monitor you for one whole night to see what's going on in your brain.

>>6270641
Thanks for the reply, and I can imagine it not being a nice thing to have. I hope you get at least a little better anon!

>>6270647
Yes, I had a 2 day sleep study, with a polysomnography to rule out things like apnea and restless leg syndrome - my sleep quality was 100% normal. The next day, I had a multiple sleep latency test - I fell asleep during all 5 naps, with a mean latency of 5.3 minutes, which is highly abnormal. Narcolepsy was another possibility, but I had no REM during the naps, so hypersomnia it is.

>>6270650
It really is awful, but at least I have a diagnosis now, and as soon as insurance cooperates, treatment that will hopefully work sufficiently.
It's really tough to stay positive right now, but it's all I can do to survive...if I give up on school etc., that's it, that's the end.

>>6270650
>>6270662
...I also meant to say thank you. And also sage that for double-post.
My excuse is that I'm sleepy haha.

I'm afraid of my boyfriends friends. We've been together for almost a year now, but whenever his friends come around I still can't seem to communicate with them very well. If anything, I feel like an awkward third wheel to them. I'm okay with a couple of his friends, but generally I don't feel comfortable, and got really upset this one time when I overheard him talking to his friend about if it would be okay to bring me along for lunch, which they replied, "No, man, that'll be awkward."

My boyfriend and I are a few years apart, so his friends are a few years older than me too and I can’t exactly communicate or even make small talk with them because I don’t know anything about them. I know I’m not dating my boyfriends friends, but I just feel that it would be necessary for me to at least be able enough to carry small conversations, not “hey” and then the rest is just silence if my boyfriend is not around. Usually when they’ve been invited, it’s just them talking to my boyfriend and most of the time I don’t know what they’re talking about so I can’t exactly jump into the conversation, so I just stay quiet. They’ve never really tried talking to me, so I don’t know if that’s supposed to say anything about my character.

I don’t know if it’s just me, but I just want to be welcomed and accepted. My boyfriend is able to communicate with my friends alright, but I can’t even so much as talk to his friends. Sorry for being a super beta faggot, just wanted to get this off my chest.

>>6270755
Some people click better with others. That's just how it is. I think time will dull the awkardness since you'll see them so much later, you'd be like "whatever". There's actually no need to be with your bf 24/7. Guys tend to want to have some time with their buddies too. Just like you sometimes want to be with your circle of friends without him. It's actually pretty normal but I can see how that makes you insecure about it. Maybe talk to your bf about it some more.

>>6270755
Are you me? The difference is that I give no fucks about being accepted anymore (and that I'm older than my bf and his friends, lol) actually I'm glad that they don't give a fuck about me either since they're embarrassing and loud as fuck.

If I befriend them or don't doesn't affect our relationship, luckily.

>>6270769
Oh, I'm not with him 24/7 and nor are his friends. If anything we're both about our school first and foremost, and since Fridays are both days we don't have school/work, we take that time to hang with one another. I actually encourage him to hang with his friends more, since there was a point during summer where I felt we were hanging out a bit /too/ much and I never heard anything about him seeing his friends.

As for my feeling of insecurity, I think I may have omitted it when I was trying to fix my post, but I'm generally not very social person. It wasn't until maybe a year ago that I actually started getting out of my house more when I met my boyfriend. Up until recently I'd mainly just stay home and be on the computer all day, like most of my friends that I knew. But I’ve actually pushed myself to be more active in terms of working out and actually doing stuff instead of just sitting around. Sorry for babbling dslkjfhasdkljfh

>>6270781
Oh my lol. I've tried not caring about it, since I'm not dating his friends, but I just have this lingering feeling of not being welcomed or something. I don't know, it's kind of hard to explain.

I have no (well, few. let's say few.) friends.

It's not like I don't have acquaintances, it's not like I don't have people that I talk to and help at school and grab lunch with, but other than school life, I have nobody.

I used to have a couple of friends that I would go out for beers with, or catch a movie with, but they've all either moved away or gotten girlfriends/boyfriends. and I, being somewhat socially inept and ugly, am left with just about nothing to build off of.

also burger king changed their fries to this thick cut shit, jesus christ what were they thinking? these fries suck donkey cock

>>6270813
I wish somebody would massage my head. ;_______;

>>6270796
>>6270781 here.
I know that feel sis. I think you should talk about it with your bf and see what could be done, he can give you some tips about what kind of chit-chat you could have with them or something. I have a hard time making friends too, specially if they're normalfags. Some of my bf's friends are fine but as a group they're really loud and obnoxious.

Just take it easy and relax~ Don't think too much about it.

I'm coming to the realization that I've never had a close friend in my life, and that I actually need to make friends.

I always have a girlfriend, but never friends. How the fuck does that work out? Kind of "feel" right now. (read: not depressed, just kinda "oh...damn man.")

>>6270820
Huh, I know that feel too. I wish I could make a friend but I have trusting issues from past "friendships" (fucking backstabbers) and relationships. I feel myself constantly wanting to have a same-sex friend who I could tell everything without the fear of being judged or hurting her/him.

>>6270818

I think I will try talking to him the next time I see him. I'm glad it's easy to talk to him when I have an issue, though I try to keep serious talks or if-anything-is-bothering me talks to a minimum since I don't want to be a burden to him. But thank you so much for your input. <3

Also oh god normalfag people I usually come across are always spouting "u mad" or "cool story bro", so I'm kind of glad his friends are not like that. I can't imagine though how I'd handle being in a group like that, which in a way is kind of how I imagined your bf's friends (though I'm probably way off).

>>6270830
Yeah totally, though I get along better with women (I'm male), my life is good though. I am successful but tend to keep to myself. I have a hard time trusting "friends" since they always tend to exclude me or leave me out. It just feels too forced trying to become part of a circle, and I'd rather other people showed ME that they appreciate my company, it's just like everyone gets invited out to do things but I'm excluded -every- time.

So I sit at home, play vidya, smoke weed, trip balls, go to concerts alone or with my gf, fuck her a lot, and generally don't seem to be too bothered by this. As much as I'd love to have a circle of close friends, I just don't think I'll ever meet people like that in my lifetime. My girl is technically my "best friend" but that's just that.

I'm good looking, and I have a generally positive outlook on life really, I just can't seem to find people I click with for a long period of time.

>>6270841

im like that except without the weed and without the girlfriend.

people at school seem to use me for my brains in class,then ignore me afterward.

>>6270815

me too.

>>6270844
Yeah that feel, man. I feel like my "friends" only use me for their benefit. I'm too generous and loyal to the friends I make but I feel in hindsight they only invite me or include me if they gain something out of it. It's like all the energy goes out but doesn't come back in.

It's quite draining on the soul.

>>6270835
Hmm I'm not sure if I follow haha. They like to get high and drink and they usually do both when I see them (bf's birthday, bf's brother's birthday, etc.)... They do really embarrasing shit too. Like peeing on trees, scream/talk really loudly, fight between them... My bf knows this too and he says that since his last birthday sucked big time (they were getting drunk and playing a soccer game on his xbox while I was playing boring games on a laptop and then a few of us went to a club, which sucked) he doesn't think that his friends will come to his next birthday and that's fine by both of us.

>>6270846
The people I was friends with in the past was like this. I've ditched them and have found better friends now who generally seem to care about me.
Only minus is that while I trust them and am open to them, I constantly apologise and do whatever I can to make sure they're not angry or annoyed with me ;__; I don't want to lose these people, but I feel that I will if I don't stop being so sorry all the time.
That feel man, that feel. It doesn't help that all of them live in a different country either. I need someone I can connect with on a mature level, and online chatting just wont do it.

Seems to me like a lot of nerds (god, I hate to use that word, although in this case it fits) have had shitty friends one time or another.

>>6270854
Yeah we all seem to have trust issues too, so it makes getting close to anyone difficult. I hear ya.

I kinda stopped doing the "online friends" shit years ago though. You tend to lose those friends when you don't have an anchor to keep everyone together (IRC, an online game...) -- all those online friends, I really haven't talked to in 4 years after I quit WoW...which was a good decision, but it left me feeling kind of empty.

Feeling pretty lonely, I wish I could go full delusional/crazy mode and get a waifu like the guys from /a/

>>6270841
We're on the same boat haha. Except I don't do drugs and usually if I go to a concert I go with somebody (last concert I went alone and it was a fucking nightmare).
I get along better with the opposite sex too. I wish I could have a loyal friend who will always be there for me, but I don't think that's possible. My best friend is also my partner, while I trust him/her there are some things that I can't share with him/her. It's not that he/she would judge me, but I know that if I tell him/her that stuff I would hurt him/her deeply and I prefer to deal with that pain alone.

>>6270862

i cant imagine how people do that

i mean ive basically given up hope of ever having a significant other

but how can you then turn around and choose to love an inanimate fucking object?

I kinda wish I could too.

>>6270170
>don't even USE Skype
fraud?

>>6270865
>him/her
>he/she

PL, is this you?

>>6270868
>inanimate fucking object

The monitor is not your waifu, faggot.

>>6270875
Haha, no. Seagulls seem to think I'm other people too often.

>>6270865
Not to be one of those "420BLAZEITFAGGOT" faggots but I only recently started tripping again after 12 years. It's very introspective and has helped me open up a bit, I feel more positive and friendly towards people since I started again. I don't really use drugs that are physiologically harmful (though I guess E is debatable, other than a brief day of post-roll depression I love it for going to music events and cons, I become a total social butterfly!)

A night with some good acid and music, or a concert seeing one of your favorite performers on E can actually be a life changing experience. It helped my get out of the last 2 years of a depressed slump. Note: I dont' suffer from clinical depression, and do not advise taking strong psychoactives if you do, because bad trips are scary and can really destroy you... though those difficult mental rides can also leave you with a much more positive outlook for a long time.)

I do love my g/f, but I know if we broke up or the intimacy died off we wouldn't be friends anymore, that's the biggest problem with always having a g/f but no real "friend" friends. Real friends will be with you to the end, intimate ones tend to disappear if you break up.

>>6270851
Woah that's.. really too much. :c I mean, they're free to go get drunk and high, but do it on your own time. They sound like incredibly obnoxious friends.

And what I was trying to say are those people who shout like, internet memes or act like they've some part of club. I experience it like everyday while at school and every once in awhile whenever I go to conventions.

i love lolita but i just have no friends at all
my best friend lives 3 hours away so i can never see her because we are broke
i love my boyfriend but obviously he doesnt wanna go to lolita fashion shows with me and shit, but i just wish i could watch with him and just hold his hand.

simple problems but they make me a little sad. I should just be happy my boyfriend likes lolita and my clothing choices.

>>6270917
Huh, I heard some stories about bad trips and they seem fucking creepy. With my luck if I tried doing drugs I'm sure it wouldn't be pleasant (and anyway if I wanted to start now, I don't have that kind of money haha).

Yeah, I hear you there. From what I get you and your gf don't share a lot of activities/hobbies, which kinda sucks. I mean, it must be really fun to have friends who share your interests and hobbies and doing them together~

>>6270940

sometimes drugs just dont work.

the first three times i did weed it had no effect. the fourth time it did, but really all that happened was that I couldn't focus on anything, and it ended up being a bad time as a result.

>>6270920
Ah, I get it now, like 9faggots and the like, right? They're funny the first few times but they get old really fast.

I don't care if they like to get drunk and high, but I'd really appreciate if they did it away from me. Sometimes I thought that they did it on purpuse so that I would feel uncomfortable and stopped going to their "meetings" haha, am I being too paranoid? I know they don't really like me, but still...

Why can I never get 100% on my exams? Why do I always miss one question?

>>6270956

as long as you're above 90ish, it doesnt matter. there's a point at which an A+ is an A+.

don't stress it.

>>6270944
Drugs aren't for everyone, either. Weed is hit or miss for a lot of people. I get uncomfortably paranoid on it sometimes.

And honestly bad trips aren't really that common, in fact its hard to have a bad trip if you respect set and setting. Honestly I've never had a truly bad trip in my lifetime, I've seen someone have one but they just sort of sat with their head in their hands for a few hours groaning. Later we found out they were extremely stressed about work/life issues and they didn't know this has a serious effect on a trip.

If you dose reasonably and do it in the company of people who make you feel good, in a comfortable place, you're almost guaranteed to have an amazing time. But it's also important that if you've never tripped before that you have someone who can help you through it. People think psychedelics are just a visual light show in your head...it's not true.

Psychedelia takes you into an intense mental journey of self-reflection, alternate ways to perceive things about the world, yourself, and it really unlocks some of your mental potential. Sure the visuals are cool, funny, sometimes creepy, beautiful, but things like synethsaethsia or experiencing ego dissolution is indescribable in words. The first time I had very mild ego death it was intense and scary, but you have to ease yourself into it and learn to let your mind go, bad trips form when you resist what the drug wants to show you, it's about surrendering your consciousness to the unknown and facing it bravely.

>>6270963
(continued)

Hence why you have stories of these bad trips, or stupid kids who are all "WOO IMMA GET FUCKED UP", take too much, become terrified by what they experience, and swear it off for life.

I was pretty lucky having a very responsible friend who introduced me to acid in HS, and I lost my connections in the interim between then and now, so I just never had access to anything.

Even good trips can be creepy though. You'll see/think very disturbing things, but you have to remember that it's not real, and not to be scared of it, because a real trip is a full spectrum of emotions, you'll laugh uncontrollably, feel very relaxed and one with everything, you might cry, or become intensely afraid of benign things, but a lot of those feelings go away very quickly and for the most part it is a positive experience once you let yourself accept the bad and the good.

Anyway enough 420blazeitfagging for me. I offer friends the experience if they want to, most don't, so I leave it be after that. Just thought I'd rant about drugs in a positive light since there's so much stigma about them. It's not always shamanistic and introspective, sometimes you do just wanna get fucked up, but you kinda need to know what you're getting into before you just dive right in and think it'll be like getting drunk or stoned. I don't even really smoke weed anymore except as a sleep aid.

>>6270956
Success wouldn't exist without failure. Because you failed one question, you can be that much more proud about all the others you got correct.

And this happens to me as well, mostly on longer tests, because I forget to read some mundane detail in the instructions.

>>6270963
>>6270965
Thanks for the info anon! It seems interesting, but I don't think I'll ever do it. If you'd like and you could, I'd be interested in hear some stories about your trips!

>>6269437
>I've never dated or kissed a guy, I have no friends or social skills.
>I'm similar to PT, just not as delusional and worse off socially
>worse off socially

Pretty sure you're worse off than PT socially. She's at least fucked men. Plural.

I'm not as mad as I should be, partly because I could be jumping to conclusions, but I'm irritated.

So basically I was dating this guy for awhile and I'm pretty sure I picked up HPV from him. Now granted, I understand that for the most part guys don't show any symptoms besides genital warts, and it's not the first thing they think to get tested for. Maybe he just didn't "know" he was a carrier and therefore couldn't warn me. Nevertheless, I have these little tiny bumps that I'm scraping off near my genital region and I'm pretty damn sure they're mild warts. My immune system is pretty good, I've had warts on other areas of my body that have never lasted long so I don't expect to be a bad case. They bleed a tiny bit once I scratch them off, but after a wash with some soap and a good scrub it's good as new. It doesn't itch, and my vagina looks and feels smooth again. I honestly didn't suspect warts at first, I just thought they were little pimples or papules. But I think the evidence is staggering towards HPV.

What I'm actually concerned about is them migrating up to my cervix, because that is where they cause problems and cause havoc.
If they come back I'm going to do a vinegar test, and if they don't go away within the next month I'm going to schedule an exam.

>>6271000
I think you should go see a doctor ASAP! Don't wait too long!

>>6271000
Just go to a gyno and have it check out. You really wouldn't want to self treat this since sometimes it leads to cancer.

>>6271015
>>6271016
I'm aware, but the appointment is going to have to wait at any rate. The obgyn care around here sucks, they'll schedule me at least a month away, three or more if I'm terribly unlucky.
It might just be I'll have to make the two hour drive commute just to see someone in that case, but it'll have to be when I get money.

I can't get a job and it's incredibly taxing. I feel like I've called back everyone and my motivation is running low now from not being able to get one yet.

Without a job I feel like I can't do anything. I'm in school and running out of money. All I want to do is treat my friends here and there and hit up some conventions, but it's so goddamn impossible to get a job around here. I just miss doing things because of a lack of money.

All I can think about is money. It's shit.

>>6271066

many schools have peer tutoring programs. have you tried that? it'll at least give you a bit of income.

>>6271066
Get a temp job at a temp agency. The pay won't be high and the jobs suck but hey, some monies is better than no money.

>>6270994
Ah geez, The best trip I wrote about is like 5 pages long man. Truly an experience to remember. I'll have to dig it up and post it later.

It really was life changing in a way.

Same as I pretty much said last time. Except now it's getting worse. I broke the other night and actually drank with my meds again. I can't stand this body, I kind of just want to destroy it. All I ever feel is lonely and jealous. I keep on trying my best but, it gets me nowhere. I can't make a connection with anyone. I feel so detached. I don't even want to be in the same room as my family anymore. My friends just seem to be getting mad at me no matter how hard I try to be nice to them.
I feel bad for being alive, I'm totally worthless to my family and do nothing to make it better. My anxiety only gets worse everyday, I don't want to try anymore. There is only one person I'm close to but, I have to feel bad because he loves me and I don't feel the same way towards him. I can't just leave him though or I'll be alone. I'll have no one to at least cry to when I wake up from my night terrors. I wish I could just be someone else.

>>6270953
I wouldn't say you're being paranoid, I'd probably think the same but they just sound like they're those "party hard smoke weed erryday" type people. I mean, people are free to do whatever they want, I'd appreciate it just as much as you that they would not do that stuff around me.

And yes, exactly! Like it's funny once, but please stop.

>>6271101
I'm not sure if it will help at all anon but I just wanted you to know a lot of what you wrote there I've been feeling too. So if nothing else please don't feel you're alone in this because I'm suffering too and I know how horrible it is.

>>6271085
Good idea, I'll see what I can do about this. I will take anything. I think no matter what I get, I won't complain. Money is money, and I'll work my ass off for even a bit.

>>6271118

i feel as they do too, but honestly, knowing that others suffer in the same way as I do is in no way comforting. it's just sad.

>>6271101
I hope that you can hang on and that things get better for you soon, anon. This doesn't sound easy at all.

>>6271122
I know, I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

>>6271101
I think in your heart, you know what you're doing is wrong (the drinking with the meds). Well, talking on /cgl/ is an outlet, isn't it? We'll always be here for you with our drama. ʘ‿ʘ

This thread: http://youtu.be/WziA88-n02k

>>6271118
I appreciate the words but it's as >>6271122 said. I wish for happiness for others. Hearing that people have this feeling also is really sad.
>>6271130
Thank you, I am trying to deal with this. It's hard when I have parents that don't understand how bad the anxiety is. They take it as me just being lazy. I'd do anything to be a normal person though. Finish school, hang out with friends, have feelings for a boy, and have a job to support myself.

>>6271137
I know it is very wrong, I know better. All I keep thinking is I'm just going to be like my parents who both did/do the same thing. I haven't done it in 6 months before yesterday. I just kind of broke because I was just thinking which I try not to do but, it's hard when you're in a dark silent room alone 24/7.

>>6271157
Thank you for wishing for our happiness. I wish the same to you to. One day, you'll find out the the world isn't so bad afterall. You can never control what other people think but you can always control what you think.

>>6271169

>you can always control what you think

ha ha nice one

it's nice to be zoned out. then I'm not thinking about how miserable i am. then I can enjoy myself.

it's in times of self-reflection and analyzing my world that I realize how sad I am.

at least there's football tomorrow.

I have no job and stay inside all day because there is nothing outside worth doing. I want to /want/ to go outside but it's hard when I'm depressed and stuck in an endless cycle of ronery misery shit. I get fatter day by day and need to exercise but what's the point when no one sees me lol ;_;

tl;dr i want motivation to be presentable and cute so i can not be disgusting and lonely

>>6271207
I find just talking a walk to going to stores by myself is beneficial. You don't have to talk to anybody but you're still surrounded by people.

>>6270182
Yeah. No more of my money being spent on people taking History of Art or David Beckham Studies, so they can buy booze and cigarettes and expensive electronic toys.

>>6270195
I find that rather sensible. It may be a bit misaligned due to the rise in cost of living lately, but you students need to be taught the value of money somehow, if you're not working for a living.

Srsly. Try getting a job, then you can whine about not getting free money. Or drop out of college and get £50 a week to look for jobs that aren't there, rent paid, and earn big big bucks for pumping out babies.

Goddamn I get cynical when I'm tired. But gey, somebody needs to talk sense at poor students with cheap parents.

>>6270268
My motivation is that someday, all this bullshit will be solved, and everyone will suddenly understand what I've been talking about all these years.
The world will burn.

>>6270268
Losing a loved one. I look at her picture and hope to better myself.

I hate being an awkward and shy guy who doesn't know how to pursue romantic relationships with women. No matter how hard I try and how better I get at it, it's like I'm still miles behind everyone else.

>>6271339
I know you can do it anon! You have a long time to get better at talking to girls. Some girls do think the awkward shy guy is cute.

I believe in you~

>>6271407
>Well as much as I love her I am not trying to fake a persona

>>6271415
All I did was say something nice, is that a problem anon? Everyone on here doesn't need to be mean to be real.

>>6271407
Thanks a lot for the kind words, you made me a little bit happier.

>>6271407
>some girls do think the awkward shy guy is cute
there's three type of girls who say things like that
a) fat/ugly ones who can't get better
b) mentally insane ones, like really fucked up in the head, like, really, like not like "oh my gosh that's so cute" weird girl kinda way, but really scary insane
c) attention whores who want Beta male cock (but only on the Internet)

>>6271429
d) nice caring people like elsie

just because you're a cynical ass doesn't means she is as bad as you'd like to.

girl who likes a straight girl :(

>>6271429
>like not like "oh my gosh that's so cute" weird girl kinda way,
>taking one of the shittiest modern movie archetypes seriously

Look at this faggot.

>>6271437
she only 'cares' about you because everyone's gonna see your post and her post

if she saw you complain irl she'd ignore you at best or cry rape at worst

>>6271453
but I'm not doing that, you retarded Beta male virgin creeper / elsbitch

>>6271407
Girls like you just need a slap in the arse, i heard it works somewhere on the internet.

I can't seem to get rid of the fat between my thighs. I like where I am everywhere else, but the fat in my thighs is just sitting there, laughing at me, insulting me, all squishy and jiggly.

How much longer am I going to have to work out to get rid of you?! I've been running and running, but you just won't go away. Just fuck off already. I want to wear cute skirts.


Also,
>TFW when no sewing machine

>>6271429
>a) fat/ugly ones who can't get better
>b) mentally insane ones, like really fucked up in the head, like, really, like not like "oh my gosh that's so cute" weird girl kinda way, but really scary insane
>c) attention whores who want Beta male cock (but only on the Internet)
And yet they all sound better than vile bitches who like to make other people feel bad.

>>6271463
Guess it's again time to update the list of people who want(ed) to cum inside Elsie anon:

>unnamed Anons
>Zahirus
>Mell
>Roko
>Jim
>falcone
>"Mean European"
>And Then I Was A Bear
>ValleLator
>TwinBlasters
>"Scary Anon" (the guy who posts her private pics behind her back)
+
>Page

>>6271477
Fuck yeah, i made another list it seems!

>>6271479
Good to know you're filled with enthusiasm. Speaking of filling, how would you assess your chances to get to be the (first) one who fills Elsie's vagoo with his sperm?

Even Mell was like "fuck dis shit, I'm outta here" in the end.

>>6271481
What ever happened to Mell?

That I'm not good with words. An example:

O'er yonder I saw a French girl
The wind told me her name was Clef
But the wind shouldn't be able to talk so I was confused
As she came closer, she gave me a smile
My heart was aflutter
My stomach turned to butter
She said, "Parlez-vous français?"
I said, "What?"
Goodbye forever, fair maiden
I can't understand your language!

>>6271407
that reminds me i was watching twgok and elsie was moaning how she's prone to failure and then I remembered that elsie de lute posted this long drawn out post how she could'nt make a simple box of mac and cheese an how she was a born failure and it sounded like what elsie said word for word out of the anime, which makes me think elsie has mental problems or is just a huge phony trying hard to be like a dumb moe blob anime girl.

and now I'm sure.

>>6271481
Do i need some special plan? Could someone share some tips with me prease?

I seem to be dispassionate about everything, and the apathetic mood I have been in is making it even harder to enjoy things. I can't remember the last time I cracked a smile over something small.

Has this ever been the case for you anons? What did you do? It's killing me that I can't seem to enjoy life.

>>6271489
>a huge phony trying hard to be like a dumb moe blob anime girl.
I'm SOOOO glad there's finally someone else who sees it. I knew Elsbitch is a cheap troll from the get go but her virgin neckbeard fanclub would always just say I'm a jealous fatty, even tho she's fatter than me, by far.

>>6271494
Well, from what I've gathered so far
- she likes casual JRPGs, which she says she plays all the time
- she likes bad Jpop songs
- she needs to be constantly told she's not a loser
- she likes chocolate
- ottermode is good enough
- she thinks cross-eyed guys with glasses are an instant turn-off
- she loves foreigners, with foreign accents, easy put out
- she hates her country and thinks that other countries are heaven
- she's not really into anime but she likely wants a guy who's "into" anime to say she's totes into it
- she is very likely to reward whiteknighitng on the internet with sex if they're manly and strong like falcone

>>6271509
I will now make my master plan to win over Elsie's heart, also could i hire you to be my coach? You seem to know alot.

>>6271497
You're just a bitch.

>>6271496
How long have you been feeling like this? Is there something in your life that stresses you out?
I think the only way to get out of this is really trying to do things you usually enjoy, even if you don't feel like it. Go out somewhere, see a movie, pamper yourself.
If that doesn't help, you definitely should speak to a doctor.

>>6271513
I just gather info on the Internet, I'm not good with women, possibly because I happen to be a homosexual.

>in b4
No you're not my type, sorry.

just a reminder that flan is the hottest chick here

>>6271519
>In the age of technology... INFORMATION is everything.

ARE YOU A SPY?

Alright, I've already posted in this thread earlier to vent. Though I don't think I will say who I was. Though, I would like to talk about something that is bringing me down. This constant thing anons do that call me fake. Just because I don't like to show my bad side doesn't mean I'm trying to act like a perfect moe blob. I do have mean thoughts, I do stupid things but, I like to try to be nice to people. I like trying to make people happy. You can call me crazy, I will agree with you on that one but, I wish you would not bring other people into this. I am a klutz, I can't cook, I can barely do shit. I don't wish to be useless like this though. I wouldn't want to be that persona. I don't find that crap "cute" like others seem to.
Do you really need to de-rail a thread like this to me? Where people are trying to vent and possibly get some kind words from people. Go talk about how much of a fake or bitch I am at least in a shit thread. You can at least do that. This will be my last post to any of the trolls in this thread. I'm sorry to everyone who is needing to get stuff off their chest.

Rage post over. Have a nice day everyone and I wish everyone in this thread the best in life. It will get better.

>>6271527
you take /cgl/ waaaay to seriously.

>>6271527
You forgot your avatar.

>>6271535
>>6271533
WHITEKNIGHT MODE ACTIVATED!
Stooop it you twoooo.

>>6271518
I think it's been about a few years or so. I don't find anything in particular stressful; I have a pretty nice life and I go to a good college and I have great friends and everything. School counselors in the past have said that I may have depression, but I've always thought it was a laughable idea. There's nothing in my life to be depressed about.

Thanks for the advice, anon. I think I'll try to throw myself into cosplay more. It's nice to just talk to someone anonymously about your problems.

>>6271527
Don't let /cgl/ bother you. The reason they pick on you is because they know they can make you upset.

>>6271540
I'm sorry it's been going on for so long. It's good you have a good life, though!
But that still doesn't necessarily mean you can't be depressed. Mental Illnesses can be caused by a lot of things, even chemical imbalances of the brain.
I don't know how you feel about therapy, but I think it would be a good idea to at least consider the options in your area. You deserve to be happy, anon.

I just moved in with my boyfriend and I've been trying to get a job, but I've had no luck. It's been very hard for me because I dated this guy for 5 years who was abusive, and 2 years after leaving him I'm still only just starting to not be afraid of people again. There is this support group near me for people who have been in abusive relationships and I want to call them up and ask about, but then I get all scared and chicken out. I pretty much have to take a deep breath and muster up all the confidence I can just to go in and ask places for applications and try to make direct eye contact so I don't look like a weirdo. I really wish I just had health insurance and could afford therapy or something ;_; Thankfully my boyfriend is amazing and has been really supportive and comforting, if it wasn't for him I probably would still be not leaving my house.

>>6271553
I try my best not to let them bother me. I just needed to vent it out my pent up frustration. This thread I think suits the situation. I feel a lot better now that I at least said something.

>>6271562
Good, you have a positive effect on this place, it'd be a shame if you started posting less because of trolls.

>>6271562
I hope Elsie saw my whiteknighting just from some posts before.

>>6271559
>I want to call them up and ask about, but then I get all scared and chicken out.
How about asking your boyfriend to call for you? Or maybe you could go there with him and ask someone in person?

>>6271429
>b) mentally insane ones, like really fucked up in the head, like, really, like not like "oh my gosh that's so cute" weird girl kinda way, but really scary insane
Awsome.

>>6271564
I'm happy I can bring even a little bit of positivity here. I am a bit too stubborn to let trolls get to me.

>>6271559
I understand the fear of trying to get a job due to anxiety. Just know that it's okay if you are afraid, they will not think of you as a weirdo, you just need to try your best! When you do get a job you will feel proud of yourself. I hope you can get past your fears. You got one of the hardest parts done, you are getting outside the house. The safe-zone, just that is good in itself. I wish you good luck,

>>6271585
I wonder if this guide would help on Elsie, creating dat yandere.

>>6271596
>she's lost it and she knows she can kill

>>6271616
>the truth is just beyond the Gate

>>6271621
>>6271616

Fuck you guys, now I can't get the song out of my head.

Just in case >>6269437 is still checking.
>>6269505 here

Going to prepare spaghetti.

I found a stray kitten today. It brakes my heart. The owners didn't microchip her. I can't have a cat where I live, My husband has massive cat allergies. I took her to an animal hospital but they couldn't take her because they were already over full.

So the little girl is living in my bathroom until the morning when I can take her to paws. :( I posted a craigslist add but doubt the owners will see it.

>>6271754
Awww, she looks like a sweetheart, but if I lived close by you my fiance would flip the fuck out if I got another kitty.

Damn you, fiance! Let me feed my kitty obsession!

>>6271754
Your heart stopped?

>>6271754

Where are you located? You might find somebody on here or (I know you guys hate it, but I've seen animals rehomed there before.) Reddit to take her.

>>6271765
I have secret crush on you

>>6271767

Thank you if you're being serious, if trolling, then I hope you take a big drink of your hot chocolate without checking how hot it is and you burn your lip a bit.

>>6271437
She never said she liked virgin shy nerds, if I remember correctly she actually said she wanted her first time to be with a very experienced alpha male so it doesn't suck.

>>6271765
I live just outside Seattle.

>>6271761
She really is. If you even think about touching her she purrs. Plus she doesn't care what you do as long as you are touching her. I can tell she'll be one of those cats you can just put stuff on.

I am totally in love with her and she has been in my house for three hours.

>>6271876
>>6271754
Damn, there's no room at my house for another cat (two already) or else I'd volunteer!

>>6271984
Darn! I totally understand.
I just saw her playful side after taking a nap and feeling safe. who ever had her must have let her bite at their hand. But i put her in time out and now she is all full of love again. silly kitty.

>>6271527
>Alright, I've already posted in this thread earlier to vent. Though I don't think I will say who I was.
EZY as fuck >>6269601
at least change your posting style when dropping trip.

>>6272165
That actually isn't me. Try again. Don't know why it matters to you anyway.

>>6272171
Yeah it was one of the responses to that post in that thread of posts within this thread, but I still nailed it.

>>6271596
Hmm. I was wondering... Is there a male version for yandere? What are they called? I've known male tsundere, but I would like to know if there are male yandere too?

>>6272305
Wait, that didn't make any sense. What thread? I'm so confused.

>>6272311
The specific thread of posts related to >that< post that I quoted in this *topic*.

I've been pretty skinnyfat all my life, being on the cusp of being underweight but with a very high fat content. I wasn't mega hot or anything but I was pretty happy with my body. Kind of shapeless in the waist, but other than that not much to complain about.
Well, I've started working out for the sake of my health and I'm really not happy with what it's doing to me. I've lost a little weight, but it's been from my butt or thighs or something, because my pants don't fit anymore (which is obnoxious, I worked hard to find pants that fit me to begin with.) and my tummy, which hasn't burned fat in proportion with my legs or butt (which I'm aware is healthy, that's just one of those places that woman store fat more easily), now looks bulgy and weird. I feel good about getting healthy but I really hope that I start building muscle where my leg fat used to be or lose weight in my stomach at some point because it's kind of hard to continue exercising when it brings you from a 7/10 to a 4.
I was thinking I could continue to eat marginally unhealthy and just exercise and be in shape, but it seems like I might need to say goodbye to my sweet tooth and learn to like whole grain bread if I want to be both healthy and happy with my body.
Has anyone gone through similar? Does anyone have any advice?

>tfw no money

Nobody is going to read this thread now that it has passed its bump limit. Time to partay!

>>6272602
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0WWRWKWySq0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JsrE6gsDCpM

>>6272602
Ahh I thought that's why it wasn't bumping. I guess I'll just wait for a weightloss thread or something.

>>6272308
The term " Yandere " goes for both genders i think, same as Tsundere and what not.

>>6272612
http://youtu.be/XjVNlG5cZyQ

>>6272850
wtf, "The uploader has not made this video available in your country".

Hopefully I still have the title: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l2IkpeeIE4Y

>>6272308
I think it's just yandere. There are some drama cds called yandere heaven if you're interested.

>>6272866
http://youtu.be/WKNRGc71hjc

>>6272793
>>6273108
Great, thanks.