/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Go to anime expo
>boyfriend's friend loses my schedule
>there's a panel really important to me so I keep calling him to confirm when and where it is
>I'm unsure as fuck because anime expo was a mess
>super anxious about him and keep texting him when (asked him 10 times that day)
>right before the panel, he scolds me in front of all his friends, tells me he wishes that he never brought me since I'm just a burden and interrupting his events all the time
>I go to the panel alone
>Can't enjoy it, contemplating offing myself since I'm nothing but a burden at this panel I've been looking forward to for a year
>really depressed at the panel (which was horribly managed by the way)

>talk to boyfriend after the con about how that was maximum not ok, apologized ten times over for being a burden
>stopped telling him I love you
>he apologized and told me how upsetting it was that I stopped saying "I love you"

I'm legitimately considering breaking up with him for ruining this panel for me.
we live together, have been dating for almost 3 years

I don't even know..

I sometimes have fantasies of being cosfamous. Or at least being considered the best cosplayer of my favorite characters, possibly even getting hired by the creators to be their official cosplayer.

It'll never happen, though. I'm too ugly.

>in Japanese club in middleschool
>They learn cute dances to show at the culture festival
>I learn it too
>we even got matching outfits to dance in
>they tell me I'd look better in the crowd
>They have me and one ugly girl at the sidelines as they dance
>It still hurts

>go to archive to look up really old thread for lulz
>see multiple posts of mine from years ago
>tfw I'm just now realizing how much I sounded like an autistic retard back then