/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

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>want to cosplay JJBA at some point
>read through the entire series and caught up two years ago
>really love the vibe of series and fandom seems amazing
>have awful memory
>can barely remember names or stands, but know if I see characters or if stands are described
>last con I went to, I forget even Speedwagon's name when I saw a cosplayer
Maybe I should just cosplay J2suke or Irene to hide my poor memory behind in-character amnesia

>tfw you have a somewhat internet-famous friend
>tfw you want to jump in and defend them whenever incorrect or assumptions comes up
>tfw can't do it because it will just make them look bad in the end so it's better to just sit those out even if they make you buttmad

Been off the Zoloft for a while now, don't know how long it's been but it's probably been over a month.
On the one hand I'm feeling again and no longer completely numb.
On the other hand I'm not numb to the feelings between my legs I can't control anymore, and I'm fearful that I'll actually start feeling lonely or something.
Despite spending pretty much all my life alone, and on Zoloft.
I'm basically worried that my lack of interest in romance and relationships was just because of the meds being crammed down my throat and not actually a result of
my personal philosophies like I thought it was.
My behavior towards the subject hasn't changed though, I'm still a shut in doing my own thing and I'm still just as seclusive in public and around people.
I mean I've been working towards opening up more, but that's more towards friends and myself.
I guess I'm just saying I'm fine with being alone, I just don't want to start feeling lonely.

>Family is out of town till monday evening
>just got paid
>bought even MORE stuff to add to my backlog of shit I want to do, but can't bring myself to actually do
Feels weird, on the one hand I love doing all the stuff I got.
On the other hand I always feel too much like shit to actually DO any of it.