/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>has anorexia tendencies and body dysmorphia, very low self esteem and depression
>all of that is scaring me away from cute lolita dresses and cute fashion
>no matter what i try i always feel worthless and ugly, the people i get attached to always dump me for an ex, new friends, new hobbies,...
>i dress super tomboy,confused with my gender on the top of that and crap but drools over cute things and wish i could wear it.
>was super friend with a lolita about 3 years ago (we were RPing our OTPs and weeb stuff and being happy) before she dumped me for K POP and new friends then realize today that she became really normalfag/kinda ratchet and all different when accidently stumbling upon her twitter. it made me sad idk why
>no friends into cute things with problems that i could help feel better and that could help me feel better too
>no friends that i can send funny images and cute stuff to
>no friends that i can send a cute letter with a little gift to
A-At least I have my Rilakkuma plushie that I can hug when I cry...