/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Cons in my area still scheduled for late this year that have a good chance of happening
>Looks like I'll be fully vaccinated by then along with my state
>Can feel myself ALREADY procrastinating cosplay for cons months and months away

what the fuck gulls. ive been in a pandemic for over a year and i only did two cosplays and i didnt even build them myself. i have like three WIPs i could 100% start doing now and im not. what the fuck.

>trying to cope with severe mental illness, getting treatment, getting thrown around medication wise
>all C-'s and D's in last college semester, all courses available right now are fucked schedule wise and I can't take them
>can tell everyone is disappointed and frustrated with me, just want them to give up on me and stop expecting anything but they won't
>need to be enrolled full time to keep both me and my dad in our house because of our housing voucher
>only thing im looking forward to is making cosplay for con season and all i feel is dread because im convinced ill fuck it up somehow and i will feel like garbage

if my dad didnt need me i'd be tying a noose and not sewing a garment rn