/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>be good friends with a guy for 10 years, bffs
>always went to cons and did stuff together
>like him a lot, a whole fucking lot but never really said anything
>eventually we just kinda stop talking due to me being busy with other things and personal problems but he always wanted to talk to me again
>recently talk to him again after not talking to him in like 2 years
>tells me about his life and >>gf
>get hit with so much sadness that I just end up confessing
>says he liked me too but that's all in the past now
Man I just really want to kill myself, I wasted such a good opportunity and a good person all because I was a fucking retard