/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>mom and baby brother missing, likely dead
>stuck with dad, brings back bad memories of childhood abuse
>hes no longer abusive, but im very afraid still
>start noticing alot of regressing behaviours
>start using lolita almost as an escapeisim
>went from mature motherly woman to a girl who just cuddles plushies and cries all day
>spend all day eating candy and being either mad or sad
>luckily bf puts up with this knowing its likely temporary, and because he basically acts like an ageplayer anyway

i've became a child /cgl/
i feel weird wearing lolita now because i worry i've became some ageplayer or that i only wear it because of my trauma