/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I feel like I am a good friend. I was usually the one who arranged get togethers and stuff back in college. I have social anxiety and I don't drink, so my best friend knew not to bother inviting me out on weekends since they all partied.
I still lost a few friends that year because of their own stupidity and mental breakdowns. Senior year of college was so mentally draining that I just lost the drive to pursue a career. I had a teacher harass me that year, and when I reported her to my department head, he told me it was obviously my fault lol he can't tell her anything it might hurt their professional relationship. I wound up having to report her to the head of some academic advising thing because no one would help me, and they were infuriated at my situation.
It didn't help that none of my friends would stick up for me aside from one or two. Everyone told me that "it was just me who she had an issue with, they didn't want to hurt their relationship with her because she would be a professional contact and could help them find work." It got to the point where I was having bad anxiety attacks every day and fell into a severe depression post graduation.
I feel so isolated because I don't feel like I can ever have the same relationshps I once had with my friends. When I needed them the most none of them helped me despite how I would drop what I was doing at random hours of the night to help them with issues. I was always there for them and no one would help me with this teacher. My school let me down, my department head let me down, my friends let me down. I can barely go on facebook anymore because all of them are fb friends with this teacher and she regularly comments on their walls. I had to get a word blocker because just seeing her name and my friends interacting with her would make me so upset.

I can't even find the passion that I once had for what I got a degree in anymore.