/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

This one's old, but someone might relate to it

>21, living almost my entire life as an anxiety ridden shut-in
>slowly dawn on me that I'm not cut out for a career I had set my life on
>end up talking to this girl into cosplay. Cosplay girl keeps calling me to talk to me every day and share traumatic events
>push away long time friends as I retract inward. Continue talking to this girl that's extremely open about depression and her past attempts at suicide
>we end up meeting up, in person I find this girl is very clearly faking her entire personality
>reach tipping point of total mental breakdown as I'm greeted with a final reminder about my crumbling life, but scared to open up
>over the weekend reach one of the darkest depression states I've ever had, and try to hint that I need help from the only person that seems to want to relate to me so much, but I don't get an answer due to it being a con weekend
>girl profusely apologizes, but clearly knowing more about her I want to get away from her
>until she tells me she doesn't take her medication, soon after she stops talking to me
>end up talking to her long time friend unsure of what to do

>turns out this girl treats her best friend like total garbage
>her friend is riddled with congenital health problems, shut in anxiety, no friends, and uncomfortable around men
>despite this in a short amount of time she takes a leap and trusts me so much she invites me over for tea, surprising everyone
>shut in girl and her boyfriend turn out to be so unbelievably kind to me, one of the only moments in my life where I ever felt comfortable around people
>original girl finds out and due to possessiveness makes sure everything gets ugly, does everything to hurt everyone in her fits of rage, and everyone agrees I need to go

Later that girl got her friend to dump her boyfriend, then friend's life shortly fell apart

Even after I put myself back together I was terrified to start cosplaying, myself, or go to local cons for years