/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>only got one thing online from all these sales this weekend
>even then I had to really justify why I would want it
>sort of wanted to buy contacts but no idea what I would want and what kind I should even get
>never even got my eyes checked by a doctor yet which I heard was highly suggested before buying contacts
>still have some money leftover to buy... something, but absolutely no idea what

I could buy a cosplay. I've never bought a full cosplay before, and once I get the wig to go with it, I would then have another cosplay But... I hear bought cosplays are usually bad quality.. I could buy a sewing machine, I've seen a Brother machine for like $95.00, and then I could learn how to make my own cosplays... but I hear I should avoid those inexpensive, modern machines and go for older ones, or if I have to go modern, be willing to pay over $200.00 for one. I could buy a 4chan Pass, but it's now Tuesday and though the site still says they're on sale, that most likely won't last for that much longer and the CAPTCHA usually doesn't bother me THAT much anyway. I could look around for cheap clothes or games, but... I don't know.

I'm super, super stingy about money now and I have to make sure every purchase counts. Not necessarily that I'm poor, but I just don't want to buy something then regret it, you know?

2014 is almost over. Out of the dozen people I have tried to befriend after meeting them at cons and through cosplay this past year, none of these friendships were ever successful. I talk and say hi at cons, but I guess I need to do more than that. I have to be good at online communication but I'm really not... maybe I'm not cut out to be a good enough friend for people. Maybe it's not enough just to have the same interests either. Maybe I also have to actually be a good cosplayer, too. I don't know... But I feel like, probably by the end of the year, no one outside of my family will wish me a Merry Christmas or Happy New Years or whatever. It may seem kind of superficial, but I'm sort of like that, just simple things like being fucking acknowledged just makes me feel glad. It makes me think, "they took the time out of their day to say, hey, you exist." Where do I go wrong? If people told me, I would know how to fix things and better myself instead of having me wrack my mind over figuring out where I COULD have gone wrong and still never coming to a conclusion. Then again, maybe that is too much to ask. I don't know what to do, but I'm feeling pretty discouraged.