/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I am realizing my only current friend is a jerk. Not directly Lolita related but venting anyway because I'm upset over it, sorry for whining.

I started to notice when I would try to talk to her about anything I was interested in that she wasn't, one of those things being Lolita, that she wouldn’t talk back. I guess it’s fair if she isn't interested but weird that she wouldn't just say so. She had another Lolita friend at one point and I considered that maybe this friend ruined it for her so I just quit talking about it. I always listened to her if she had something to talk about that I wasn’t interested in without even thinking about it, so the more I think about this the weirder it seems.

Now she doesn't talk to me much at all, even if it’s about something serious, and never replies to my emails. She complains and gets angry over everything, and seems to hate everyone aside for her small friend group. She’s shown some hostile feelings toward girly-girls and young children which is worrying. I don't like kids but I couldn’t dream of throwing a fit about having to be near them when I'm in public like she has done. I'm a really friendly and optimistic person and her overall attitude is making me uncomfortable.

I tried to talk to her about things and she said she's "bad with friends" and finds it too hard to keep up with them but I think it’s an excuse because in the past she would want to hang out so much that it overwhelmed me (I never told her that out of fear of upsetting her). I'm starting to wonder if maybe I'm too girly for her now that I wear Lolita more often. We’ve been friends for a long time so this is upsetting to me.

I wish I had a friend with an interest in Lolita or in the things I like in general. It sucks not being able to talk about something you like to your friends. I daydream about having a Lolita friend a lot, or at least someone who appreciates the style.