/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>9498064
I just get... so fucking nervous. I went to a con this weekend and while I took many pictures of cosplayers, I always fucking stuttered and basically spilled spaghetti just trying to ask. I LITERALLY went
>"hi, u-um... can i... can i-- get y-your picture please?"

To any cosplayer I found attractive or I was possibly interested in talking to, like if they were cosplaying something I liked. I was so fucking terrified that I'd creep them out if I wanted to chat any further, like...
>"fuck she probably has something to go to"
>"fuck I stuttered she must think I'm a creep"
>"she probably just thinks i'm gonna hit on her"
>"i'm just gonna waste her time"

Then the spiral of madness begins. I think things like,
>"i went up to her because she's attractive or she's cosplaying something i like"
>"does this mean i want to date her? maybe i am hitting on her"
>"maybe i am a creep"

And so on. To want to date someone pretty much requires wanting to befriend them first but my mind jumps to that first, then thinks of the most negative possibility, and it's just... again, madness. I know you say not to focus on gender but I guess it must be a gender thing... both in terms of me being a guy and me just being so terrified when talking to girls. I hear it all the time. Girls deal with creeps at cons. And it's not good, nobody deserves to be treated like that.

I end up just taking the picture and leaving because I don't want to cause them any trouble because I'm fully convinced I'm either just trouble or they've been troubled enough by creeps that I'd just be another to the miserable pile. It's fucked up.

>>9498085
I'm probably just really bad at reading people. And I think my rather cripplingly low self image has fucked me up further because I'm always going to be thinking I'm bothering someone, which heavily clashes with my distorted desire of wanting to either befriend someone or be with someone.

I just want to do a couple cosplay of one of my ships, that's all. It'd be nice.

>Started watching Cute High Earth Defense Club LOVE
>Want to cosplay as some of these guys
>can't because I'm a guy with some masculine features

Sometimes I just really want to be cute /cgl/

I feel like I'm losing my friends, friends I've met at cons and through cosplay. It's extremely discouraging and it just makes me feel like I'm just not a good enough friend or just not a good enough person.

I have all these cosplay plans and no one to do them with, and no one to attend cons with me. I do still try to find something of value at cons anyway, gaming with random people or chatting while in line for stuff. But at the end of the day, I don't have anyone to either share these experiences to begin with, or even someone to talk to about.