/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>7256591
>>7256672
I know how you guys feel, too. I was bullied for being "the weird kid" growing up and fluctuated between not giving a shit and longing to be something people would consider normal.

I'm around the same age and feel the same way you do from time to time. I don't want people to think I refuse to grow up and I worry about coworkers judging me for looking a certain way in my spare time. More importantly, girls who wear lots of makeup and flashy clothes are judged as trashy bimbos. Nothing is more annoying than people assuming you're an idiot when it's actually quite the opposite. I'm no mental giant, but I'm of reasonable intelligence, at least.

It's easy to say "don't give a fuck about what people think about you and do what you want", but in reality, I think most of us are brought up thinking that how others perceive us and how we present ourselves is important.

I think of giving up all my "weird" hobbies (many of which are the same as yours), buying a bunch of J. Crew and blending into the crowd more and more these days. But my family is also struggling--my mom's side is either borderline impoverished or actually below the poverty line--and I feel guilty about wanting somewhat expensive clothes. On the flipside, my dad's side used to have money, but a lot of them lost it and still insist on living like they're wealthy. I don't want people to think I'm like them--projecting an image of luxury when I'm actually pretty broke. Part of me also thinks "Yeah, so what if you start dressing normally and stop reading manga. You're still going to be the same weirdo you got teased for being in grade school deep down. People are going to think you're normal and feel tricked once they get to know you. Why bother." It'll probably further alienate me from the people who have similar hobbies as me--most of whom treat me like a moron who can't possibly understand their fringe interests as it is--anyway.

tl;dr: I know that feel, sis.