/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

for whatever reason I get so much anxiety over things I should be excited about. I feel so ANXIOUS and prehaps I internally have some built up tiny worries that have developed into a bit of a clump in my basket of exctiement but STILL. I have an upcoming con and I seriously believe it'll be the best days of me and our friend's lives but I can't shake the feeling of anxiety. Prehaps it's because I want to be desired and thought of as perfect with my partner in our punk sailor moon cosplays. I'm not thin, i'm very curvy. I have huge hips and thighs and i'm wearing leather leggings. I don't want to look so BIG next to her (she's tiny as fuck like 90 lbs) and i'm just chubby (I embrace this normally as I have no problems with self esteem and feel beautiful in my own skin NORMALLY). I just want to drop the anxiety and maybe lose a few lbs before the con but May 15th is RIGHT THERE and it's simply impossible to make any noticeable changes to my body right now...atleast i'm wearing a corset... ;///;