/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>8975484
>get back to hotel room at 230 AM, in bed by 3AM
>friend and gf are in other bed, loud makeout session ensues, then they start talking about the dumbest shit
>15 minute lecture on the philosophy of the movie Liar Liar
>finally get fed up and play this clip
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlaQwsIVd9Y&feature=youtu.be&t=740
>friend looks over at me and asks me if they were being too loud
>[lack of self awareness intensifies]
>finally get to sleep at 345AM
>don't stay for very long sunday, sleep deprived, got to sleep on the way down
>had a little chat with him about how much he fucked up over the weekend
>promised to give him another chance this summer when con season rolls around, but I've already started going to cons with other people

I kind of feel happy for him, he was one of the very few people who understands my mindset, and it's probably for the best that he's been pulled back into the world of normality by this girl, but at the same time that leaves me very much alone on the outskirts. I don't mind the loneliness, but none of my other con friends have the craftsmanship or creative thinking for me to properly brainstorm and bounce ideals off of them.

2/2

>Broke up with emotionally abusive first love about a month ago
>Thinking that my life will get on track after separating myself from the abuse
>Moved out from extremely safe neighborhood and only took the essentials with me because I couldn't fit everything
>Didn't tell any of the neighbors
>Planned on going back the next couple days
>House got robbed the day after moving out meaning someone who saw I was moving out broke down the back door
>Went back
>Everything is thrown around, jewelry got stolen, important papers, tv, game systems and PC are gone
>It had to have been multiple people
>Got fired because I got reported for "bullying" when I told a co-worker to fuck off after she kept bragging about getting the higher position that I wanted
>I was going to lose my job anyway because my glasses broke and I couldn't see and do my job properly because of it
>Putting 14-year-old dog out of her misery soon
>Can't afford to put her through more tests and surgeries
>Have barely any money for food and bills as it is
>Don't qualify for foodstamps
>Despite being a dog, she's my only friend now


This is too much. I feel like I'm in a never-ending soap opera.

>Pretty severe emetophobia
>Over thinking makes me nauseous
>This makes it so I can't eat
>Lost 60 pounds because of it
>Find out my brother has a pretty severe case of the stomach flu today
>oh christ
>He's coming over tomorrow to take me food shopping, only have enough money to afford a couple meals
>Get so nervous that I've been shaking and making myself feel sick for the past 3 hours
>Stomach is pulsating from being so nervous
>Keep reminding myself that I'm not even sick and that I need to eat or I'll feel worse
>It's not working
>Been sobbing out of fear since I heard I may get it
>Don't even have enough money to buy disinfectant or soap
>Only have dish soap on hand
>The idea of throwing up feels like the end of the world
>Last year I went through a period of not eating more than a few bites of strawberries, or a couple bites of dinner for 4 months
>Worst time of my life
>Missed my first convention because of it
>Scared it's going to happen again

>be fattie
>have the belly for fat cosplays
>don't have stereotypical moonface/fat extremities/unattractive features to pull off most fat characters convincingly

Such is the life of a fattie in cosplay limbo.