/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>have all the tools I need
>already have great muscles
>such a piece of shit I can't even diet right and drop to 8% bodyfat despite having such an easy and stress free life (30hrs work, 5 minute walk to work, practically unsupervised and just mild physical work an am allowed to listen to music/youtube/whatever while on it)

why am I such a piece of shit? just dieting right would've saved me an extra 400$ to buy a 2nd hand flagship phone too

going from 167 15% bodyfat to 153 8% bodyfat is so ridiculously easy with these drugs but im still fucking around eating 2500-3000 calories a day and making very slow progress (i lose only 1lb a week at 2500 cals).

>con is in 2 months
>need to drop down from 172lbs to probably 160 to get 8-9% bodyfat and be super good looking in costume, was already down from 182 half a year ago
>I literally CANNOT STOP EATING
>3000-3500 calories a day, no matter what I do the cravings just hit, just stuffing myself with steak, eggs, bread and milk
>I literally just need to eat 1800 cals a day and I would hit this goal probably with a week or 2 to spare, hell, probably way more

I cannot fight the urge, I dont know why, I try to distract myself and I'm just staying in bed 14 hours a day after work to preserve energy and dull my hunger but it just aint working.

The only reason I can maintain/lose my current weight pigging out that much is because of all the drugs im taking, the moment I go "clean" I'll definitely balloon into a fatboy without all this shit keeping me in check.

This is pretty much my only goal and thing im looking forward to but I can't even discipline myself while 16 year old cheer leaders can survive with anorexia, godamnit.