/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Lately I've been more and more jealous and angry towards everyone I know. It's seems everyone else is doing just what they want to and then there's me who always tries to do the right thing. People waste their money, take a loan to visit japan, buy clothes/figures/cosplays/etc. and at the same time they skip school or tell how they are too depressed or have anxiety so they can't study or work. And even so, they just complain all the time so they'll also get all the attention and cheers they want. First they'll tell how they are fat and ugly, then they post selfies or first they'll tell how they are too depressed to function and then they'll go to travel with friends. And then there's me. I save my money, I keep silent on my problems so that I won't be annoying, I go to every class and work hard, I try to be a good friend and cheer up other how stupid their problems might be. At the same time I'm dealing with sickness that affects my everyday life, I'm lonely and I'm depressed after losing a family member a year ago in accident. And no one ever even asks me how am I because somehow their lives are so hard. So at the same time I'm angry about how the other people are attention whores who make bad decisions and on the other hand I am jealous that some people got friends to listen and support them and they can do nice things without feeling bad about spending money/skipping school/etc.. I feel like I am punished for trying to be a good and responsible person. Am I just a salty person who doesn't know how to enjoy life? Are others really as stupid as they seem or have I started hating everyone I know just because I'm so pathetic myself...? I used to be compassionate person...