/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>10076981
The car fire incident just makes me feel even more awful for being a guy.
Full fucking disclaimer, yes it was shitty that this happened and it shouldn't have at all.
But it's just check one thousand on another list of "reasons why people might avoid you: you might set their car on fire, because you're a guy".
I'm a guy, so I must only be capable of destruction and hurting others. I'm a guy, so I MUST be a stalker or murderer or rapist or what the fuck ever.
And I follow a bunch of cosplayers and they all have stories about awful men. Maybe not to that extent, but they all have something.

It's already hard enough for me to make friends. That's why I go to cons and cosplay, to find other people who like the stuff I do.
And... I do want a gf down the line that's also into the same stuff I'm into and would cosplay with me but honestly, it really feels like I have no choice in this matter. As long as those disgusting men exist, we're all seen as that. And that's just something I have to face, I think.
I just have a ton more reasons why I want to fucking die.

I won't out of stubbornness. I'm not even sure why I'm here. I just am.