/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Sorry in advance for OT rant but I just kinda need to vent
>me and my boyfriend just moved to a small apartment together. We've been looking for an apartment for like two years so we're super happy
>woman who lived here before us was in a wheelchair, so she had problems cleaning
>ok, no problem, we can clean
>two weeks in, we start to notice more and more things that the firm she hired to clean missed
>mold between tiles in bathroom
>all cabinets stink
>pull out stove one day because I dropped something
>literally hell, the stove is a bit too small, so things easily fall down there
>almost puke seeing it all
The list goes on, we found things like her old DIRTY bed sheets that she left in a closet, covering a stain of red wine on the closet floor.
But the worst part is when we found the bugs
I'm not sure what they're called in English, they're called "pälsängrar" in Swedish, they basically eat skin and hair from humans and animals, as well as fabric
We've found about 20 larvas in drawers and on the floor and stuff
I'm so fucking pissed and upset, I've spent hours cleaning out everything and spraying and stuff. I know that I'll probably have to redo all of it a couple of times more before they're gone, and I just cant fucking deal
I also don't want to get any stuff to make it look homey and cute, because I know that's just stuff I'll have to clean of again later
Sorry again for kinda OT, I just needed to get it out of my system

>tfw when I want to cosplay from touhou because of all the awesome designs, but too pleb to actually beat the games
Feels bad man

>Hate my job, It's at a coffee cafe chain place that's one of the busiest in the area
>It takes over an hour to get to by transit
>Boss is incredibly incompetent
>My coworkers talk about me behind my back and are sometimes even rude to me directly
>Can't quit because I need the money
>Crying almost everyday

I've started just laying in bed playing on my phone on days I have off barely doing anything, let alone working on any cosplay stuff.

I don't have a face for cosplay.
I'm ugly. I really am. There is no doubt about this. I was told I was ugly for my entire teenage years. I am in shape and I groom myself as much as I could, but my facial structure overall isn't that flattering. It upsets me so much because I put a lot of effort into trying to look nice and it never pays off, ever. I enjoy other cosplay-related hobbies like designing, sewing, arts and crafts, etc. but I can never get myself to wear a costume and go to a con. I fear looking ridiculous trying to do that being the disgusting piece of garbage that I am. It hurts really bad. I wish I was born with a prettier face. I really want to cosplay, but I can't get myself to fo that. What is there for me to do?

>>8714003

Heavy feels, anon. Very heavy feels.

Sorry gulls, I know it's not /cgl/ related but I just need to vent. Today my dad went to the hospital for neck pains and he had a mini heart attack and wound up going in for open heart surgery. The surgery itself wasn't really a worry for me cause he's already had one heart attack, but I've been panicking all day because when he got leg surgery his company told him that he only had so many more days he could miss before bring laid off. He's been there 25 years and is one of their top employees, not to mention 70% of my family's income. I'm honestly terrified because he didn't graduate high school, he got into a trade so if he gets laid off it'll be really hard for him to find a job as good as this one. I'm going for my sophomore year of college and I'm trying to get another job to help support myself, but I'm still fucking terrified about all this.

>>8545246

tfw your husbando is from an older anime and doesn't have a lot of merch (Viral ttgl)

tfw all the merch of your wifu is over sexualized for dudebro consumption (Rei Ayanami)

>>8384206
>>8384212
why do i even bother

Fuck. This was the worst AN I've ever had.

>No new cosplay this year
>Missed every /cgl/ meetup
>Missed every panel I wanted to go to except one
>Only photoshoot I participated in was garbage and I left less than halfway through
>Didn't get to drink
>Didn't get a seagull pin(but I did bump into Corky on Sunday, that was cool)
>Didn't find anything good in the dealers room(At least I didn't spend much this year)
>Hotel situation was insane

Brace yourself for hotel room tangent.

>The guy we were staying with told my friends and I "This year it's the three of you and me in the room this year, maybe two more"
>A little more than I'd like but whatever, only two randoms maybe and it's never been a problem staying with him before.
>Meet other two guys, they seem alright
>Get a text from him a few hours in to the con
>"I heard our room reeks of weed what the fuck is going on?"
>None of my friends smoke
>A little while later my friends went back to the room and there were five people in it they didn't know NOT counting the two randoms we knew about
>So at least seven randoms with access to the room
>Guy we're staying with has no idea who they are
>Fuck this
>Friends stayed at one of the guys house'
>Thankfully a couple I knew booked a room with two double beds and offered to let me stay with them.
>However since their hotel was a 15 minute drive away and I kinda had to go back with them when they wanted to go, I was in bed on Saturday night by 11:15
>I don't go to bed that early on a weekday this was Saturday at a con I'm still supposed to be out having fun!

Overall AN sucked for me this year, just complete shit. Well, there's always Okatuthon.

>>8347919
>http://www.aliexpress.com/item/Free-Shipping-3-4-cup-Cotton-Bra-and-Panties-Set-different-size-and-more-colors-for/32326545650.html
>Sizes: A B
>tfw Im D

On another note, I think I bought a pack or something that was some of those panties mixed
Sad part was, since it was all from different stores, the sizes were fucked up, so like 3/5 were too small ;_;

>want to make dance videos
>tfw 5"9 thin person dancing won't look good

>>8272865
>tfw when I bought that dress when I was new to lolita
>tfw it looks exactly like right picture
>tfw my first dress that I was dreaming and longing for turned out like this
>tfw this kinda ruined my interest for lolita

Thanks Milanoo

>>8272176
>>8272180
Never been to a meetup at all, nevermind mind a pool one, sorry.

I want to bring my boyfriend to AN but he has virtually no interest in weeby crap.
He's interested in seeing what its like but I really don't want to bore him because I'll be spending a lot of time with photoshoots and lolita panels that he really doesn't give a shit about.
Half the reason he wants to go is because I might be partying, and he's concerned about me (rightfully so, I'm an awful drunk), but I also don't want him to spend money on the ticket and hotel if this isn't something he'll enjoy.

Advice? Thanks gulls.

>grandfather died this year
>he always spent Christmas with me and my parents
>since his death, care of my hysterical alzheimer's-ridden grandmother has passed down to my parents
>she wakes them up in the middle of the night asking if she can sleep in their bed
>she insists my dad is my grandfather and gets offended when he kisses my mom
>she freaks out whenever there's a fire in the fireplace, a black person comes on TV or my husband of 5 years is in the room (still don't understand that one)
>because of her annoying habits grating on them my parents are at each others throats constantly
>"come sit here honey"
>"I don't want to sit next to you"
>the insults begin
>spend all of Christmas eve and day like this

>the worst part was that we briefly visited my husband's family for an early Christmas and had an amazing time
>delicious dinner, loving family, everyone happy and welcoming as per usual
>have to say goodbye to go to the shitstorm that I know is brewing at my parents' house

>aunt and uncle have been harassing my dad over the will since my grandfather's death
>say that because they have 3 kids and my dad only has me they should get 3/4 of the small fortune my grandfather left, 'for the kids to go to college'
>one of their kids is almost 30 and done with school, grandparents already paid for it
>the second one is 3 years behind in middle school and has fits of violent rage, should not go to college by any means
>they stop by on Christmas to yell at my dad and threaten to sue him for their 'fair share' of the money
>my normally serene teddy bear of a father shouting them down while my grandmother cowers

>spend some time today looking at LM for something I might want to buy with Christmas money to cheer myself up
>end up falling into a pit of despair over all this legal BS and not buying anything
>merry fucking christmas

>>7930189
And here's one with a slightly higher rating.
>http://item.taobao.com/item.htm?spm=a230r.1.14.1.q3bzVZ&id=42178171296&ns=1&abbucket=9#detail

>mfw i'm a size 10
>mfw i will never have kawaii bunny feet

>>7894343
>>7894580
>MM St. Claire OP is the first lolita dress that gave me the feels back when I was 14 and my sister was saving pictures of manasama on family shared desktop
>totally in a financial position to be able to buy it with ease
>within measurements
>...but I'm a D cup with a 32 band size, so even though my bust measures only 84-85cm the dress with look like shit on me because it's made for B cup size max
>just wanted to wear beautiful classic coordinate and confess to the guy I liked for a con next year but there's nothing I can do about my cup size

i-i guess i'll just have to f-find something else to get rejected in

>Go see a movie with father.
>Realize one of my friends should cosplay from it because they'd be really good.
>Call my friend up.
>Hear all my other friends in the background and having fun.
>Realize I never get invited to anything they do.
>Don't have any friends at school.
>Made one really good friend last quarter who ended up graduating and had to leave the country.
>Check clubs.
>"I-It's okay, there's bound to be something I like!"
>Literally no clubs sound interesting. There's not even an anime club that I'll put up with weebs for.
>Realize I'm really fucking lonely and don't know how to make friends.

Fuck, I just want to hang out with people.

>>7798518
t-thanks fellow anon. I'm still in school and living paycheck by paycheck and after seeing a bunch of Animal Crossing videos I just really need one now it's making me really sad

>broke up with my bf earlier this year because I know nothing good is going to ever come out of this relationship
>still love him, want the best for him, want to be with him, but I know I can't
>our lease ends this month, I'm packing all of my stuff
>we've lived together for the past 3 years, we've been together 6, don't know what it'll be like to not live with him/be around him all of the time
>just packed away the AATP set he wore last weekend that I let him borrow, it's hitting me hard
>sucks because I want us to stay together but he's never going to fucking grow up and stop being a manchild and I've put off college to be with him, I need to go back and figure out my life, I can't take care of both of us forever
>he still doesn't know where he's going to live, he has like 4 more days to figure out something (keep in mind he's had since march - 6 months - to arrange something)
>feel bad for him but I can't keep enabling him to keep doing stuff like this

just all of my everything that I own has a faint scent of him. this is so fucking hard. I still have so much to pack and clean...

>Know boyfriend and I are going to break up
>Try to separate myself from him to not feel as much pain when the inevitable happens
>End up becoming even more attached
>Whenever there is a threat of breaking up it ended once we said how much we loved and wanted one another
>At this point it feels like we're simply together because we don't want to be alone
>He used to throw a fit if I went to bed several hours before he did
>He would go on about how he wants to spend time with me and how miserable he is without me
>We spent pretty much every minute awake with each other after that
>Say I'm going to bed early one day
>"oh okay. Night then, love you."
>He starts spending less time with me after this
>Spending it with friends instead or by himself as far as I'm aware
>No longer asks for sexual favors
>When I try to lead in to it, he just seems like he wants to get it over with
>I confront him and ask if he's getting sick of me
>Claims that isn't the case, but still isn't spending time with me
>This feeling of rejection hurts

This is my first "real" boyfriend and we've been together for almost a year now. I'm so used to having some one that wants to spend time with me. We're going to break up sometime soon anyway due to problems we're having, but I don't want to be alone yet. I know I sound like a whiny bitch, but I hate this. I know our relationship is unhealthy, but he's the only person I speak to. I don't want to be alone.

Sorry this isn't cgl related, just need to get it off my chest.

>Be 3 1/2 years ago
>Start new job in a restaurant
>Promptly get a huge crush on a coworker of mine
>We flirt a lot, but it never goes anywhere
>Be one year ago, have fallen madly in love with him at this point
>He randomly comes to work with a wedding ring on
>Never mentioned he was engaged, I didn't even know he had a girlfriend
>Ask him if it's a joke, it's not- he really decided to get married and he was only 22
>I go "O-Oh" and decide, fuck it, tell him I like him
>He just goes "lol I know"
>ok.
>A few weeks later, after I've gone off to school and stopped working there for the semester, we decide to hangout
>We almost have sex until he changes his mind at the last minute because "Well it's not like my wife is a bad wife or anything"
>I feel really lead on, hurt, and guilty because I know encouraging him to cheat is wrong
>Be tonight
>I'm at work again, try to talk to my coworker, have things be normal
>Fuck, I can't even go near him without blushing and feeling my chest get tight
>Don't want to try to get him to cheat but really, really have feelings
>All I can do at home is think about him, super hard to have interest in anyone else
>Dream about him every night
>Fuck

tl;dr I'm a shit person for trying to get my coworker to cheat.

I'm sad because my scoliosis is getting worst and now I have Kyphosis. It hurts to stand or sit straight and I'll never look pretty standing up. My shoulders are uneven and I can do a really gross thing with one of them, and because my abusive ex is back in my life and him and I have made amends. I still have feelings for him but I'm with a great guy now but he's going back to his country for a few weeks and my ex is getting too close and I don't know what to do with myself anymore