/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Eh. Holy Lantern isn't really my thing. Like a lot of people, I'm kinda bummed about it not coming in the regular jsk cut though.

I'm still waiting for my shoes from BL. Tracking is finally working and it's supposedly just shipped. Any longer and there will be blood.

Unfortunately, most of my money has to go towards loans and bills (boooo), but hopefully I can still nab a baby jsk and an IW bow while they're still on sale by next week.

Ugh. I should have known better than to splurge on a couple of records. I'm dumb.

On a different note, someone asked about classic and gothic instagram accounts to follow in the old thread, and I'd also like to know who are any good ones to check out (currently following octave kitten - I love her traveling photos, so travel stuff is a plus).

>working two jobs to pay off student loans
>both are minimum wage
>given up job searching (for now) after finally landing the full time one after six months of graduating
>emotional and financial strain from underemployment is showing in how I carry myself at work
>tfw introverted and everyone expects you to be all smiles and small chit-chat
>originally applied in a different department; never wanted to work in that position
>learned that I was a shoe-in for someone who passed away (rip; I'm sorry I never knew you; you're a better employee than I'll ever be)
>also learned that company prefers hiring in-house - biding time to leave this department
>work is generally boring, routine, and not intrinsically fulfilling

(prefer project based work where I work toward a goal)
>spend a lot of time doodling lolitas on scratch paper to give me some relief while on the floor
>spend a lot of time during breaks looking at lolita stuff
>can afford to buy lolita every two weeks, but know better (wardrobe is still growing though)
>realize that lolita's becoming my escape rather than just a fashion
>scared that I'll be stuck at position or the company for a long time, only to have lolita be the only few things I look forward to.

>envy my art/theatre major friends who've jumped the boat into striking out on their own and pursuing their passions, even though there's no "safety net".

I'm actually starting to lose my passion for the arts. I haven't gone to see a play or an art gallery since last year (which shouldn't be a problem since they're both pretty big in my area).

>tfw I wish I had never settled for less

I've been reading a lot of things about underemployment lately and it sucks how there's not enough research and effort into combating what's supposedly a systematic problem. I'm trying to not let my learned helplessness get the best of me though.

>so many things I want for cheap on J-auctions
>graduated and in job-limbo
>tfw bills before frills

Also, I have a URI and I should be preparing for a panel presentation. I just hope that I'm not contagious by the time of the con and I don't get worse because I'm around people with con funk.

Ugh. I just walked into my roommate and her boyfriend cuddling on the couch as I warm up myself some dinner.

>tfw all roommates except me has a boyfriend
>tfw they practically live here
>tfw they smoke and I found cig ashes on my plant - a gift from my last boyfriend
>also, tired of being the third wheel or left out because no qt 3.14 bf

The guys are harmless, but really boring and kind of dumb with pleb taste in music. I just hate that they're always hanging around here and trying to engage in small talk with me. Being an introvert sucks for that kind of thing. I fucking hate small talk. I also have this bad feeling of pretending to be ok with being a long-term single - like I'd end up with a buttload of money to buy shit like lolita, but be terribly lonely. I also have a fear of being in a boring relationship with someone I can't engage in a conversation with, but I stay just to not feel alone.

I dunno. It's just shitty that I like spending time in solitude, but I tend to feel alone when with others like that.

On a better end here, I can't wait to start looking for a big-kid job and taking my class in sewing (intermediate - toward the end of the semester, I believe we'll be modifying and making patterns), and for the weather to get cooler so I can start wearing lolita more comfortably again.

>body preparing for that time of the month
>hurts to remove hair
>acne errwhere
>tired as fuck
>con weekend starts now

>>7607773

>"WOAH HOW COME NO ONE TOLD ME THIS CON WAS GOING ON?!"
>Tell them about it every year

Yup. I hate that the same people don't even bother taking the time looking up conventions in their area, too. They spend half of their lives on facebook, but apparently, never used google as a key word search engine.