/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I don't hate the way I look, but it's a burden.

At 5'6 and 215 and growing, I'm a biggin.
I've lost all motivation to lose weight partly because of frustration and partly because I can live with it. And also because I know even if I lose weight, I'll need plastic surgery on my stomach to look normal.

I'm the kind of fattie whose weight all went to their lower stomach. I've begged my parents since high school to get a tummy tuck and a lap band. The stretch marks are so severe they're almost underneath my boobs. When I did cross country in high school my belly skin slapped against my upper front quads when I ran. It still does it when I go on the treadmill.
And my boobs are worse.
They're inflated, saggy flapjacks and I'm in desperate need of an augmentation.

I know without the proper kickstart my whole life is going to be nothing but losing weight and regaining it. I lost 30 pounds last summer and it's already come back. But I can't stop the eating. I eat to relieve stress, which I experience everyday. And frankly eating makes me feel good. Even when I tracked my calories I would physically "forget" that I ate something earlier and I would convince myself that I could eat more.

But I also know that being fat isn't the end of the world. People have it worse than me.

Five probably. But with bigger hips...