/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

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B O U G I E

>meet guy at con
>become friends
>fall in love with him
>drive five hours to go see him
>spending time with him is amazing, just what I wanted
>then he gets distant
>see him at the next con
>he's all over me the first night, then treats me like a complete stranger the next day
>ignores me having a panic attack in the same room as him
>I cut all contact with him after that, it affects my health but I eventually recover and am ready to try to at least be on speaking terms with him, as we have a lot of mutual friends and are likely to see each other at cosplay meets
>find out from friend that when I was involved with him, he was telling everyone that he'd told me it 'wasn't anything serious' and that he wasn't ready for a relationship after his ex
>haven't slept
>struggling to keep anything but coffee and anxiety meds down
>I'm still going to have to see this fucker at cosplay meets next year and pretend nothing's wrong
> probably gonna get asked to pose with him for pictures because we cosplay from the same part of JJBA

I'm going to be so fucking doped up on propranalol to cope with that, it ain't even funny. I wish he could just drop off the face of the earth, this would be so much easier if I knew I never had to see him again.