/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

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>>9808425
some of the things in that book hit hard anon

my answer is a lame and longwinded one, so sorry: i started wearing lolita when i was 16. i dove into it headfirst. it was a huge part of my life. all of my friends were lolitas, i went to events, i met my lolita "idols" and favorite designers, and it was my greatest source of joy. i even modeled for them once and it was a dream come true (don't mean that as a brag, just showing i peaked early). i had never had so many friends before, and had never had so many people like me since i was a loner.

then i just kind of grew up and real life started happening. i work and school fulltime, like a lot of adults have to do. i still like the clothes and wear them when i can, but they've lost that unattainable magical feeling they had when i was a little younger. i post my looks on social media, but when the likes roll in i feel nothing in comparison to how happy i used to be to get any interaction at all. i don't have much opportunity to keep in touch with my lolita friends (they're growing up and have their own lives too), and the person who introduced me to the fashion left me in the dust. wearing lolita reminds me that we'll never be friends again. lots of people see me but i'm very alone.

so after that blogpost, i think i just miss the way things used to be with my friends. i also miss the capability of feeling excited and hopeful about things. now i hardly feel anything. i've achieved every goal and ticked all the boxes but i'm just a sadsack busybody in cute clothes.