/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Has anyone every just like, lost their motivation and desire to do anything because of some shit someone said to them? I feel like my whole life is just the conglomerate of me trying to enjoy hobbies or subjects and slowly having the enjoyment of them sucked away because of snide comments. Until I became an insecure NEET who's too afraid to even try at things since I have no self confidence or drive.

>Brother and his gf have a messy seperation
>He cheated on her, she becomes super passive agressive and completely shuns my family
>He pays all of her bills because they had two kids together and goes to their house every night to cook them dinner and put them to bed.
>She works two days a week as a bartender. That's it.
>She times us (me, my parents, and sister) when she is feeling kind enough to "grant us permission" to see the boys
>It's pretty much only one or two hours a month.
>I am used to seeing them every single week for most of the day.
>It's been 7 months

Like...is this normal? I understand being vindictive but she is not the only girl to have been cheated on, and she's not exactly innocent in this. They hadn't been getting along for a long while because they both have their issues. Like yeah, it was super shitty of him and I thought my parents were going to murder him when they found out, but they are letting him live at home with them now. And I think that she is very bitter that they didn't turn him out?

He pretty much has no money despite having a full time job for over 12 years, because he pays the mortage on her house on top of all of her bills. He had a town house that he was renting, but she made him sell it for more money.

Today was the first time in months I got to spend more than 2 hours with my nephews, and my parents were not allowed to come. So when I got home it was this drama of my mom sobbing because she thought they were coming over to our house. But my older newphew, he just turned 5, you can tell it is really affecting him. He's very clingy to my brother, and less so to me, but he always gets so upset whenever I have to leave so soon, it's so sad. idk what to do, everyone says to just give her time but it's been 7 months. We've tried reaching out to her but she just blows us off. Her family is literally just her and her mom, who had not talked in over a decade until she first got pregnant. This is just so messed up.

>Graduate college
>move back home to save money
>excited to start my life, improve my art
>suddenly bad cystic acne
>get depressed, stop making art
>months go by
>Derm decides to put me on accutane. Excited to start getting my life on track again
>Learn to ignore my friends' success and focus on my own self worth
>Suddenly family drama
>Brother moves in. He cheated on the girl he was with for six years...multiple times. They have two kids
>Suddenly my free time is spent being a nanny.

Well I guess now is as good a time as any to start being productive again with my hobbies and dreams. It will help me ignore all of this bullshit. What a year. Depression sucks, acne sucks, but at least I learned how to focus on what I want to be happy, and that people are different and you don't need to rush things.

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I sold a gouache and water color painting in a custom frame for $200 at a school show once. I super underpriced that because I was desperate for any sort of money. Everyone else selling originals were pricing them right at like $600 and such, but I was the only one who sold becuase I knew no one was going to pay what we deserve because "omg why is this picture $600?!"

I just feel disappointed with my self since I just graduated, and haven't done anything for two months. Like nothing at all, I haven't applied to any jobs, or bulked up my portfolio like I said I would, or work on the side project I'm a part of and I know they're waiting on my submissions.

>Work a demanding physical labor job every summer since I was 17
>Art school (illustration) was hell this year.
>Three hours of sleep every other day, up to my eyes in assignments and thesis
>Begin to hate my art after being good friends with a lot of popular illustrators/tumblr artists
>Hate drama, friends cause dramaa because "waah no one works as hard as me!" and other stupid shit
>Cut ties with them because who wants friends like that (one of them told me I was a shitty person and the worst friend ever because I couldn't go paintballing two days before graduation)
>All the drama and stress makes me have anxiety attacks
>Pissed because I haven't had one in years.
>Teachers give me lower grades than I think I deserve because "I don't try hard enough"
>All my art is traditional, and I can't sit still during the 6 hour long classes.
>Too much schoolwork causes me to skip meals, fucks up my appetite.

I feel like i'm a good judge of when I need to step back and just disappear for a while, which is why I just kind of shut down after I graduated. I'm finally back to where I want to be mentally, my skin's cleared up because I'm not stressed anymore, and I actually have time to go to the gym which makes me super happy. But I feel like shit blowing off all the nice people who are counting on me to pull my weight on this project, and not putting out work or bulking up my portfolio and just being productive. I've never had the chance to worry about just myself and my own well being before....

Sorry for complaining guys!