/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Really fucking depressed due to a lot of bad stuff that has happened
>Horrible self-esteem issues to the point I consciously avoid looking into mirrors so that I don't have to see myself
>Thinking about suicide a lot though I don't wanna carry it out but I can't keep the thoughts away even if I wanted to
>Distancing myself from my friends because I don't want to bother them with my anxiety
>Can't focus on anything even though I have a hectic schedule with my studies
>Can't afford meds or therapy
>No appetite at all
>Lost interest in everything I loved earlier
>Money problems
>What the fuck am I going to do