/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Finally acknowledging, trying to understand and treat my depression
>Massively jarring and complicated as nearing 30 I never really expected this to be my life and had pretty much decided that it was just a part of life to be unhappy and never be able to do the things that you want or be yourself in any way
>Working on changing from a person who purposely avoided anything they liked, who dressed specifically as to not draw any positive or negative attention, who avoided any conversation of interests or opinions. As well as being an artist and sculptor who hasn't shown a single person on or offline their work in years.
>Have wanted to wear classic, gothic and mori for years and sweet when I was younger
>Been repressing myself for so long I remember being 16 and sitting in my room browsing AP all day.
>Head is constant spiral of adjusting to medications for the first time, being excited to change and more interested in exploring who I am and just constant fear of everything in my life crashing down around me if I open up to anyone
>Couldn't start dressing differently even if I wanted too as I just quit my solid and well paying job of five years with an emotional breakdown which is the reason I have now been thrust into all of this