/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Friday evening
>watching Anne with an E on Netflix with bf
>bf starts talking about how comfy it is, how he’d like our life to be simpler too
>says he wants to get back into carpentry and build us some cozy rustic furniture while I sew my dresses and then we’ll bake together and have afternoon tea every weekend
>says that would be a nice occasion for me to dress up and that maybe he can try to dress up a bit too
>suggests we go by the gardening centre on Saturday to pick up some plants and herbs to spruce up our home and kitchen
>tfw wannabe lolita/mori lifestyler so I’m 200% down with this
>go to bed excited

>Saturday/Sunday
>bf spends the entire day(s) playing video games and only emerges when it’s time for dinner and Netflix
>when I bring up the garden centre he just grunts and says we’ll go next weekend
>know from experience that this means we won’t be going at all

I shouldn’t have gotten my hopes up.

>tfw completely exhausted and feeling like shit about myself
>been having daily mini breakdowns in the bathroom at work and have gotten quite proficient at disguising cryface just in time for meetings
>talk to loved ones about taking a day or two off for mental health reasons
>they react like I’m just being lazy
>”this is part of being an adult, deal with it”
>”welcome to the workforce lol”
>”you’re not even really sick though”
>”I’d like to stay home and play videogames too, anon, but we have responsibilities okay?” (I wouldn’t even be playing videogames, I just want to catch up on sleep and household chores)
>only wear lolita once a month nowadays because I just don’t have the energy
>when I do, friends and family hint that I’m too old for it and should change to a more “mature” style, like rockabilly (ew)

>have entire lolita comm on FB
>includes a woman who works <20 hrs a week to afford lolita while her husband pays all the bills, rent, groceries etc.
>posts about how she’s taking a full day off for self care pretty much every other week
>self care apparently consists of doing “lolita photoshoots” with a self-timer in her backyard where she balances on a bench or contemplates her hedge or dramatically poses with a garden gnome I’m not even kidding
>comment section is always full of super supportive comments from at least 10 different people
>”treat yourself, you deserve it”
>”you’re so beautiful and that’s a great outfit”
>”you’re amazing and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise”
>”you’re a queen!”
Where did I go wrong? I’m pretty sure that if f I took regular days off to post selfies in lolita with moldy lawn ornaments, none of my friends would be calling me a beautiful queen…

>>9915599
Ya this. Just hoping to get it cheaper or well will try.