/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm a bi girl and my lesbian side haunts me all the time. I never got to experience girl love and it's seriously bothering me. I can't stop thinking how would it be to have a cute lolita gf, or cute gf in general and dream about extreme feminity. The thing is, I'm in a relationship and I even if the cutest girl ever came my way I wouldn't leave my bf. I have never experienced love like this and my feels make me guilty. The sex with him is the best I have had but all I think alone is cute girls. Being meets is painful sometimes because I can't stop thinking all the cute lesbian girls afterwards. I haven't had crushes though so it's more sexual attraction. I feel shitty because this would probably hurt him a bit but I just can't stop. He doesn't want to share me with girl and I wouldn't want that either so maybe I will just wait here and hope it passes.
>mfw surrounded by cuties at meet and trying to keep my lesbo hidden and mind straigth