/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>be mega weeb all throughout middle school and high school
>go to every con with my best friends (guy and a girl)
>love triangle meme
>secret lovers with girl ( i think both of us didn't want to hurt him although i think he knew)
>junior year
>mom dies
>no dad so i have to move in with my older brother 3 hours away
>depression , new city. no friends
>slowly lose contact with all old friends
>only person i keep up with is her
>she visits me as much as she can by train
>helps me out alot with my depression
>shes a 4.0 student with great options for schools
>i was pretty average , but my depression took a toll on my grades, due to skipping class so much, had to enroll in a charter school
>one visit we talk about what school shes going to choose and how cool it would be to move to LA, San Francisco, Texas, etc
>"you know.. i wouldn't mind going to [LOCAL COMMUNITY COLLEGE] for a while.."
>immediately realise im pulling her down and dont deserve her
>definitely not going to college, probably end up working as a mechanic for 40k a year the rest of my life.
>feel like i need to disappear
>sign up for the army,
>decide not to tell her, but i sorta float the idea in an off hand manner
>she gets mad at me and thinks i want to die (which i don't, i just want to disappear)
>keep quiet as graduation nears,
>she wants me to take her prom at my old school
>really don't fucking want to, but agree reluctantly
>plan to tell her i'm leaving after prom
>i get my ship out date finally
>its a week before prom
>don't have the heart to tell her face to face

>day im shipping out to OSUT in Georgia
>send her long text explaining everything
>delete all forms of social media, change my number and intentionally lock myself out from accounts (have no personal social media to this day)
>never hear from her again


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