/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>8111158
I spent barely half a day as that character with pink hair for a photoshoot. The rest of the time i was dressed as a soldier. (unfortunately i made a compilation photo to post on social media and it was all i had on my phone to show them - if id had a choice i wouldnt have)

i shit you not, they said to me almost verbatim

>hmmmmm well..... pink hair isnt really saying manly to me
>me: well i mean he's a male character, even though he has pink hair. i was recognisably a man.
>well yessss buuuuuutttt from my standpoint, you look like a girl

the only nice thing from this is that one therapist was a fuddy-duddy fatass late middle-aged woman and the other was a total hon. its assholish, but man. i feel so much better when i think of how blatantly trans she looks.

i likely cant go back to them going all "GRR MAN MAN MAN BUTCH TESTOSTERONE SMASH ANGER" unless i get different therapists because they'll know its a farce. they also said my outlook on life is too grim ("where do you see yourself in ten years?" literally nothing unless i get treatment then maybe i can see myself having a future :^) "anon thats very dark we're not sure youre ready for treatment")

>a-at least i know what not to do now
>tfw could have been on t since mid last year if i hadnt opened my heart to my therapists
>literally every other healthcare provider agrees my therapists were fucking retards and dont see the reason to keep me away from treatment