/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Tfw I bought so much merch of my best boy and forgot to buy a base bag and now can't afford one.

>try to lose weight
>gain five pounds

I'm actually going to kill myself because I'm 5'0 and almost 200lbs. Any advice on how to drop 80lbs would be appreciated.

>never had a gf
>hate myself too much to get one
And the cycle continues

>live in NYC
>been into anime most of my life
>have been to animeNEXT2 2011 with a friend from middle school one time
>have been to Waku Waku NYC 2015 once (then it shut down ;_;)
>no car, no way of traveling to cons
>no friends to go with either

I have one friend who lives on the west coast that always goes to cons and I am so jealous I wish there were more cons closer to NYC.

I'm at the age where it would be nice to finally meet someone so I feel like cons are my only way to do that.

>need money
>live in a huge city
>apply for internships that relate to my major
>have been doing this for 6 months
>no replies
>can't buy burando, can't buy cosplay, can't do anything

When will my suffering end?