/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>7348817
Anon, are you me?
Vegan,5 feet tall,gym daily, and I weigh 145 pounds.i have fit thighs and a bubble butt so i look great in sweatpants but horrid in lolita. I was 130 and a total fatty chan when I started but My entire family is kind of "thick" and my brother is a body builder so I'm sure it's genetic but I wish I was skinny and frail ;-;
Everyone else in my height range weighs under 100 pounds and while being able to eat tons of junk food.i feel like the only way id ever achieve a more normal weight for my height is full blown anorexia.

A little insight My gym regimen consists of threadmill, eliptical and then weight machines ( i dont use free weights anymore becouse they gave me insanely thick arms) . I mostly eat leafy Greens with hummas, the occasional bread and lots of soup. I'm terrible at math so i can't bring myself to count calories but I'm pretty sure I'm not eating foods in an amount that would classify as bulking .
And worst of all becouse of all this, all of my boyfriends for the past 2 years have been fit bros, but I like tall skinny Aisan Kpop guys. ;-;