/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I used to have a best friend to go to conventions with during high school and college. Our tastes changed as we got older, but we still put up with each other. Mostly this was her tolerating my lowkey being part of cringy fandoms that she had "outgrown", but she was still a good sport about it
about a year ago she got a bf and suddenly decided that cosplaying and going to conventions was lame. tolerating my stuff went to avoiding me altogether

now I'm going to conventions alone and kind of ashamed of never growing out of my teen weebo phase. we've since gone out of touch with each other, but I can just see her seeing me and looking at me with such disdain.

I can't enjoy things like I used to. going to conventions used to be the best thing ever, but now it's kind of hauntingly sad and lonely. I want to cosplay but I have no motivation and zero skills and at the same time I feel like my youth is wasting away and I have limited time left to properly enjoy these things.

this post turned into a long, blog thing, sorry