/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I first got into cosplay back in.. probably 2006 or 2007, when I was in middle school. I remember spending hours on deviantART and youtube and whatever else I could find cosplay content on, dreaming of one day doing it and having cosplay friends and having so much fun. It was SUPER cringey looking back but at least the cosplayers I loved to follow enjoyed themselves and loved what they did.

I cosplay and go to cons now, but I never made cosplay friends and grew up to be, admittedly, pretty ugly, which definitely effects making friends/feedback on my cosplays. Whenever I see selfies/pics of groups of friends cosplaying and having fun and enjoying themselves I feel so.. empty. That's what I always dreamed of and ended up just growing up into an awkward and shy and nothing-special person, and that fun is still out there but I can't seem to find any part in it.
>mfw

>Bf tells me I should really think thoroughly about big purchases I make for my expensive hobbies (dolls, cosplay, lolita)
>He eats fast food everyday, spends money on god only knows what, I always end up paying for our con tickets and hotel when he's broke.
>But I'm the one that should be more responsible