/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>10747927
So something I've worried about in the past is that asking out someone in a friend group could really fuck things up if another woman in the group finds out. Nobody wants to be a second choice after all.
The other worry is that it could ruin my reputation with others and have them think I'm only a part of that group/hobby as a means to pick up people. The answer is I'm there for both but mainly just to have fun, but good luck explaining that to anyone once the other rumor spreads.

I'd think that just plain "not caring" is not the greatest course of action, and that it would make more sense to approach it with some level of grace, but I also find that this means I'm waiting for the "perfect moment" which will more than likely never come unless I try to force it. I basically have choice paralysis and end up doing nothing, worried about fucking everything up while simultaneously wanting to kick my own balls for being this much of a retard.

I am sick of myself. Everything i do goes wrong. I always manage to destroy myself intentionally. Reading Lolcow farm and Crystal Cafe, is such good suicidefuel, that i am addicted to it now. It strikes my deepest and most pressing insecurities about myself and it really sucks.